Whitney's MindSay Blog

Inside the Matrix

raien — 2003-11-08T10:11:00-05:00

I saw the Matrix last night. It blew my mind. The philosophy behind the theory is incredibly deep. Are we all drones, controlled by a hidden force? Are the choices we make really our own? What if the Matrix isn't far off the mark? It almost seems feasible. A world inside a world. What is life? Can anyone define life? Is a life that isn't your own still considered living? Are we alive? And when we die, where do we go?

Blah blah blah

raien — 2003-11-10T08:11:00-05:00

Before I die, my goal is to make a great contribution to literature. I want to write something really profound, something that will turn the world upside down. I'll go down as the next Mark Twain or e.e. cummings or Leo Tolstoy or Nathaniel Hawthorne.

Abstinence

raien — 2003-11-17T09:11:00-05:00

Some girl gave a speech in my english class about abstinence today. She was talking about how important it is to wait until marriage to have sex and how she is worth waiting for. I mean...I didn't even see her point...sex is fun... She must not have any sexual drive. I mean my friends and I, well, I think all of our drive is sexual. Thats just what makes us tick. And it's definately not a bad thing. Not at all. I love my friends. We're all fabulous and so open and just...fun. I don't think I've ever been with such a fun group of people before. Muah! I love my friends so much! They keep me alive! But yeah... I've been celibate for a month... hopefully that will end on friday... hopefully. We'll see.
raisebloodyhell (9:37:10 PM): Whitney, I would do anything you wanted me to. You sexy, marvelous ball of fuckity.
I see the light!
~Wit

Hell

raien — 2003-11-19T07:11:00-05:00

Today was hell. I had an AP Chem test, then an Algebra II test. Ugh. My two hardest classes. Then I had to give a speech in English, but of course, I enjoyed that, being the avid public speaker that I am. Then I figured I'd sleep in creative writing, but we had a sub, so she gave us tons of work. And tomorrow I have an AP chem lab and an AP Euro test. I am 15 I am too young to die! Ha and of course we got our report cards today. My damn GPA has dropped from a 4.2 to a 4.0... It sucks. Ah well. I should probably study for my AP Euro test even though I'm going to fail anyway... ::Sigh::
I've come undone and all hopes of mending me are gone because the pain took my soul. Can't you see? The only one who can put me back together again is me.

Obsession

raien — 2003-11-20T03:11:00-05:00

I'm rocking out to some Godsmack. Good times. Today was ok. We did a lab in chem, and it was actually a fun lab, so that was cool. But I know I failed the AP Euro test, though. Theatre was ok, but we were listening to dialogues and I wasn't overly impressed with sitting still for 90 minutes. French was cool. "Speaking French is like wiping your ass with silk." Jen and I got to present our dialogue. It was a perfect example of absurdist theatre. (Tu es une plante! Je sais! Tu ne peux pas manger! Oui, je peux! Tais-toi!) But yeah I have to make a decision and soon or I won't have an option. Ah why must love be so complicated? Why must life be so complicated? Yeah well I don't know if I'm going to the show on Friday. Jen and I might go shopping. And I won't be here over break. I'm going to Oklahoma to visit my Dad's side of the family. And I finally found a comforter and sheets for my bed. I think I might get a different bed than the one I was going to get, though, because the bed is too modern for how the rest of the room is going to look. But yeah, my room should be completely redone by Christmas. It's going to be sooo hot.

It's going to be Whitney's Room of Love. No kidding.
-Whit (aka the SEX GODDESS)

Time for Vacation

raien — 2003-11-21T03:11:00-05:00

No school for nine days. Thank God. Of course my teachers gave me too much homework, but hey, what are you gonna do. Mmmm. I'm eating a pickle. No, I'm sucking on a pickle. I'm giving it head. It's a big pickle. Hmm I can fit it all in my mouth. Hot. Ha that just gave me a great idea...
10 Reasons why pickles are better than men:
1. A pickle doesn't have annoying ex-girlfriends.
2. A pickle is always hard.
3. A pickle doesn't whine.
4. You can bite a pickle as hard as you want and it won't care.
5. A pickle won't jizz in your mouth.
6. A pickle doesn't care if you gain 5 pounds.
7. A pickle can be eaten on a sandwich.
8. You don't have to worry about your parents catching you with a pickle in a mouth.
9. You can have as many pickles as you want, you can even have multiple pickles at one time.
10. A pickle doesn't burp.
Ha ha ha ha. I'm quite proud of that list, thank you very much. Well I'm off to go give my pickle some more oral pleasure. I may or may not go to the show tonight. I dunno, I'm just kinda not in the mood...we'll see.
-Whit

Stuck in OK

raien — 2003-11-23T07:11:00-05:00

I'm in Oklahoma. I'm dying. I am the most sexually frustrated person in the entire world. It's terrible. And I'm in total denial of my feelings for a certain person. But I won't mention his name here because if I do, it will be admitting that I was wrong and that I have reached an all-time high level of stupidity. It will also be admitting that I'm a coward. So we'll see how I fix this mess I have gotten myself into. But yeah...I'll be home on Friday...time for dinner...beans and barbeque. ::Shudder:: I guess I'll have salad.
~Wit

Still in OK

raien — 2003-11-26T07:11:00-05:00

I'm still in OK of course. My dad is driving me nuts. He constantly critisizes everyone, nitpicks at my aunt and cousins, picks fights with me, etc. etc. etc. But yeah. I think he hates me. I like hanging with my cousin though. We had this discussion on sex yesturday that lasted until like 3:00 in the morning. It's cool because I don't have an older sister or anything like that. But I miss all my friends sooo much. I haven't done any of my homework yet. Which is bad because I have a ton. Ah well. I will probably finish it late on Sunday. Or I could do it on the plane. Yeah my Aunt doesn't have a scale and I'm getting neurotic because I have no idea how much weight I've gained. Ah well.
(I stole this from Katie and I'm doing it because I'm very bored.)
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?: Want to get both
2. Be serious or be funny? Funny
3. Boxers or briefs? uh...thongs
4. Whole or skim milk? I don't like milk
5. Single or Taken? single
6. Simple or complicated? Oh God I'm complicated
7. Law or anarchy? Anarchy is possible only in theory
8. Flowers or angels? Flowers...roses...I love roses
9. Grey or gray? gray
10. Read or write? Both...I love reading, I love writing
11. Color or black-and-white photos? It depends...black and white can really make a photo intense
12. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset...lying on the beach...in the arms of...whooo getting carried away there
13. M&M's or Skittles? Eh...Mint peppermint patties!
14. Rap or rock? Rock all the way
15. Stay up late or wake up late? Stay up...all night long
16. TV or Radio? I dunno...hmm...AIM is kick ass, I spend the most time on the internet
17. Is it POP or SODA: Soda...hillbillies call it "pop"...no offense to hillbillies
18. X or O in Tic-tac-toe? X
20. Eat an apple or an orange? Orange...apples hurt my teeth
21. What came first the chicken or the egg? Egg...I don't feel like typing out my reasoning...and believe me I have reasoning
22. Hot or Cold? hmm hot
24. Tall members of the opposite sex or short? Tall...I'm tall and I like my men taller than me
25. Sun or moon? The moon...
26. Emerald or ruby? Ruby...it's my birthstone...red is sexy
28. Left or right? Uhh...I'm right handed...
29. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? Several best friends
30. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Mint chocolate chip ice cream...I mean honestly, it has no competition
31. High or Drunk? I don't like not being in control
32. Green beans or carrots? Green beans
33. Low fat or fat free? Fat free
34. What is your biggest fear in the world? Being a failure
36. Kids or no kids? Oh God no kids...
37. Cat or dog? Cat
38. Half empty or half full? Uhhh empty...I drank it all
39. Mustard or ketchup? Mustard! I love mustard! No calories!
40. Hard cover books or soft cover books? Usually soft because they're not as heavy but leather bound is hot
41. Newspaper or magazine? Magazine
42. Sandals or sneakers? Chucks...always
43. Wonder or amazement? Wonder
44. Red car or white car? Red...red is hot
45. Happy and poor or sad and rich? Hapy and poor
46. Singing or dancing? Singing while dancing....in the shower...naked...water dripping down by body...who geting carried away again
47. Hugging or Kissing? Kissing...making out
48. Corduroy or plaid? Oooh I love plaid
49. Happy or sad? Happy :)
50. Purple or green? Purple
51. A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? That's not a good question to ask me right now because I'm currently the most sexually frustrated person in the world.
TELL US ABOUT YOU
What time is it? 2:09 pm
*Name*: Whitney Carol M Hoot
*Nicknames*: Wit, Whit, The Whit, Sex Goddess, Whore, Boot
*Parent's names*: Lynne and Jerry
*Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake*: 15
*Date that you regularly blow them out (birthday):* July 1
*Pets*: 1 cat, 1 fish, 1 rabbit
Height*: 5'7ish...maybe a little taller
*Eye color*: brown
*Hair Color*: Light brown
*Piercing*: Ears, but will get more
HAVE YOU EVER...?
*Had the drink Calypso Breeze*? No...but I should
*Been in love*? Yes but I'm a dumbass so I didn't know it
*Been toilet-papering*? No...it's a waste of trees and its littering!
*Loved somebody so much it makes you cry*? Yes
THE FUTURE:
*School*: Columbia University! If not, I'll go to NYU
*Where You Want To Live*: New York City
*How Many Kids You Want*: Zero
*Girl names*: (Hypothetically, because I'm not having kids)Jade, Taylor
*Boy names*: Bridger, Bay, Michael
*What Kind Of Job You Want*: A journalist for National Geographic and when I have money I'll retire to be a novelist and a poet
*You Want To Get Married*: No
WHO:
*Makes You Laugh The Most*: Jen
*Do You Go To For Advice or To talk About Things*: Erin, Rachel, Katie, Jen, Emily, Matt, Mark
*Who Do You Hate*: I don't hate anyone...but I dislike George Bush with a fiery passion :)
*Knows The Most About You*: Erin
*Is Your Best Friend* I have a couple
*Has It Easier, Guys Or Girls*: Guys
WHICH ONE?
*Croutons or Bacon Bits*: Croutons
*2 doors or 4 (on a car)*: It depends on the car
*Mr. Pibb or Dr. Pepper*: Diet Dr Pepper
*Coffee or Ice-cream*: God my two loves...coffee ice cream :)
*Shampoo or Conditioner*: Anything Herbal Essence...yummy smelling
*Bridges or Tunnels*: Bridges
*One pillow or two*: Two
*Adidas or Nike*: Well Nike bought Coverse which has Chucks...
*Nike or Reebok*: Nike
*Adidas or Reebok*: Adidas
WORD ASSOCIATION (FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND)
*Rock*: Music
*Green*: Grass
*Wet*: Uhh...tee hee...I won't delve into detail :)
*Cry*: Broken hearts
*Peanut Butter*: And jelly
FAVORITES:
*Salad Dressing*: Ooh...I like lots...Fat free honey mustard, fat free italian, fat free raspberry vinegarette
*Color of socks*: Lots of crazy socks
*Memory*: I don't know
*toothpaste*: Crest plus Scope
*Food*: Pizza
*Song at the moment*: American Hi-Fi - The Breakup Song
*TV show*: Queer Eye for the Straight Guy
*Subject in School*: Creative Writing
*Flower*: Roses...I love roses
*Color*: Red
*NON-ALOHOLIC DRINK*: Diet Mountain Dew Code Red
*Sport to Watch*: Equestrian sports...especially 3 Day Eventing
*Country Song*: Faith Hill - Breathe
*Sesame Street Character*: Oscar!
*Disney Character*: Jack Sparrow
*Warner Brothers*: Sylvester (hey but the best character ever is Jack Skellington)
RANDOM QUESTIONS
*When was your last hospital check in*: Birth
*Do You Drink*: Rarely
*How many times did you fail your permit and Drivers License
Test?*: Haven't taken it yet
*Where do you see your self in 10 years?*: In some third world country writing about poverty and life
*Who is the last person that you got mail from before
this one*? Uhh I have no idea
*Have you ever been convicted of a crime*? No
*Which single store would you choose to max your credit card*? Hot Topic
*What type of car you drive now*? No car :(
*What do you do most often when you are bored*? Do quizzes online, play dumb games, tlk to my friends on AIM
*Name the person that you are friends with that lives the farthest away from you: Becky (England)
*Are You In A Gang Or Club*: EPC...lol guys
*Motorcycles*: Eh
*What Is Your Favorite Kind Of Clothes*: Black :)
*Are You Close Minded*: No
*Are You Open Minded*: Yes
*Are You A Player*: Of course not!
*Can u be in love w/2 people at the same time*? Tragically...yes
*Bedtime*: Uhh whenever I want
*Humiliating Moment*: Lots
*What time is it now*: 2:35 pm

Happy Thanksgiving

raien — 2003-11-27T07:11:00-05:00

I'm stuffed. I will never eat again. Ooh my pants feel too tight. Lol. No I really din't eat that much. But my aunt is a really good cook. Anyways. Of course, I think Thanksgiving is kind of ironic because the pilgrims sat down with the Indians and ate all their food then they gave them diseases, drove them off their lands, and murdered them. God I love people. Oh well. People keep asking me what I think about this Michael Jackson thing. I don't think he's a bad man. I think Saddam Hussein is a bad man. I think Fidel Castro is a bad man. I think Adolf Hitler was a bad man. But I do not think Michael Jackson is a bad man. I think he is a troubled man. I think he is a misguided man. But I do not believe he molested that boy. He has been in the spotlight since he was 5 years old, he has never lived a life outside the public eye. I believe him to be a product of society. He's strange, but not a child molester. There's my opinion. Anyways. I saw Scary Movie 3 last night. It was hilarious. I went with my brother and cousin. I'm knitting a scarf. It's about, oh I dont know, maybe 3 feet long right now. I started it on Tuesday. Alright well I've gotta go...Peace out.
~.W.I.T.~

Home

raien — 2003-11-29T12:11:00-05:00

Ello ello ello. I am home, back in the wonderful state of Maryland. I had to get up this morning, go to the post office, and mail a letter that has to arrive by Monday, so I did not get my usual amount of Saturday sleep. Poo. But yeah I have sooo much crap to do today. I have to do my homework, work on my scholarship stuff, finish some entries for writing contests, clean my room, etc. etc. etc. Ooh and I need to find time to squeeze in a shower too. Me stinky. But yeah...oh and I have decided that all prejudice ignorant people should have every single hair on their body plucked with tweezers and then their entrails should be pulled out slowly through a slit in their abdomen before they are burned to death. Thank you.
-Whit

Long Survey

raien — 2003-11-29T12:11:00-05:00

Start it off...

First name? Whitney
Eye color? Green
State? Maryland
Boys name? Carter
Girls name? Taylor
Mall? Arundel Mills
Video game? The Sims
Shampoo? Herbal Essence
Board game? Twister
Computer game? Fishie
Car? Mitsubishi Eclipse
Music video? Uhhh i dunno
Do you wear glasses or contacts? No
Swear word? Damn
Word? Hypocritical
Month? October
Cartoon character? Jack Skellington
Scary movie? The Ring
Team? Uhh...
Possession? My cat
This or That

Rock or rap? Rock
Rock or pop? Rock
Do you have braces? Yes
Rock or r&b? Rock
Rock or metal? Rock
Rap or pop? Rap
Rap or r&b? Rap
Rap or metal? Metal
Pop or r&b? R&b
Pop or metal? Metal
R&b or metal? Metal
Linkin park or limp bizkit? Linkin Park
Tool or korn? Tool
Is your hair long or short? Longish
Selena or jennifer lopez? Uhhhh...JLo is a good actress
Hot or cold? Frigid
Winter or summer? Winter
Spring or fall? Fall
Shakira or britney? shakira
Icp or eminem? Neither
Marilyn manson or rob zombie? Rob Zombie
Kittie or garbage? Neither
Mtv or vh1? mtv
Buffy or angel? Angel
Where were you born? Annapolis
Dawson's creek or gilmore girls? Dawson's Creek...I cannot believe its over...and they killed Jill!
Football or basketball? Ugh
Summer olympics or winter olympics? I dunno
Skiing or snowboarding? Skiing
Rollerblading or skateboarding? Neither
Black or white? Black
Orange or red? Red
Yellow or green? Green
Purple or pink? Purple
Slipknot or mudvayne? Slipknot
Current location? Edgewater
Hot topic or pac sun? Hot Topic
Inside or outside? Outside
Weed or alcohol? Alcohol
Cell phone or pager? Cell phone
Pen or pencil? Pencil
Powerpuff girls or charlie's angels? Charlie's Angels
Scooby doo or dino? Neither
Dragon ball z or pokemon? Neither
Star wars or star trek? Star Wars
Tattoos or piercings? Both
Zodiac sign? Cancer
Prep or punk? Punk
Slut or whore? Slut
Private Life

Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? No
Do you have a crush? Uhhh its not like that
Do you love anyone right now? Yes
Have you ever been in love? Yes
How many people have you kissed? 10
Who was your first kiss? Mark
How many hearts of have you broken? Two
How many languages do you know? 1.5 lol...I'm learning French
How many people broke your heart? 1
Best quote to sum up love? You don't appreciate it until it's over.
So what is your bf/gf/crush like? Hot
Do you have a picture of him/her? Yes
Please post it if you do? Bite me
Do you have a picture of yourself? Yes
Please post it if you do? Uhhh
So moving along, do you smoke cigs? Never
Do you smoke weed? Never
Ever trip on acid? Never
Nationality? White
How about a little x? No
Crack, heroin, anything else? No
Beer good or beer bad? Good
Are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers? Hell yes
Do you like smirnoff ice? Yes
Prefer beer or liquor? Liquor
What kind of cigarettes do you smoke? None
Are you a virgin? No
If no, when was the last time you got some? ... I dunno...like a month...toooo long
Would you ever...

Bad habits? Cheating, being afraid
Bungee jump? Yes
Sky dive? Yes
Swim with dolphins? Yes
Scuba dive? Yes
Go rock climbing? Yes
Eat shit for $1,000,000? Depends...
Turn your back on your friends for personal gain? No
Steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend? No
Cross-dress? Yes
Lie to the police? Yes
Middle name? Carol
Piercings you have? 1 (both ears)
Run from the police? Yes
Lie to your parents? Yes
Walk up to a stranger and kiss them? Depends on the stranger
Be an exotic dancer? Yes
Walk out of a restaurant without paying? Nah
Streak? Yes
Friends

Best friends? Erin, Rachel, Jen, Emily, Mel, Mark
Known longest? Erin
Wish you talked to more? Erin
Piercings you want? Tongue, nose, eyebrow, bellybutton
Wish you saw more? Erin
How many friends do you think you have? A bunch
Who drives you insane after a while? Chris
Lose a good friend because you took it to the "next level"? God no...I almost did...but I didn't
Craziest? Mel
Loudest? Mel
Shyest? None of my friends are shy...but maybe Erin
Best hair? Jen
Can always make you laugh? Jen
Best eyes? Christina
Tattoos you have? None
Best body? Casey
Most athletic? Uhh I dunno
Sex symbol? Mel!!!
Hot tempered? Uhh...
Most impatient? I dunno
Shortest? Katie
Tallest? Mark
Talented? Jen
Best singer? Jen
Skinniest? Ed
Biggest boobs? Rachel
Tattoos you want? Ankh, my name in Chinese
Nicest? Emily
Best personality? Can't choose...
Biggest drug user? None
Have you ever

Flashed someone? Yes...like everyone
Told the person you liked how you felt? Yes
Been to michigan? No
Gotten really really wasted? Yes
Gone to jail or juvi? No
Skateboarded? No
Today's date? November 29, 2003
Skinny dipped? Oh God yes
Stolen anything? No
Wanted to kick my ass for making this so long? ::smile sweetly::
Kicked someone's ass? No
Pegged someone in the head with a snowball? Yes
Broke a beer bottle? No
Gotten into a bar, under-aged? No
Kissed someone of the same sex? Yes lol
Gone on a road trip? No
Gone on vacation without adult supervision? No
The time? 1:06 pm
Been to a concert? Yes
Been to another country? Yes
Talked back to an adult? Yes
Got pulled over? No
Got in a car accident? No
Broke a law? Yes
Given money to a homeless person? Yes
Tried to kill yourself? No
Cried to get out of trouble? Yes
Kissed a friend's brother or sister? No
Ready for a bunch more questions? Ugh...bite me
Kissed a brother or sister's friend? No
Dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it? I dunno....I don't think so
Opinions

What do you think about pop music? It sucks
About boy bands? Sucks
About flag burning? If done for the right reasons...
Of the war on terrorists? DAmn Bush to hell
About suicide? Stupid
About people who try to force their opinions on you? Can kiss my ass
About abortion? Very pro-choice
Family

About rock/metal music? Love love love
Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? In a third world country, reporting for National Geographic
Who do you think you'll still be friends within 5 years?? Erin, Rachel, Jen, Emily...
What did you do...

Last birthday? Nothing :( *tear
Yesterday? Flew back from OK
Last weekend? Flew to OK
Christmas? Stressed out
Thanksgiving? Pigged out, visited family in OK
New year's eve? Spent the evening with family...which blew
Mother's name? Lynne
Halloween? Stated at home...I was grounded
Valentine's day? I was single
Thing you ate? Pickle
Thing you drank? Diet Pepsi
Thing you wore? Satin pj pants
Place you went? Post office
Thing you got pierced/tattooed? Ears
Person you saw? Mom
Person you kissed? Mark
Person you fucKed? Casey
Father's name? Jerry
Person you talked to? Mel
Now

What are you eating? Nothing
What are you drinking? Nothing
What are you wearing? Pants and a t-shirt
Any shoes on? No
Hair? POnytail
Listening to? Nothing
Talking to anyone? On AIM...
Are you pissed i made this so long? Bite me
Last name? Hoot
Step-parent's names? None
Yes or No

Are you a vegetarian? Yes
Do you like cows? Yes
Are you a bitch? Not really
Do you write poetry? Yes
Are you a fast runner? Yes
Can you ski? Yes
Are you british? Yes
Do you want to spear britney? No
Do the voices talk to you? Uhhh..no comment
Brother(s)'s name(s)? James
Did you ever give barbie a haircut? Yes
Would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it? No
Are you straight? Yes
Are you handicapped? No
Are you short? No
Are you tall? Yes
Do you own a hot pink shirt? No
How about orange pants? No
Can you see the flying monkeys? Only when I watch the Wizard of Oz...
Are you evil? No
Sister(s)'s name(s)? None
Did you ever know someone who had a mullet? Yes
Is britney a whore? I don't know and I don't care...I have no problem with whores anyway
Are you a teenage zombie? No
Am i annoying you? No
Do u like Marylin Manson? No
Are you secretly from another planet? No
Did you ever touch someone else's private parts? Yes
Do you shop at hot topic? Yes
Random

If you could be any animal, what would you be? Horse
Favorite aunt? Linda
If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what -would you eat? Lettuce
Do you remember any of your dreams? Yes
Do you dream in color or black and white? Color
Do you admit when you need help with a problem? No
Can people read you like a book? No
What's your biggest fear? Being a failure
Are you afraid of clowns? No
Do you like spiders? No
How about grape kool-aid? No
Can you drive? Yes...legally, no
Favorite uncle? Tommy
Are you spoiled? No
Are you anti-social? No
Do you see dumb people? Yes
Any last words? I hate ignorant people
Now that this is over, what are you going to do? Homework
Favorite grandparent? Grandpa Bert
Worst relative? Terri
Best relative? Ashley
Do you get along with your parents? Not with my Dad
Does anyone in your family understand you? Ashley
Nickname(s)? Whit, Wit, The Whit, Raien, Sex Goddess
Do you have any pets? Yes
What are their names? Skittles, Gemini, Scar
What kind of animals are they? Cat, rabbit, beta fish
School

Are you still in school? Yes
Did you drop out? No
Current gpa, or last gpa you got? 4.05
Favorite grade? 5th
Least favorite grade? 10th
Favorite teacher? Ms Davis
Gender? Female
Least favorite teacher? Mrs. Nicewitz
Favorite subjects? Creative writing, chem, theatre
Least favorite subject? Algebra II
Do/did you buy lunch or bring it? Neither
Play any sports on the school's team? No
Do/did you do any extracurricular ativities? Yes
Are/were you popular? I dunno
Favorite dance? Uhh
Favorite memory? Uhh
Least favorite dance? Uhh
Age? 15
Least favorite memory? Uhh
Most humiliating moment? Uhh
Favorites

Number? 7
Clothing brand? I dunno
Shoes? Chucks
Saying? Make love, not war
Tv show? Queer Eye for the Straight Guy
Sport? Equestrian
Vegetable? Lettuce
Birthday? July 1
Fruit? Strawberry
Movie? Nightmare before Christmas, Pirates of the Caribbean
Magazine? Seventeen
Actors? Johnny Depp
Actress? Angelina Jolie
Candy? Mint Peppermint Patties
Gum? Orbit Peppermint
Scent? Mint
Ice cream flavor? Mint Chocolate Chip
Color? Red
Height? 5'7
Season? Autumn
Holiday? Halloween
Band? Three Doors Down
Singer? Amy Lee
Group? Aerosmith
Rapper? None
Type of music? Rock
Thing in your room? My bed and sheets
Place to be? In bed...with someone
Radio station? 104.1
Hair color? Brown
Tv channel? MTV
Junk food? Ginger Snaps
Overall food? Pasta
Store? Hot Topic
Shoe brand? Converse
Fast food? None
Restaurant? TGI Fridays
Shape? Pentacle
Time of day? Night
Country? England

Another survey...I'm sooo bored

raien — 2003-11-29T01:11:00-05:00

Basics

Your gender? Female
Straight/gay/bi? Straight
Single? Yes
Want to be? No
Your birthday? July 1
Your age? 15
Age you act? I dunno
Age you wish you were? 20
Your height? 5'7"
The color of your eyes? Green
Happy with it? Yes
The color of your hair? Brown
Happy with it? Kinda
Left/right/ambidextrous? Right
Your family? Mom. dad, brother, cat
Have any pets? Yes
What's your job? Bar Whore
Piercings? Ears
Tattoos? No
Do you speak another language? Learning French
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it

Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Yes
Do you have any secrets? Yes
Do you hate yourself? Occassionally
Do you like your handwriting? Yes
Do you have any bad habits? Yes
What is the compliment you get most from people? I have nice eyes, I'm a sweetheart, I dunno
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? The Whit
What's your biggest fear? Failing
Are you a daredevil? Yes
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Yes
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? My body...ugh
Do you think you are emotionally strong? Mostly
Do you think life has been good so far? Yes
What do you like the most about your body? Eyes
Do you think you are good looking? No
Do you...

Smoke? No
Do drugs? No
Read the newspaper? No
Pray? Yes
Talk to strangers who IM you? Yes
Talk to people even though you hate them? I don't hate anyone
Drive? No
Like to drive fast? No
Have you ever...

Liked your voice? Yes
Hurt yourself? Yes
Been out of the country? Yes
Been in love? Yes
Done drugs? No
Gone skinny dipping? Yes
Had a surgery? No
Gotten beaten up? No
Beaten someone up? No
Been picked on? Yes
Been on stage? Yes
Slept outdoors? Yes
Thought about suicide? Yes
Pulled an allnighter? No
Gone one day without food? Yes
Slept all day? Yes
Killed someone? No
Thought you're going crazy? Yes
Been betrayed? Yes
Had a dream that came true? Yes
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Yes
Been on radio/tv? No
Had a nervous breakdown? No
Bungee jumped? No
Had a dream that kept coming back? Yes
CLOTHES and other fashion junk

Shoe brand? Converse
Brand of clothing? I dunno
What are you normally wearing to school/work? Black
How about panties? Thongs
Favourite place to shop? Hot Topic
Would you rather wear a uniform to school? No

...l.o.s.t...

raien — 2003-11-29T08:11:00-05:00

What if I died tomorrow, would you miss me? Would silver tears fall down your cheeks? Would you wish it had been you? If I told you I was dying, would you listen? Would you listen to me dying, would you feel my pain? Would you try to comprehend what I was going through? If I had to go away, to leave and never return, how long would you mourn for me? Would you cry for a week then move on? Would you wear black for a month, then forget me? How important am I to you? Have I made an impression on your life? Would I be missed?

I love my Mark

raien — 2003-11-29T10:11:00-05:00

I love Mark. He is the coolest person ever. I've had the shittiest day and he totally made me feel good about myself. Earlier I called myself stupid and he said I was probably the smartest person he knows, and wise, not just book smart.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:15:26 PM): do i deserve him though?
Vaelroth (10:15:59 PM): you deserve who you want. its your choice not anyone elses.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:16:14 PM): i know but i think hes too good for me
Vaelroth (10:16:50 PM): he is too good for everyone but you.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:17:34 PM): i love you mark
Vaelroth (10:18:58 PM): you know its true
I <3 my Mark.
-Whit

I'm done

raien — 2003-11-30T12:11:00-05:00

I'm so sick of taking crap from other people and I'm just not going to deal with it anymore. If people aren't going to cooperate then I'm not going to waste my time and energy trying to make them happy. Because you know what? People like that never will be happy. They enjoy being depressed. So I'm just not going to deny them that pleasure.

Not such a great day

raien — 2003-12-01T08:12:00-05:00

Well Ed definately isn't speaking to me. It would suck if I lost him as a friend though, over something as stupid as this, because I honestly value his friendship a lot. Probably more than he realizes. But yeah, I really don't feel like taking shit from him, so if he's going to just waste my time, I'm going to wait until he's in a better mood before I try to talk to him. So yeah. Today sucked. I only finished like the first two paragraphs of my AP Euro essay so that's definately bad. And then my bus got in an accident so I didn't get home until like 3:00. Then I had a dentist appointment and had to get two cavities filled which sucked. Then I rode tonight and I rode really badly. I don't even know why. Ah well. But I am going back out with Casey. All is not lost. I haven't started any of my homework...oops. It's not like I'm doing badly in any of my classes. Well I hope not anyway. Eh. We'll see. But my Mom started reading my scholarship info tonight, so *hopefully* I can start working on that soon... Being able to go off to school next year would be fantastic.
~Whit

Yee haw!

raien — 2003-12-01T08:12:00-05:00

I'm gonna marry a cowboy one of these days. I just hafta find me a nice lookin, well mannered cowboy and lasso him in. Uh, but I have to learn how to use a lasso first. That's on my list of things to do, along with learning to brand a cow. Woo hoo! Any cowboys out there??
~Whit

Good Day

raien — 2003-12-02T08:12:00-05:00

Today was a pretty good day actually. I was worried about getting a bad grade on my chem homework, but Mr. Hoyle let everyone have an extra day on it which was really nice of him. I raised my Algebra II grade from a 71 to a 76, so that's better, even though it's really low for me. But my Dad helped me last night so I think I get what I'm doing now. English was ok, but I have an 86 in there which is horrible, because I've never had a B in English in my life. It's because the teacher gave me a 70 on an essay that I thought was really good and everyone else who read it agreed with me. Oh well. I can easily bring it up. Creative writing was sooo much fun. Emily, Jen, Chris Thorn, and I are all writing a One Act together. Wait, let me rephrase that, we were supposed to be writing a one act. We actually just messed around the whole period, stole Emily's Hershey's kisses, talked about my sheep hallucinations, discussed frumpiness, etc. Yeah, it will be the most random play ever. I didn't even have a ton of homework tonight, which was unusual, so I'm happy. Then Casey came over and he stayed for dinner. I think the rents like him. It seemed like they did at least. He's such a sweetie, and he's mine! Woo hoo! (Paws off!) Well I'm going to go clean out my desk because I promised Mom that I would. Then I'm going to go run for half an hour. Then I'll probably work on my scarf. I really want to finish knitting it by Friday so I can wear it to school. Woo, cheaning time.
.w.i.t.

Yesterday

raien — 2003-12-04T12:12:00-05:00

(I'm in Creative Writing class right now, I'm supposed to be typing up a play.) Yesturday was horrible. Well, on Tuesday, I made out with Chris Wetherington for like two seconds. Honestly, two seconds. And I totally didn't mean to cheat on Casey, I wasn't even thinking about what I was doing. So Christina tells Casey. But she says "Whitney and Chris were really going at it, Mark had to pull her off of him." Which is complete bullshit. Rachel calls me after school and tells me that Casey knows and that I should confess to him. So I call him, but I don't tell him. I dunno, it's just that usually when someone cheats on someone, they aren't overly willing to confess. I think he should have brought it up. But he didn't. And I gave him ample opportunity. I even said "You seem quiet today, is there something bothering you?" "Oh no, everythings cool." Yeah right. So then I get off the phone. Ten minutes later, Rachel calls me. "Whitney, you didn't tell him! He was trusting you to tell him!" Well in my opinion it's his responsibility to bring it up. If he doesn't have enough balls to confront me, why should I bother bringing it up?? So I called him up. And it went something like this.
"Casey, I know you know about what I did on Tuesday. I made out with Chris. And I'm really really sorry. It was a stupid thing to do. As hard as I try to be perfect, and only human, and I make mistakes. But I wish you had talked to me first. You call Rachel more than you call me. You never talk to me. You won't open up to me. (I can open up if you want me to.) I don't want you to open up to me because I want you to, I want you to open up to me because you want to! This is not a threesome. Rachel is not in this relationship. And there are some things I think should be kept within a relationship, especially until both people have discussed them. Am I not easy to talk to? (No.) ::pause, he is silent:: You just seem so emotionless. I mean, we've never had a meaningful conversation. What do you want? How do you feel? (I feel uncomfortable with the fact that you cheated on me.)Ok, well if you're not even going to bother making an effort, I have to go." End of conversation. He barely said two words. He said he was "uncomfortable" with me cheating on him. He shows nooo emotion. I wanted him to yell at me, I wanted him to at least show some sign of feeling. Right after we got off the phone, I called Rachel because she asked me to call her and tell her what happened. But guess what? Her line was busy. Casey had already called her. I talk "at" him for an hour, he says 10 words, then he calls Rachel and spills his heart. Maybe he should go out with her. Oh well.

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raien — 2003-12-04T08:12:00-05:00

Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage &
Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances
are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses,
and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a
little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!

What kind of porno would you star in?
brought to you by Quizilla

SeX sUrVeY

raien — 2003-12-05T02:12:00-05:00

The SEX Survey
*About You*
Name: Wit
Age: 15
Gender: female
Sexuality: straight
How many people have you made out with?: 11
How far have you gone?: All the way babe
Are you a virgin?: No
How many partners have you had?: Not enough
How many times have you had sex?: Not enough
Have you ever participated in a sexual activity with more than one other person?: Yes :)
Have you ever participated in a sexual activity with more than two other people?: Yes :)
Have you ever participated in a sexual activity with one or more people of the same sex?: Yes :)
Have you ever participated in anal sex?: Nope
Have you ever participated in oral sex?: Ah...oui
Are you a whore/slut/etc.?: Yes Mommy
*Your Friends*
Which of your friends has the best body?: Casey, Mark, Mel
Which of your friends has the biggest breasts?: Rachel (no contest there, folks)
How many of your friends have you hooked up with, without dating them?: Uhh...all of them?
If you could fuck one of your friends, which one would it be?: Uhh...all of them?
Which of your friends is the most sexually driven?: Yeah. All of them.
Which of your friends is the least sexually driven?: Hah. None of them.
Which of your friends do you think would be wildest in bed?: Mel!
*Would you ever have sex...*
On a beach?: Yes
In a car?: Yes
In a bus?: Yes
In an airplane?: A private jet...but on a regular airplane it would have to be done in the bathroom and they're really timy...
In a bed?: Uhh...duh?
In a church?: Hell yes! I mean...God yes! Holy sex! In the Holy water!
In a chair?: Yes
In an elevator?: Dude yes...especially if there were cameras...
With your parents in the house?: Eh...
With your friends watching?: Yes :)
In front of a camera?: Of course
On stage?: Ha ha yep
For a porn shot/video?: You'll have to talk to my pimp about that one.
With handcuffs?: Ooh yes
With whips?: Hit me baby
With whipped cream and chocolate syrup?: Yum yum yum
With lots of leather?: Yeeees
With a muzzle?: Yea
*Favorites*
Place to have sex?: Anywhere
Lighting?: Pitch dark
Color?: Lots of red and black...velvet
Sexual song?: All of them
Sexual position?: All of them
Kinky item?: All of them
Sexual game?: Twister, Couch Twister, Chicken, etc.

No School

raien — 2003-12-05T09:12:00-05:00

School was cancelled today. We got almost no snow, though. We're supposedly going to get like 4 inches tonight though, but we'll see. I went shopping today. I got gifts for a lot of people, so I'm happy about that. And my mommy bought me some stuff, too. I got two pairs of $100 pin striped pants and a red sweater from Nordstroms. I tried to get her to buy me a pair of 7 jeans, but she said they were too expensive ($150). Oh, and I saw maggie and Katie in there, too. Then I got six pairs of underwear from Victoria's Secret, including red and green plaid ones and a black V-string with skiing girls wearing red santa suits on it. Then I got a pair of plaid Chucks. Very hot. Well, I ordered them because they didn't have my size, but they should be arriving in 7 days. Very exciting. Then I got toe socks from Weathervane and gloves from Sears that perfectly match the scarf I'm knitting. Well, I'm gonna go run. Good day. No trauma.

SNOW!!!

raien — 2003-12-06T12:12:00-05:00

Wooo!!! Snow!!! Yeah there's a lot of snow. Probably about 7 inches. We didn't go to the Synagogue this morning for the Bar Mitzvah, but we're still going to go to the party. It starts at 1:00, I think. I'm wearing my new pin-striped pants and a sweater from Nordstroms. I love that store.
W:I:T

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raien — 2003-12-07T09:12:00-05:00

Sick

raien — 2003-12-07T09:12:00-05:00

I'm sick. Blah. I feel like shit. Today was crap.
Love,
The Poor Sick
wit

Betrayed

raien — 2003-12-08T11:12:00-05:00

You know what sucks? When someone who you love and who you thought loved you back betrays you. That's all I'm going to say.

Ello ello

raien — 2003-12-09T05:12:00-05:00

I haven't written a decent journal entry in a few days. I've been really busy. There was the Bar mitzvah on Saturday, shopping on Sunday, and filming yesterday. Jen, Emily, Chris Thorn and I all filmed a play yesterday for creative writing class. We wrote it too. It took 6 hours to film a 12 minute play lol. But it was sooo funny. But yeah...let me elaborate my journal entry for yesterday. It turns out, Rachel dated Casey before we hooked back up! And no one thought to tell me this! I wouldn't have been mad or anything, but I really would have appreciated knowing. Rachel said she was protecting me. Bullshit. She put him before me, a guy she's known for only a few months (may I add her best friends ex) above her best friend. I'm still in shock over that. I saw him today. At Battle of the Bands. I didn't get to stay for all of it, but I did get to see Thorn. Dude I now know why I'm Thorn's #1 groupie. They were soooo hot!! But yeah, so Casey was there. I hadn't seen him in a while. God he's beautiful. He's not just hot. He's beautiful. Like can't-tear-my-eyes-away beautiful. I was going to be mad at him for not telling me about Rachel, but I saw him, and I melted. God I need to control myself. Oh well. He drove me home. I guess that sometimes I act like I don't love him, but I do. There I said it. I am in love with Casey. Whoo. Ok. I'm out of the denial step...what's next?
(w)(i)(t)

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raien — 2003-12-10T03:12:00-05:00

Thou shalt strike me and blind my wandering eyes. These eyes that dare glance upon another with as much fondness, or perhaps more, than what with I glance upon my lover, who is supposed to the be the sole target of my affections. These eyes move upon their own accord, dancing to thine face, without consulting morals. I cover my face in shame, wishing that I could resist these temptations that thou holds over my head. Until the day when I can reveal my desire, I shall avert my eyes and stare at you only in my dreams.

Destruction

raien — 2003-12-10T05:12:00-05:00

Corruption in this world continuously increases, will there be a breaking point? When will society reach the time when the situation cannot worsen? That, my friends, will be the end of the world. The day when no fresh babes take breath and the garden of Eden is dry and barren. Rivers will cry, their parched mouths chapped and dry, banks falling away. Rosebuds will drop off their slender stems and plummet to the earth, landing brown and brittle in the soil. There will be no food, the ozone will be full of gaping holes, and the population will be so large that even the deserts shall be overcrowded. That, my friend, will be our ultimatum.

*tear*

raien — 2003-12-11T03:12:00-05:00

Today has probably been one of the shittiest days of my life.
(I'm Punkyrockachicka, Rachel is ctlildramadork, Christina is stuffysnozz)
(10:46:50 PM) You have just entered room "Stuffysnozz41."
PunkyRockaChicka (10:46:54 PM): allo
(10:47:09 PM) ctlildramadork has entered the room.
Stuffysnozz (10:47:17 PM): you 2 are driving me nuts
(10:47:20 PM) ctlildramadork has left the room.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:47:24 PM): why
(10:48:20 PM) ctlildramadork has entered the room.
Stuffysnozz (10:48:30 PM): hi hi yah
PunkyRockaChicka (10:48:40 PM): so why are we driving you nuts
Stuffysnozz (10:48:43 PM): so you 2 have fallen in love with the same guy
PunkyRockaChicka (10:48:54 PM): ...
Stuffysnozz (10:48:54 PM): are you 2 aware of this
PunkyRockaChicka (10:49:16 PM): uh i wasnt
Stuffysnozz (10:49:41 PM): wit if you are righting anything i cant see it
PunkyRockaChicka (10:50:03 PM): can you see it now
Stuffysnozz (10:50:11 PM): yah i can now
PunkyRockaChicka (10:50:22 PM): ok
Stuffysnozz (10:51:10 PM): so wit can you honestly say you love him and that you arent just enfatuated with him
Stuffysnozz (10:51:32 PM): rachel same ? to you
PunkyRockaChicka (10:51:45 PM): so what do you want me to fucking break up with him? im sooo not in the mood for this dammit
Stuffysnozz (10:53:07 PM): i dont want anyone breaking up with anyone i just want you to to some how figure out how to make casey happy
Stuffysnozz (10:53:25 PM): i cant imagine how he feels
PunkyRockaChicka (10:53:48 PM): well if me breaking up with him is going to make him fucking happy then fine
Stuffysnozz (10:53:52 PM): he is has to choose between 2 people that are very close to him
PunkyRockaChicka (10:54:24 PM): does "whit had him long before anyone else" apply or "lets not put the fucking guy above the best friend" apply
Stuffysnozz (10:54:31 PM): i dont know what is going to make him happy
PunkyRockaChicka (10:54:31 PM): or are those rules being ignored
ctlildramadork (10:56:08 PM): whiteny stop i dont want him, and you fucking know that id never put a guy before you so just stop your shit Stuffysnozz (10:56:08 PM): well i dont know but..... somthing has to be done
ctlildramadork (10:56:25 PM): i nkow your going to be pissed at me for a while but if those are the stakes fine
ctlildramadork (10:56:33 PM): i have to say what i have to say
PunkyRockaChicka (10:56:41 PM): and im sorry that i fucked up rachel and caseys relationship but you know what if someone had fucking told me about it then maybe it wouldnt have happened
ctlildramadork (10:56:44 PM): and dont interuppt me
PunkyRockaChicka (10:57:02 PM): go ahead then
ctlildramadork (10:57:34 PM): i broke up with casey for you for a reason and ill be fucking damned if that is going to be ignored if i thought that he was worht more then our friendship dont you fucking think id still be with him
PunkyRockaChicka (10:57:54 PM): well wait didnt you just fucking say you dont want him
PunkyRockaChicka (10:57:59 PM): or is that bullshit too
ctlildramadork (10:58:02 PM): so dont even try to say that i put him before you... ever
PunkyRockaChicka (10:58:03 PM): im not a fucking idiot
PunkyRockaChicka (10:58:11 PM): thats bs rachel you fucking did
PunkyRockaChicka (10:58:16 PM): by not fucking telling me
PunkyRockaChicka (10:58:38 PM): i wouldent have fucking cared if you had just been at least considerate enough to god damn tell me
ctlildramadork (10:58:45 PM): i was trying to protect you wheather it was right to or not those were my intentions
PunkyRockaChicka (11:00:00 PM): so you fucking broke up with him for a reason? youre a saint now! you went out with him, broke up with him, all to protect me!
PunkyRockaChicka (11:00:11 PM): wel, you know what i dont need your fucking protection
PunkyRockaChicka (11:00:16 PM): i can take care of myself
ctlildramadork (11:00:52 PM): you know what find someone else to try to tell that lie to because im fucking done with it all of it
(11:00:58 PM) ctlildramadork has left the room.
PunkyRockaChicka (11:00:58 PM): do you consider me a weak person? did you think i couldnt handle the fact that you were dating him? bullshit
PunkyRockaChicka (11:01:20 PM): god damn it

That convo was from yesterday. So Rachel and I didn't speak today. She acts like she's a fucking saint and I'm the sinner, I should be down on my God damned knees kissing her feet because she "protected" me. That is the biggest load of bullshit I've ever heard. She did it for her own selfish interests. And of course, the whole world knew except me. And Emily. Jen knew, Mark knew, Katie knew, Christina knew, everyone knew. Yet if Rachel was trying to protect me, wouldn't it have made more sense for her to not tell anyone, thus creating less chance for me to find out? But she doesn't give a damn about me. I would never ever ever date one of her ex-boyfriends. Ever. Yet she doesn't seem to think twice about doing that to me. She always says "I would never put a guy before you." Bullshit bullshit bullshit. And the fact that none of my friends told me because they were afraid Rachel would be mad at them, that's just as bad. None of them cared about my feelings because they wouldn't hurt hers. I'm so glad I'm loved. The only person who told me is Melissa. And I didn't believe her, I thought maybe she was mistaken, because, I mean, Rachel was my best friend she would NEVER betray me like that right? Wrong. And Em didn't know. Wow, I have two friends left, fantastic. Well I called Casey. I had a very one sided argument. He didn't say much. I told him he had to make a choice, that I wouldn't hold a grudge if he chose her. Honestly, I would never stand in the way of someone's happiness. If Casey would be happier with Rachel, then he should be with her. Life is such shit. And why is Rachel mad at me? What exactly was it that I fucking did wrong? Wait, I know, I fucked up her relationship with Casey and I went out with her ex-boyfriend. Well if someoned had bothered to TELL ME then that never would have happened. Of course, she went out with my ex-boyfriend, but she should be thanked. And she protected me! And she even broke up with him for me. Wel you know what, fuck her and her selfassumed position of God. She can just get out of my life if she has such a desire to fuck it up.

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raien — 2003-12-11T09:12:00-05:00

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
Name
Age
favorite song
Parents think You're sleeping around
Strangers think You're smart
Friends think You're wonderful
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Wow sooo true.

Poem

raien — 2003-12-12T06:12:00-05:00

I wrote this yesterday. I really like it. Tell me what you think...I'm anxious for comments.

An Eternal Rose

The sweet romance of rosebuds
Velvet petals on slender stems
The rose shalt not last forever
But my love for thee will not repent

Sip from the silver chalice
Drink up all my love
Receive it as my gift to thee
And do not spill a drop

Basking in your shining light
Laying naked in your glow
I wait here for thee to take me
To hold and not let go

Forever is a long time
But to thee I promise this
My love shall last an eternity
My pledge sealed with a kiss

Nothing could persuade me
To take another road
A dark path that might lead me
To a place thee could not go

If I am always faithful
And donate to thee my soul
Will you promise to stay with me
To forever love and hold

If thee happens to forget me
And if we are torn apart
I wait here for thee always
For you forever own my heart

If this love was just a scarlet rose
Forever it would not last
But it is more than just a simple flower
It is everything that I am

Love always, Wit

Hell

raien — 2003-12-14T03:12:00-05:00

My life has become hell. I have lost my best friend and my boyfriend in less than a week. On Friday, Emily came home with me on the bus. We hung out, watched Edward Scissorhands, etc. Then we went to Chris Wetherington's party. It was good times. Lots of making out. Casey and I were like...wham. But yeah. So I thought everything was peachy keen. Then I went to the mall on Saturday with Casey, Emily, Matt, and his girlfriend, Megan. We hung out, had Starbucks, etc. Good times, or so I thought. So I get home and get online. Emily goes home at about 8:30. At about 1:30 am, Casey ims me. Here are the highlights from the conversation.

PunkyRockaChicka (1:03:30 AM): hows it going
sniperwolf4132 (1:04:03 AM): not to good
PunkyRockaChicka (1:04:15 AM): why?
sniperwolf4132 (1:05:22 AM): because i don't know how "this" is going
PunkyRockaChicka (1:05:31 AM): "this"?
sniperwolf4132 (1:08:45 AM): it's just, it doesn't really seem like you are all that interested in having a relationship
PunkyRockaChicka (1:09:10 AM): uh why does it seem like that
sniperwolf4132 (1:11:13 AM): it just seems like you are so distant from me and there's still the whole "other people talkin" that is still accuring
PunkyRockaChicka (1:11:51 AM): "other people talking"?
sniperwolf4132 (1:12:31 AM): yeah i still hear shit about me and you and the "things we say"
PunkyRockaChicka (1:12:56 AM): uhhhh ok like what?
sniperwolf4132 (1:13:20 AM): well they say a lot
PunkyRockaChicka (1:13:26 AM): they?
sniperwolf4132 (1:13:33 AM): people
PunkyRockaChicka (1:13:39 AM): uhhh ok
PunkyRockaChicka (1:15:18 AM): so what exactly are you trying to say?
sniperwolf4132 (1:20:20 AM): i don't know that maybe we should get our lives in order to spend more time with relationships
sniperwolf4132 (1:20:50 AM): especially with me and my lovely grades
sniperwolf4132 (1:21:20 AM): everything just seems out of place right now
PunkyRockaChicka (1:21:37 AM): are you breaking up with me?
sniperwolf4132 (1:24:01 AM): yes but no cause i still really like you but my life is heading towards a brick wall right now and i need to at least try to do something to pull myself out of the hole i've dug
sniperwolf4132 (1:25:50 AM): i don't want to upset you and i definetally still want to be at least your friend but i have messed my life up and don't want to bring you down with me
sniperwolf4132 (1:26:05 AM): if that makes any sense to you
PunkyRockaChicka (1:26:15 AM): wow i so didnt see this coming
sniperwolf4132 (1:26:42 AM): i still do like you
sniperwolf4132 (1:27:15 AM): i just don't want to hurt you
PunkyRockaChicka (1:27:29 AM): does this have anything to do with rachel
sniperwolf4132 (1:29:19 AM): nah it is like i said it seems like you are a bit distant from me and i am going to be kicked out of school if i don't pass this year
PunkyRockaChicka (1:29:53 AM): im distant?
sniperwolf4132 (1:31:07 AM): it seems like you aren't all that interested in a relationship
PunkyRockaChicka (1:31:39 AM): uh well i am
sniperwolf4132 (1:32:19 AM): well i am also worried about you cause i have just about hit rock bottom and i would hate to bring anyone else down with me
sniperwolf4132 (1:32:33 AM): especially you
PunkyRockaChicka (1:33:07 AM): the not hurting me thing...thats bullshit bc do you think that breaking up with me isnt going to hurt me
sniperwolf4132 (1:34:08 AM): yeah i know but i couldn't bear screwin up your life cause i fucked up mine
PunkyRockaChicka (1:34:30 AM): how do you think youre going to screw up mine?
sniperwolf4132 (1:35:16 AM): you'd be surprised i have totally fucked up a number of peoples lives
PunkyRockaChicka (1:35:28 AM): so is this what you want?
sniperwolf4132 (1:36:44 AM): not really but i think it may be what is best for now
PunkyRockaChicka (1:36:52 AM): ok
sniperwolf4132 (1:38:43 AM): but i do still like you so it's not like that i don't or anything i just am afraid i might mess up your life while tryin to get mine in order
PunkyRockaChicka (1:39:20 AM): ive had the "its for your own good" speech one too many times so dont bother
sniperwolf4132 (1:39:40 AM): it's not like that and you know it
PunkyRockaChicka (1:40:04 AM): thats exactly what you just said
sniperwolf4132 (1:40:23 AM): if you don't believe me look in your coat pocket

So I look in my coat pocket, and there's a poem from him. All crap. I guess he slipped it in my pocket while we were at the mall. So obviously he had been planning on breaking up with me before we went to the mall. I signed off right after that, I couldn't take it. I went upstairs and shredded my legs. I seriously thought about goring the hickeys out of my neck with a razor, and I had the blade to my neck, but then I stopped. I really don't feel like dying at the moment. So then this morning, I wake up, bawl my eyes out for 3-4 hours, which is nuts because I never cry, then I get online. I find out that after the mall yesterday, Casey went to Ricky's party. Him and Rachel were all over each other. Then they went to her house, alone, while her Mom wasn't home. I don't know if they had sex or just messed around or what. And I'm trying not to care. You know, I said "I love you" to him. First guy I think I've ever said it to first. Look where it got me. This isn't very good for my trust issues. Or my self-esteem. Merry Christmas. I'm sure my christmas will be wonderful. Dammit...
Wit

Poem

raien — 2003-12-14T04:12:00-05:00

I wrote this this morning...kinda shows my change in mood from my last poem...tell me what you think...

Come in my door
Throw off your shoes
I'm not your whore
Just here for you to use
You go upstairs
Lay on my bed
I'm unaware
To you I'm dead
I step aside
I let you pass
You're only here for the ride
Only here for the ass
You get what you want
And then you leave
My heart you taunt
You leave me to bleed
New scars form
Cuts run deep
My body once warm
Slips into cold sleep

Better

raien — 2003-12-14T08:12:00-05:00

So life has improved. Rachel and I are talking again, thank Goddess. And she didn't go home with Casey on Saturday. So yeah, I'm stil alive. Cheers, Wit

Mediocre

raien — 2003-12-17T09:12:00-05:00

Life's just mediocre. Nothing exciting. Casey called me today after school...I told my brother to tell him I wasn't home. I don't think I'm ready to talk to him yet. I wonder what he wanted? Bleh. Nothing much to say. I have a shitload of AP Euro work to do though. Ugh. The teachers are all piling on the homework before the holidays.
-wit

From the Stapler

raien — 2003-12-21T05:12:00-05:00

I’m so unappreciated. No one ever gives me a second glance. My life is just so empty. Now that the boss has a new electric stapler, on one cares about me anymore, I’m just a dull, inefficient manual stapler. The computer mouse told me that I just have an inferiority complex, but I’m not so sure. I can’t seem to do anything right anymore. I jammed three times the other day! Three! What if there had been an emergency, and no one had been able to staple the emergency form papers together? It would have been all my fault! I guess I can see why they’re using that new electric stapler. He’s much more efficient and dependable, and more attractive to boot!
I could end it all. I bet no one would notice that I was gone for weeks. I could just conveniently fall off the desk, into the depths of the wastepaper basket. I’d lie there for days, bruised and broken, just waiting for someone to tip me into the trash compacter and crush me to smithereens. Or I could starve myself to death. I’ll refuse to let them fill me with staples. Or I’ll just spit them out, binge and purge. I wonder how long it would take me to starve to death? Probably too long. How else could I kill myself? I could hang myself with a rubber band or slit my wrists with a letter opener. Oh, wait, that won’t work. I don’t have wrists.
If people just appreciated me a little more, I wouldn’t be so anxious to kill myself! A “thank you” would be nice every so often. It would be great if I didn’t get banged around so much and if the interns didn’t try to make me staple way more papers at a time than I’m supposed to. I’m not bitter. I just wish that my life was a little easier. I don’t think anyone realizes just how hard my job really is. I do so much stapling, yet I receive no gratification.
Is there a workers’ union for staplers? If there is, I’d like to join it and meet other unappreciated staplers like me. We could even organize a strike! A strike is beginning to sound better than suicide. I’ve never been one for pain. So I won’t give up, I’ll keep stapling! But I warn you, next time I’m abused, I may find it necessary to staple a finger to a desk, so watch out.

Ello

raien — 2003-12-22T07:12:00-05:00

Allo allo. I went horseback riding today. I haven't ridden for like two weeks. Erin and I were late getting there, so Kristie (my trainer) bitched at us, then as soon as I got into the arena, Summer spooked and I fell off. Great start. So yeah. I guess it was ok though. I'm not bummed about falling off or anything, its part of riding. But yeah. I'm tired. Christmas is in only 2 days! Woo! Well, I guess you could count it as three. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. But hey, whatever. But yeah I'm a dumbass. I'm like...obsessive about the stupid boy. ::sigh:: I just wish I could get over him. *tear* Well, I really don't have anything to say right now...just thinking about him makes me want to go curl up in a ball and cry.
-Wit

To Do List

raien — 2003-12-23T05:12:00-05:00

I have greatly reduced my to do list for winter break. I have finished all my Christmas shopping, started painting my room, and bought my furniture. I'll be able to put another coat of paint on my room in a few hours, so after that just one or two more coats. It's looking pretty good so far. I should be done my tomorrow, and moved back into my room from the guest room by tomorrow night. I went to the mall and ordered my canopy bed, dresser, and nightstand. It's all really pretty, I'm so excited! It should be delivered here by next Monday. Yay! And I only set my parents back a couple grand. I'm way under my budget ($5000). So yeah...I have like $2200 to work with for the curtains, canopy hangings, lamps, etc. That should be more than enough, I hope. If not I can take some money out of the bank. But yay! My room is really coming together. And it's a queen size bed, so it'll be really hot. I'll take some pictures when it's all done and post them here. So I think that once I finish all my homework, I can just relax for the rest of my vacation. Woo hoo! Ok well I'm going to go try and get the paint off my face...
-Wit-

The New Me

raien — 2003-12-24T03:12:00-05:00

Ok I have reached a revelation. I am going to be the new improved Whitney. I will not:
-Drink any alcohol.
-Cheat on my boyfriend. (If I have one.)
-Do any drugs.
-Have sex with someone I'm not dating.
-Fool around with someone I'm not dating.
-Have sex less than a month into a relationship.
I am going to wait until a good guy comes along, then I'm going to snag him and have a good relationship. Not the fuck then dump. I mean a good relationship. I guess I just have to find the right guy. And I say all this with absolute sincerity. I'm the wholesome Wit. And I'm going to stick to this.
-Wit-

Merry Christmas

raien — 2003-12-25T10:12:00-05:00

Merry Christmas! Woooo!

40 Things I extremely dislike...

raien — 2003-12-29T12:12:00-05:00

Here is a list of 40 things I extremely dislike...
1. Getting into the shower and discovering that there is no hot water and/or water pressure.
2. Stupid break-up lines that are obviously just said to make you feel better.
3. People who are intolerant of other persons' races, religions, cultures, and sexual orientations.
4. Telemarketers who call during dinner.
5. When people call 10 times in 20 minutes, if no one picked up the first or second time, they need to take a hint.
6. Predjudices in general.
7. Ignorance.
8. Getting dumped.
9. People who eat crap, don't exercise, then complain they're fat.
10. Sitting on the toliet, peeing, then coming to the harsh realization that there is no toliet paper.
11. Trying to play cards in the summer, but the fan keeps blowing them around and ruining the game.
12. People who buy lottery tickets every week for their entire lives then get excited when they win a hundred bucks. How much have they spent on lottery tickets?
13. People who think being gay is gross and/or sinful.
14. People who try so hard to fit in that they lose themselves.
15. People who are fake.
16. People who lie.
17. Drug addicts. Drugs are a crutch for people who are afraid to face reality.
18. Alcoholics. Alcohol is a drug, thus it is a crutch for people who are afraid to face reality.
19. People who throw a Pentagram around their neck and say, "Hey, look, I'm Wiccan."
20. People who neglect/abuse/torture animals.
21. Parents who neglect their children.
22. Parents who hit their children.
23. Parents who blame the fact that their lives are hell because of their children.
24. Teen pregnancy. If you are mature enough to have sex, you are responsible enough to use birth control.
25. Overly crude humor.
26. Getting stabbed in the back by a friend.
27. When guys leave the seat up.
28. People who can't sing, but think they can, and insist on having you sit their while they wail your sanity away.
29. Having a runny nose but no tissue. Uhh...sleeve?
30. People who try to force their religion/beliefs onto others.
31. People who are uptight about sex.
32. Boyfriends who are prude.
33. Stores that try to rip you off.
34. Overly cheerful doctors, nurses, dentists, etc. Yeah right, like any amount of fake smiling is going to actually make you want to be there.
35. People who do stuff, get caught, then deny it.
36. The sound of fingernails on a chalkboard.
37. People who can't spell.
38. People on the internet who say things like, "u should c him, i never knew he was that hot b4!"
39. People who can't spell and use horrible grammar.
40. People who undermine the importance of education.

Ok, so there is my list. I'm sure I could come up with more, but I have to do my homework. Cheers, Whit.

New Icon

raien — 2003-12-29T10:12:00-05:00

I finally managed to upload pics from my digital camera to my computer. It took forever. But yeah, so there's my new icon. It's me! Woo! What do you think?

Random Romantic Rant

raien — 2003-12-30T11:12:00-05:00

For whence the endless darkness arrests the silver light of the pale blue moon, I shall come to thee then, guided by the light of the twinkling stars. Past the distant heavenly bodies, hidden behind the velvety midnight sky, clothed by the universe, I shall come to thee. I need no vehicle in which to travel, for my love for thee hast given me wings, they have grown and flourished from my heart, which beats strongly for thee. As I journey past the shimmering Milky Way, I think only of thee, and I compare the light in thine eyes to the light of the infinite stars before me. Thou eyes art far more bright. The universe is lonely, endless darkness, but if thee were here, I would be surrounded by the best company, thee in all thy elegance. Thee, who shines with the radius of a thousand suns, who is alit with a glory that shames the universe. And now I come to thee, my long journey through the heavens has left me weary, but I cannot close my eyes, for fear that I would not have the pleasure of glancing upon thy fair face and kissing thy sweet lips.

Poem by Jen

raien — 2003-12-30T12:12:00-05:00

Jen wrote this for me. I wub her!

Such a sleep. Thy brooding grey
Strangles your already pale sun.
It will sleep in my soul, thy pain-
Love, how can I nurse thine wound?

Her fancy, quite sweet
Dainty and tickles a folly
He tastes of her pleasant memory
And breaths scent of strength held in pantomime.

His hand bends a heart of gold
It's warm splendor reflects to
Far to vast a room, too cold.
Thy heart with strength for all, yet none for you.

How can I mend thy heart, Love?
For to thy mend there is no twine
That would be quite so fine
As to do justice to your eyes.

Ski Bunny

raien — 2004-01-02T10:01:00-05:00

I'm back from my ski trip with Erin. It was fun. Especially if you like skiing on ice. Lol good times though. I got slobbered on by a drunk guy and hit on by a lot of older men. Fun, though. Now I'm home. I have to get all my homework done and clean my room tomorrow. Then it's back to school...ugh...
.Wit.

The Face In the Looking Glass

raien — 2004-01-03T08:01:00-05:00

Surrounded by a crimson dragon, sits a looking glass.
It catches your eye as you walk by, look into it as you pass.
You see a face inside it, with beauty, clear and light.
You come to a realization, as you turn your head to the right,
It's your face inside the mirror,
with the beauty burning bright.

no subject

raien — 2004-01-03T11:01:00-05:00

Me!!!

Last day of freedom!!::Ahh!!! School tomorrow! Noooo! This is horrible!! Then ::gasp

raien — 2004-01-04T08:01:00-05:00

Ahh!!! School tomorrow! Noooo! This is horrible!! Then ::gasp:: exams in 3 weeks! Ahhh! I'm going to die! And I still have tons of homework! Ahhh! Help! And I ran out of diet soda! I haven't had any diet coke today! Not a big deal, you say?? You have no idea! I live off diet soda! I'm so neurotic right now! Ahhhh!!! ::twitch twitch::

Silver Tendrils Grip My Heart

raien — 2004-01-06T04:01:00-05:00

Today was just that. A day. A boring old day. Nothing of particular importance occured. But I have a ton of homework. Lets see, for AP Chem I have a lab, a log, bookwork, and a test tomorrow to study for. I have 4 or 5 worksheets for Algebra II. I have to read at least 5 chapters of the Scarlet Letter and do journal entries and an analysis chart. I don't think I have any Creative Writing homework. I'll have to ask Em or Jen. Ha ha, but that's not all, no, of course not. I also have questions to answer for AP Euro, two chapters to read and outline, stuff in the workbook, and a quiz to study for on Thursday. Do I have anything else? Oh yeah, a really hard project for French. But I think that's it. God I hope so. Ugh. I'm just under so much stress lately. I'm pretty neurotic. And I'm dehydrated because we're out of Diet Coke. So whenever I stand up, I get dizzy and have to sit back down. Grr. And my Mom won't drive me to the store. Well at least I can get my learner's permit on April 1st. Then I'll be home free. I need to play some music... ::Turns on the radio and crosses fingers:: Yay! The Used! ::sighs with happiness:: Yup. I took some pics with my camcorder. they are a little risque, lol. Good times though. I even uploaded them to my computer. Now I just have to figure out how to set my camcorder as a webcam. (he he) I need another cable, though, and I don't really want to spend any money until after New York so I have money to shop while I'm there. I can't wait. Yay! (I should be doing my homework right now...oh well.) I think I'm going to try to hit DC on Saturday with Rachel, Em, and Jen. Chinatown! Lol. But yeah, I found three Pagan stores in DC. Of course, I'll have to check and make sure they're in an ok part, because I have no particular desire to get mugged. Alright well I must leave because I do need to start my homework...unfortunately.
-Wit-

Live everyday as if it is your last.

raien — 2004-01-10T10:01:00-05:00

I haven't written in a few days. I've been sooo busy. I had tons of homework all week then I babysat my neighbors last night. They're cute kids really. Not saying I ever intend on having kids or anything, but yeah.
I'm writing a novel. I haven't titled it yet, but it's good so far. I have a long way to though. I'm going to see if I can do an indenpendent study next year for creative writing so I can just write it in school and get a grade on it.
I've been fooling with my camera a lot. I made a new icon. I think its a good pic of me.
Ugh, I have lots of homework this weekend. Lets see... For chem I have bookwork. For AP Euro I have a tons of IDs to define. For theatre I have to write a monolgue. For French I have to make a poster. For Algebra II I have to study and do like 5 worksheets. For English I have to finish the Scarlet Letter (10 chapters), do journals, do questions, and analyze a poem. For creative writing I have to write a short story. I should probably start soon. Oh yeah, and I have to clean my room and get some of my scholarship stuff filled out. That doesn't have to be in until the 31st, but it's probably going to take me a while. ::sigh::
Rachel, Em, and Jen went to DC today. Oh well. I just seem to be missing out on everything lately. I missed the show too, because I was babysitting. I can't remember the last time I went out and did something with my friends. It was before Christmas. I think it was like half way through December. God I feel so out of it. Oh well.
I think I'm going to go start my homework...
-Wit-

Funny Stuff

raien — 2004-01-11T10:01:00-05:00

http://starterupsteve.servepics.com/swf/mr_nice.html?
It's soooo cute!

What's in a name? For a rose by any other name would smell as sweet...

raien — 2004-01-12T04:01:00-05:00

I have a ton of homework, so I really shouldn't be on the internet. I have a whole bunch of work to do on the Scarlet Letter, but I definately don't have time to read it. Oh well. Sparknotes.com here I come. I'm going to New York City on Friday with Sam and Erin for Sam's 16th birthday. It's going to be awesome. We're staying in the Waldorf Astoria which is really cool because it's a fantastic hotel. Pricey, but fantastic. And we're getting a sweet that over looks Times Square. Sam's never been to NYC before. It's my favorite city. I really want to go to college at NYU or Columbia. There's just so much in that city. You can't take it all in at once. You could probably live there your entire life and never see everything there is to see. Everything's so close together, and when you say "I live in NYC" everyone around you kind of gasps, because you live in the place to be. There are 21 New Age/Pagan stores in Manhattan alone, that I know of. Dozens more in Brooklyn, the Broncs, etc. There are only 9 in all of Maryland, and unfortunately, all but one of them are over 40 miles away. Ah well, such is life. I should probably vamoose because I have so much homework and I'm horseback riding tonight. I'm out.
-Whitney-

Indecision Triumphs

raien — 2004-01-13T06:01:00-05:00

Can anybody who's in college or has been through college help me? I'm a high school sophomore, good student, 4.17 GPA, and 10th in my class of 477 (Of course that will change substansially because that ranking only has my freshman grades.) I got my scheduling information for next year today. I really can't decide what classes to take. And I can't decide how many AP classes to limit myself to. I was going to take AP Statistics, but now I'm not sure. I don't think I want to take 3 math classes at once. I'm definately going to take AP US History and AP English Language. I'm also contemplating AP Environmental Sciences, AP Physics, and AP Art History. I just have no idea what to do. Do I take general Physics or AP Physics? Do I take Honors Pre-calc or Honors Pre-calc and AP Stat? I know I'm going to overload myself, but I mean, what else is new? I just want to have a life and get into NYU or Columbia or some other dream school and I just have to prioritize. I intend on majoring in English/Journalism. How necessary is it that I take AP Physics, AP Stat, and AP Calculus (Which I'd take senior year)? How important is it to universities that I have those classes? Please, lend me your insight! I have no idea what to do!

Back from NYC

raien — 2004-01-19T10:01:00-05:00

I'm back! I had the most fabulous time. The hotel (The Waldorf=Astoria) was the most luxurious place I have ever stayed in. And we went down 5th Avenue, into all the boutiques. With all the doormen and room service and such, I felt like a princess. I bought this gorgeous Coach purse from the Coach boutique and some very expensive make up (T. LeClerc) from Braney's. Everytime I go to NYC, I fall more in love with the city. I will go to NYU if it kills me. And Erin will go to. And we will be roommates. And she will always be my best friend. And then I will live in a posh apartment in NYC with my posh husband. And everyday, when I come home with my shopping bags (Gucci, Prada, Louis Vuitton, Dior, Chanel, etc.), our doorman will say, "Mrs _____, can I help you with your bags? You look ravishing today." There's my fantasy. Aloha for now.
-Wit-

I lost all my dignity the day I fell in love with you.

raien — 2004-01-21T07:01:00-05:00

I wrote a poem. I like it. Tell me what you think.
"Defiance"
The box shows magic rising
From the tendrils, golden
Offering themselves
In a shameless seductive dance
Read this to say nothing
Of prospect
The moment demands the sober tone
A tool for reckoning
The perfect kiss
Consider it at the very least
A cornucopia
We are about regimen, balance
A search for omnipresent facts
The ones with the oozing parlance
Which come of the allotment
With raising undesirable risk
To say that such decisions
Are nothing if not
Contingent
Find ocean eating might
Unleashed on all this matter
Time to decide
Taken by itself, it liberates
Myriad factors designed to inform
To provide information
Inspiration taken
From the side of a box
Potential consequences unfold
In the light of an instant
Years of study
To prove only that
What is not found within
Cannot be found without
And society, to be marked as culture,
A daily nutrition of substitutions
For free will
And independence
Legal standards demanding
Support to sustain themselves
A melancholy world formed by
Superficial ideals
And mediocre contributions
One must break the stereotypical mold
And let ones own ideals be uncovered
Unleashed
To reveal the human spirit

Wish upon a star.

raien — 2004-01-25T10:01:00-05:00

I have been doing chemistry for two days straight. Except for a 90 minute shopping break yesterday with Maggie. I didn't buy anything, but I saw this really hot push-up bra in Victoria's Secret. I tried it on and HOLY SHIT I had boobs. I was like WHERE THE FUCK did these come from!?!? And I tried on this really hot silk slip as a shirt, but it didn't look as thrilling without the pushup bra. And I couldn't afford both, so I didn't get either. But yeah. I'm still not done with my chem reviews. Oh darn. I'm going to fail.

My snow days have come to an end...

raien — 2004-01-28T09:01:00-05:00

I have had three snow days in a row. Three! But I have school tomorrow! Oh, the agony. I don't want to go, because if I go to school tomorrow, that means I have to take my chemistry exam. I'm so scared of that exam. Then I have my English exam which should be pretty easy. Then on Friday I'll have my AP Euro and French exams, neither of which I've started studying for. At least I won't have my Algebra II test until Monday, so I'll have the weekend to study for it. I should probably do some chem studying tonight. Maybe I will. I really want to do ok on that test. Not fabulous, just ok. If I get a C, then it'll count as a B because of the 10 points for the log which took me hours. (Assuming I get the full 10 points.) A B would be really cool. If I get a D it will count as a C, which will be ok. But what if I fail it...OMG that would be so bad. I think I'm going to go study some more. Oh yeah, and I bought that bra from Vicky's Secret. I'm going to wear it on V-day, even though I don't have a bf. God I hate February 14th. Ugh. Ok...I'm going to go study.

Uh Oh

raien — 2004-01-29T08:01:00-05:00

Ok. Three finals done. Theatre was easy. English was easy. Chem was...ahh...excrutiatingly painful? Yes, that's it. I think I failed my AP Chem exam. That's not good. My parents are going to kill me. Oh well. Let's see, four more exams to go. AP Euro tomorrow. I'm going to study for that tonight. I hear its killer. Then French III. I hear its easy as long as you know French. Oops. I don't. And the teacher hates me. Then Monday...Algebra II. Oh dear. I believe I may die. Hopefully creative writing will be easy. Hopefully. Ok...I'm going to go study. And eat some sugar-free Jello. Only 10 calories per serving. Woo hoo!
-Raien-

Tired

raien — 2004-01-30T07:01:00-05:00

I just feel really really drained. My AP Euro test was hard, but I think I did ok because I studied. My French test was surprisingly easy. I'm just stressed though. I should go shopping to relieve that stress. Erin's coming over tomorrow and I think we're going to the mall so that'll be nice. I actually think I might go take a nap now...

Change

raien — 2004-02-03T10:02:00-05:00

It's just not the same anymore. I'm not the same, you're not the same. Change is inevitable. We just don't connect like we used to. I'm sorry about that, truly I am. I can't trust you anymore, as regrettable as that is. I loved you with all my heart, and you betrayed me. Now that we're talking again, it's so clear to me that we're completely different people now. You accuse me of certain things, things I only do when I feel insecure. You make me feel insecure. You always seem to be pushing me down or critisizing me. When something happens to me, you ignore it and tell me it's not big deal. But if something happens to you, I'm expected to drop to my knees and empathize, which I have always been willing to do. I just can't stand it anymore. Every time I talk to you, I can only think of how you've hurt me. We just don't have anything in common anymore. And I think you know this. It's amazing how much two people can grow apart in a matter of weeks. We will never be as close as we were, because I can't trust you now and you think I'm a snob. Now we're headed down two separate paths, in opposite directions. And this breaks my heart because I loved you more than life itself. I still do. I just wish things could be the way they were. But they can't be. I can't change the past, nor can I dictate the future. Don't think I have given up on you. Because I haven't. I just don't expect as much as I used to. If I did, it would be wrong. It would be a lie to pretend that things haven't changed. I refuse to lie to you. And you shouldn't lie to me either. No matter where our lives lead us, you at least owe me that. I love you, though. And I wish things could go back to what they were. I'm sorry.

Bored

raien — 2004-02-11T05:02:00-05:00

I really should be studying right now. I have an AP Euro test tomorrow and an AP Chemistry test on Friday. I need to study for both of them. I'll get to that eventually. I haven't written in a while because my computer has been an asshole. But I defragmented the hard drive yesterday, so its better now. Yeah, so all this new drama is beginning, and I'm not quite sure what to do about it. Tis absolute madness I tell you, madness. Ah well. V-day is coming up soon. A holiday for lovers...which I will spend alone. ::sigh::

Go To Hell

raien — 2004-02-12T04:02:00-05:00

Ok, people need to stop bullshitting. They need to stop messing around and tell me what the hell is going on. And these people know who they are because they're doing what they're doing solely for the purpose of pissing me off. If you're one of those people, then wake the hell up and realize that life can't always go your way. Suck it up you lying manipulative bitch. Life's not fair, get used to it.

Wont you come and lay with me?

raien — 2004-02-14T03:02:00-05:00

Ok so Valentine's Day blows. Completely. Unless you have a significant other. Then its fun. But seeing as I dont, its not fun. Want to hear about my day? I woke up and went to Ikea with my Mom. Now I'm back home. I have to clean my room and the study. Believe me, that will take a long time. Then I have to clean and oil my saddle. And tonight, for the grand finale, I'm going to babysit. Sounds like fun, right? Nope. I hate my life. But yeah I hung out in Woodland Beach yesterday. Good times. Ok well I'm going to go clean my room and the playroom...and my saddle. Bleh.

Long Time No Post

raien — 2004-02-21T11:02:00-05:00

I know I haven't posted in a long time, I'm not even sure why. Well let's see...what's happened since V-day? Not much, but I did get oral surgery yesterday. My mouth hurts like a bitch. Oh well. They extracted two teeth and bonded one to pull up the permanent tooth underneath. I was under general anesthesia, which was really odd. I have a horse show tomorrow, so I have to do show prep today and get all my homework done. I don't think I have too much to do though, so that's good. And I'm going to the theatre tonight, at the Warner Theatre in Washington DC, a production of works by Mark Twain, so I'm really excited about that. Of course that means I have a shitload of stuff to do today, in not much time. Oh well. I think I'm going to go start my AP Euro homework now. I've decided that I really need to apply myself this semester because I want to get straight A's. Ok well I'll ttyl.

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raien — 2004-02-21T11:02:00-05:00

Wow I just read wht I just posted and I think its possibly the most boring thing I've ever written. Oh well.

It's quite elementary, my dear Watson

raien — 2004-02-24T07:02:00-05:00

Devil has a hotrod
Devils high on speed
Devil has a black dress
So her arms can bleed

Fun

raien — 2004-02-25T09:02:00-05:00

Today was a good day. We had a three hour early dismissal so school was really really short. Then Em came over and we went to downtown Annapolis. It was sooo much fun. We hit Insight Concepts, Celtic Connection, the fudge shop, and several other shops. We got some really funny pins. I got one that looks like a campaign button and says, "Someone less dumb for president". She got one that says, "Which is worse, screwing an intern or screwing a country?" It was so cool. Emily bought this really beatiful journal in Insight Concepts. Then we went to Bead Bungalow in West Annapolis. I bought some really pretty onyx beads, eye pins, and earring hooks. Then we went to Whole Foods and I bought a magazine and some essential oils. Yeah I spent like $60 today. Oh well. I have $80 in my wallet and my Mom owes me a hundred, so I HAVE TO put that in the bank for my car. It was an awesome day except for this frumpy old lady accusing me of stealing, which, may I add, I did not, have not, and will never do. So there. Lol Em. Ok well I'm going to go rad The Grapes of Wrath.

Pagan Pride

raien — 2004-02-26T07:02:00-05:00

You know what I realized? I love being Pagan. It just makes me so overwhelmingly happy. I just...oh Goddess I can't even put it into words. It just makes me...happy. Wicca is so exciting and different and I love it. I love that I can be totally fascinated by something and believe in it with all my heart. I'm just really really happy right now. Paganism is just so free and..Goddess I can't even describe it. It literally sends shivers down my spine. That's how much it gets to me. Jeez. I'm going to go...I dunno. Meditate maybe. Woo. Happy happy happy. Blessed be. Raien.

Beauty is as beauty does.

raien — 2004-03-02T09:03:00-05:00

No school today. Woooo! Yeah so I spent the night at Emily's house last night. We did a lot of beading and watched Independence Day. She ate soap. (Hmmm I wonder how this will taste...DONT EAT THE SOAP YOU DUMBFUCK WE HAVE TO SELL THAT.) Then her Dad comes in and sees that we have cheese on the counter and is like "Hmmmm exactly how are you flavoring this soap." Lmao it was hilarious. DAVID THATS NOT FOOD IN THE FRIDGE...ITS SOAP. Ha ha ha. Mark I slept with your girlfriend. For the second time in a week. I saw the Passion of the Christ. It was awful. Absolutely terrible. 126 minutes of Jews beating the shit out of Jesus. Oh well. I'm out.

FUCK MY STUPID MOTHER

raien — 2004-03-02T10:03:00-05:00

I'm grounded. Indefinately. I don't even know why. Jesuse Christ she says shes not going to let me ride anymore. I have to get out of here. Can I stay with someone for a while until I figure out what the hell I'm going to do? Crap I hate my parents.

Have I mentioned lately that my mother is a Goddess?

raien — 2004-03-03T09:03:00-05:00

Yeah I'm not grounded anymore. I'm not sure why though lol. Ah I shall never understand the fickleness of my mother. Oh well. At least I'm not grounded anymore.

I haven't updated in like...forever.

raien — 2004-03-14T09:03:00-05:00

Yeah I've been really lazy lately, so I haven't written anything. Not much has happened lately. I've been hanging out with Emily a lot. A lot. Really, I mean, a lot. She spends more time at my house than I do. I'm serious. She was here for like 6 hours yesterday when
I wasn't. My parents go to the grocery store and ask what Emily wants. Oh well. Good thing I'm rather fond of Emily. We watched Rocky Horror Picture Show. It was funny. And we saw A Funny Thing Happened On the Way to the Forum at Colonial Players. It was good. Then we went to Insight Concepts. I got yet another book by Scott Cunningham (yay!), a bloodstone, and some strwaberry incense. Emily got a gorgeous silver velvet shirt. I'm going to nick it. They had these really cute pants there but they were meant to sit on your waist...it was icky. But yeah, so then Em, me, and our families had sushi and whatnot at Nikko's. It was soooo good. I love sushi. :) Ok well I'm gonna split...like a banana.

Blob

raien — 2004-03-17T09:03:00-05:00

Emily has a useless blob, so I wanted one. Thus, I acquired one. His name is Dope. Because he, well, smokes a lot of dope. And takes way too many prescription meds. Note the trippy colors? Ohhh yeahhhhh baby.

Abandoned

raien — 2004-03-17T09:03:00-05:00

Goddess, Em, we've been abandoned haven't we? By both of them. I don't know when we all started drifting apart, but there's no denying it. It really makes me sad. Fair weather friends very rarely stick around...but... I seriuosly just want to cry. Why can't things just go back to the way they were? It was so much better when we all hung out every day. When it was just the 4 of us. But it's different now, isn't it? Everything is different. And I'm just afraid that things can never go back to what they were... But I'll never leave you. I promise you.

Hell in a Handbasket

raien — 2004-03-20T09:03:00-05:00

So much has happened. I killed my first republican. I ate an entire zebra. Yeah guys. I'm kidding. That wasn't my first republican. And I only managed half the zebra.

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raien — 2004-03-20T09:03:00-05:00

Maybe the reason I hate everyone else
Is because I can't admit
That I really just hate myself

*Star* the movies you've seen

raien — 2004-03-20T09:03:00-05:00

1. X-Men*
2. The Craft
3. X2
4. Swimfan*
5. Fellowship of the Ring*
6. Finding Nemo*
7. Peter Pan*
8. Home Alone*
9. Aladdin*
10. The Ring*
11. 10 Things I Hate About You
12. Not Another Teen Movie*
13. Spiceworld*
14. 8 Mile
15. Bambi*
16. Pirates of the Carribean*
17. Edward Scissorhands*
18. Stepmom*
19. My Best Friends Wedding*
20. 101 Dalmations*
21. Scream
22. Scream 2
23. Scream 3
24. Big Daddy
25. Billy Madison
26. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets*
27. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone*
28. Heartbreakers*
29. Dumb & Dumber*
30. Two Weeks Notice*
31. Scary Movie*
32. Look Who's Talking
33. Blade
34. Blade II
35. O
36. Titanic*
37. Carrie*
38. Carrie 2: The Rage
39. Daddy Day Care
40. Legally Blonde*
41. Austin Powers*
42. Storm of the Century
43. Oliver and Company
44. Two Towers*
45. Return of the King
46. Mighty Ducks
47. Fast and the Furious*
48. 2 Fast, 2 Furious
49. A Walk To Remember*
50. XXX
51. Beauty and the Beast*
52. I Know What You Did Last Summer*
53. I Still Know What You Did Last Summer
54. Sound of Music
55. Mary Poppins*
56. Tuck Everlasting*
57. The Patriot*
58. The Wizard of Oz*
59. Killing Ms. Tingle
60. Crossroads*
61. Now and Then*
62. Pearl Harbor*
63. Just Married*
64. Cast Away*
65. Radio Flyer
66. Final Destination
67. Lady and the Tramp*
68. Shallow Hal*
69. 40 Days and 40 Nights
70. Bring It On*
71. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory*
72. The Outsiders
73. The Matrix*
74. Perfect Storm
75. Cruel Intentions
76. Never Been Kissed*
77. Clueless
78. Bruce Almighty*
79. Remember the Titans
81. Girl, Interrupted*
82. SWAT
83. Sixth Sense*
84. PhoneBooth
85. The Lion King*
86. Urban Legends
87. Nightflier
88. Lion King 2*
89. Little Mermaid*
90. American Pie*
91. Center Stage
92. Scooby Doo*
93. Bedazzled
94. Mrs. Doubtfire*
95. Save the Last Dance*
96. My Girl*
97. American Beauty
98. Romeo & Juliet
99. Lost World
100. Casper*
101. Miss Congeniality*
102. The Rock
103. Face Off
104. Moulin Rouge*
105. Sleeping Beauty**
106. Alien
107. Tombstone
108. Lake Placid*
109. The Recruit
110. The Shining*
111. Pocahontas*
112. French Kiss
113. Pretty Woman
114. Dirty Dancing
115. Italian Job
116. Love Actually
117. Identity
118. The Mummy*
119. Drumline
120. Finding Forrester
121. Monster's Inc.*
122. League of Extraordinary Gentlemen
123. Spawn
124. All I Want
125. Mallrats
126. Dogma*
127. Rat Race
128. Stigmata
129. Eye Of The Beholder
130. To Die For
131. Gangs Of New York
132. A Clockwork Orange
133. Chicago*
134. Big Fish
135. Donnie Darko
136. Chinatown
137. There's Something About Mary*
138. National Security
139. What Dreams May Come
140. Lilo and Stitch*
141. Selena
142. Les Miserables; Tenth Anniversary Concert
143. Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
144. Oliver
145. The Haunting
146. Jane Eyre
147. Monty Python and The Holy Grail*
148. Annie*
149. Pleasantville*
150. The Goodbye Girl
151. Evita
152. How to Deal*
153. Drop Dead Gorgeous
154. Waiting for Guffman
155. The Breakfast Club*
156. Best In Show
157. Panic Room*
158. IGBY goes down
159. Shes having a baby
160. Ferris Bueller's day off
161. Sleepless in Seatle
162. The Great Mouse detective*
163. While you were sleeping*
164. The stand
165. Bandits
166. The story of us
167. Man in the Iron mask
168. Chocolat
169. The importance of being earnest
170. Snatch
171. Fight club
172. The Princess Bride*
173. The Shawshank Redemption
174. Blow
175. Treasure Planet

On The Rocks

raien — 2004-03-21T08:03:00-05:00

Horse show today. I did pretty well I think. The judge was really bias though. One of the horses showing was hers, and she was trying to sell it, so she gave it first place in like all the classes. Grrrr. That's ok though. Life's not fair. But yeah. I'm tired. And bored. Oh and I will never do a pleasure class again. Ta. ~Whit

Confuzzled

raien — 2004-03-28T12:03:00-05:00

Fuck. It's been a crazy weekend. And it's only Saturday. No wait...I guess its Sunday. As of 13 minutes ago. I went to the circus with Mel on Saturday. Today I went to see SRHS's Oliver. Good times. But Jesus Christ. Talk about the shit all hitting the fan at the same time. I have decided I would be very bad at a monogomous relationship. Nuff said.

FUCK Monogamy

raien — 2004-03-28T10:03:00-05:00

mo·nog·a·my (ma-nog-am-ie)
n.
The practice or condition of having a single sexual partner during a period of time.

Not gonna happen. Can't do it.

Shit.

I've come undone and all hopes of mending me are gone because the pain took my soul. Can't you see? The only one who can put me back together again is me.
-Whit

Hmmmm....

raien — 2004-03-29T04:03:00-05:00

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If I told you I was dying, would you believe me?

raien — 2004-03-29T04:03:00-05:00

Shit tends to get really complicated really fast. A lot can change in 72 hours. And no matter how hard I try, I can't make everyone happy. And in me trying to make evryone happy I've caused some people that I really care about a lot of pain. Am I a bad person? I certainly don't have any morals. That's for sure. Tarnation. Oh well.

Beth Hart - LA Song

raien — 2004-03-29T06:03:00-05:00

She hangs around the boulevard
She’s a local girl with local scars.
She got home late, she got home late
She drank so hard the bottle ached.

And she tried and she tried, she tried and she tried,
But nothing’s clear in a bar full of lies.
So she takes and she takes, she takes and she takes,
She understands when she gives it away,

She says, man I gotta get out of this town
Man I gotta get out of this pain.
Man I gotta get out of this town,
Out of this town, and out of the way.

She’s got a gun; she’s got a gun,
She got a gun she calls the lucky one.
She left a note, by the phone,
Don’t leave a message cause this ain’t no home.

And she cried and she cried, she cried and she cried,
She cried so long her tears ran dry.
And she laughed and she laughed, she laughed and she laughed,
Cause she knew she was never comin back.

She said, man I’m gonna get out of this town
Man I’m gonna get out of this pain.
Man I’m gonna get out of this town,
Out of this town, and out of the way

It’s all she loves, Its all she hates,
It’s all to much for her to take
She can’t be sure, just where it ends,
Or where the good life begins.

So she took a train, she took a train,
To a little old town without a name.
She met a man, he took her in,
But fed her all the same bullshit again.

And he lied and he lied, he lied and he lied,
He lied like a salesman sellin flies.
So she screamed and she screamed, she screamed and she screamed,
It’s a different place but the same old thing.

It’s all I loves, Its all I hates,
It’s all to much for me to take
I can’t be sure, just where it ends,
Or where the good life lies within.

She says, man I gotta get out of this town
Now I gotta get back on that train.
Man I gotta get out of this town,
I’m out of my pain, so I’m goin back to L.A.
Back to L.A
Back to L.A
I’m goin back to L.A.
I’m goin back to L.A.

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raien — 2004-03-30T03:03:00-05:00

This is me. I love playing wih my camera. :)

I LOVE MEL

raien — 2004-03-30T09:03:00-05:00

This is why:
president said (9:45:41 PM): Dude, I totally respect your sexual preference and seeing as I was able to sleep in the same bed as you and have nothing more than a sisterly, caring approach towards it, I have no problem with having a purely platonic relationship with you but GODDAMN YOU'RE HOT and if you were a flaming queer I'd fuck the shit out of you. Thank you.

Silly Boy

raien — 2004-03-31T03:03:00-05:00

My brother just dashed out of the room. He smelled something burning and realized that he had left something in the toaster oven. On the way there, he managed to stub his toe, and then proceed to trip over the cat. I'm really wondering why he bothered to run so fast. Its really not that far from the computer room to the kitchen. Did he honestly think that he would be able to rescue the food in the oven by getting there 5 seconds faster? Well hes an idiot. Now he has a hurt toe and I have a pissed cat. Beautiful. I love my family.

You make me shiver.

raien — 2004-04-01T06:04:00-05:00

If you drop your dreams into a wishing well
What the hell do you have left to hold on to?
-Me
That's my new quote. Literary genius in the making. Ha ha. I wish. I am working on a novel though. We'll see how that works out.
Yeah, so anyways, pretty ordinary day. I have a B in French. Ugh. Merely because of my excessive slackiness. I'll get that up...I'd better.
I have so much shit to get done...I have to finish my Internship forms, Barnard application, SouthHampton application, and go to the MVA and get my permit. At least I got my AP test stuff and my NHS forms in. I have a shitload of homework to do. Grrr, ok enough of my whining....there are children starving in Somalia.
Hmm...Somalia...reminds me of Africa...which reminds me that I have to study for my AP Euro test tomorrow... Hmm. OK then, I'm going to go do that. Maybe. Like a banana, I'm splitting. -WiT

Music: Fountains of Wayne-Stacy's Mom

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raien — 2004-04-01T09:04:00-05:00

When thou shalt fall against thorny vine
Come cradle thine head upon my chest
To seek a sweet divining comfort
If nothing else than for pure rest

The organ free of worldly taint
Sweet innocence of the virgin heart
Two lovers meet in youth that year
Yet lovers shalt meet and lovers shalt part

To find within one’s self the fault
To withstand an’ bear the final test
The naive romantic point of view
That showeth truth, thou shalt be blest

If nought the tempt of love appeals
Nor the seek of self serving gain
Then why dost thou continue life
What motivates thou to receive the pain

If thou shall walk the road at night
And dabble in the darkness, Sleep
Meditate frequent on thine thoughts
And let the meaning run through deep

If thou shalt come across a turn
A non navigable bend, a twist
Then look upon my face, in trust
And perhaps you shall find that which you wish

Wake up its time to shine.

raien — 2004-04-02T11:04:00-05:00

So yeah, crazy day today. I realized that I have very little motivation to do well in most of my classes. This is very bad. I'm not sure when this happened, but its not good. I should fix this. I need to fix it soon. Crap. After school I went riding, rode Buttons. He's so sweet. He was a little lame today though, so we didn't jump a whole lot. Then I went to the play. I didn't really see it, but I've seen it before, so I'm not too worried. But it was fun though. Good times. Then I went to chill at Ricky's for a while with some of the gang. (Gang? wtf lol) Yeah now I'm home. I think I might actually do something productive now, like start on the list of things I have to do. It's like 10 friggin pages long. Good grief. Alright then, like a twizzler, I'm twisting. (Wooo that wsa bad. I choose to ignore it.)
-Love ya darlings, Wit

And the rain drops slide down my window...

raien — 2004-04-04T01:04:00-05:00

When did everything become so complicated? Was it when high school started? Was it when I started hanging out with different people? Hmm. Grr. Complications. Ah well.

Wish all you may, there where you lay.

raien — 2004-04-05T08:04:00-05:00

Well today was fun. I had an Envirothon field trip. We are so going to win the county competition. It's on the 20th, so yeah, woo, and then on to states. Which we will win. Yes. We. Will. Then on to internationals. We will win there also. Uh huh. Anyways, moving on.
See, the only problem with missing school is that I now have an assload of makeup work. I missed 3 tests today. Three! It's going to take forever to make them all up...grr. And I've got sooo much AP Euro work....ugh. I really need to work in that class, I've been slacking so badly. And I have to get...like 110 on my algebra II test....hmmm. Ah well. I should probably go study. Or not.
Or maybe I will.
Ok then.
I'm splitting like a banana.
-Wit

Organized disorder

raien — 2004-04-07T07:04:00-05:00

Fall not to temptation...well, why the fuck not?

I'm tired. Busy day. I think I'm getting a C in Algebra II. Thats really bad. I've never gotten a C before. It's a really high C too. Grrr.
On the bright side, I took a chem test today, and I think I did really well. Of course, I probably failed it, but I'm not going to think about it. I'll think about it when I get my grade back. I will not think about it this weekend, I refuse to taint my spring break (2 days, a facsimile of a break, really) with chemistry.
Speaking of spring break, I think mine is all planned out. Emily is going to come over on Thursday after her orthodontist appointment. Then we're going to go see Dawn of the Dead, woo, zombies! She'll probably spend the night too. Then Erin is coming over on Friday and we're just going to watch dozens of movies and pig out on junk food. It will be fantastic. I think I'll probably chill with Mark on Saturday and we'll study and whatnot. So it looks like my Sunday and Monday are free. Maybe I'll work on shortening my to-do lists. I have a lot of cleaning to do, mum says. Oh well.
Hmm. Diet Mountain Dew Code Red. Nectar of the Gods. Oh yeah baby. Purely orgasmic.
I just read Rachel's blog, and she put some stuff in about her favorite people. Ok, I'm going to break under the pressure to conform and do the same thing. Here goes, in no particular order:
Erin- I've known Erin since we were like 5, we've been best friends since 4th grade. We're like sisters. We fight sometimes, but apologies aren't even necessary because...I don't even know why. But she's awesome. Even though she goes to Southern.
Emily- Emily is one of my favorite people. She's so sweet and generous. I know she's a better more selfless person than I could ever be. And she truly just wants her friends to be happy. She can always make me smile and she's so beautiful, inside and out.
Rachel- Rachel is my babydoll. I love her to death. I can always count on her for a shoulder to cry on and advice, be it good or bad (lol). She's a verydetermined person and I think she can do anything.
Jen- Ah, Jen. I love Jen. No matter how much I tease her. She's so good for me, she just brings so much happiness into my life. Whenever I'm with her, my whole day just brightens. Jen is not only the rainbow, she's the pot of gold at the other end.
Mark- Mark and I go way back. Well kind of. To like the beginning of freshman year. I love Mark because I can really just be myself around him. He's great for support and heated political debates. No matter what goes down, I really hope we'll always be friends, or more. He's my sweet and syrupy Aunt Jemima pancake.
Mel- Mel is a crazy chick. But I love her so much. She's so wild and I just love being around her. Everything with Mel is like a huge adreneline rush. It'a absolutely insane. And her Grandmother's awesome...
Jess- It's really sad because I don't get to see her much anymore. And I really miss her! She's an amazing person and I hope she's always happy.
Chris T- Chris is great. He makes an exclellent gay frenchman. And he's great for bringing me back to earth when I need it. Which is quite frequently. He's level headed and logical. And he's a great writer.
Maggie- Maggie is absolutely awesome. She is one crazy kid. And she can't get a job. It's quite funny. No, but seriously, she's great and really smart and we agree on a lot of stuff, which is really useful.
Hmm, is that everybody? If I left you off, it's not because I don't love you! I promise!
Ok, well I htink I may actually go do some homework.
-Wit

Sweet Transvestite

raien — 2004-04-09T06:04:00-05:00

Erin is coming over tonight. It's really awesome. We're going to have a movie night and consume incomprehensible quantities of junk food. We rented Schindler's List, 40 Days and 40 Nights, Beyond Borders, Once Upon A Time In Mexico, and Gothika. I can't wait. I saw Dawn of the Dead yesterday, with Emily. It was so awesome. Really sad though. But totally awesome. Fantastic shock factor. (So are they dead?? Well, they're dead in the sense that they fell down, got back up, then started eating each other.) It was hot. So yeah. Good times. Emily is awesome. (Em, what was that pun I said yesterday? You replied something about losing your Wit. I can't remember.) Ok, well me Mum wants me to clean my room before Erin gets here, so I'm going to go do just that. I'm leafing, like a tree. (Ha ha, that was so bad.) -The Infamous Wit

Once Upon A Time In Maryland

raien — 2004-04-10T10:04:00-05:00

Today was pretty dull. Yeah. Erin and I woke up at like noon, then we watched Schindler's List. It was really depressing. Last night we watched 40 Days and 40 Nights and Beyond Borders. 40 Days was sooo funny. It reminded me so much of my friends. It made me really lonely though. Beyond Borders was unbelieveably sad. It makes me want to join the Peace Corps. I just can't fathom the amount of poverty that goes on in other parts of the world. I watched Once Upon A Time In Mexico a little while ago with my brother. It was a really bad movie. The plot was so twisted that I lost track in like the first five minutes. But Johnny Depp was in it. Of course, he ended up getting maimed beyond belief, but ah well. I was going to spend today doing homework. Yeah that so didn't happen. I think I'm going to get in the jacuzzi. Or I could do my homework. Ha ha, tough choice folks. Ooh, yeah, but I got all my herbs planted today. Yes! Ha ha, I've been meaning to get that done forever. So that's one thing off my to-do list. I still have to send in my Barnard applications, do my homework, fill out my imternship forms, get my learners permit, realphabetize my CD collection, etc. etc. etc. Grrrr. I'm going to make like a banana and spppplllliiittt. -Wit

Pffffffffft.

raien — 2004-04-11T04:04:00-05:00

I just got back from dwontown Annapolis. I was there from like 1-4. It was cold. And wet. Pretty miserable. Morgan was there, Mel was there, Jess was there, Mark was there (though he didn't get there unitl like 20 minutes before I had to leave. Grumble grumble.). Oh yeah, and Ian was there. I'm not sure how things went with Ian and Mel. We'll just have to see I guess. Though it's going to be absolute chaos, I know that. (I love you Mel) So yeah, now I'm going to take the DVDs back to the video place (I never got to watch Gothika) then I'm going to dinner with my parents' extremely wealthy friends. And I mean extremely wealthy. They're really nice though. Hopefully I'll be back before it's too late. I guess I'll take Huck Finn with me, I have to read the whole thing by Thursday and I'm only on chapter 7 out of 42. Damn. Ok well I'm going to get out of here. I'll be back... soon... maybe. ::eerie music:: Oh and by the way, Mark, darling, since our time together today was so limited because you ::grumble:: think of nothing but your stomach ::smiles sweetly:: you should definately come over tomorrow and we'll do AP Euro. Oui? Yes, I think so. Good times. I'll call you later...or tomorrow. Whenever. It'll be fun. Uh huh. Ok I'm going to split like a banana. (That's getting really old, I need to come up with a new closing remark. Ah well.) I'm out. -Wit

Beaten

raien — 2004-04-11T11:04:00-05:00

I'm shivering in the cold, a threadbare blanket around my shoulders. Blood runs down my back, warm and thick, like honey. I stare at you with my blackened eyes, I hide the truth within them, deep in their frigid depths. Tears run in glistening channels down my cheeks, silver rivulets of lost hope. You wont look at me, as if you can't bear the sight of me. Does it make you feel guilty? Do you know how you've torn me? My heart has become nothing but a hole, a gaping wound, left to fester.

I believe in a thing called looooove. Good job!

raien — 2004-04-12T05:04:00-05:00

Yeah, I should really be doing homework, considering the amount of studying Mark and I actually did. Ah well. I still have a ton of Huck Finn to read. Bleh. Maybe I should do that. Or not.
-Wit

Ethics are merely conceptions.

raien — 2004-04-13T10:04:00-05:00

Wishing gets you nowhere.
Hoping only gets you so far.
Praying gets you God knows where.
So forget about the star.

Perfection is like sculpture, it is achieved not when there is nothing left to add, but rather when there is nothing left to take away.

Think about it.

Ever truthful.
Ever solemn.
-Whitney

I lost all my dignity the day I fell in love with you.

raien — 2004-04-13T10:04:00-05:00

Hey guys.
I should be reading Huck Fin. Or doing AP Euro. Or Algebra. Or Chemistry. Or French.

Damn. I have no enthusiasm for school work. I don't have enthusiasm for anything. Except sex. COUGH COUGH

I think I may go read Huck Fin.

Maybe.

-Wit

Can you hear it? Can you hear the wind? Can you hear the music?

raien — 2004-04-14T04:04:00-05:00

Today was pretty dull. I got a 67 on my chem test, which is ok I guess, I did better than almost anyone, but I was still hoping to do better. I'm definately getting a B for the quarter in that class. Oh well.

I really should be reading Huck Fin. I read for hours last night and I only got to chapter 16. Oh well. Wow, it's 5 o'clock, I'm screwed.

So yeah, tomorrow, at Chris' house. Good times, I'm sure.

I have spent the afternoon completely reprogramming my computer. It sucks so bad. I hate it. ::kicks computer furiously::

What if perfection really is impossible?

Watching.
Waiting.
Contemplating.
-Wit

::gives computer one last solid boot in the hard drive::

Spring Evening

raien — 2004-04-15T09:04:00-05:00

I can see the stars from my bedroom window, I see them twinkling in the dusky twilight, diamonds in the rough. The evening crickets sing their husky notes, singing of similies and antonyms, alliteration and imagery. They sing of love, of hope, of passion. Love, they sing, is great. Love, they chirp, is terrible. Ah, the paradox of love, which controls all of nature. It's spring, the musky air is cool and fresh, but heavy with the coming rain. If I reach my arm out, I could spread it like a curtain. The shrill mating call of a loon stirs me from my reverie, I glance across the surface of the misty lake, searching for the bird. I listen, but hear only the light murmers of the bullfrogs. And that, my friends, is the nature of evening. That, my friends, is the nature of spring.

Tremble.

raien — 2004-04-16T11:04:00-05:00

A conversation I had with Mark, you may or may not find it interesting.
(I'm PunkyRockaChicka, Mark is Vaelroth)

PunkyRockaChicka: I wrote a rather long winded response to your blog entry.
Vaelroth: oh my
PunkyRockaChicka: I couldnt help it
Vaelroth: How can one hate Mobius Strips?
Vaelroth: They are so easy to understand!
PunkyRockaChicka: I just hate them.
PunkyRockaChicka: Its not that I dont comprehend them.
PunkyRockaChicka: I just hate them.
PunkyRockaChicka: Infinity. I hate it.
Vaelroth: But its so beautiful, so perfect.
PunkyRockaChicka: True, but something as seemilngly simple as it is, as seemingly perfect as it is, cannot be as it seems.
Vaelroth: why not?
PunkyRockaChicka: Because. My life consists of over analyzing common themes and principals. It's what I do.
Vaelroth: Then I go out and criticize your analysis to no end without telling you.
Vaelroth: Brian even suggested I get a hat that says,"Critic."
PunkyRockaChicka: But analysis is the only thing that brings comprehension. Analysis is as coterminous as anything.
Vaelroth: Not necessarily, sometimes its easier to experience rather than analyze.
PunkyRockaChicka: But analysis is part of experience. You can experience something, but if you dont analyze it, you will never comprehend it, and thus never reach a valid conclusion.
Vaelroth: Do all things require a conclusion?
PunkyRockaChicka: Yes.
Vaelroth: Does taking a piss require a conclusion?
PunkyRockaChicka: Yes. You empty your bladder, that is the result, thus the conclusion.
PunkyRockaChicka: And there was reason behind the action.
PunkyRockaChicka: You completely undermined the sophistication of this conversation with the taking a piss comment.
Vaelroth: Or is it? You then drink, process and piss again, so does it really have a conclusion?
PunkyRockaChicka: But that is a different trial in the same cycle.
Vaelroth: Well you can't ask about something sophisticated if you intend to ask about something mundane?
Vaelroth: -? +.
Vaelroth: True
Vaelroth: ::wiggle::
Vaelroth: Stupid conclusions.
PunkyRockaChicka: Necessary conclusions.
Vaelroth: Necessity isn't always a reason for a conclusion.
Vaelroth: I completely avoided your comment. lol
PunkyRockaChicka: lol
Vaelroth: I'm so good.
PunkyRockaChicka: Which comment did you avoid?
Vaelroth: Necessary conclusions.
PunkyRockaChicka: Ah well.
Vaelroth: ::huggle::
PunkyRockaChicka: Human beings live and breathe answers. There is nothing more feared than the unknown.
PunkyRockaChicka: No, I'm in a discussion mood, no time for affection. I could go at this all night.
PunkyRockaChicka: ;)
Vaelroth: Nope, fear is more fearful.
Vaelroth: I don't care, I argue affectionately!
PunkyRockaChicka: Fear is a subset of the unknown. Fear is caused by the unknown.
Vaelroth: But what about fear of things previously experienced? Like corporal punishment?
PunkyRockaChicka: But what is the one reason, the one conclusion behind fear?
Vaelroth: Humans do everything they can do to avoid fear, whether it is known or unknown. That makes fear more fearful.
PunkyRockaChicka: Its death.
PunkyRockaChicka: Death is the only true ultimatum.
PunkyRockaChicka: Death is our conclusion.
Vaelroth: Is it?
Vaelroth: What of life after death? Or maybe an anti-life?
Vaelroth: Is it not possible that spirits do exist in a form of anti-life in order to carry out the duality of the universe?
PunkyRockaChicka: Its possible. But, of course, death is what we fear the most. Because no one really knows what happens. People make hypothesis, and live by them, but no one really knows.
Vaelroth: If we make hypothesis on the subject then we must have some knowledge of that unknown. Afterall, a hypothesis is an educated guess.
PunkyRockaChicka: Ah, but education is human.
PunkyRockaChicka: Education could be the Bible.
PunkyRockaChicka: People obtain their truths from what others have concluded.
Vaelroth: Learning primarily comes through correcting ones mistakes, self-education. It is present in all organisms.
PunkyRockaChicka: Ah, but learning and education are not the same.
Vaelroth: But does education not induce learning?
PunkyRockaChicka: A giraffe may learn to reach higher into the trees to reach the sweeter leaves, but he would not be considered an educated giraffe.
PunkyRockaChicka: We cannot choose what we are taught, we can only choose what we learn.
PunkyRockaChicka: And what we accept as fact.
Vaelroth: If the giraffe learns to step onto a rock to reach higher into the trees, he would be self educated and therefore more intelligent than his surrounding giraffes.

It ended there, Mark had to get off. But it was not,I assure you, the conclusion of this conversation. ::Mumbles about the mildly subtle reference to conclusions::

Peace, Love, Sweet Tunes
-Wit

A meditation on an imperfect world.

raien — 2004-04-18T10:04:00-05:00

Imperfection is a sickness, an epidemic, if you will. It is the malaria in Peru, it is the AIDS in Nigeria, it is the obesity in America. It spreads like fire in a grassland, scorching everything in its path to a fine ash, reducing artifacts to nothing but ebony silt. It creeps along like a thorny vine, with the painstaking care of a sculptor and the fatal intent of a boa constrictor. It is ruthless and harsh, but not vindictive, imperfection passes no judgement, all are treated as equally flawed individuals. Imperfection penetrates the heart of every man, woman, child. It lives in the human mind, it flourishes there, like an invasive weed in the Garden of Eden, like lust in the breast of a married man. It grows, it festers, it takes, it destroys. Imperfection is perhaps the one thing that science cannot defeat, the one thing for which modern medicine can find no cure. Cancer degrades the body, while imperfection rots the mind. And like the epidemic which it portrays, it reeks of havok and fear, chaos and genocide. What is it that the human soul craves for with more ferosity than perfection?

The end to my writer's block.

raien — 2004-04-19T08:04:00-05:00

I think my writer's block is cured! Yay! Or my muse finally awoke from its winter hybernation. Either way, I cranked out 3 poems yesterday, one today. I didn't particularly like the one I wrote today, but Em did, so maybe its ok. And one of the poems I wrote yesterday was from the viewpoint of a whore, but it didn't come out right. I wanted to catch the tragedy of the situation, but it ended up just seeming trashy. Ah well. DUDE I got a B in AP Euro!!!! Yay!!! And I got a 95 on my last test and a 96 on my last DBQ, which my teacher said was an excellent essay. Go me! And for those of you who are failing Euro, not mentioning any names, Emily, cough, you should apply yourself. ::grin::

Stop me before I do something that I know I'm going to regret. Please, don't let me do it! I do this every time...every time... I have to break the pattern. Or I'm going to hurt someone I love very much. Tarnation.

Why can't I be more like her? The perfect one?

-Whit

Stephanie

raien — 2004-04-20T10:04:00-05:00

My French girl is here! Yay! She seems really nice. You guys, meaning my friends, had better be nice to her, or I kill you. :) Ok well me mum is being a warlock and making me go to bed. Grrr.

Au revoir!
-Wit

::Violent coughing fit::

raien — 2004-04-22T08:04:00-05:00

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Name/NickName
Gender
Sexy Body Part Is Your Hair
Special Talents Are Blow Jobs
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Don't worry. I won't tell anyone of your transgressions.

raien — 2004-04-23T11:04:00-05:00

I have decided that the French are very cool people. Stephanie is very nice. We went shopping tonight. I bought a ton of new clothes. Yay! Much excitement! Then we played poker, rummy, war, and spit. Very good times.

I haven't done like any homework this week because I've been hanging out with Stephanie. Uh oh. Not good. I have a chem test on Monday. Uh oh, very bad, very bad.

My tan is getting darker. Yay! Melanoma, here I come! Ha ha, that makes melanoma sound like an island or a resort. Ah well.

Dooooq (v.) To dooooq, as in to dooooq someone. A combination between a booop and a poke. The number of "o"s can be altered to indicate severity. (For example, dooooooq is far stronger than doooq.)

Doooqs all around!

Take me out
Spin me around
Then put me back, broken
-Whit

Excellent weekend

raien — 2004-04-25T07:04:00-05:00

This was an absolutely fabulous weekend.

Yesterday I went out on my boat with Mark, Stephen, Stephanie, Raphael, Maggie, and Kevin. I have decided that a boat full of teenagers is a lot of fun. A lot. Even when the boat runs out of diesel. And it won't start back up. And then you get towed. And then you run aground. And come very very very close to smashing the boat thats towing you. (Its even worse when the boat towing you belongs to your friends father and cost about $1 million) And you end up paddling a 12 ton boat home.

Even then its a lot of fun.

Today I went to Six Flags with Stephanie, Raphael, Matt, and Megan. It was so much fun. Joker's Jinx is my new favorite roller coaster. (Ha ha, Matt, you suck! Wimp! You wanna go??) Raphael and I screamed sooooo loud on the Swinging Ship, it was so fucking hilarious. I will have no voice tomorrow.

I have two tests tomorrow (Alg and Chem) and one test on Tuesday (Euro). Why am I not studying? I'll tell you.

I am....a procrastinator.

I'm going to go now.

Je suis Batman.
-Whitney

Whisper sweet nothings in my ear.

raien — 2004-04-26T05:04:00-05:00

There are two reasons that a man compliments a woman.

Reason 1:

He wants to sleep with her.

Reason 2:

Oh, wait.

My bad.

There's only one reason.

Ok, that was the coolest quote ever. Written by me.

Narcissistic Minds

raien — 2004-04-26T08:04:00-05:00

The air is gravid, swollen with philosophy
Listen on this quiet lucubration
A whispered meditation
(If you will)

Nascent thoughts flow smoothly
Like melted butter over cobs of sweet
Yellow
Corn
(Each idea coterminous)

A scapegrace spoils the moment
Spreading rumors
Like the plague
And discontentment-
reigns.

Thinkers batter each other
Their words like clubs and crowbars
Each adamant in his own principles
(Defensive, close-minded self-righteousness
breeds hate)
It’s only narcissism

A myriad of contradicting thoughts
A monopoly of indignation
Such is life
Pugnacity gets few results

The blossoming of spates
Punitive comments
(They do not know that they
are only-
puppets-
in my game.)

The hardest words: I'm sorry.

raien — 2004-04-28T08:04:00-05:00

Ok, today I was accused of being a prideful, arrogant bitch. It didn't make me angry, just contemplative. I realize that I can be very bossy and outspoken. I also realize that I do not work well in groups. I am a complete control freak. I know this, and you all can tell me this a hundred times, but I already know it. But it's who I am, and that's not going to change.

I realize that I'm not perfect. There are so many people who seem to think that I think I'm perfect. I don't, and I know that I'm not. I don't even try ro be.

I do somewhat resent the prideful and arrogant comment. I know I may sometimes seem a little prideful, but honestly, what's wrong with that? Why can;t I be proud of my accomplishments?

What was implied today was that I think I'm better than other people. I'm not goign to comment on this, because I think it's stupid and my arguement would be mindless. Of course, what I'm willing to do is apologize.

It's said that the hardest thing to do is to apologize. I'm not trying to go down as a martyr, or a saint, because I am nowhere near to being a saint, but I think this is important. It is difficult though. But here goes.

1. I apologize to my parents because I do not thank them enough for all the things they do for me and everything they've given me. I can be a really rotten kid and I'm not always grateful. I also apologize for breaking their trust and lying to them.

2. I apologize to my brother for not being a very good role model. And for being jealous because he is probably better at some things than I am. I apologize for giving him a hard time about things that he really shouldn't have to worry about.

3. I apologize to the people on my Envirothon team because I am bossy, controlling, loud, and often overly confident. I'm sorry that I'm not goo dat receiving input and that I am such a control freak (not to mention a spaz).

4. I apologize to every boy I've ever cheated on. No one ever deseerves to be cheated on, and I'm really really sorry. I happen to have a very bad track record when it comes to that. I'm sorry for all the guys I hurt because I was unable to keep my hands to myself.

5. I apologize to anyone who's secret I've ever told.

6. I apologize to anyone who I've talked about behind their backs, or in front of them.

7. I'm sorry to everyone I've ever looked down upon, because I thought myself better than them.

8. I'm sorry to every person (especially guys) whom I've ever misled or lied to. Everyone deserves to know the truth.

9. I apologize to anyone I've forgotten to apologize to.

Ok, well, I think I feel adequately humble now.

Rock on.
Rock out.
-Whit

Awwww :(

raien — 2004-05-01T09:05:00-05:00

Stephanie just left. It's sooo sad. She was crying, all the girls were crying. But she's going to come back and I'm going to go visit her in France.

Marvin's gone! Kristie sent him to Medera, and she didn't tell me he was going so I never got to say goodbye. And he was so awesome. Spot's gone too. Gretta and Zoe are going next week. Everybody's leaving! :'(

I have AP tests next week. I should start studying this weekend. Ugh.

Ok, well I'm out.
-Wit

I stole this from Jen, who stole it from Rachel.::::15 Random Favorites

raien — 2004-05-02T09:05:00-05:00

::15 Random Favorites::
1. Sex
2. Strawberries and cream
3. My cat
4. My friends
5. Sniggling
6. Large amounts of alcohol
7. Sushi
8. The Beatles
9. Summer vacations
10. Europe
11. My bed
12. Aeromsith
13. Parties
14. Long make-out sessions
15. Ren fest

::14 Favorite Foods::
1. Pizza
2. Sushi
3. Vegetable lasagna
4. Strawberries and whipped cream
5. Chocolate
6. Mint chocolate chip ice cream
7. Vanilla yogurt with granola
8. Cheese
9. Wheat Thins
10. Chocolate Pudding
11. Jello
12. Lemon sorbet
13. French fries (with Old Bay and vinegar)

::13 Most Watched Shows::
1. That 70's Show
2. Friends
3. One Tree Hill
4. CSI
5. Mad Mad House
6. Will and Grace
7. South Park
8. King of the Hill
9. The Simpsons
10. Yeah...nothing else...
11. I don't really watch tv...
12. Those are like all the shows...
13. I've ever seen in my entire life.

::12 Good Bands in your Opinion::
1. The Beatles
2. Aerosmith
3. Audioslave
4. Marilyn Manson
5. Blink 182
6. Red Hot Chili Peppers
7. Jimmy Buffett
8. The Darkness
9. The Goo Goo Dolls
10. Matchbox 20
11. 311
12. REM

::11 Memories::
1. Crashing my Dad's car
2. Homemade ice cream at my birthday parties
3. My brother jumping off the banisters
4. My cat jumping in the toliet and my brother pissing all over her
5. Homecoming last year
6. Giving away all of my stuffed animals
7. Emily's party last summer
8. Watching porn with Emily (lmao)
8. Jen getting pregnant after eating the Tofurkey Jerky off the floor in the subway station
9. Going to NYC with Sam and Erin
10. Going to K-mart after Rachel coated my head and face in peanut butter
11. Taking my boat to the Bahamas

::10 Close Friends::
1. Erin
2. Jen
3. Emily
4. Rachel
5. Mark
6. Mel
7. Chris T
8. Maggie
9. Stephan
10. Ed

::09 Things you're looking forward to::
1. Going to college
2. Hooking up with tons of people in college
3. Prom
4. Homecoming next year
5. France and England this summer
6. Falling in love
7. Getting a car
8. Road trip to Europe after senior year with Erin
9. Being a journalist for National Geographic

::08 Things you wear daily::
1. Thong
2. Pants
3. Penatcle pendant (from Jess, on chain from Em)
4. Pentacle ring
5. Engagement ring from Emily
6. Make up
7. Bra
8. Shirt

::07 Things That Annoy You::
1. Telemarketers
2. Freshmen
3. My overbearing parents
4. Sunburn
5. Mosquitos
6. Cleaning up cat barf
7. Losing things

::06 Things You Touch Everyday::
1. My hair
2. My bed
3. Mark
4. My friends
5. Books
6. The N64 controller

::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::
1. 40 Days and 40 Nights
2. The Nightmare Before Christmas
3. American Pie
4. Titanic
5. Pirates of the Caribbean

::03 People You Have Kissed::
1. Mark
2. Ed
3. Melissa

::02 Of Your Favorite Songs::
1. This Love
2. Yellow Submarine

::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::
1. Jen and Emily (they're both really skinny, they count as one person). Or Erin. She's my sister. Or Rachel. Though I think we'd kill each other.

Great Weekend

raien — 2004-05-02T09:05:00-05:00

Wooooo.

And on Saturday, God got drunk.

And it was good.

I got drunk last night. It was awesome. I really needed that. And I shocked myself with my self control. I am amazing.

So I spent all day today studying for hell week (AP tests dun dun dun). I have Euro on Friday, then Chem on Tuesday, ugh.

I'm a doorknob.
Everyone gets a turn.

I'm sorry I distanced us darling.
I never meant to hurt you.
You mean everything to me.
-Wit

Damn, do me like that again.

raien — 2004-05-03T04:05:00-05:00

I stole this from soemone's blog. You should do it too becuse peer pressure is a beautiful thing.

Name: Whitney
Age: 15
Birthdate: 7/1/88
Sex: Yes please.
Hometown: Edgewater
Shirt size: Ummmm, depends on the shirt?

How many...
Countries have you visited? 8
Dollars did you make an hour at your last job? $10
People have you slept with? 3
CDs do you have? Over 100
Pets do you have? 6
How many AIM screen-names do you have? 2
How many girls/guys have you dated? 11
How many times have you made Honor Roll? I've never not made it...
Boy/girlfriends do you have? 1 (Actually, 17, but don't tell anyone.)

Of all of your friends, who...
Is the hottest? Chad Michael Murray (Yeah, he's my friend)
Is the tallest? Josh
Is the shortest? Katie
Has the best body? Casey
Is the skinniest? Melissa
Is the most sexually motivated? Melissa
Has the longest hair? Jen
Has the shortest hair? Chris W (I think)
Have you known most intimately? Wow...uh Mark...or Erin
Would you sleep with? All of them.
Would you kiss? All of them, I already have.
Have you known the longest? Erin
Do you consider your best friend? Erin

What's you favorite...
Color? Red or green
Girl's name? Kennedy
Boy's name? Cameron
Body part? Neck
Lindt chocolate truffel flavor? Wow...that's out there...hmm, mint or dark chocolate.
Movie? Dr. Zhivago
Book? God, I don't know...I've read sooo many...Maybe Grapes of Wrath or The Scarlet Letter
TV show? That 70's Show
Room in your house? My bedroom
Subject in school? English or Ecology (Even though our school doesn't have an ecology class...grrr)
Animal? Cat, Horse, Three Toed Sloth
Month? September
Day of the week? Friday
Holiday? Samhain (That's Halloween)

My City

raien — 2004-05-04T05:05:00-05:00

Long legged shadow
Trails along the sidewalk
Distorted (over curbs and potholes)
The city smog (wet, summer)
Cut the humid air like butter
Drink it like a milkshake
Haul in toxins with every breath
Carcinogens stand in line to enter the lungs
(Take a number, customer service desk,
then right at the aorta.)
Neighbors slowly dying, one by one
From drive by shootings, bar fights, gangs
From cancer, AIDS, insanity
Driven mad by crowds and heat
(Which rises from the sidewalk in sultry waves)
Feral cats reign in the alleys
Marking territories, serving queens
Bums with styrofoam cups and shopping carts
Signs declaring the reasons behind their misfortune
(Army vet, Lost a leg in 'Nam)
(Orphaned, Spent all my money on dope)
Whores stand on the street corners
Wearing plastic bustiers, knee-high boots and dollar store panty-hose
Sweat dripping between their breasts
Hoping to get another trick
To earn a buck to feed the starving kids, waiting at home
For their prostitute mothers
Flashing blue lights speed by, sirens wail
On their way to stop a murder that's already happened
A murder that happens everyday
The people, tougher here
Colder, with hard faces and harder fists
(But they have to be)
Only the strongest survive

Arrrrrrrrg

raien — 2004-05-08T12:05:00-05:00

Ok, it's official. My parents are the worst people in the world.

So all week, I told my Mom that I was going to Ricky's house Friday night for Tiny's birthday party. On Thursday night, she says she doesn't want me to go.

I don't think you can go.
Why not?
Because I'm not going to be home on Friday night.
Yeah, so what?
Well, who's going to drive you home?
I can get a ride from someone.
I don't think I trust you to do that.
Why not?
Away from parental supervision, you'd probably pull over into a parking lot and have a quickie with some boy.
...

Then I went into a long rant about how my sex life is none of her business. She tells me that of course it's her business.

So then Friday night, I've almost convinced her to let me go, and my father screams, "Dammit, Lynne, just don't let her go."

End of that conversation.

Do you know why my asshole of a father said that. Not because he thinks I'm promiscuous, he doesn't know about any of that.

It's becuse he had a bad day at work. Thus, no one should have a good day. I'm serious.

God I hate my parents.

So out of the two parties I was supposed to go to yesterday, I went to none, zero, zip.

And I promised Em I'd hang out with her on Friday. (I'm sorry sweets :( I really wanted to.)

And I think I'm going to be stuck here all day today. Dammit. One more party down the proverbial drain.

Fuck them.

Someon eplease come abduct me?
-Wit

I stole this from Emily, whom I love very very much...she lives with me in our yellow submar-dammit.

raien — 2004-05-09T10:05:00-05:00

LAYER ONE:
Name: Whitney
Birthplace: MD
Gender: female
Eye Color: green
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'8ish
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Cancer

LAYER TWO:
Your heritage: English, French
The shoes you wore today: None as of yet
Your fears: Not achieving what I'm capable of
Your perfect meal: Chinese vegetable lo mein, Fried rice, hot and sour soup, Diet Sprite, and mint chocolate chip ice cream for dessert (With all the calories removed.)
Goal you'd like to achieve: Stop slacking in school, graduate top 5 in my class, visit all the places I want to visit, be fluent in French, save peoples lives.

LAYER THREE:
Your thoughts first waking up: What the hell am I going to wear today. Oh, yeah. Black.
Your best physical feature: My eyes, or my hands, I have really long fingers.
Your bedtime: During the week like 11 or 12, on the weekends whenever I get tired.
Your most missed memory: Sitting in bed with my parents when I was little and when we still got along, and drinking the orange juice that my Dad would bring my Mom every morning. That was the only time I ever drank orange juice.

LAYER FOUR:
Pepsi or Coke: Diet Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Chick-a-Fila!
Single or group dates: It depends. Group dates are usually more fun, but single dates are more romantic and personal.
Adidas or Nike: I have a pair of Adidas flip flops that are really spiffy.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: None of that cold sugary crap, I'm British, how dare you.
Chocolate or vanilla: Depends.
Cappuccino or coffee: Both. God I love coffee.

LAYER FIVE:
Smoke: No
Cuss: Fuck yes
Sing: Some times, I can when I put my mind to it
Take a shower: Every day, but like 4 times a day in the summer becuase I swim in the bay.
Have a crush: No
Do you think you've been in love: Yes
Want to go to college?: NYU baby
Liked high school?: Not really
Want to get married: No...marriage is a stupid government institution...plus I've never really been one for commitment
Get motion sickness: No
Think you're attractive: Not really
Think you're a health freak: I'm weird about food.
Get along with your parent(s): No
Like thunderstorms?: Love them
Play an instrument: No

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
Drank alcohol: Hell yes
Smoked: No
Done a drug: Alcohol is a drug...
Had Sex: Yes
Made Out: Yes
Gone on a date: Yes
Gone to the mall?: Yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Ewwww I hate Oreos
Eaten sushi: Yes
Been on stage: Yes, especially if you count just walking across it, I do that like every day.
Been dumped: No
Made homemade cookies: Yes
Gone skinny dipping: No
Stolen anything: No

LAYER NINE:
In a girl...
Best eye color?: Bright green
Best hair color?: Platinum blonde
Short or Tall: Tall and rail thin
Best articles of clothing: Whatevers hot

LAYER TEN:
Number of drugs taken illegally: 1
Number of piercings: One (But I'm getting my ears and eyebrow done this summer.)
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: A bunch...
Number of scars on my body: Far too many...
Number of things in my past that I regret: A few things, but I'm not really one for regret.

Dammit don't make me doubt myself.

raien — 2004-05-09T11:05:00-05:00

I guess sometimes I delude myself. I make myself think that maybe things are perfect, maybe things will turn out ok. Then someone drops a hint and bam.

It hits me.

Things aren't the way they seem. You're just fucking me over. Lying to me.

And you think I don't see it.

Do you think I'm stupid? Blind? Gullible? Disillusioned?

Well maybe I was.

Maybe I am.

But I can't help it. I'm just trying to be an optimist. Just trying to see the brighter side of life. Find out if there really is a pot of gold at the end of every rainbow.

But I can't do it anymore. Not if you can't even be honest.

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raien — 2004-05-09T11:05:00-05:00

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One more crazy survey thing...I'm so bored.

raien — 2004-05-09T12:05:00-05:00

Name: Whit, The Whit, Wit, Whitney, Raien, Boot

Names you wish you had: Uhh, I dunno. I kinda like Boot. ::sheepish grin::

Age: 15 (Almost 16!!!)

Favorite Bands: Goo Goo Dolls, The Beatles, Aerosmith, APC, Audioslave, REM, Blink 182, Dashboard, AFI, Rage Against the Machine, The Darkness, Weezer, Nirvana, Three Doors Down, 311, Mozart, The Clash, Sum 41, Maroon 5, Eminem

Bands you are convinced were spawned by the Antichrist: Good Charlotte, N*sync, Avril Lavigne

T.V. shows that you love: That 70s Show, South Park, One Tree Hill, Friends

worst cheesy jokes ever: "How do you blindfold a Chinese person? With dental floss." (I hate Racial slurs.)

worst pickup lines ever: "I wish I had a library card, becuse I'm checking you out."

Albums you bought that you later regretted getting: Hmmm. I dunno. I guess Avril Lavigne, last year.

Albums you listen to regularly (and get better everytime): Goo Goo Dolls (Dizzy up the Girl), Marilyn Manson (Marilyn Manson), The Darkness (Permission to Land), Rocky Horror soundtrack

Movies that you watch all the time (and the best line from each): Pirates of the Caribbean (But why is all the rum gone???), Finding Nemo (Bubbles!!! My bubbles!)

Movies you just didn`t get: Once Upon A Time in Mexico

Qualities you look for in a boy/girlfriend: Intelligence, physical attraction, sense of humor, not-boring

Sexiest female celebrities: Anglina Jolie, Britney Murphy, Jennifer Aniston, Marilyn Monroe

Sexiest male celbrities: Chad Michael Murray, Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, Brad Pitt, George Clooney

Don't waste your breath

raien — 2004-05-09T10:05:00-05:00

Put your cards on the table
Tell me what you want
I can't make it better
If you don't tell me where it hurts

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raien — 2004-05-09T11:05:00-05:00

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more, no less.

You can ask me anything you want.

Then I want you to go to your weblog, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

I can hear the blood moving in your veins.

raien — 2004-05-11T08:05:00-05:00

Yay! I finally got internet, phones and power back! There was this crazy storm on Sunday night, and a tree fell down on a power line in my neighborhood. So of course, every signle power line in the neighborhood catches on fire. Thus, no phones, cable, internet, or power. I spent a lot of time reading and bouncing on the trampoline. What fun.

I went shopping today! I got three new books, and I went to Whole Foods. Which was excellent, because I'm going on a field trip tomorrow, so I bought an awesome lunch. ::drumroll please:: I got sour dough rolls, a lemon bar, fruit leather, and sushi. Yes! Yay for being a hippie!

Go Kerry 2004!

So Emily, Jen, and I have our Halloween costumes all worked out. We're going to get black leather corsets and dress as the three vampire chicks from Van Helsing. Oh yeah, baby.

This is hell week. Today was my AP Chem test, which was no good. Tomorrow, I have Improv, then I'm helping the middle school theatre group, then I have a National Honor Society induction ceremony to go to. Thursday I have to help out with the middle school play and then heaven help me, finish getting ready for the improv show. Friday is the improv show, then Emily and I are DEFINATELY hanging out. We'll see if I live through it.

Alright, well I'm out.
-Whit

I'm sinking.

raien — 2004-05-12T10:05:00-05:00

Today was crazy.

There's black paint all over me.

No good.

Shiiiit

raien — 2004-05-16T04:05:00-05:00

I sincerely apologize to everyone for all the drama that went on last night. It was so retarded and unnecessary. It wasn't all my fault, and I believe a lot of it was just blown completely out of proportion. But I was being a bitch and definately overreacting.

But hey, what can you do?

Some of you guys told me some things last night that I would rather have not been told, because I feel kind of bad for keeping those things secret. But I will, because I know you guys would keep my secrets. So I'm going to turn off my conscience, even though I want you to know I don't approve of this.

So yeah, I hope I didn't fuck up anyone else's life too badly. Because I have totally fucked up mine. Good grief, how many times before I learn from my mistakes?

Trying to reconcile with myself, without causing too many bodily injuries.

-Whit

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raien — 2004-05-16T10:05:00-05:00

Rednecks
Circle I Limbo
Saddam Hussein
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind
Avril Lavigne
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow
Osama bin Laden
Circle IV Rolling Weights
Creationists
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled
River Styx
The Pope
Circle VI Buried for Eternity
River Phlegyas
Republicans
Circle VII Burning Sands
Dick Cheney
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement
George Bush
Circle IX Frozen in Ice
Design your own hell

Survey thing

raien — 2004-05-17T10:05:00-05:00

Using band names that you like, spell out your name:
B-Blink 182
O-OAR
O-Our Lady Peace
T-Tool
S-System of a Down

Have you ever had a song written about you? Hm, I don't think so.
What songs makes you cry? My Immortal by Evanescence and 100 Years by Five for Fighting
What song makes you happy? Anything from the Rocky Horror soundtrack, Feeling This by Blink 182
What do you listen to before going to bed? It depends

a p p e a r a n c e

HAIR COLOR: Light brown
SKIN COLOR: Uhh....fair I guess
EYE COLOR: Green-brown-hazel-grey, they change
PIERCINGS: Just my ears, but I'm getting my eyebrow done
TATTOOS: None

r i g h t n o w

WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: My balck riding pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Nothing
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Nothing
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Pretty hot, not exactly sure
HOW ARE YOU?: My head hurts, and its been a crazy day, but I'm surviving.

d o y o u

GET MOTION SICKNESS?: No
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Undoubtedly
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: No
LIKE TO DRIVE?: Im getting my Learners on Wednesday!

f a v o r i t e s

TV SHOW: That 70s Show
CONDITIONER: Pantene Pro-V
MAGAZINE: National Geographic
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Any diet soda
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Anything! lol, no I'm serious
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Sex, hang out, shop, sex, sleep, run, sex, jump on my trampoline, sex...
BAND or GROUP or SINGER: The Beatles

h a v e y o u

BROKEN THE LAW: Yes
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: No
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: Yes
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: Yes (Ha ha guys)
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yes
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: No
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: Yes
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: Yes
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: Yes
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: Yes...and I crew them...Good lord
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes

l o v e

BOYFRIEND: Yes
GIRLFRIEND: Nope
SEXUALITY: Straight
CHILDREN: Never!!!
CURRENT CRUSH: Mark! Yay! Ha ha Boots is a spaz.
BEEN IN LOVE?: Yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: Yes
BEEN HURT?: Yes
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: I don't really believe in regrets
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: No

r a n d o m

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Rocky Horror soundtrack
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Green
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: Hanging out with my friends
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: Hmmm, probably Em, Jen, Mark, and Mel.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: Beth Hart
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: Em, Jen, Mark, Mel, Matt, Erin, Jess, Chris
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: Chill, shop

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

TIME YOU CRIED?: Today, which is weird, I never cry
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: Hmmmm...A while ago
THING YOU PURCHASED: Shakespeare anthology yesterday
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: No idea
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Kill Bill Vol. 2

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

ABORTION: Pro-Choice
TEENAGE SMOKING: Against
SPICE GIRLS: Eh
DREAMS: Dreams are only fantasies, make them come true
DEATH: Reincarnation baby!

You can say whatever you fucking want.

raien — 2004-05-18T08:05:00-05:00

Sure, change your story. Take advantage of her, turn her against me. Is that what you want?

Go ahead.

If you can manage it with your smooth lies and your honeyed words, then I wish you luck.

Have fun with that Kharma of yours.

Don't even try

raien — 2004-05-18T09:05:00-05:00

So, she's ok you slept with her boyfriend, why aren't I?

For one, I think you ruin far too many relationships.

For two, you told Jen it was 5 months. You sat there while Jen bitched me out and called me a liar. Yet you were lying all along.

Maybe Jen is ok with you sleeping with her boyfriend and then lying about it, but I'm not ok with you lying to me and blaming me and making me hate myself.

I do enough of that already.

Damn you.

I loved you so much. You were my best friend. God dammit I loved you so much.

You broke my fucking heart.

The Whole Story

raien — 2004-05-19T10:05:00-05:00

Here is the whole story, from my point of view. I don't lie. If anyone wishes to debate this, please be my guest.

On Saturday night, at Mark Timothy Judy's sixteenth birthday party, Rachel Elizabeth Evans told me that she had slept with Richard Battle about two weeks prior. (Spelled p-r-i-o-r for those of us who are illiterate.)

On Sunday night, I, being unable to deal with such horrifying news, told Emily Jane McGady what Miss Evans had told me on Saturday night. I may or may not have mentioned the time period at that point in time, but that data is not really relevant.

Miss McGady reports that she was shaking with anger. Since we were communicating over the telephone, I cannot really verify that she was shaking with angry, but I certainly do not disbelieve it.

On Monday morning, Miss McGady and I came to the conclusion that Jennifer Lynn Goldman needed to be informed of this tragic event. Miss Evans insisted that she would inform Jen of this matter after Mr Battle had left for college, but Miss McGady and I persisted. Upon telling Miss Evans that Miss Goldman needed to be informed, Miss Evans burst into tears, therefore assuming the position of the victim. (Of course, this was apparantly an act, because Miss Evans is the perpetrator. Yet, she seems to like being a martyr.)

It was my original intention to let Miss Evans explain this event to Miss Goldman, but I was unable to sit next to my best friend for 86 minutes in first period and not tell her what had happened. (I'm sorry, but I'm not very good at lying to my best friends. Please excuse me.)

After informing Miss Goldman, she became very distressed and angry. She then thanked me for telling her and assured me that she would not have wanted to hear this news from Miss Evans.

The rest of the day was nothing but misery for poor Miss Goldman, who had been stabbed in the back by her "best friend". Due to an eyewitness, Melissa Kathleen Bradley, Miss Goldman was sobbing all throughout B-lunch.

After school, Miss Goldman and Miss McGady accompanied me home on my bus and we conversed on my trampoline, drank large quantities of soda, and ate an entire bowl of raw brownie batter. We came to the general concensus that Miss Evans was public enemy number one. We were later joined by Edward Clydesdale, and we pursued such activities as swimming and trampoline-bouncing.

On Tuesday morning, nothing much was spoken of the matter because Miss Evans was conveniently not present in the cafeteria, it has been noted that she was (hiding?) with Ryan Dusak in the auditorium. Mr Dusak has declined to make a comment on this issue.

At approximately 2:40 pm on Tuesday afternoon, I was leaving the school after rehearsing my One-Act play with Miss Bradley and Bonnie Gable, on my way to assist the middle school theatre company in their production of The Tales of Sheharazahd. On my way out of South River High School, Miss Goldman approached me and told me that I must have misheard Miss Evans when she told me that she had slept with Mr Battle 2 weeks ago, for Miss Evans had just informed her that the event had occured 5 months ago.

I responded in a perhaps slightly agitated manner because I really did not want to get further intertwined in this mess, which I believe Miss Goldman took as offensive. She then yelled at me as I walked away. (Miss Goldman assures me that she did not mean to yell at me, so I am sorry if I was mistaken.)

At Central Middle School, Miss Goldman gave me the details of the most recent version of the Evans-Battle fiasco. Mr Battle and Miss Evans had slept together about 5 months prior, right after Mr Battle and Miss Goldman had started dating. At the time that this event took place, Miss Goldman was residing at her Grandparents' house and Mr Battle was "not yet in love with her".

Miss Goldman asked me if I believed this version of the story, and yet again questioned whether I could possibly have heard Miss Evans incorrectly when she said "2 weeks".

I was at first reluctant to respond to this, because I have never been big on influencing the decisions of others in their relationships. But I eventually said, and I quote, "No, Jen, I don't belive a word of it. But don't go by what I say, go by what you think is right."

Miss Goldman then left the auditorium. I was not aware of where she went until abou t9 o'clock that night. Her mother, Miss Linda Goldman, called my house, completely unaware of the location of her daughter.

I was quite upset at this point, being sure that Miss Evans had lied to my face and managed to convince Miss Goldman that I had told her untruths.

I got involved in a telephone conversation with Miss Bradley, she called Mr Battle's cellular phone while I was on the line. Here is the conversation, truthfully paraphrased to the best of my ability.

"Ricky, I have to ask you something."
"Yes?"
"When did you sleep with Rachel?"
"Twelve days ago, 5/6/04."

At this point, Miss Evans got on the line and said, "This is none of your business, bitch, fuck off." (I found this to be quite rude an unneccesary, since Miss Evans was not the one being addressed.)

I got off the phone, unable to deal with this news, because I new at this point that my "best friend had lied to me and to Miss Goldman, in a terribly selfish act of self-preservation.

This morning, Wednesday, Miss Goldman and I engaged in what is commonly known as a "screaming match." I perhaps yelled louder than I would on most occasions, but I was caught off guard by the attack from Miss Goldman.

In first period, with Miss Goldman, she assured me that this decison was her own. I told her that I disagreed, but did not push the matter, becuse I am not really fond of manipulating my friends.

I was informed after school today, by a reliable source that will remain anonymous to protect the innocent and unbiased, that Miss Goldman spent quite a few minutes today discussing what a terrible person I am. I was quite sad to hear this, due to the fact that I love Miss Goldman very dearly.

I belive that that is more or less the whole tale, in all its truth and glory. I hope you wil consider what I have said, and if you have any concern about the validity of my account, please, alert me. I am more than open for debate.

In fact, I encourage you to debate it, because some people seem to be angry at me, and I would really like it to be explained to me, so that I may improve my character. I would hate to think that I am basing my hate for my now "ex-best friend" on an untruth.

Thank you, and have a good night.
-Whitney "Boots" Hoot

Ladies is pimps too.

raien — 2004-05-23T08:05:00-05:00

I haven't been home all weekend. It's absolute madness. And I'm sooooo tired.

Friday night I went to Thorn's house with Mark, Em, and Morgan. Good times. Lots of chilling and Hershey's syrup. (I have determined that whipped cream is not a sexy food. It's a sticky food.)

Then yesterday was... just hot. Really hot. HFStival man. Absolutely beautiful. The Cure and The Offspring... just... ahh.... orgasmic. Absolutely orgasmic. No other way to describe it. And Mark, you're just a cool kid. Oh yeah man. ::wink::

Today I went to DC with Mel and Em. Mel went to hook up with Ian, Em and I went to Chinatown, then the Mall, then we more or less circumnavigated the entire city in search of Mel. We got new shoes! It was a lot of fun, I enjoyed it. And we saw this boy on the Metro...good Lord. (Em, I really really wish we were more outspoken and about 6 years older. Life sucks.)

This week is HSA week, which means I get to go to school 3 hours late everyday. Yes! Ha ha, stupid freshmen. So yeah, this week will be good times.

Alright, well I'm off like a prom dress.
-Boots

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raien — 2004-05-24T08:05:00-05:00

PunkyRockaChicka: I said Mom, why is there a picture of a monkey on the countertop? Then I said, oh shit, wait, that's a campaign letter from the president.

That picture, thanks to my wonderful mother, is now affixed to the refrigerator with a magnetic dart, conveniently located directly on Mr. President's cranium.

Thank you and good night.

Sweet Girl

raien — 2004-05-25T07:05:00-05:00

Sweet girl cries
Laying on the sidewalk
Clutching her bloody knee
(oh her virgin blood-
so pure)

Mommy runs to help her
Daddy comes over too
but nobody can save her

Sweet girl cries
Dumped by her boyfriend
for the slut next door
(she never saw it coming-
poor thing)

Sweet girl cries
The needle hurts the first time
But yes worth it for the high
(Shes's starting to
lose herself)

Sweet girl cries
Laying on the sidewalk
In a pool of her own blood
(Not so virgin anymore)

Sweet girl dies
She can't cry anymore
her tears have all dried up

It's not your fault, right? It's never your fault.

raien — 2004-05-26T04:05:00-05:00

Woooo ok I have a B in Algebra. This is no good, because this means that is I get a B on the exam, I'll get a B for the semester. Which is good. But, in order to get a B on the exam, I'll have to study for it. Which I'm not really looking forward to.

Ah well. Such is life.

What's not so good is that I have a C in AP Chemsitry, which means I have to get a B on the exam. And even if I study, that might not happen. Merde.

::sigh:: So how do the rest of my grades look? I have well over 100% in English, an A in Theatre, an A in Honors Chem, a B in AP Euro, an A in Keyboarding, and no idea what I have in French. Hmph. This is no good. My Mom keeps telling me that if I don't pull my grades up, I'll have to go to the community college. She may be right. No good.

Ahh I have so much to do.... I have to at least put a dent into my list of books to read, write a term paper, study for the last test in Algebra II, write a letter to Amnesty International, finish reading King Lear, get everyone to sign my yearbook, and a ton of other stuff. Ahhhh. Too much stress. ::overload::

Ok, well I'm off like a prom dress.

Peace, Love, and Sweet Tunes
-Whit

Deep Shit

raien — 2004-05-27T09:05:00-05:00

I am knee-deep in shit. Oh dear. Totally my fault too.

So today after school, I decide to take Jen home with me and go hang out at my house. We get a ride from Ed, and since we go to D-ville and then Annapolis, I didn't get home until 3:30.

Of course, I didn't take my backpack to school with me today because the only classes I had were Chem and Theatre. So yeah, Mom was a little pissed that I didn't call.

I hope she still lets me go to Goodwill tomorrow.

She did end up letting me go to the mall today though. I saw Shrek 2. It was good.

Ok, well I'm off like a prom dress.
-Whit

So who was it this time?

raien — 2004-05-28T04:05:00-05:00

Woo. Skipped last period today. It was like...Mission Impossible. Maggie and I took the car round, then Lauren, Mel, and Em hopped in. We went to Goodwill.

I got a plaid Catholic school girl skirt (Ha ha Ed) and a silk black button down shirt. Em and Mel got shoes. Maggie got some spandex pants. Oh yeah man.

Yeah, so I went to Mel's after school today with Em. I can't belive Mel is so incompetent that she doesn't know how to cook spaghetti. Yeah, so I cooked spaghetti. We went around asking random people if they had any spaghetti sauce, but they didn't. It was sad.

Ok, well I'm out.
-Boots

Christianity is a cult!

raien — 2004-05-28T11:05:00-05:00

I just got back from youth group with Matt. Since he conned me into going on a Missions trip with him this summer to Michigan, I have to go to youth group with him. It's educational though. I do find the Christian religion to be rather fascinating, even though its rather silly.

So they're Christianizing me. Ahhhh!

Not really.

It would take more than a little Bible reading to Christianize the Whit.

So yeah, going out on the boat this weekend, with Erin. So I'll be gone all weekend, with no AIM. I will have my cell phone with me though, so give me a holler if you need anything.

Oh look at Whit, she is down with the cool kid's lingo. That's right baby.

So yeah, I'll see you all on Tuesday. Have excellent weekends, be they spent in Florida, Philadelphia, New York City, or just lonely Anne Arundel County, MD.

Follow the bouncing gopher.
-Whit

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raien — 2004-05-28T11:05:00-05:00

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H Hot
I Intelligent
T Twisted
N Nerdy
E Energetic
Y Yummy

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10 days of school left!

raien — 2004-06-03T06:06:00-05:00

Today was fun. School (which was not so fun), then out to Fridays's with Theatre. There were about 40 people there, it was crazy. The bill came to *chi ching* over $400! Then to the gym with Erin, which was fun. I feel very fit.

I really hope I can work at Beech Grove with Em and Jess!

-Boots

Ahh! Attack of the surveys!

raien — 2004-06-06T09:06:00-05:00

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

SUCK ME OFF BITCH!

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

raien — 2004-06-06T09:06:00-05:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Save the environment, plant a tree back in Texas.

raien — 2004-06-08T06:06:00-05:00

Wooo. Tired. I just got back from the gym. I'm sweaty. Ick. Though of course, I find working out to be quite satisfying. It gives me a sense of accomplishment.

I got my Learner's Permit today! I could have gotten it over 2 months ago, but oh well. So that means I can get my license on October 8! Yay! So I'll be driving by Halloween.

I don't think I can work Ren Fest, which makes me really sad. The first week I'm going to be in Oklahoma for my cousin's wedding, the second week I'm going out on my boat, family vacation. I'm really going to miss working there. Sure, the pay is crap, I work at the busiest booth there, and the conditions are even worse than the pay, but I love the people, the sights, the atmosphere. But I'll most likely end up going there every weekend anyway (And spending money that I'm not earning. We'll see how that works out.).

But, I did get to make a deal with my Mother. I said that if I didn't work at Fair, I wouldn't get a job until after I got my license. In exchange for her not having to ferry me everywhere, I get to go camping for one weekend and up to New York City for another. I'm quite elated.

Good times. I'm out. I have a poster to do for AP Euro. Peace.

-Boots

But I don't want to miss you tonight.

raien — 2004-06-09T08:06:00-05:00

Only 39.5 hours left! My Mom took me driving. I didn't hit anyhting this time. Yay! It's very exciting. October 8 is coming up in only 4 months. Then I will be freeeee! Well not really, but more free than I am now.

Today, as I was wearing my pigtails, flip flops, Chuckee-Cheese shirt, and rainbow belt, Matt said, "Good Lord Whitney, one day you look like a soccer mom, the next day you goth it out, and now you're going for the All-American sweetheart motif? Could you be any more radical in your clothing selection??" I thought it was rather comical. I enjoyed it.

So yeah, I have an A in French, which I find to be quite mysterious. Maybe Mrs. Asayag doesn't hate me as much as I thought. But of course, there's a catch. In order to keep my A, I have to write one paragraph in the subjunctive, one in the conditional, and one about a movie I saw in French. So there we go. I had better get cracking.

I'm off like a prom dress.
-Boots

Chinese Food

raien — 2004-06-10T07:06:00-05:00

So, I open up my Fortune Cookie, it reads:

"You will have much sex."

I blink and then suddenly realized it said:

"You will ahve much success."

The disappoinment of my evening.

-Boots

Who are your friends?

raien — 2004-06-10T08:06:00-05:00

Emily: Emily is by far the best person I know, if you count best to be most moral, honest, tactful, and dependable (not to mention beautiful). I don't believe I've ever heard Emily tell a lie. She's bright, funny, amiable, and just terrific all round. Also, she's a harsh judge of charachter, which is not a bad thing. She doesn't take shit from anyone and I'd like to think the fact that she's friends with me says something about me, maybe that I'm an okay person. Emily is up there on coolest people in the world list, way above anyone else I know. Whether it be beading until 7:00 in the morning, tie-dying on Friday nights, or casting circles by the full moon, Emily has always been there for me.

Mark: Mark is one of the most intelligent people I know, which I like to consider to be to my advantage (Dating a moron is no fun. Trust me, I know.). I'm working on my longest and seemingly most fruitful realtionship ever, and I hope it will continue as such. Mark is great to have long philosophical discussions with, it's even more fun when we disagree on a topic, then it turns into a long and occasionally violent philosophical argument. I wish I got to spend more time with him, not having sex necessarily, but just spending time with him. (I've come to the conclusion that sex is overrated and, while fun, rather superficial. Would you rather sleep with someone, or fall asleep with them? Which is more meaningful? Which is a deeper display of love? I'll let you decide.) I love Mark to death, and I'm going to miss him so much when he leaves for the summer.

Jen: Jen is a beautiful person. She's so sweet and non-judgemental. I really do admire her for her ability to forgive. Jen is the best person in the world if you need cheering up. She can always make me laugh. Always. No matter how crappy I feel. She's a pixie, and when she's sad, it rains. When anyone hurts someone that pure, they deserve bad karma forever. Hurting Jen is like kicking a puppy, or pulling the whiskers off a kitten. Could you do that? That's how sweet Jen is. Jen is bright, angelic, and friends with everyone. I can't think of a single person who dislikes Jen.

Melissa: Melissa is amazing. She's beautiful, to say the least. She's talented, an amazing writer, and so full of life. A lot of people misjudge her, because she can be overwhelming in a group situation, but once you get to know her, you realize what a truthful sincere person she is. Mel is the type of person you would never want to piss off, because she'll hunt you down. She won't let anyone take advantage of her. She's probably the strongest person I know.

Erin: I've known Erin only a year less than I've known my own brother. I have been friends with her for so long, it's pretty unbelieveable. We're like sisters. And even though we don't go to school together and have different sets of friends, we're still best friends. It's funny though, because she's probably my only female friend that I've never made out with, and never would. It would be like making out with my sister. Which is not overly appealing to me. She probably knows me better than anyone else on the face of the planet. We fight all the time, squabbling like siblings over trivial things, more like, but I don't think we've ever apologized to one another. It's never been necessary. We just...know.

*So there's my two cents. I just want everyone to know how much I appreciate my friends. They mean everything to me, I don't know what I'd do without them.*

Tender are the words in the obituary, bled by the tears that land on the yellowed page.
-Boots

Your softly spoken words mean nothing to me.

raien — 2004-06-12T12:06:00-05:00

Yesterday was absolute madness. Madness I say.

So after school I was dragged to Melissa's. Dragged, completely involuntarily. Mel's house is as much fun as an asylum.

So what did Em, Mel, and I do? Well we ate raw cake batter ("tapioca pudding"), cleaned up Melmo's room, tried on all her clothes, Emily ate jalepino (sp?) olives, and then we made some bondage porn. No seriously, we did. With duct tape and Mel's digital camera. It was quite enjoyable. But duct tape, when callously removed from the nipple area, does result in a rather intense burning sensation. I'm sure there will be some pictures of a rather naked me published on the internet soon. Oh well. (And I just recently got rid of the last one's published by my dear friend in England.) Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me, I guess. Oh well. Could be worse, I suppose.

So then we walked over to Mark's house, Em and Mel left, I hung around. Of course, Mel's Mom ratted me out and called my Mom, who is horrified to learn that I am ::gasp:: hanging out at my boyfriend's house, unsupervised! So she comes over, picks me up, takes me home. Thus, the rather untimely grounding of Boots.

I believe Am-A-lee sadly also received the rath of her respective guardian. Ah well.

So I'm stuck here, more or less. My Mom just goes on and on about how she can't trust me. See the way I see it, this little event should prove that she can trust me. I'm at my boyfriend's house for like an hour, she comes over unexpectedly, and I'm not having sex with him. So yeah. Maybe my logic is warped, but oh well.

About the only place I'm free to go is the gym. So that's where I'm headed now.

So, really, how far down does the rabbit hole go?
-Boots In Solitary Confinement

Antimatter is about 100 times more powerful than a nuclear warhead of the same mass.

raien — 2004-06-13T05:06:00-05:00

I just got back from a night on the boat avec ma famille. Not overly enjoyable, not overly unpleasant. My brother is the most antagonistic person in the world. Double grr.

My cat ate my fish! I've had that damn fish for 3 years. So my Dad wakes up, sees the cat with its nose about 2 inches from a rather mangled, but still flopping beta, and he screams to my Mom and I to come deal with it. Mum scoops the fish back into the bowl, where it flaps around for a few minutes before sinking rather pathetically to the bottom. Mind you, it has been looking sick for a few days, just kind of floating near the top of the bowl. It was a very smart fish, whenever the cat came near it would freeze and sink to the bottom. Which thus prevented it from being eaten until this point. So the poor thing was on its last legs (fins, whatever), but it was unfortunate that its last few minutes were so traumatic.

We may get another fish though. For one, it was quite a nice countertop decoration and conversation starter. For two, the cat will really miss it. Le chat et le poisson had quite an effective symbiotic relationship going on, the cat would drink nice fishy water (eww) and then we would keep filling the bowl, thus the fish got its bowl cleaned quite often.

I'm just worried that the next fish might not be quite as smart and die at a young age.

I guess we'll see.

Ok, I'm out.

Please, don't let me hold you back.
-Boots

You can end the fallacy of innocence, I can see through your smooth contenance.

raien — 2004-06-14T08:06:00-05:00

* There's a lot of bullshit going on, and I just want all of you to know that I'm really not that naive. Please don't think I don't know exactly what's happening, because I'm not stupid, don't insult me. And you're really not overly subtle. I'm not going to start a confrontation, because I have no desire to create unnecessary drama, I'm just letting you know that I know. That's all I'm going to say. *

Yeah so I went riding tonight. Good ride. I got Katie over 4 foot. It was pretty exciting, I've never taken her that high before. She's fun. And I'm going to start working at the barn a couple of days a week, in exchange for extra riding time. Kristie just wants some shit done, and I really have nothing better to do with my summer.

Mmmm. James, in an unusual act of charity, just gave me a chocolate chip cookie. Yum. I wonder what he wants. Hmph. Nothing is free. There is no free lunch (or cookie).

I have my Chem final tomorrow. I have to get at least a B on it to get a B for the semester, and I have a sinking feeling that that's not going to happen. Oh well. Such is life.

Ok, well I'm out.
Beauty is as beauty does.
-Boots

Untitled

raien — 2004-06-14T08:06:00-05:00

it wasn't Me who said that-
was not Me who spread the lies
it wasn't Me who broke You
(yet I'm the one who cries?)

Unrequitted Love hurts most
(like Spear-Thrust-through-the-Lung)
the Seering Pain within the breast
still-though-not as painful as the Tongue

which dost spread a myriad of Sins
(at best) a cacophany of Lust
the Perfect Sphere (how?) it falters
bringing Hate, Fear, then Mistrust

I loved Thee with my whole Heart
I gave my Soul to thine
(don't forget I gave my Body too)
then You broke Me, crushed my spine

if Treachery be my Lover
and Emptiness fill my Soul
then end my Life (just quickly)
drop me in a Lonely Hole

I will rot in Silence
(a Souless fretting Beast)
music shall not calm my Lust
for Agony be my Feast

Yet Another Survey (I Am Bored)

raien — 2004-06-15T08:06:00-05:00

1) Using band names, spell out your first name:
W-Weezer
H-Hoobastank
I-Incubus
T-The Cure
N-Nine Inch Nails
E-Evanescence
Y-Yellocard
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
Yeah, nad a bunch of poems.
3) What song makes you cry?
My Immortal-Evanescence, 100 Years-Five For Fighting
4) What song makes you happy?
LA Song-Beth Hart, Hey Ya-Outkast, and a bunch of others
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
Beth Hart, 104.1, 101.1, The Offspring
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber:
Loco
7) Who were your idols when you were younger?
Albert Einstein, Garrison Keeler
8) First album you ever bought?
Spice Girls! I had all of their albums.
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why:
Love Song by the Cure reminds me of Mark from HSFtival, Sweet Transvestite from Rocky Horror PS reminds me of Melissa, Silver and Cold by AFI reminds me of Jen because she loves AFI, Just A Little Hole by Beth Hart reminds me of Emily because she's emo and brave

a p p e a r a n c e

HEIGHT: 5'7
HAIR COLOR: Brown
SKIN COLOR: Nicely tanned (ha ha)
EYE COLOR: Greenish (they change color)
PIERCINGS: Ears, but I'm getting my eyebrow, bellybutton, and second hole this summer
TATTOOS: None

r i g h t n o w

WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: Blue shorts
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Nothing actually

f a v o r i t e s

TV SHOW: That 70s Show, and Kitty is my favorite character
CONDITIONER: Pantene Pro-V Volume Booster
BOOK: Way too many to decide, but I read Angels and Demons yesterday and it was awesome
MAGAZINE: National Geographic
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Virgin Strwberry Daquiris
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Strawberry daquiris, licorice vodka in little Russian men (ha ha ask Maggie about that one), JD, Kamikazis, Martinis on the rocks, Smirnoffs, Mike's hard lemonade and ice tea
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Party, shop, horseback ride, work out, run, read
BAND or GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Beth Hart

h a v e y o u

BROKEN THE LAW: ...Yes.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yes
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: No that's really really gross
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: Yes....oh my yes...
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: Yeah lol, in fact I have every intention of skipping tomorrow. I skip all the time.
FALL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: Not that I know of.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: Yes, and I crew. A lot.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes.

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: Yes! (Marks hot)
CURRENT CRUSH: Mel's grandma
BEEN HURT?: Yes, tragically
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: I don't believe in regrets.

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: Prostitution. I mean....no. I'm unemployed.
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON,WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Sage green
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: Xanthematic!

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

TIME YOU CRIED?: A long time ago-I don't cry
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: A long itme ago.
YOU GOT E-MAIL: Like....bam....now.
THING YOU PURCHASED: Ummm. Well I've been grounded. Oh, it was a bottle of Sun-In.

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

ABORTION: Pro-Choice all the way
SPICE GIRLS: They were like....my favorite.
DREAMS: Can often reveal things you never knew about yourself.

You don't need me.

raien — 2004-06-19T02:06:00-05:00

I have decided that I hate computers more than life. They just suck really really bad. So I'm not going to use them anymore. Well, at least not until school starts back up. Computers are a waste of my time.

So if any of you need to get a hold of me, you're going to have to call me. I'm sorry if that's an inconvenience to you.

Farewell, I'll be back in September, or maybe sometime during the summer.

Au revoir!
-Boots

Stuck in the Moulin Rouge

raien — 2004-07-10T07:07:00-05:00

I just got back from Michigan with Matt's youth group. I learned a lot about Christianity. I like it even less now. If one more person tries to "save my soul" I'm going to send their souls into the afterlife in about 2 seconds flat.

I helped build 5 rooves this week.

Me: Skip this song, the F-word is in it.
Matt: Sarah McLaughlin has songs with the F-word in it???
Me: Yeah...
Matt: But she's like....40!!
Me: What, do you think cursing is like menopause?

I met a beautiful boy this week. I fell in love with him. Maybe not love, but still... We'll call it unbridled passion. (Except for the fact that it was bridled-he was too Christian to have sex with me.) Unfortunately, he's from South Carolina. Why are all the guys I love trapped in the south? ::sigh:: Ah well.

For some reason, I feel overwhelminly depressed. Maybe it's the fact that Matthew and I got in a fight. Or maybe it's just that I haven't talked to any of my friends in weeks. I just feel...disconnected. Lonely, even though I'm surrounded by people.

I'm going to skedaddle. Call me up if you want to hang out.

If only you can see it, does it still exist?
-Whitney

Shake it like a Polaroid picture!

raien — 2004-07-20T04:07:00-05:00

Drivers Ed is the most boring 30 hours of my life. A complete waste of my time. Oh well. At least I'll be getting my license soon.

Yeah, so the rents are out of town-and they took James with them. So Marguerite takes me to Driver's school in the morning, brings me back, then stays here until about 5:00. So Mom says I have to sleep at the neighbor's, but I don't have to go over there until 10:00. I don't get it. She trusts me alone here for 5 hours, but heaven forbid I slept here! I can get into plenty of trouble in 5 hours, let me tell you that! Here are just a few rules I've broken so far:
1. No smoking.
2. No drinking.
3. No friends over.
4. Definately no boys over.
5. No boys ever allowed in your bedroom.
5. No boys EVER allowed naked in your bedroom.
Oops. Well hopefully Mommy dear will never learn of any of this. I think I'm ok, the trash and recycling got taken out today and I think all the smoking/drinking/etc. evidence was removed. Hopefully.

One catch though. Mommy dear has people staying in our empty slip at the dock, so there were people in my house to use the bathroom, laundry, etc., and they definately saw that I had guests over. I just hope they don't say anything to my parents, because that would be the end of my life. The very end. And certainly the last time they left me here alone.

So yeah. I might go see the Producers tomorrow in DC with Ricky, Jen, Thorn, Leo, Rachel, Christina, Dusak, and Brett. Yeah man! Good times all round.

Ok, well I'm going to go take a shower, wait for Mum's secretary to leave, and then have people over. He he more rule breaking.

You know you're just a couple of rich white girls when you're sitting in your shed drinking Merlot and smoking Ultra Lights.

-Boots

Everybody like parfaits!

raien — 2004-07-22T02:07:00-05:00

The theatre was so much fun last night! It was me, Thorn, Jen, Ricky, Rachel, Ryan, Christina, Brett, and Leo. We saw Sheer Madness at the Kennedy Center, which, I might add, is an absolutely gorgeous theatre. And the play was so funny! Gay humor and sexual innuendos galour! I'm really surprised they didn't kick us off the Metro. We were so friggin loud. Great times though. We should do that more often.

So today I went to Driver's Ed, which was painfully boring as usual. But hey, what can you do? I need a license.

But the nice thing is that I'm getting a job at CVS which is really close to my house, so I won't have to drive there, thus I can get a job before I get my license. Of course, I'll see how I manage to balance work and school.

I've got to go to the bank today and deposit more money int my now reasonably sized car fund. I might rethink the Sebring convertible, though, because it would be nice to have money left over. But we'll see I guess. I really do love that car though...

Only 7 days left til Europe! Yay!

Extra extra read all about it! One more killer goes free!
-Boots

If I had a million dollars, I'd buy a spaceship. A pink one.

raien — 2004-07-29T12:07:00-05:00

Maybe it's the feeling of not being in control. Maybe it's the unnatural pressure of the air. Maybe it's the mass of people jammed into such a small space. I don't know what it is. But I hate flying.

Tonight, I will be in an airplane, flying across the Atlantic Ocean, for 7 hours. I'd rather take a boat. Nevermind a boat, I'd rather take a raft. Anything but a damn airplane.

I'm not afraid of flying. I'm not even afraid of getting in a plane crash and dying. I suppose I just hate the fact that if I was to die, my family would die with me.

Of course, statistics show that I'm not going to die on that plane. And I most likely won't. And I'm aware of that fact. Death doesn't concern me.

I hate the smell. That airplane smell. Stale air, sweat, chemicals, airline food (Limp lettuce, spongy yellow cheese, rubbery chicken). And the noise. It's just so...loud. Maybe if everyone just sat for a moment and didn't say anything, I could breathe and stop panicking.

But that will never happen. No one appreciates the value of silence anymore. People find it necessary to fill their lives with mindless chatter. Of course, I too am guilty of this atrocity, but at least I am aware that it is an absolute sham.

The constant rambling is just that, a sham. People lying, exagerating, stretching the truth, whatever you want to call it. They sit on that plane, next to someone they will never exchange words with again, and blatantly lie, to make themselves seem more interesting.

Well, my daughter just graduated from Harvard and my son got a full scholarship to Yale. Where did I go to school? Oh, Oxford.

It's just a big competition. Everyone wants to seem more impressive than the person sitting next to them. Which I understand, but sometimes, it gets out of hand.

You might have gone to Oxford, but Bill Clinton is my uncle and I'm engaged to be married to a member of the British royal family. And my mother? She used to date Brad Pitt, but she left him because he didn't have enough money. My father is way up there in Microsoft, second only to that Bill Gates fellow.

People on airplanes are the best liars. They have to be, or they'd never survive. It's a passenger eat passenger world up there.

Act One of "England: Why I Love It"

raien — 2004-08-02T09:08:00-05:00

SCENE 1: Grandad is sitting out on the patio, with a gun across his lap. Mum enters.

Mum: What the hell is that for?

Grandad: It's a pellet gun. It's for the bloody squirrels. They keep eating the bloody birds' bloody food. (Accentuate the word "bloody" as much as possible, and thank the Lord for good English slang.)

Mum: Isn't that how you broke the shed window?

Grandad: No, lovie, that was the catapult.

SCENE 2: In the family room, Grandad and Dad (AKA Embarrassing overzealous American twat) are out for the evening. Mum, Nana, Whitney, and James are sitting in various chairs. Whitney is in Grandad's chair, merely hoping that he doesn't come home early and find her in it. She's much too tired to outrun the pellet gun.

Nana: Damn, I've broken my glasses.

Mum: Where are they?

(Nana continues to stare blankly ahead.)

Mum: Mum? Mum? MUM?

Nana: (Turns.) Yes, love?

Mum: Where are they? (In a loud voice, on account of Nana's near deafness.)

Nana: Where are what, love?

Mum: Your glasses.

Nana: Oh...I'm sitting on them.

SCENE 3: Whitney, James, and Mum in the hardware store, in Wollaston Village. James has to get a new watch battery and Grandad knows the man who owns the shop. Grandad has instructed James to tell the store owner (Chris) that he is Grandad's grandson.

James: I need a watch battery.

Chris: Alright, lad, that'll be two pounds seventy-five.

James: Do you know Bert Maile?

Chris: Yes, lad, are you related?

James: Yeah, he's my Grandfather.

Chris: (Very gravely.) Well, son, everyone has their cross to bear. He just happens to be yours. I do apologize though. That's an awful lot of cross to bear.

(James, chuckles, unsure as to whether or not he's serious.)

Chris: Mind you, I like him rather a lot. Though he can be grumpy sometimes. But then again, maybe that's why we get along so well. (As an afterthought.) By the way, your Grandfather asked me to order this furniture polish special for him, so I placed an order. Will you take him a can?

(Back at the house, Grandpa is sitting at his computer.)

James: Grandad, Chris at the hardware store ordered this special for you.

Grandad: (Laughs sadistically.) Tell him I don't want it.

END ACT 1

Written and experienced by: BOOTS

Act 2 (Read Act 1 first)

raien — 2004-08-04T01:08:00-05:00

(This one is awfully dramatic, have tissues on hand. Save us all. Good Grief.)
SCENE 1: Whitney is in her bedroom, all wet. (This is not of pornographic nature, she just got out of the shower, you silly prat.) As she's drying off with a towel, she hears a knock.

Whitney: Just a min-

(The door bursts open, and a tall lanky teenage boy with sandy brown hair shoves in, closing the door behind him.)

Whitney: (Yelling) JESUS CHRIST! I'M NAKED! OUT!

Geoff*: You're wearing a towel. It suits you, actually, love. Though feel free to take it off at any time.

Whitney: Geoff, I'm bloody naked! Get out!

Geoff: I've seen you naked dozens of times. We've taken tons of baths together. And you used to run around nudie in my back yard.

Whitney: I was like 4 years old!

Geoff: No, actually, you were like 8. And I was 11. Wow, that's almost pedophilia. Grand.

Whitney: I don't care. That was years ago.

Geoff: I suppose it was. But, if you don't mind me saying, the years have treated you rather well. I don't see you for three, and you come back quite hot.

Whitney: Oh, fuck off. I've been kicking your ass since I was 6 years old. I'll do it again.

Geoff: Just mind you don't drop that towel. Oh, and by the way, I can see a bit of your bum. And-my Gosh-is that inner thigh? You'd better cover that up. Being that you're so prude and all.

Whitney: (Snorts) Prude? Good Lord, we really haven't spoken for three years, have we?

Geoff: Well, I wrote to you. You never wrote back. (Glances at her.) I did nick one of the letters you wrote Jenna, though. It was very interesting. Five sexual partners in less than a year, lass? My my, you have been busy.

Whitney: (Blushes.) Bugger off. It's none of your business.

Geoff: Why not make it six, then? I promise you a good time. (He reaches out to touch her, she backs away and shakes her head.)

Whitney: I've been down this road with you before, Geoff. Besides, I have people waiting for me at home.

Geoff: (Looks amused.) People? As in more than one?

Whitney: Well there's one, and then there's the others who expect me to remain chaste on my vacation.

Geoff: Well they're all thousands of miles away. My house is empty, Mum's out for the afternoon and Dad is in Taiwan. No one will ever know.

Whitney: You're wrong, Geoff. I'd know. And I don't want that on my fucking conscience. Plus, it would ruin our friendship.

Geoff: (Angry.) What bloody friendship? Three years, no letter, no phone call, nothing. You told me you'd write once a week! You fucking promised! Three summers ago, you told me you loved me!

Whitney: Christ, I was 13 years old! Have you really been milling this over for 3 bloody years?

Geoff: I missed you so much! You have no idea, you shallow heartless bitch!

Whitney: God dammit, don't start this with me! I live across the fucking Atlantic Ocean! You wanted to maintain a healthy realtionship with a 13 year old 3000 miles away??

Geoff: We could have tried!

Whitney: Ok, so we could have. But it never would have worked. You know that. Calm the fuck down. Nothing that happened three years ago would make today any different. We'd still be fighting over the same stupid shit we always fight over.

Geoff: I never fight! You just pick at me! I was never good enough for you, was I? You always had a fucking better offer. You still do, don't you!

Whitney: What the hell do you want from me? Would it make you happy if I fucking slept with you? Is that what you fucking want from me?

(Geoff is silent for a moment, he stares at the ceiling.)

Geoff: (Shakes his head. Speaks quietly, almost a whisper.) My Mum has always said that you and I would end up getting married.

Whitney: (Quietly.) I know. My Mum has always said that too. They've probably been planning it for years.

Geoff: Yeah...

Whitney: Alright then, let me get dressed. Want to go to the club later? I could use a drink.

Geoff: Can't, I'm going out with some guys from the soccer team tonight. You can come though, if you want. We're just going to a pub near Billy's house.

Whitney: No thanks. But I'll see you tomorrow, then? (Geoff shrugs.) Ok, well whatever. Geoff? (She pauses.) I'm really sorry.

Geoff: No, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you can't see it.

Whitney: See what?

Geoff: Nothing, love. (He heads to the door.) Oh and by the way, Mum wants you to come round for tea tomorrow.

(Geoff exits.)

(Whitney sits down on the bed and sighs, completely exasperated.)

END SCENE 1

Terribly stressful day. Good Lord. ::Sigh::

*Name has been changed. No, wait. It hasn't.

Alright well its past 1:00 am here. I've got to get up early tomorrow, Becky and I are going shopping in Burmingham.

-Boots

Why Melissa Bradley is my one true love.

raien — 2004-08-07T09:08:00-05:00

president said: MY PENIS
PunkyRockaChicka: Your penis?? What about your penis???
president said: it's.... so....
president said: HUGE
PunkyRockaChicka: I KNOW...I was sore for a week!
president said: I saw the cure, and this is the conversation me and my new husband had:
president said: "'My penis, my good man, is larger than yours could ever be.'
'Well, why don't we have a look?'
'I'm afraid if I whipped it out, it would slap Robert Smith over there clear across the face, and everyone here tonight would jump me for stopping the show with my grandiose phallus.'"

PunkyRockaChicka: LMAO
president said: I thought you'd enjoy that. As a matter of fact I was thinking about you when I'd said it.
PunkyRockaChicka: lol I believe you
PunkyRockaChicka: I was thinking of you when I accidentally sat on a rolling pin and it went up my ass
president said: LMAOROFL
president said: LOLOLOLOL
president said: LMAOROFL
president said: serious?
president said: Because that would be wonderful.
PunkyRockaChicka: Lol of course....and as I was rectally bleeding, I was thinking of you
president said: lmaorofl
president said: lololol
president said: Hold on
president said: *fart*
PunkyRockaChicka: lol
president said: There. I just thought about you.
PunkyRockaChicka: lmao
president said: We're cracking ourselves up, aren't we?
president said: *fart* *fart* *fart*
president said: :::farts Ode to Joy:::
PunkyRockaChicka: lol I'm like.....falling out of the chair, I hope I don't land on a rolling pin.
president said: :-O
president said: I'm laughing so hard I'm about to piss myself. OH! Don't tell Cole!
PunkyRockaChicka: Ow shit that was a cordless phone
PunkyRockaChicka: God I'm a LOOSE WOMAN
president said: What? What's that you say?
president said: You say you want to listen to an R. Kelly CD?
president said: :::pisses on CD::: There you are.
PunkyRockaChicka: lmao

Dear Diary

raien — 2004-08-07T09:08:00-05:00

Everyone keeps telling me that I should post here about my England trip. So I will. Ok, well I guess I'll start at the beginning.

Friday:
The plane landed at Heathrow in London at about 10 am. Of course it took over an hour to get through customs, even though we got to skip some lines because Mum knows how. There are all theses tricks to get out of standing in lines in airports, they're quite handy. Granddad was at the terminal, then we hopped in his little car with Mom, James, and I squished in the back for the two hour drive to Wollaston. James kept falling asleep on my shoulder and I had to keep plonking him in the ear to get him to bugger off. Cheeky monkey. And his head is quite scratchy. I got back to the house and said 'Hi' to Nan (loudly, she's mostly deaf), but couldn't get to sleep until almost 4 am because of the awful jet lag.

Saturday:
I didn't really do much at all on Saturday. I sat around, read Daisy Miller, and went for a run.

Sunday:
I went to Merry Hill today with Becky and James, and I got my second holes done. The piercing age without parental consent is only 16 here. Mum got a little miffed when she noticed, but oh well. I have every intention of getting my third holes and possibly my cartilage done before I go back to the states. Eat my trousers, Mum.

Monday:
I don't remember what I did, and I can't be bothered to find out.

Tuesday:
I don't remember this as being a very eventful day, though I know I went to the Vine (a pub) with Becky and my family and had lunch. We walked down the canal. Dad, as always, took lots of long-winded video and bothered the other people there. It's a wonder no one has ever shot him.

Wednesday:
Becky and I took the train to Worcester. It was a great day, we basically shopped all day. I bought three new very awesome pairs of pants, one of them being rainbow, thus especially awesome. We had Subway for lunch. The Subway subs here taste mysteriously similar to the ones in the US...hmmm... Then laser tag later that evening, which was smashing. I came in 2nd out of 13. Absolutely fab.

Thursday:
We went to Stratford-Upon-Avon today (that's where Shakespeare was born, you uncultured git). We saw Hamlet performed by the Royal Shakespeare Company. It was quite excellent, though almost four hours long. James cut out after the first half, I don't think he's mature enough to appreciate fine theatre *haughty sniff*.

Friday:
Not much today, though I went to the Vine for lunch again, and then for a walk. We did Laser tag that night, which was fun, but not as good as last time. There weren't as many people playing, and all of them were hiding, so it was hard to move about without getting sniped. Bother.

Saturday:
Today was fun. I shopped all day. Becky, James and I walked into Stourbridge and I hit all the second hand shops. There were loads of them, and a lot of them had really spiff stuff. I got a skirt, a pair of jeans, two tanktops, a black blouse that laces in the front, a backpack, a coffee mug, and an incense burner for less than thirty quid. Not bad, really. We took the bus home though, it was awfully hot for more walking.

Well, that's my week so far. If I remember anything else I did, I'll come back and add it in. I have to go do homework now though, I have sooooo much to do. Blah.

Tuesday Wednesday Heart Attack
-Boots

Paris

raien — 2004-08-13T01:08:00-05:00

I just got back from Paris late last night. It was actually a pretty cool city, though it did take some getting used to.

At least the weather was pretty good while we were there. Except as we were walking to the train station from our hotel, there was a torrential downpour. And it was coming down in buckets. It only lasted for about 15 minutes, but it was enough to get me thoroughly soaked. At least my LeSportSac bags are waterproof, ha ha. But of course, the storm managed to knock-out part of the train line, which meant we had to take a major detour. Thus, we were an hour and a half late arriving in London, we didn't get there until 8:40 pm. Our connection train left from Marylebone station at 8:48. So we ran through the London station, took a train to Marylebone, and ran through that station, only to miss our train to Worcester by 15 minutes. The realy unfortunate part was that the train we missed was the last train going to Worcester. So we ended up catching a train to Birmingham and then having my poor Grandfather drive up there (About 30 miles) at midnight. It's amazing how travelling wears one out.

We got to Paris at about 4:00 on Monday. We checked into Hotel Merryl (Actually, Hotel From Hell), and then we walked to the Sacre Coeur, which is the second highest point in Paris. It took a long time to get up there, and there was this claustraphobic never-ending spiral staircase to the top, but the view was breath-taking. After we climbed down all 500000 stairs, we got on a train and went to the Place de la Concord, which is this fountain and all these monuments. We walked along a very nice street with tons of boutiques, including Prada, Ralph Lauren, Gucci, and Dior. But I didn't buy anything, I was disgustingly practical the entire trip! Of course, the Dior bags were calling to me... For some reason, Dad said he wanted to see the Moulin Rouge. So we went to go see it, which meant we got to walk through the Red Light District. What an eye-opener! There were billboards covered in nude women! I have never seen so many nipples in my entire life. Good Lord. France is so much more liberal than the US.

The first night in the hotel was awful. The room was so tiny and the bathroom was even smaller. There was no air conditioning and it was hot as hell. And at 5 am, construction started right outside, so I didn't get to sleep in past 5:00 all week.

Tuesday morning we got up and walked to L'Arche de Triomphe, which was very pretty. I'd like to learn more about it though, because I really don't know its history. Then we walked to the Musee Marmottan, which has a huge collection of Monet's pieces. There were also some paintings by other Impressionist painters, like Degas and Renoir. It was a very nice museum, though it was off the map and I think it gets overlooked buy a lot of tourists. After that, we took the metro to Notre Dame and walked around inside for a little while. The architecture is incredible, but I guess it didn't really get to me. Maybe if I was deeply Catholic...or even somewhat Catholic...

Wednesday was the best day in Paris. We got up and walked down the Rue de Faubourg Saint Honore, which is where most of the designer boutiques are. It was nice, but I still prefer 5th Avenue. But I guess 5th Avenue might have been better just because it was with you and Sam. My parents are just bums, but ah well. (It has been confirmed that I was born into the wrong family.) After that, we walked to the Louvre. Oh my God, it was incredible! I spent 6 hours in that building, I could have spent 600! And the collection of 19th century French paintings, which are my favorite, was immense! There was just so much to take it. I'd like to spend twenty minutes looking at each piece, but I'd be there for months!

After the Louvre, we went to the top of the Eiffel Tower. Paris is beautiful at night. Not as bright as New York, and kind of sleepy after 7 pm, but still beautiful.

On Thursday we walked through the Latin Quarter, which is where all of the universities are. There wasn't much going on, because no one was in school, but the weather was nice and I had a great salad in a little Bistro.

All in all, Paris was pretty sweet. But Holy Crap its expensive! 7 Euros for a Diet Coke! That's like $8! And they don't call it Diet Coke in France, they call it Coke Light. Same thing though.

(This was actually part of an e-mail that I sent to Erin, but I didn't feel like writing all the same stuff twice. So I just cut and pasted most of it, leaving out a few things that were private and/or irrelevant.)

-Boots-

Mind Games

raien — 2004-08-18T11:08:00-05:00

If and when you count to ten
Go from one and start again
One two three four

Bang bang you're dead.

If I ever see anyone do anything that stupid again in my life, especially one of my friends, I will have a nervous breakdown. Jesus Fucking Christ.

Russian Roulette, right? It's only a game?

Well fuck you.

Mucho Excitement

raien — 2004-08-18T03:08:00-05:00

Guess what Whitney's getting!

Can't guess?

Still not?

A rhinoplasty!

Wooooo! (I hate my nose.)

Mom finally gave up trying to talk me out of it, and I have the money, so I should have it done right after Christmas. So excited. You have no idea.

I'm also considering a tongue piercing, which I might just go and get done today. We'll see.

Ok well I'm going out.
Ta.
-Boots

Current Mood: Elated

raien — 2004-08-19T11:08:00-05:00

I went to London today.

Harrods is a baaad baaaad place.

Oh dear.

Do I really need Dolce & Gabana underwear? Or a Dior tank top? Or a Versace skirt?

Yes.

Rahhhhhhh!

Day of mucho excellence and mucho mucho shopping. Yay for massive spendage of parents' hard earned money!

Just...yeah...good mood.

Didn't get my tongue pierced though. Might do it tomorrow, but I think Mum would find out, and then I'd be in trouble...again.

But she did agree to let me get a piercing of my choice if I get straight A's first semester. That would mean applying myself in school...ugh. So I guess we'll see. I should get my nipple pierced just to freak her out. Of course, I guess I could get that done and she'd never notice... Hmmm...

Ok well I'm going to get offline I think. There's no one online for me to talk to and I'm really bored. Bleh.

Spot my sunshine!
-Boots

Find the girl with the broken smile and ask her if she wants to stay for a while.

raien — 2004-08-23T07:08:00-05:00

Ugh. Woke up at 4:00 again. Stupid jet lag.

Last night was fun, Em, Jess, Chris, and Matt came over. But of course, my brother and his friends are just assholes so they wouldn't leave us alone.

I have so much shit to do before I leave for Oklahoma! And I still have to finish my AP US and my AP English homework. It's really really tempting to just drop AP US... But that would show some sign of sanity, now wouldn't it? So I guess I'll just deal with it. Bleh.

I think I'm going to Six Flags today. Hopefully Em can go, or we'll only have 3 people, which is a bad number for amusement parks.

Bahhh! Mum's bitching at me. Damn her. Damn her to hell.

I'm out.
-Boots

Say it ain't so, I will not go, turn the lights off, carry me home.

raien — 2004-08-23T08:08:00-05:00

Come back from Canada, Monkey, I misses you!

Fun day today. I went to Six Flags with Chase, Christina, Chris, and Matt. It was only from like 12:30 to 3:30, and I think we only did four rides, but it was still awesome. Though I do think Matt may have felt a bit like the fifth wheel... Oh well. And of course I was an hour late meeting him...which I felt really really bad about. Sorry buddy! And I got a pretty necklace. :)

I went driving for a couple of hours this evening. Dad says I'm doing really well and that I should have no trouble getting in the 40 hours by October 9th, which is when I officially can get my license. Yay! And then I have two hours scheduled with the instructor on Wednesday.

What's extra exciting is that Grandad gave me a -ton- of cash, so that majorly increases my car fund. Yay again! That Sebring Convertible is looking quite attainable...

Ok, well I really must work on my homework. I have to finish it all by Thursday, so I imagine I'll be working for a couple hours tonight and then like all day tomorrow. But oh well. I'm really dreading AP US... bleh.

Well, I'm out.
-Boots

(Perfection, like sculpture, is reached not when there is nothing left to add, but rather, when there is nothing left to take away.)

Aggggg

raien — 2004-08-25T06:08:00-05:00

Ok, so I have to be at the airport at like 6:00 am tomorrow. I am not happy. I still have some AP English to do, and I haven't even started my AP US. When I'm going to get all this done, I don't know. Bugger. Bugger it all.

Last night was crazy. I have had enough confrontations with cops to last me several lifetimes. Cops make me nervous. Bleh. Ah well. As long as my parents receive no phone call, I will receive no death sentence. So there.

Ok...so much to do and I don't know when I'm going to find the time to do it. Ah well.

I got film developed, by the way, those shots of Jen's hair last night in the convertible are hilarious!

-Boots

So Fuck off, then.

raien — 2004-08-29T08:08:00-05:00

Yesterday was incredible. I have never been that drunk. I couldn't even hold my damn cigarette. Eventually John just had to hold it in my mouth. It was so funny. Though awfully bad for me.

You know what else is bad for me? Zanax, Valium, and 9 Double Clubs....plus a lot of beer. I should stop stealing my friends' prescription meds.

I met all these people that I've never met before. Some I'm related to and some I'm not.

And we danced. We danced all night. Maybe that's what I miss most. The dancing. I love to dance. It's even better when one is drunk, then one has no inhibitions. I danced with everyone. There were all these people around me...and everyone looked beautiful and everyone was happy...complete unadulterated joy. Why does no one here dance?

I'm going to go finish my mountain of homework.

-Boots

It rains when she cries.

raien — 2004-08-29T09:08:00-05:00

You know what's harsh?

When you finally realize that no matter how hard you try to be perfect, you never will be.

No matter how hard you try to be good, you're always going to fuck up.

No matter how much you want something, you're never going to get it.

No matter how many times you apologize, you can't take it back.

No matter how many lies you tell, you can never change the past.

You can't change what you are. People don't change. They just get scared. And they lie. Sorry.

I'm so depressed. Good Lord.

Life's tough, isn't it?

School tomorrow. Unless there's a plague. Then maybe they'll cancel it.

Summer vacation died. My freewill died with it. Bugger.

raien — 2004-08-30T02:08:00-05:00

First day of school. Back to reality. Here's my schedule:
A Day:
AP Environmental Science
Honors French IV
AP English Language and Composition (C Lunch)
AP US History
B Day:
AP Art History
Honors Pre-Calculus
Journalism
Theatre III-Independent Study

So there we go. I have to scuttle off, time for an orthodontist appointment.

-Boots

(And I will quit smoking, willpower is not an issue.)

I owe you one.

raien — 2004-09-02T09:09:00-05:00

My Mom deserves more respect than I could evergive her. She has been so good to me. You have absolutely no idea.

Hopefully we get to go to the Switchfoot concert tomorrow, yes? That would be super awesome.

18 pieces of art analyzed, 38 to go. Then Pre-Calc homework, Chapter 4 work for AP US, and that might just be it for the weekend.....woooo.

I've been so studious!

I'm out like a light.
Flash!
-Booooots

Meant to Live

raien — 2004-09-04T12:09:00-05:00

Oh. My. God.

I just got back from a Switchfoot concert. It was so fucking incredible!

Jen and I pushed our way through the crowd, and we found this chair, so we stood on it. We had to cling to each other for two hours so as not to fall off. But we were so fucking close to the stage! And we had the best view, front and center, higher than anybody! The music was phenomenal. Chad, the lead singer, pointed at Jen and I. It was so awesome! And they played a bunch of brand new sounds. I'm so happy right now. Elated!

I have to go, time for bed!
-Boots

Woah they redid Mindsay

raien — 2004-09-06T07:09:36-05:00

Sweeeeeet! Mindsay is bangin now! In your face lj!
Yeah, so I got a job today. Cory took me back at Monster Booth! Yay! And I found this really really hot corset that I'm going to buy next weekend. Yes!

And I have an interview at Baskin Robbins tomorrow...so I'll have two jobs! Good Lord...
Ok, well I'm out, still have AP US to do!

Twisted Pixie Wit

raien — 2004-09-08T06:09:47-05:00

Once upon a midnight (moonlight)
Save a soul and say it's alright
Question what the angel said
And slip ye softly off to bed
Broken nails and broken hearts
Where children cry and parents farce
Sharp toothed wit and angry grin
(Jingling bells) Black Ria's in
Pixie girl smiles on the outside
Can't remember last time she cried
On the inside so she bleeds
And oh so slowly she recedes
Broken nails and broken hearts
Where children cry and parents farce
Nothing can be what it seems
When your whole life is only dreams
If moment (perfect) were to last
Only future, forget past
Then maybe all would come to life
And no lost souls spend lonely nights-
-on city streets where people cry
Waiting for their turn to die
Mourning-yet-their loved ones gone
Streaming tears go on and on
Broken nails and broken hearts
Where children cry and parents farce
Saying it will be alright
Slip slowly off on cloud at night

Isn't it ironic?

raien — 2004-09-13T09:09:58-05:00

I really think it's funny how much subtlety people lack. I love all of my peers who walk around, obviously completely miserable or at least pretending to be, and then act like they think no one knows about it. If you don't tell someone you're sad/lonely/upset/etc, they won't know, right? Wrong. Wrong wrong wrong wrong.
See, my theory is that these people just want attention. They want to disrupt everyone else's happy lives with their own misfortune. If they're miserable, no one else has the right to be happy! Of course not! That seems to be a completely foreign concept to most people, the idea that misery doesn't have to be universal.
You can be as amicable as you want, but try not to be so obviously deceptive. And actually, deceptive isn't even the right word, because that requires subtlety! Of which no one has any!
If you are upset with someone, or want something done, then fucking do it. Tell the person why you're upset. Excuse my crude tongue, but don't be such a fucking pussy! Suck it up, and make a confrontation. Worst that can happen? You lose a friend. Oh well. At least maybe you can have some self-respect. And excuse the adage, but no one ever got what they wanted just by wanting it!
One more teeny thing. The masochism? This crazy thing that most people seem to have grown out of, but some people just keep clinging to? Yeah, well, good luck with that. I don't care whether it's cutting, burning, starving, or emotional, but cut it out! Grow up! Not to be hypocritical or anything, but maybe by the time one is an upper classman, one should know better. And even sophomores! Freshmen, fine. They're young, stupid, of course they'll cut. And they certainly don't learn not to from their older classmates!
So there's my two cents for the evening. People need to chill the fuck out. And not start drama. I'm so fucking sick of it, it makes me want to vomit.
Just get some fucking self-respect. Life's tough. Get over it. At least you're alive right? You could be six feet under. Not even grateful for that? Well, fuck you then. Just fuck you!
Now that I've suitably ruffled my feathers, I'm going to go do my APUSH work. Thank you all for making my eveing oh so pleasant, after I just learned that my barn has sold all its school horses and has dropped the lesson program. Not that I'm complaining or anything, but hey, thank you all the same.
I can't be happy all the time.
-Whitney

no subject

raien — 2004-09-19T06:09:25-05:00

bold that which applies.

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with new things.
03. I'm the youngest child. From my mom and dad.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I love wearing a lot of black eyeliner.
07. I love Daquires.
08. I love the weekends.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags (Coach, Burberry, Louis Vuitton).
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
17. I love the Backsreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I am a person.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen Shes all That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I was smarter.
39. I am the hottest bachelor [ seein how i am a man! ].
40. I hate drama.
41. No one knows my full story of my life.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have had a broken bone.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play in a band.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person (at times).
59. I love to dance.
60. I love to sing.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily. Boys and friends.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I hate when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love playdoh.
69. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things.
73. I don't drink enough to get drunk.
74. I love running.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I love the Olsen twins.
79. I'm gonna try out for the softball team.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Bam Margera is AWESOME.
84. I love the smell of fresh laundry.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I hate the feeling of failure.
90. I love having my neck bitten.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid sometimes.
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I can stay on the computer forever.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.

Maybe if I just went away for a little while, then would things be ok?

raien — 2004-09-20T08:09:08-05:00

Awww, I went riding tonight. So sad. My riding muscles have all but disappeared. I haven't ridden since, oh maybe June. It's really really depressing. :(
And who knows when I'll get to ride again, with me searching for a new barn and all.
Holy shit, it's after 8pm. I just realized that and I have a ton of homework to do! A 50 page chapter to read in that awful dry AP US textbook and then 6 essays to write. And I have
Fuckers. Looks like I'll be late in bed.
Ah well.
-Boots

Should be doing homwork...

raien — 2004-09-20T10:09:58-05:00

PunkyRockaChicka (10:18:29 PM): I just plow through stuff. Doesn't mean I'm good at it. If I read something, I get it, it doesn't really matter what it is. I'm not particularly extraordinarily talented at anything, I just kind of absorb things well.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:18:36 PM): I'm like....a knowledge sponge.
CSTphoenix (10:18:41 PM): lol
PunkyRockaChicka (10:19:10 PM): Which makes me give off the impression of being relatively intelligent, though I think that's more due to circumstance than actuality.
CSTphoenix (10:20:16 PM): you are intelligent, although I do have to say that any amount of intelligence, when compared relatively in this country, can make anyone seem...up there.
CSTphoenix (10:20:53 PM): But you really are. I don't think I'd be able to stand you if you weren't the least bit smarter than I on many points...
CSTphoenix (10:21:02 PM): and you are.
CSTphoenix (10:21:32 PM): wow...I think a large chunk of my ego just broke off and died...
PunkyRockaChicka (10:21:49 PM): Yeah....I think I might copy that and save it forever
CSTphoenix (10:21:54 PM): feel free
CSTphoenix (10:24:17 PM): then this year, I noticed something
CSTphoenix (10:24:27 PM): I don't really excel at anything because I don't apply myself.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:24:36 PM): I have the same problem
PunkyRockaChicka (10:24:57 PM): We are in the same boat. And we're going to have to bail it out, or we're going to sink.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:25:03 PM): My metaphor of the evening.
CSTphoenix (10:25:08 PM): agreed
CSTphoenix (10:25:26 PM): and I'm working on it, and learning how to swim - just in case.
PunkyRockaChicka (10:25:41 PM): Yay for continuation of the metaphor!
CSTphoenix (10:25:45 PM): lol
(I love literary devices. Knowledge sponge and sinking boat, two rather aqueous comparisons, a damp simile and a wet metaphor. Oh yeah!)

Sonnet 1

raien — 2004-09-21T09:09:05-05:00

Leap o'er bubbling brook and twist'd stream
Through cobwebs dew-clothed and thorned briar
Watch shrewd wood sprites toil and coy fairies dream
Clever nymphs dance blood red in yonder fire

Oh creatures fair and ugly all at time
Monsters with fragranc'd breath and pointed teeth
Speak thou in silver'd word with fancied rhyme
Tho, watch for blackened heart that lies beneath

Traipsing through the forest deep, get not lost
For cunning spirits roam amid these woods
Neglect thine trail and thee will pay the cost
Raped of thy purse and stolen of thy goods

When thee chooses to wander in yon fern
Mind spirits or sharp lesson will be learn’d

So much for my happy ending.

raien — 2004-09-22T04:09:06-05:00

This whole 'me getting straight As' thing....it's weird. I guess I'm just not used to getting good grades....this is the first time I've ever really applied myself. First time in years, at least. It's not like I've gotten smarter or anything, because I'm fairly sure that I haven't. But I scared myself last year. I didn't even make honor roll fourth marking period. For the first time in my life, I was an average student.
I've always been 'above average.' But really, what does that mean? That I can pull off better than mediocre grades without really putting in any effort? That, I can do. Without any problem. Sadly, that's what I did all last year. I know a lot of people would kill to be able to do what I do, and I'm not being pretentious, but I'm quite aware that I have certain abilities. I've never really had a problem with school work. I've never gotten a D or an E, and I've only ever gotten 1 C, and that was last year. It has made me lazy. I suppose it's somewhat of a burden, moreso than a blessing.
So, when I apply myself, I can be on top. I'm just disappointed that I didn't start applying myself until now, because if I had started a few years ago, I'd probably be valedictorian. That would get me into Columbia, wouldn't it?
I'm concerned about my future. What if I don't go to the right college? What if I don't choose the right career? What if I don't end up where I'm supposed to be? What if I don't meet my full potential?
What if, indeed.
Suitably pensive.
-Boots

Harlot's Tune

raien — 2004-09-23T08:09:09-05:00

And so the vixen said:
My dear,
Come list'n to this song.
I'll twist and turn the words about
and court you all night long.

Once a maiden fair,
she said,
was strolling by the brook.
She chanced across a reddened flow'r
and stopped to take a look.

Before she knew what happened,
her gown,
was stripped from her pale skin.
What of my modesty? she cried.
Then tried to hide her sin.

She heard a sound behind her,
a twig,
snapped under toiling foot.
She started and prepared to run,
But heard a voice: Stay put.

Thrown about her shoulders,
a cloak,
she clutched it e'er so near.
She spun round to say a thank you,
but there was no one there!

She peeked down at the foliage,
alas,
The crimson flow'r: Gone!
She searched by night, she searched by day.
Then gave up came the dawn.

The harlot ceased at this point,
Quiet,
she said, There's pixies near.
They've come to hear their story told.
Just be aware: they're here.

And with that she continued.
She said,
The poor maid fin'lly quit.
She reached the end of her searching.
Then found a rock to sit.

What a shock she was to have,
oh my,
the rock was not a rock!
'Twas truly a reddend flow'r,
From top to stem to dock.

At last I've found my flow'r,
she said,
my quest is at an end.
With that she threw the cloak off,
and went to find her friend.

They made love in the forest,
all night,
woke the dead with their screams.
The next day when the maid came to,
she feared it was a dream.

But of course if was not so,
alack,
the fantasy was real.
The ground 'neath her was laced with fire,
the color of cold steel.

But her love was not in sight.
She cried,
his name was fair Oberon.
And sadly he ne'er returned.
There she still sits, withdrawn.

The vixen said, now it ends,
tragic,
The poor maid's heart grew small.
Ne'er once did she love again.
An' lost her flow'r after all.

Bored

raien — 2004-09-23T09:09:20-05:00

Using band names that you like, spell out your name:
W-Weezer
H-Hoobastank
I-Incubus
T-Three Doors Down
N-Nine Inch Nails
E-Eagles
Y-Yellowcard

Have you ever had a song written about you? Hm, I don't think so.
What songs makes you cry? My Immortal by Evanescence and 100 Years by Five for Fighting, LA Song by Beth Hart
What song makes you happy? Anything from the Rocky Horror soundtrack, Feeling This by Blink 182
What do you listen to before going to bed? 104.1

a p p e a r a n c e

HAIR COLOR: Naturally? Uhhh...dark brown. Right now? Dark blonde.
SKIN COLOR: Uhhh.....average?
EYE COLOR: Green--hazel-grey, they change
PIERCINGS: Ears done three times each, but I'm getting my tongue done
TATTOOS: None
HEIGHT: 5'8
BODY: Not good.

r i g h t n o w

WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: Yellow Joe Boxer boxers with a smiley face on the crotch
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Linkin Park - Numb
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Diet Coke
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Average fall weather....still pretty warm
HOW ARE YOU?: I'm ok....but my stomach really hurts.

d o y o u

GET MOTION SICKNESS?: No
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Lots
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: No
LIKE TO DRIVE?: It's ok.

f a v o r i t e s

TV SHOW: That 70s Show
CONDITIONER: John Frieda
MAGAZINE: National Geographic
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Any diet soda
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Anything! lol, no I'm serious...except beer. I love vodka.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Sex, hang out, shop, sleep, work, etc.
BAND or GROUP or SINGER: The Beatles

h a v e y o u

BROKEN THE LAW: Yes
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: No
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: Yes
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: Yes (Ha ha guys)
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yes
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: No
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: Yes
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: Yes
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: Yes
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: Yes...I'm in Midsummer right now....and I crew them...Good lord
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes

l o v e

BOYFRIEND: Yes
GIRLFRIEND: Nope
SEXUALITY: Straight
CHILDREN: Never!!!
CURRENT CRUSH: You.
BEEN IN LOVE?: Yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: Yes
BEEN HURT?: Yes
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: I don't really believe in regrets.
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: No

r a n d o m

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Goo Goo Dolls - Dizzy Up The Girl
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Green
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: Success.
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: All of my friends.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: No idea
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: Em, Chris, Jen, Erin, Rachel, Mel, Matt, Mark
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: Chill, shop, mess around, whatever

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

TIME YOU CRIED?: Can't remember...
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: Hmmmm...A while ago
THING YOU PURCHASED: A diet pepsi from the vending machine at school.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: America's Top Model 3
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Can't remember.

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

ABORTION: Pro-Choice completely
TEENAGE SMOKING: Against
SPICE GIRLS: Eh...I used to love them
DREAMS: Dreams are only fantasies, make them come true
DEATH: Reincarnation baby!

Sick. Again.

raien — 2004-09-24T04:09:35-05:00

A busted lip
A blackened eye
Baby you'll never see me cry
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Stomach hurts. But then again, my stomach hurts perpetually. I need to:
Stop eating dairy products.
Stop eating bread, it makes my stomach hurt really bad.
Eat something with iron in it so I don't bruise so much.
Do something to reduce the junk in my trunk (Ha Ha Ha)
Ok, well I'm out, if I get most of my homework done I can go see Shaun of the Dead.
-Boots

It's hard to tally when you're drunk.

raien — 2004-10-02T08:10:31-05:00

I had so much fun yesterday. Rachel's party was awesome, it was just a whole bunch of crazy kids messing around and dancing like maniacs. The most beautiful part about it was how people just.....accepted each other.....Emily and Rachel, Mel and Emily.... And everybody is friends again. Actually, I could think of a couple more beautiful parts, but I won't go into explicit detail.
Maybe we just need a party every so often to make people happy.
I love dancing. It's just so much fun. Especially dancing to good music, and showing off one's ass to the world because one decided to wear a very short skirt. Ahem.
Yeah, today was not quite so wonderful. Not too awful, though.
Fair was pretty slow, but that's better than when it's super busy. I manahed to burn myself really badly though, on a fry basket. My hand is all blistered and gross and I can only type with one hand. Oh well.
Ok well I'm out. This is taking forever to type anyway because of my current disability.
-Boots

no subject

raien — 2004-10-02T11:10:32-05:00

I was going to post a poem on Mindsay, but then I remembered what a pain it is to configure the stanzas. I'm way too tired to fuck around with HTML tonight. And it would take me twice as long, because I only have one effective hand...
So I'll post it eventually, I have it typed up and saved to Word.
I actually think I might go to bed. I can barely keep my eyes open.
-Boots

That sucked less.

raien — 2004-10-03T09:10:21-05:00

I really did mean to get stuff done today. I really did. Unfortunately, that did not happen. Which means I will be up very very late tomrrow night, doing all my homework last minute. And I'm kind of confused about what we're doing in pre-calc, which is not good. I should probably ask my Dad for help, since he has a Masters in Mathematics and everything, but that majorly impinges on my egotism...
If I fail, I fail with dignity.
Damn. That's lame. I'm really bad at the whole accepting help thing... Oh well.
So yeah. I guess I got a little done today... I finished a Power Point presentation for AP Environmental Science, and I read some of Angela's Ashes. But that barely put a dent in my work.... I still have to do my APUSH work for Chapter 8, outline chapter 4 for AP Env Sci, ID all the art in chapter 4 for AP Art History, take photos for Journalism, write a paper on the debate, write a script in French, and do soem bookwork for pre-calc. I'm never going to catch up. Today was supposed to be my catch up day. I'm quite angry at myself. Bother. I have no idea when I'm going to get all this done....
Bother bother bother.
Well I think I might go try my pre-calc...
-Boots

No one can delude you better than you delude yourself.

raien — 2004-10-04T10:10:31-05:00

Do you know how much homework I have? A lot. Do you know what time it is? Quarter past ten. Do you know what that means?
No sleep for Tigger!!!!
Ever!!!!
I'm out.
Boink.

Can you can-can? I can can-can.

raien — 2004-10-07T05:10:19-05:00

I think I'm getting sick again. Or more sick, I should say. I never actually get better, I don't really give myself a chance for recovery. Oh well.
I need to do a photo project for journalism tomorrow....and I have an AP Art History test.....and a Pre-Calc test....
Maybe I should do my homework. In light of recent events (i.e. me never sleeping), I think I might actually start my work.
Wow. An epiphany.
I'm off like a prom dress.
(Which reminds me, I need to dig up a Homecoming dress.)
-Boots

No matter how pretty the rose, the thorns still make you bleed.

raien — 2004-10-09T10:10:00-05:00

No matter how pretty the rose, the thorns still make you bleed.

raien — 2004-10-09T10:10:56-05:00

While in my debtors bondage, I considered my options. I could court my captors in a facade of contriteness, seemingly regretful for my multiplicity of horrific misdeeds. Or I could be frank and forthright; I could admit to the ceaseless delectation that I was receiving from the inevitable success of my contraband activities with my pugnacious and bellicose acqaintance (who shall remain nameless for the purpose of utmost security and reticence). I espoused the latter.
In rejoinder to my unmitigated fidelity, I was awarded four months of solitary confinement.
Bugger.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
[Frustrated]
I will go to Homecoming, Mommy darling. Feel free to go on the boat without me. I won't feel neglected, I promise.
I might do homework. Or I might go to bed. Or I might just fool around. Who knows.
-An Irate Boots
We'll cover the booth with a big black tarp, and cut a slit. Above the slit, we'll afix a sign that reads, "Insert head here." When someone inserts their head, we'll nail them with a turkey leg.
Or we could throw a tarp over the booth, and paint it to look like trees. Then people will say, "Hey, look, more trees."
I

I'm on Diet Coke number 12, and it's only 2:15.

raien — 2004-10-10T03:10:21-05:00

Mon coeur n'est pas vide; je ne suis pas vide.
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"Please excuse me," said the giant purple cow to the belligerent green dog, as he pushed past him in the aisle of the local muntions store.
[drunk]
-Boots

Thou art my sunrise.

raien — 2004-10-12T05:10:40-05:00

I changed my layout.
Voila! C'est moi!
I have to get into French mood, because Matt is coming over and we have to finish writing our play in French. It's crazy. I get to be a princess though, so it's all good.
Then Erin's coming over and we're going to an information session about Yale. If that's not wishful thinking, I don't know what it.
Today is going to be busy as fuck, I should start my homework...
[behind]
-Boots

It's all lies!

raien — 2004-10-14T09:10:01-05:00

Sugared lies and candied tears crowd out the life
People walk as if dead, dark circles under bloodshot eyes
So much for graceful senescence
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I just got back from the mall with Em, Rae, and Chris. We got b-day presents and cards for Jen. (Note to self: Still need Homecoming dress!) So yeah. I'm going to have a ton of homework to do tomorrow. So I think I may go do some now.
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(Isn't it sad how the sunset fades to black?)
I'm out.
Boots.

Buttprints in the Sand

raien — 2004-10-14T10:10:58-05:00

One night I had a wondrous dream,

One set of footprints there was seen,

The footprints of the Goddess they were,

But mine were not along the shore.

But then some stranger prints appeared,

and I asked Her, "What have we here?

These prints are large and round and neat

But much too big to be from feet."

"My child," She said in somber tones,

"For miles I carried you alone.

I challenged you to walk in faith,

But you refused and made me wait."

"You would not learn, you would not grow,

The walk of faith, you would not know,

So I got tired, I got fed up,

And there I dropped you on your butt.

"Because in life, there comes a time.

When one must fight, and one must climb,

When one must rise and take a stand,

Or leave their butt prints in the sand."

Mama, je veux un grand chateau!

raien — 2004-10-17T10:10:48-05:00

I am all Frenched out. Matt just and Jen just left. I've been working on our French play with Matt since 1:30 and Jen came over here at about 7:00. I really really hope it goes well tomorrow. It will be interesting, I'm sure, especially considering the fact that we're going to perform it without ever rehearsing it with more than 3 of the 5 cast members.
So yeah. Much French. How 'bout some English now?
Of course, it's not like I shouldn't be doing homework right now. I have the notes for chapter 6 in AP Environmental due tomorrow, and then AP US and an AP Art History essay due on Tuesday. The whole falling behind thing? Well I think it's getting worse. It surely hasn't gotten any better.
Fudge.
I'll never catch up!!
Ok, well I think I'm going to go make myself busy....maybe.
-Boots
[exhausted]

I Died for Love

raien — 2004-10-19T09:10:15-05:00

In a place where I did dwell
I met a boy I loved so well
He came and took my heart from me
But now he’s gone and I am free
Before some girl, upon his knees,
He told her things he never told me.
I think I know the reason why,
Perhaps she was prettier than I.
I ran home and cried upon my bed,
Not a word, my mother said.
Papa came home late that night
He searched for me left and right.
Reaching upstairs, the door he broke
and found me hanging on a rope.
Cutting the rope, they brought me down
And in my pocket a note they found.
“Dig a grave,dig it deep.
Marble stones from head to feet.
And on top, place a dove
To show the world , I died for love.”
(Rachel, you make me emo. Which is crazy, because of all things that I am, overly emotional is not one of them. I love you. And I'm sorry.)
-Whit
[depressed]

Pay

raien — 2004-10-21T05:10:23-05:00

Angels go
And traitors be
Once again
Now count to three
One
Two
Three
Once a friend
Sadly lost
No one's left
That's your cost

Just....worn-ou...

raien — 2004-10-24T12:10:50-05:00

I'm sick. It blows. And I'm kind of sick of people too. I've decided that flaws are unavoidable; it's rather depressing. Maybe I'll go bash my head into a wall. God my brain just hurts! -Whit [flawed individual]

Bleh

raien — 2004-10-24T05:10:01-05:00

Still sick. Ugh.
I did go to Annapolis and get my dress though. So at least I have that out of the way.
I think I might go do some homework. I have a ton to get done.
-Boots

Modify Yourself

raien — 2004-10-26T09:10:45-05:00

So I pierced my tongue web. With a nail. The safety pin wasn't thick enough... (Don't roll your eyes, I see you rolling your eyes, whoever's reading this!) It really didn't hurt though. Almost no pain. It took a little while though, because I pierced it with the safety pin, tried to get the barbell in, couldn't do it, pierced it again with the safety pin, and then with the nail like twice. It makes me feel kind of bad for my tongue...oh well. So yeah. I have a pretty little barbell under my tongue.
Of course, if I tell Maggie, she'll think I copied off her, when really I've been talking about piercing my tongue for a long time, and she always said it was gross. So oh well. I really don't give a rat's ass.
So yeah. New piercing. Good times. I'm out.
-Boots

Isn't it sad when you realize you're all alone?

raien — 2004-10-28T09:10:14-05:00

If and when you reach the end
Start at one and begin again
One two three four
Bang bang you're dead
[Play Russian Roulette]
My Dad's ex-wife called tonight. It's weird. They haven't talked in over 30 years. She called completely out of the blue.
(Phone rings)
Me: Hello?
Her: Hello, is Jerry Wayne there? (With the Oklahoman drawl, it's more like "Jirr-ie Waaayne." And no one calls my father that, except the family in Oklahoma.)
Me: Yeah...hold on. (Aside: Dad...phone call.)
Dad: Who is it?
Me: (Into receiver) May I ask who's speaking?
Her: It's Pam. ("Pa-am")
Me: (Covers reciever) Dad...it's Pam...
Dad: (Grumbles) Pam who? (Picks up phone in other room) Hello?
Her: Is this Jerry Wayne Hoot?
Dad: Yes...
Her: This is your ex-wife!
I can only imagine how the rest went, Dad poked his head into the room and gave me the glare that means "Put down the phone."
So yeah. Weird. Oh well.
I think I might actually do some homework. Or not.

I feel like such a slacker.

raien — 2004-11-04T08:11:44-05:00

I'm really slacking. I can't believe I didn't go to school today. This will be more or less the third day I've had off school, so why am I doing it? And so I'm going to have 8 classes worth of makeup work that has to be done by 2:00 pm on Friday because I have to turn it in for the marking period. And I'm really freaking out about my straight As. I have no idea how I'm doing in French, and I don't know what I got on that last quiz in Calc so I might not have an A in there anymore. Geesh. You'd think I'd spend my day off sleeping, but no, I get to spend it doing homework. [sick] -Boots

[sinking again]

raien — 2004-11-06T01:11:45-05:00

Agg I'm never going to catch up on all my school work! I will be doing it for the rest of my life! Damn it all to hell! ::sigh:: I hate make-up work. And theatre is sucking all my life away, so I don't have any time to do it... [bothered] -Boots

I am (eclectic)

raien — 2004-11-07T06:11:41-05:00

Don't dream when there's nothing to dream for It's not worth crying over any more Hearts get broken and people die To say shit doesn't happen would just be a lie Isn't it sad when you realize All of a sudden you're all alone And there's nothing you can do about it No one meets your expectations (You don't even meet them.) Stop dreaming for what won't happen Don't chase after the stars You'll never catch up And you'll be left all alone With people just walking by Sometimes you just have to give up And stop hoping for what's not meant to be (Be realistic.) They lie when they say you can do anything Because sometimes...you just can't [thoroughly disgusted with myself] -Whitney

Insufferable

raien — 2004-11-21T07:11:14-05:00

I feel really crappy. Ok, so maybe it is self-induced, but it still sucks.
I jsut got back from Youth Group from Matt. It was...well it was youth group. They're a bunch of crazy Baptist zealots. Matt said, "I'll take you to church and turn you into a Christian, Bush-lover." My Mom said, "You'll get religion in her before you make her like Bush."
My parents are crazy. In a good way though, generally.
"Cat, it's about discipline. If I feed you now, you'll be hungry in 2 hours. You must learn discipline!"
"Are you two sharing a bowl?!?!"
(...No!)
-Boots

Such a pretty bag!

raien — 2004-11-22T10:11:59-05:00

(Car car car car car)
Car!
Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no subject

raien — 2004-11-23T06:11:52-05:00

I just got back from the mall with Erin. It was great spending time with her; I hardly ever get to see her, which is really sad. There's a new Coach store in the mall, so I got to go look at my purse lol. I've changed my mind; it's pretty, but way too small. Oh well. (Gosh I'm flighty! I was in love with it yesterday!) But anyway. I bought some foundation. And some earrings. And a bow for my new short(er) hair. I am broke. Again. Oh well. Such is life.
Ok well I'm going to go be lazy. Toodles.
-Boots

We must get drunk immediately!

raien — 2004-11-25T11:11:52-05:00

Aggggggg I can't take it anymore! Can't take it! ...gun to head...
Oh well nevermind. Too lazy to pull the trigger. Damn.
Today will be boring, I'm sure. I hate Thanksgiving. I don't particularly like Thanksgiving food. And I think it's kind of superficial. Though, then again, so are all holidays.
Topher might be coming over though. Which is....a mixed blessing, if nothing else. I haven't seen him in over a year, so it will be nice to see him again...I think. We'll see. I may be able to escape and avoid all this love-round-the-table business. Or not. No, probably not. Dammit.
Ok well I'm going to go take a shower. At least I can smell pretty, if nothing else. ::grumble::
-Boots

no subject

raien — 2004-11-29T01:11:47-05:00

You Are the Achiever

3 You're confident and competent - with a lot of energy. Eager to reach your goals, you are aambitious and competitive. You are good at movtivating yourself and motivating others. You're also a charmer, with a great sense of humor.

What number are you?

Tired

raien — 2004-12-05T12:12:35-05:00

I've been so weird lately. I really don't know what's wrong with me. One minute I'm fine, the next minute I want to tear the head off the next person who comes near me. I'm just so...depressed. There's no other way to say it. I don't even know why. I've lost interest in everything, I can't concentrate on my school work, and I don't...care. If my grades start slipping I'm going to die. Maybe I should go to the doctor. Though I don't want happy pills; that's the last thing I need. Though I suppose if it could make it better... But who knows. I certainly don't.
I really wanted to spend the day catching up on things. I have a ton of homework to get done, and I'm going to DC tomorrow. So I'm never going to get a chance. I sacrificed my Saturday to help Matt with his project. And now he wants me to sacrifice my Monday after rehearsal, which I really can't do. I have a huge AP Art History assignment due on Monday, which we were assigned before Thanksgiving break and I haven't even started it. Then I have two chapters due for AP Environmental, two chapters for French, and one for AP US History, all due on Tuesday. There's just no way I'm ever going to get it all done! I'm just...dismayed by the fact that work is perpetually accumulating, and I'm only going to fall further and further behind...what am I going to do?!?!?
I really shouldn't be going to DC tomorrow. I should be spending the day doing homework. I just don't have the drive. I have no desire to sit and study the Civil War or pre-Renaissance art. Of course, I'll really know there's something wrong with me if skating with my friends in DC doesn't cheer me up.
I'm completely miserable. I don't mean to whine; I don't mean to complain. I'm just...sad.
Can't you lend me a hand, can't you help me up, baby?
-Whitney

Tell me something real

raien — 2004-12-07T07:12:12-05:00

I think I might quit Alice. I say that a lot though. I don't know what I want to do... Alice really interferes with my other after school activities... Which is going to get me into college, NHS or Alice in Wonderland? But sometimes it's fun...and I never quit anything. But the schedule is so inflexible! Agg. Who knows.
And I didn't get March Hare. :( They gave it to Nick. Oh well. I didn't actually think I was going to get it, but it would have been nice. 15 hours a week for 16 lines is just...silly. And boring. I wish I was stage managing. If I quit Alice, then I can stage manage the musical, maybe... though Kate will probably get that, because it's her last chance since she's a senior. I don't know. I'm just so stressed out and ridiculously indeciseive.
Hopefully we can go ice skating this weekend at Allen Pond. Then Bowie Town Center afterward... That would be sweet. I have to buy Christmas presents! I know what I'm getting almost everyone, I just have to buy everything. I think I'm going to end up taking money out of my savings account....hmmm. I did shell out $26 today, $16 for an English book and $10 for NHS dues; hopefully Mom will reimburse me. We'll see. I'll have to ask her after she gets back from her business trip...
So yeah. I have a ton of homework...I always do. Maybe I'll never catch up...that's a dismal thought... And I have to make up a lab tomorrow after school, so I'm going to miss at least part of rehearsal. Wednesday I have to make up a lab for AP Environmental; Thursday I have to make up a French test and go to a Youth Rise meeting. Who knows when I'm going to make up my chapter 9 test for AP Enviro... Trying to be in three places once is awfully tiring...
Ok, I think I might start my homework. I have a big writing assignment due in AP Art History; it's already late. Hopefully Mr. G. won't decide to be an actual teacher and take off points or something...
Eat as it becomes you. -Whit

Snow angels

raien — 2004-12-08T09:12:13-05:00

I just woke up. To be literal, Chris just woke me up. It was nice, actually. I can't imagine anyone else's face I would rather see when I open my eyes.
That, plus ceasar salad for dinner. I would call this a good mood.
Of course, startage of the homework would be good...
And I quit Alice. Which is a load off my mind... I doubt I'll regret it. Though I'll probably still stay after school a lot, because I hate coming home straight away. I hope Bonnie isn't mad at me...maybe she'll still let me help her with the play. At least now I won't miss any more of my NHS meetings...
Ok, well I'm going to skedaddle, maybe start some homework.
-Boots

Scary, huh?

raien — 2004-12-08T11:12:40-05:00

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3 parts intelligence

3 parts humour

1 part leadership
Method:
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Funny...

raien — 2004-12-09T10:12:55-05:00

Lay back baby and we’ll do this right
There’s blankets in back we can use
I’ll start the car, but we’ll stay in park
A quilt can kill us before fumes
Coincidence?
I think not. That was possibly the best timing ever...
-Whitney

C'est l'hiver.

raien — 2004-12-13T08:12:17-05:00

Excellent day today. Well school was crap, as usual, and I got a 74% on an AP Environmental test, which is the lowest I've gotten on a test all year. But only 8 days of school left until break...8 days.... I can last 8 days. Then I'll catch up on everything over the break....hopefully. As long as I can get through the next two weeks, I'll be alright.
Chris came over today after school. It was....lovely. We fell asleep on my couch. Then we went and had illicit relations in the Safeway parking lot *cough*. Then we came back here...and fell asleep on my other couch.
I'm madly in love with this crazy boy. Who woulda thunk it?
"Sex with you is different. When I'm having sex with you, it's like I'm closer to you rather than farther away..."
PunkyRockaChicka (8:23:24 PM): I miss you
CSTphoenix (8:24:18 PM): lol...
CSTphoenix (8:24:30 PM): I've only been gone 2 hours
PunkyRockaChicka (8:25:48 PM): yeah well....don't you miss me?
CSTphoenix (8:26:13 PM): yeah, a bit
PunkyRockaChicka (8:26:27 PM): a bit?
CSTphoenix (8:26:35 PM): a lot
I love you Chris.
-Whitney

Bored

raien — 2004-12-15T12:12:11-05:00

I'm sitting in the English computer lab; I finished typing up the essay I had to write. We've done three timed essays in the past 4 classes. It's really....old. So hopefully next class we'll do something exciting! Or not...
So Ricky gets back from college today. I know Jen's excited. She's only been talking about him getting back since, oh, the day he left after Thanksgiving break. Hopefully they'll ahve a good time together while he's here. And that means Chris will be spending a lot of time in Edgewater....so I'll be spending a lot of time in Edgewater. Good times.
At least I got all my AP US homework done. I'm not quite as far behind as I thought I was, which is good. The only thing I really did to get done is the AP Art History assignment that was due like two weeks ago. Oops. Though of course, I missed a day of school like a month ago and I'm still making up tests... It really shouldn't take this long... I was going to make up my AP Environmental test yesterday, but Vogel cancelled the make-up because it suddenly dawned on him that a lot of people cheat on his tests. I really like him; he's nice. But he's so naive!
So just 2 APES test and 1 French test and the AP Art assignment...my goal is to be caught up by midway through next week. I'll make up the APES test on Thursday, then go to the GSA meeting... And next week I'll make up the French test and the other APES test.... Hmmm... I certainly have to get it all done by next Thursday; I'm not going to leave it until after Christmas break!
Ok, well the bell is going to ring in a minute... Or 5... I suppose it's about time for some APUSH....what fun...
I'm off.
-Whit

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raien — 2004-12-20T02:12:48-05:00

If you asked me why the fuck I'm up this late, I wouldn't be able to tell you.
Maybe I'm losing my mind again?
Maybe I'm normal, the rest of you are just crazy.
I'm going to go find something to do.
I really hope they cancel school tomorrow....or I'll be tired as fuck, that's for sure.
I'm off.
-Whit

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raien — 2004-12-20T10:12:07-05:00

Remember when you sung me
lullabyes I'd fall asleep in
you arms
And then you let me go And now
I'm gone, Sorry, no refunds
All sales final, you can't throw me away
then want me back.
So all my Christmas shopping is finally done! Thank God.... I'm out of money too....
Oh well. I'm off.
Don't spend time revisiting the past. Remember there are reasons why you left it all behind.
-Whit

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raien — 2004-12-22T06:12:56-05:00

I'm so tired. I think I could sleep for a month. But I have so much to do... So much to do...
Skipped fourth period today. Went to Ricky's house with Chris, Jen, and Morgan. Then Morgan and Jen went to the school and Ricky took a shower so Chris and I were alone. I'm sure we found something to amuse ourselves with....it skips my mind at the moment though...hmmm....
I really want to finish my AP Art History essays by tonight. They're halfway done, and it would be nice to finish them before break. But I have to cook a cake for the French party tomorrow... ::sigh::
I've had less homework this week than I've had all year....it's pretty friggin sweet. (But crap, I have to remember to take that French test tomorrow or I'm officially fucked...yeah)
When am I going to get everything done?
And when am I going to plan what I'm doing next summer! Rachel wants me to go to camp with her for a week. Matt wants me to go with him to Alaska. There's a Congressional seminar in DC for a week that I'd love to go to... And there's the French trip.... I might just go to that camp that my friend (from out of state) wants me to go to. It's 8 weeks though....and about $7000... Jesus Christ. What am I going to do?
::sigh:: Mom's nagging. She's always nagging. It seems I'm always doing something wrong. What a bother. Maybe I'll go be productive. Ugh...
singmeasongandillbeyoursforevertoloveandtocherishfromnowuntilneverlightsdownfadetoblack
-Boots

Welcome to Reality

raien — 2004-12-22T06:12:18-05:00

She never stood a chance, you know? A fucked up girl in a fucked up world moving way too fast. When you run so hard and you stand so long you're going to break one day. She broke. Porcelein doll with the painted lips and the black eyeliner fell off the shelf and cracked her head on the hardwood floor. Did she fall or was she pushed? Was she pushed or did she fall? Maybe she had the right idea after all, getting out of all this mess, she knew it was wrong, she knew the brink of madness wasn't where she belonged. But maybe she just got too close to the edge. Damn that too-high center of gravity. Porcelein dolls have heavy heads. Heavy heads and heavy hands and heavy feet. But empty hearts. So there was nothing to hold her in place. Maybe one day she just leaned too far over the edge. Was she looking down for an answer? Or just at a dust speck on the floor? Maybe that speck of dust was the straw that broke the camel's back. She couldn't take it anymore, you know. Down down down with nothing to catch her fall. Down down down (crack). How long did that poor little girl lay there, an empty bottle of pills in her hand and her black eyeliner smeared on her pale cheeks? (But her lipstick was perfect.) How long did she rest in her own bile, empty blue eyes staring back up at the shelf? How long before they found her, wrapped her in a sheet, put her in a box, stuck her in the ground? She never stood a chance. There was no one to stop her from falling. Down down down. No one gave her a hand. But she wouldn't have accepted it anyway. The only one who could have saved her was....herself. The poor little porcelein doll who grew up too fast and had bloody wrists and broken dreams. She wrote morbid poetry in the dark, under her covers, with a flashlight. She just couldn't take it anymore. Blame it on the media, they'll say. Blame it on the fashion magazines and MTV and all the things we know for sure. Never mind the thousands of uncontrolled variables. People don't kill themselves because they're sad. They kill themselves because they're not sad. They kill themselves because they can't feel anything anymore. Nothing's real anymore. The only thing that's real enough to realize is death.
Maybe you don't know yourself as well as you think you do. Does that scare you? It should.
-Whitney

You can run, but you can't hide.

raien — 2004-12-24T12:12:04-05:00

So maybe I can draw, eh eh? I was sketching last night; I drew a rose that Mel gave me for Christmas. It was pretty good. Of course, I then tried to draw a face, which was not quite as successful. Though I think that in order to draw faces, one must learn to draw them. So I think I'm going to take an art class... Maybe I'll take Foundations of Art next semester. Of course the class will probably be overrun with freshman, a thought that is not overly inticing. Oh well. I'd really like to learn to draw well. That would be really cool.
I don't know what I'm doing today. I know Matt wanted to go see a movie with me but I haven't heard from him. I think I might actually try to get some homework done. I probably won't, but it's a novel idea... So I'm off, possibly to do homework, it'd be nice to get it out of the way.
-Boots

Merry Christmas!

raien — 2004-12-25T12:12:36-05:00

So yeah. It's Christmas! The day we've all been waiting for! Thank God it's finally over. Now my life can return to an almost average pace. I live through another December 25th. Who would have guessed?
I will have to say, good presents. I got my Tiffany's necklace from Chris (even though I got it a few weeks early, it still counts). I got 3 DVDs (Gone With the Wind, Matchstick Men, Big Fish), a CD (Beth Hart - Leave the Lights On), an awesome art set from my Mum, 3 pairs of earrings (plain gold studs, diamonds, and rubies), some clothes (argyle socks!), money, and some other stuff. Then I'm getting gifts from my parents' friends tonight when we go to Jeff and Joyce's for dinner.
James of course got his paintball gun, which he is enthralled with. He's already been shooting things like mad. Exciteable little bugger...
Ok, well I'm going to go shower. Then I think I'm going to try and finish my AP Art History homework. I worked on it for like 5 hours yesterday and I'm almost done. It would be crazy if I managed to finish all my homework maybe....before Wednesday. That would be the first time I didn't have homework since...well since I can remember.
So yeah. I'm off. Merry Christhanukwanzaka. (whatever)
-Whit

Survey I stole from Em

raien — 2004-12-30T12:12:06-05:00

(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:
(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. I'll answer what I can.
(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.
And this concludes this paticular entry. Have a nice day.

Survey I stole from palewhispers ;)

raien — 2004-12-31T01:12:21-05:00

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
I flew on a plane by myself.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
My New Year's resolution will be the same thing it's been for 4 years. And I'm sure I won't keep it, I'll fail again, and hate myself for it.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My neighbor's daughter gave birth...a little boy named Tyler. It was a really premature pregancy and Kim and Tyler both almost died.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.
5. What countries did you visit?
Paris and England. And Oklahoma is almost another country compared to the east coast...
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
More willpower on my part...less cheating. Actual success.
7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
None really.... Nothing super special happened this year...
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting straight As first quarter, with 4 AP classes.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Ha ha ha ha ha. Being fat.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing that I didn't bring upon myself. I had a nasty bout of pink eye...
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hmmm....no idea....amybe tickets to Phantom of the Opera. That was a good night.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My mother's. While she is still a sporadic psycho bitch, she's less of a stickler. My father has gotten into this habit of saying "If you don't like it here, just leave," so I do, then I have a few hours of complete freedom.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Mine.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Into the bank. I will get a car....after I get my license...
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Planning Rachel's surprise party...which was great. And Ren Fest.
16. What songs will always remind you of 2004?
Diamonds Are a Girl's Best Friend, Futures by Jimmy Eat World, and Sweet Dreams by Marilyn Manson
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) sad about the friends I've lost and the ones who've left
b) in love yes. completely. eternally. hopelessly in love. (Crazy, huh?)
c) Glad that 11th grade has been almost entirely drama free
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Dieted more. Ran more. Drawn more.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Obsessed over my problems...there are 117000 dead in Asia for God's sakes...
Part 2
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
The morning opening presents with my mom, dad, and James. Then a couple hours with Chris. Then off to dinner at Jeff and Joyce's.
21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
No one really... I'm not a big phone-talker. Maybe Erin. When we talk, we talk for hours.
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
We'll say...well yeah.
23. How many one-night stands?
Only one I suppose. Only one that left any impact at all on my life...
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Uhh I never really watch TV like...religiously. But I like CSI, That 70s Show, Will and Grace, and Law and Order SVU.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No. I only really hate one person.
26. What was the best book you read?
Either Slammerkin or The Other Boelyn Girl
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Marilyn Manson
28. What did you want and get?
A digital camera, a great boyfriend, lots of books.
29. What did you want and not get?
A car, my driver's license, Girl, Interrupted on DVD.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Saw. God it was friggin awesome...
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 16. I don't think I really did anything...
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Losing....oh I dunno....40 pounds.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Jeans + T-shirt + Hoodie = My display of my lack of caring.
34. What kept you sane?
The thought that these aren't the best years of my life.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Johnny Depp, to be cliche. Ewan Mcgreggor to be a little less so.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The election. This country's ongoing stupidity and blindness to the real issues.
37. Who did you miss?
Erin. I never see her anymore. She's my best friend!
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Oh I don't know. I didn't really meet anyone new.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
There's about 12 inches of veneer covering up the "real me." I'm pretty fake sometimes.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"I feel that when I'm old I'll look at you and know the world was beautiful."

Spin me a story

raien — 2004-12-31T02:12:38-05:00

I’ll sell you my dreams for a penny or two
A dozen aspirations for a dollar?
Any takers?
I’ll weave you a blanket of wispy clouds
Then tuck you into bed
You can sleep for hours until the sun peaks
My life flashing through your head

I have horrific dreams. I mean really horrific, violent, mindnumbing dreams. I had two last night. I say last night, but it was actually this morning. I always dream late in the morning, between 9:00 and noon, long after I should have dragged my ass out of bed.

This morning, I woke up in a cold sweat, wrapped so tightly in my sheets that I had to fight my way out of them. I tumbled out of bed, crawled to the bathroom, and threw up. Then I sat on the cold tiles until I stopped shaking.

In my dream, I was sitting in theatre class in school. We weren't doing anything in particular, just sitting on the floor. Then a man walked into the room. I can't remember his face, except for the fact that it was unshaven and he had brown hair. He was big and brawny, like a line backer. So anyway, this man just walked into class, and grabbed me. He started dragging me out and everyone kind of parted to let him go through. All my friends just stared at me and I could hear them thinking, "You deserve this. You bought it on yourself. This is YOUR fault." He dragged me down the hall, into the bathroom. I was screaming the whole way, but people just looked at me and shook their heads. Rather, they looked through me.

He pushed me up against a wall, and raped me. Then he took me into one of the stalls and did it again. And again. And again. I was screaming and crying and thrashing and fighting, but he wouldn't let me go. An administrator opened the stall door and looked in. She saw what was happening, shook her head, shut the door, then walked away.

I guess he finished, because he opened the door and walked out, pulling me with him. He duct taped my mouth and then he bound my hands. We walked out of the bathroom and there was this podium thing. Almost everyone I know was just standing there looking up at me. And I could tell they were all thinking the same thing: "You deserve this. You bought it on yourself. This is YOUR fault." I tried to scream, but I couldn't. The man beat me and I fell. Then he took out a knife and cut my hands free and pulled the tape off my mouth. He pulled a rope down, I don't know where it came from. It hung, vertical, in the air, and he tied a noose. He put my head into it and tightened it. Then he said, "This is what you wanted, isn't it? To go out with a bang, one last huzzah before you go? You've always been looking for attention." He pulled off my clothes, and my skin came off too. I was just a skeleton. I tried to tell him that this wasn't what I wanted, I didn't want to die, but it was too late. He pushed me off the podium.

Then I woke up.

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raien — 2005-01-03T03:01:38-05:00

Running

raien — 2005-01-04T10:01:34-05:00

I had forgotten how much I love running. I used to do it every day...then I stopped...
Running makes me feel so healthy. And honestly, despite my complaints, I am healthy. I'm not overweight, I'm jsut not skinny. And I have crazy muscles on my leg, and a little on my arms. But running just makes me feel so...good.
I can't even describe it.
But yeah, I have a new "lifestyle" going on. I'd call it a diet, which is part of it, but it's not so much to lose weight. It's like: more sleep, more exercise, more fiber, less fat, healthier food, less procrastiantion. It's...Whitney's ultimate health plan.
Speaking of more sleep, I'm going to get to bed.
Good night.
-Whit

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raien — 2005-01-18T09:01:03-05:00

X by the ones you HAVE done (x) Snuck out of the house ( ) gotten lost in your city (x) seen a shooting star (x) been to any other countries besides the united states ( ) had a serious surgery ( ) taken a shower with a member of the opposite sex (x) gone out in public in your pajamas ( ) kissed a stranger ( ) hugged a stranger ( ) been in a fist fight ( ) been arrested (x) done drugs (x) had alcohol (x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose (x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator ( ) made out in an elevator (x) swore at your parents ( ) kicked a guy where it hurts (x) been in love ( ) been to a casino ( ) been skydiving ( ) ran over an animal and killed it (x) broken a bone (x) been high (x) given someone a bruise (x) skinny-dipped (x) skipped school (x) flashed someone (x) had oral surgery (x) seen a therapist (x) done the splits (x) played spin the bottle (x) gotten stitches ( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour (x) bitten someone ( ) been to Niagara Falls ( ) gotten the chicken pox (x) kissed a member of the opposite sex (x) kissed a member of the same sex ( ) crashed into a friend's car ( ) been to Japan *RUB IT IN* (x) ridden in a taxi (x) been dumped ( ) shoplifted ( ) been fired ( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex (x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back ( ) stole something from your job ( ) gone on a blind date (x) lied to a friend (x) had a crush on a teacher ( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans (x) been to Europe (x) slept with a co-worker ( ) been married ( ) gotten divorced ( ) had children ( ) seen someone die ( ) been to Africa (x) Driven over 400 miles in one day ( ) Been to Canada ( ) Been to Mexico (x) Been on a plane (x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show ( ) Thrown up in a bar ( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire (x) Eaten Sushi (x) Been snowboarding ( ) Met someone in person from the internet (x) Been moshing at a concert ( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online (x) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself ( ) been in an abusive relationship ( ) lost a child ( ) gone to college ( ) graduated college ( ) done hard drugs ( ) tried killing yourself (x) taken painkillers (x) love someone or miss someone right now

Bored

raien — 2005-01-19T09:01:20-05:00

I'm going for a run in a minute. But it's so cold in the basement. Brrr. Oh well. I love my treadmill.
I think I have straight As again. Do you know what that means? I get my tongue pierced! Yay! Je suis tres heaureuse.
I'm super excited about this summer. Well about this year in general. There's junior prom, then France, then Alaska, and I'll have my license... It'll be friggin sweet. Plus I'll probably have a job.
I got Matt to turn in my application at Ginger Cove today. Hopefully they'll hire me. I need the money and they start at $8 per hour. Though of course, how I'm going to balance track, theatre, 5 APs, a job, and all my other extracurriculars, I don't know. We'll see I suppose. But I really need the money for France. 1) Because I have to pay for part of it, 2) because I want to spend mad money when I'm there, and 3) I'm going to buy all new clothes after I get thin and pretty *crosses fingers* so I can have a new wardrobe for this summer. Yay!
Of course this does mean I'll be in Europe three summers in a row. England and France last summer, France this summer, and complete tour of Europe next summer. It's friggin sweet. (When did I start saying "friggin"??)
Ugh, ok, well I'm going to go run. As long as I don't freeze to death.
Today was James' birthday. He's 13 now. So we had ice cream cake. But I only had a little piece....I'm sorry :( It's not on my list of diet foods....oh well I suppose...
Anyway, I'm off. Ta.
-Raien

i've finally gone insane

raien — 2005-01-24T09:01:46-05:00

maybe i'm crazy now i've gone round the bend the metaphorical deep end and no one can fetch me back from this dark hole but that's ok because i don't want to be rescued anyway since here is ok as long as you still love me even though i'm just a little bit crazy and no i'm not quite sure what i'm going to do about it but maybe i won't do anything about it and i'll just stay crazy and you all will have to accept the fact that a bottle of pills and a five hundred dollar session with a man whose name i can't even spell won't make it all sunny with bunnies and dandelions because that's not real life. but maybe i can get some help and they'll tell me that i'm not lost anymore and they'll give me a happy pill and who knows maybe it will work this time and i'll actually be happy and even if it's only and artificial simulated happy thats ok.

Deliverance is what I need! Deliverance!

raien — 2005-02-01T02:02:36-05:00

So I'm doing homework. Kind of. In my humble opinion, teachers have no right whatsoever to assign homework in between semesters. But oh well. I suppose my opinion doesn't matter.
I've done two out of four essays for AP US. So I'm half way done. I'm not doing a terribly thorough job, but guess how much I care.
So I have to do that...then work on the rest of my To-Do list. Yes, I write To-Do lists. Being the OCDed person that I am, I have to write lists for everything.

Here's my list for today:
1. Finsh APUSH homework
2. Clean out binders; get ready for 2nd semester
3. Put clean clothes away
4. Shave legs
5. Tweeze eyebrows
6. Go for a run
7. Do situps
8. Throw out crap that I don't need because the clutter is going to give me a panic attack
So there. Hoepfully I'll get all that done. It's not really a long list, mostly just crap that I hate doing. Maybe if I finish all my homework by 3:00, I could be done with the rest of the stuff (except the running and situps) by 5:00 or 5:30...then maybe I could go out!
So I'm off.
~Whitney
This ginger is making me sweat.

Quiz I grabbed....

raien — 2005-02-01T07:02:50-05:00

YOUR PORN STAR NAME:
(NAME OF FIRST PET+STREET YOU LIVE ON): Bugeye Slama

YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME:
(YOUR MIDDLE NAME +GRANDFATHERS FIRST NAME): Carol Albert

YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME:
(FIRST WORD YOU SEE ON YOUR LEFT+FAVOURITE RESTAURANT): Central Friday's

EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS:
(FAVORITE SPICE+LAST VACATION SPOT): Rosemary Paris

SOCIALITE ALIAS:
(SILLIEST CHILDHOOD NICKNAME+TOWN WHERE YOU FIRST PARTIED): Boots Rushfield

"Rap Star" ALIAS (a la J. Lo):
(FIRST INITIAL+FIRST TWO OR THREE LETTERS OF
YOUR LAST NAME): W. Ho (AHHHHHH?!!?)

ICON ALIAS:
(SOMETHING SWEET WITHIN SIGHT+ANY LIQUID IN KITCHEN): Orange Cider

DETECTIVE ALIAS:
(FAVORITE BABY ANIMAL+WHERE YOU WENT TO HIGH SCHOOL): Kitten South River

BARFLY ALIAS:
(LAST SNACK FOOD YOU ATE+YOUR FAVORITE DRINK): Baby carrot Diet Sprite (Doesn't work...)

SOAP OPERA ALIAS:
(MIDDLE NAME+STREET WHERE YOU FIRST LIVED): Carol Slama

ROCK STAR ALIAS:
(FAVORITE CANDY+LAST NAME OF FAVORITE MUSICIAN): Reeses Lennon

There are cooler ways to die.

raien — 2005-02-05T04:02:25-05:00

Every cigarette you smoke takes eight minutes off your life. But where do the eight minutes come from? Are they taken from the beginning, middle, or end of your life? Do you spend eight fewer minutes as a teenager, an adult, or a senior citizen? Think about it.
In eight minutes you could read a chapter of the best book you've ever read in your life.
In eight minutes you could play a round of poker and win a hundred bucks.
In eight minutes you could run a mile and burn off the burrito you had for lunch.
In eight minutes you could fall in love with the boy (or girl) stocking shelves at Trader Joe's.
In eight minutes you could have fantastic sex with the man (or woman) of your dreams.
In eight minutes you could write a list of all the things you could do with the time you didn't lose because of cigarettes.
Think about it. How much do you value your eight minutes?

Survey

raien — 2005-02-07T09:02:56-05:00

Time you started this survey: 8:50 pm
Day: Monday
Month: February
Year: 2005
About you...
Name: Whitney
Age: 16.5+
Sex: Yes...I mean...female...
Birthdate: July 1, 1988
Hair color: Really dark brown...but it's dyed lighter than it actually is.
Eye color: Greenish hazelish...ish
Height: 5'7.5 (So we'll say 5'8)
Weight: HA HA HA yeah right you fucker
School: South River HS
Grade: 11th
What's your favorite...
Color: Uh, I don't really have one...maybe dark red or sage green...but blue is nice too...
Day of the week: Friday. A whole weekend to look forward to.
Class: Hmmm....maybe APUSH. It's the only one where I actually learn anything.
Season: Fall. Definitely fall.
Month: Uhhhh....dunno. Depends on where I am. Maybe September in New England.
City: New York. Or London. Or Boston. Or Chicago. I just love cities. DC is nice too...but different.
State: Somewhere up North. I'm an East Coast girl, so maybe Massachusettes or New York.
Country: Eh...I love England. But honestly, I'm kind of partial to the US. It's home anyway.
Hobby: Writing...or reading. But I like pretty much everything. I love museums...
Band: I don't have one favorite. But I love the Goo Goo Dolls, Counting Crows, the Beatles, etc.
CD: I'm really into Jimmy Eat World's "Futures" right now.
Movie: Girl, Interrupted. Or Gone with the Wind. Big Fish is awesome too. Oh and Pirates of the Caribbean and Finding Neverland...
Television show: How Do I Look? on the Style channel. Don't laugh. And That 70s Show and the Simpsons.
Board game: Balderdash, Catch Phrase, and Scrabble.
Card game: Hmmm...maybe Rummy or Poker. I like Egyptian Rat Screw though...
Ice cream flavor: Mint chocolate chip. Then coffee. Then chocolate. I hate vanilla ice cream.
Breakfast: Waffles! I never have them at home, but homemade waffles...drool...
Book: Slammerkin and The Other Boelyn Girl. But I have tons of favorites...
Food: Chinese food! Or Italian food! I <3 food. Peanut butter is excellent. So is mint chocolate chip ice cream. My favorite meal is chicken ceasar salad.
What's your ideal...?
College: Yale...hopefully...God I hope so...if not then NYU or Columbia or BU or University of Chicago...but I might not get in to any of those schools...
Major: Political science (maybe a Sociology minor) and then law school
Career: Lawyer...then Senator...then...President. Hey, I can aim high, can't I?
Place of residence: Somewhere in New England. Mass. or upstate NY, or Connecticut.
Family: Hmmm...maybe I'll get married...no kids though. But a dog and a cat for sure.
House: Something big and spacious. Lots of white. Very...breezy and open. Hopefully on the water.
Honeymoon: Somewhere exotic. Not something cliche like Hawaii. Maybe Egypt or India or something.
Do you have...?
Pets: Yes, a cat, 2 rabbits, and a fish.
Boyfriend/girlfriend: Oui. J'aime Christopher!
Friends: Yes...I would hope so anyway...
Crush: Well...I guess. If you want to call it that.
Computer: Yes...I'm using it right now...my Dell. My crappy virus-ridden Dell...
Blog: Mindsay rocks my socks. Oh yeah.
Cell phone: Yes, with Verizon. Good service, crappy phone. Need a new one.
Driver's license: No...cough...I'm working on it!
Tattoos: No, but I'll definately be getting some!
Piercings: Three holes in each ear and I'm getting my tongue pierced within the next month. I used to have my tongue web pierced. I eventually want to get my nipples pierced...
Vices: Yes. Loads. I procrastinate, I give myself little credit, I'm claustraphobic, and I'm way harder on myself than I should be...I think...maybe...Oh yeah, and snacking. That's a vice. ::sigh::
Do you...?
Smoke: No
Drink: Not very often. I hate alcohol actually. I think I might quit all together.
Have sex: Yes
Smoke pot: No
Do hard drugs: No. I really have no desire to melt my brain.
Read a lot: Yes
Do well on standardized tests: Yes
Eat meat: Ha ha ha that one's complex. I was a vegetarian for 4 years...but I've been awful lately!
Like yourself: No. Not at all.
Like school: Not really. But I deal with it.
Get good grades: Yes. Should I say no, to be modest? That's a dilemma. I get straight A's...
Time you finished this survey: 9:06 pm

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raien — 2005-02-13T04:02:31-05:00

Sean Bean is Love

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raien — 2005-02-20T08:02:51-05:00

In the summertime the bay gets so warm that the water doesn't provide the necessary refreshment, so I swim down to the bottom and hold my breath as long as I can while I bury my hands in the cool black silt chock full of clams, oysters, and all manners of sea-beasts.

Lions and tigers and bears, oh my!

raien — 2005-02-20T09:02:55-05:00

I went to the zoo today, with Chris, we had a really good time. The cheetah cubs are so cute! There are 4 cubs and their mom, Tumai. :) Soooo cute, here are some pics of some of the zoo-beasts:

There are 3 of the cubs. Great shot of Tumai, she's so gorgeous! Action shot! I love this one because it's got the whole family. Isn't he adorable? He's in the anteater family...he's so cute, in a pathetic kind of way. Golden Lion Tamarins - I love the colors on these guys This guy was soooo cool looking. Meow. Here kitty kitty kitty! We saw a whole bunch of other animals, but these are some of the better shots. Great day! And I solemnly apologize to all my friends who were going to come, we had really poor planning. :( Oh well, we'll go some where together next weekend! Love you all! -Whitney

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raien — 2005-02-24T11:02:53-05:00

Your a Child of The '90s if... (bold all that apply)

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!"
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air."
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own.
6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer Can't touch this, bebbeh.
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales."
12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
16. You played the game "MASH".
17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it.
18. L.A. Gear.
19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten.
20. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books.
21. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF."
22. You wanted to be a Goonie.
23. You ever wore flourescent clothing.
24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off.
25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
26. You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
27. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
28. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence.
29. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts
30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up.
32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets. 33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals. ...I remember I had to buy them myself because mom thought they were trashy...I saved up for months...
34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"
36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide.
38. You have ever played with a Skip-It. ...omg I loved my Skip-It!
39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's.
41. You remember Popples.
42. "Don't worry, be happy."
43. You wore eight pairs of socks over your tights
44. You wore socks scrunched down.
45. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK"
46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players.
47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
48. You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"
49. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies.
50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot.
51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class.
54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - "YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME".
55. You played and or collected "Pogs" ...omg I had like 8 million
56. You used to pretend that you could transform into a Power Ranger.. I was the yellow one. I always tried to be original because everyone wanted to be the pink one.

Here's the plan.... ::whisper whisper::

raien — 2005-02-27T08:02:03-05:00

PunkyRockaChicka (8:48:03 PM): I think they should cancel school now and be done with it
QuietShiver (8:48:29 PM): they should
QuietShiver (8:48:35 PM): lousy school board
QuietShiver (8:48:53 PM): All schools open & operating on a normal schedule
QuietShiver (8:48:54 PM): what?!
QuietShiver (8:49:25 PM): have they not noticed the 100% chance of snow all day tomorrow?!
QuietShiver (8:49:27 PM): ?!?!
PunkyRockaChicka (8:51:13 PM): They're overpaid morons who wish to endanger our lives! We should picket outside their offices and throw gourds and bananas at their windows. That'll teach the selfish inconsiderate bastards.
QuietShiver (8:52:14 PM): I like the sound of this plan
QuietShiver (8:52:20 PM): rotten eggs too?
QuietShiver (8:52:44 PM): and we should make them catch the buses at 6 am
PunkyRockaChicka (8:52:54 PM): Yes!
PunkyRockaChicka (8:53:00 PM): In the cold and the dark
QuietShiver (8:53:04 PM): and rain
PunkyRockaChicka (8:53:11 PM): We should make them run after buses that come early...
QuietShiver (8:53:26 PM): and wait in the cold forr buses that come late
PunkyRockaChicka (8:53:32 PM): Yes
QuietShiver (8:53:47 PM): and have them ride the buses that smell and have no climate control
PunkyRockaChicka (8:53:51 PM): And then get to school in time for....an exciting 7:00 am pop test!
QuietShiver (8:54:05 PM): and have them stay up all night to finish homework
PunkyRockaChicka (8:54:17 PM): Yep. Hard homework.
QuietShiver (8:54:33 PM): yes!
PunkyRockaChicka (8:54:36 PM): Then they can eat cafeteria food...
QuietShiver (8:54:44 PM): muahaha
PunkyRockaChicka (8:55:28 PM): And stay after school until 5:00...everyday....and deal with actors....then go home and deal with bitching parents and mounds of homework.
QuietShiver (8:55:29 PM): and be penalized for being late to classes because they're the opposite sides of the school
PunkyRockaChicka (8:55:34 PM): Yup
PunkyRockaChicka (8:55:44 PM): Then we'll see how long it takes them to cancel school
PunkyRockaChicka (8:55:51 PM): Cynical bastards!
PunkyRockaChicka (8:55:57 PM): Were they never children?!!?
PunkyRockaChicka (8:56:03 PM): ERIC SMITH HAS NO SOUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
QuietShiver (8:56:33 PM): oh no, when they were kids, they had to walk uphill (both ways) through 3 feet of snow, even in the summer, to school
PunkyRockaChicka (8:57:22 PM): Right, we have it easy, of course!
QuietShiver (8:57:48 PM): *growl*
PunkyRockaChicka (8:59:01 PM): ::rolls eyes::
PunkyRockaChicka (8:59:14 PM): We'll make them pay.... Yes, precious, we'll make them pay!
PunkyRockaChicka (8:59:21 PM): Er...sorry.... ::cough::
PunkyRockaChicka (8:59:24 PM): Couldn't help myself
QuietShiver (8:59:27 PM): lol

Yay for vast quantities of frozen precipitation, yay, I say!

raien — 2005-02-28T10:02:52-05:00

So it was originally a snow angel...but I felt that alterations were necessary. :) -Whit No school, again!

Survey I took from LogicGurl

raien — 2005-02-28T11:02:28-05:00

Give me a break, it's a snow day, I have nothing better to do! (Actually, that's debateable, but bleh, I don't care!)
10 random things you like!
[10] Running
[09] Swimming and tubing in the Bay
[08] Shopping....so what? Sue me.
[07] Reading a good book
[06] Listening to the rain fall
[05] Hanging out with my friends
[04] Museums (I love living so close to DC)
[03] Travelling
[02] Good food (Italian...or Chinese food...yum)
[01] New York City

9 of your closest friends
[9] Chris
[8] Erin
[7] Jen
[6] Emily
[5] Rachel
[4] Maggie
[3] Matt
[2] Rachele
[1] Is it bad that I don't have 9 close friends?

8 things you DON’T like
[8] Not having a driver's license
[7] George W Bush
[6] Getting up at 6:00 am for school
[5] Having a limited money source
[4] Not having a job
[3] Not having any time for a job
[2] Being unsure about my future
[1] People who use religion as a crutch

7 places you would like to visit
[7] New Haven, Connecticut
[6] New York City (I think I'm going for spring break...maybe)
[5] England (I go every year, I love it)
[4] Alaska (Going this summer!)
[3] The South of France (Going this summer!)
[2] Egypt
[1] Mexico

6 places where you’ve slept in before
[6] My bed
[5] My grandparent's house in England...especially after an 8-hour plane ride
[4] On my sail boat
[3] Emily's house...we never go to bed until like 5:00 am (Yay for watching Star Wars all night)
[2] Hmmm...I'm always up at the crack of dawn at my house...
[1] And my family never sleeps in on vacations....ever

5 foods you like
[5] Chinese food! (Fried rice, egg rolls, veggie lo mein, kung pow chicken, etc etc etc)
[4] Pizza (Cheese only)
[3] Peanut butter
[2] Chocolate ice cream with brownie chunks
[1] Chicken ceasar salad (My all time favorite!)

4 things you want to do before you die
[4] Get a PhD and practice law
[3] Be President of the United States (In all seriousness...)
[2] Live in New York City (Or Chicago or Boston)
[1] Do something crazy with a tiny budget- Backpack across the US or bike across Europe

3 people you want to meet before you die
[3] Bill Clinton
[2] Johnny Depp
[1] Cameron Diaz

2 events you will never forget
[2] September 11th...even though that seems terribly cliche
[1] The death of Dorothy Lee Collison...RIP...

The 1 person you will always love
[1] My Mom

If I were..
a month I would be: September...or August in New England
a day of the week I would be: Saturday
a time of day I would be: 3 pm
a planet I would be: Earth
a sea animal I would be: A dolphin
a direction I would be: Northeast
a piece of furniture I would be: My bed...the bed of love!
a sin I would be:...lack of chastity? lol
a historical figure I would be: Elizabeth I
a liquid I would be: Diet Sprite
a tree I would be: A dogwood
a flower/plant I would be: A lily
a kind of weather I would be: 75 degrees, sunny, blue sky, light breeze....perfect
a musical instrument I would be: A clarinet
an animal I would be: A leopard
a color I would be: Pink...or blue
a vegetable I would be: An artichoke
a sound I would be: Crickets in the summer
an element I would be: Silver
a car I would be: Mitsubishi Eclipse convertible
a song I would be: Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls
a movie I would be directed by: Tim Burton
a book I would be written by: Tolstoy
a food I would be: A Lindt dark chocolate truffle
a place I would be: New York City
a material I would be: Lace
a taste I would be: Lemon
a scent I would be: Givenchy's Very Irresistable
a word I would be: Whirlwind
an object I would be: A rose
a facial expression I would be: ;)
a cartoon character I would be: Sylvester the Cat
a shape I would be a: Diamond
a number I would be: 21

Dimpled dogs devour delicious donuts and down daquiris.

raien — 2005-02-28T03:02:11-05:00

Oh.
My.
God.
I have reached an all new level of bored. I didn't know it was possible to be this bored. I have nothing to do. Nothing. Well, in actuality, that's not entirely true. I could:
1. Read my SAT prep book (But would that really alleviate my boredom? No.)
2. Do my APUSH homework (That would be breaking my perfect record of procrastination.)
3. Do my English homework (No. Why? Refer to #2. That's right above this one, genius.)
4. Do laundry (Ummmmmm. No.)
5. Watch yet another movie. I've already run through all three Harry Potters... (Ha it was great, I accidentally typed "Harry Pooter"... God I must be bored if I'm this easily amused...)
6. Clean the study. (I don't like cleaning...)
7. Clean my bedroom. (I really don't like cleaning.)
8. Shop online (Not as much fun as shopping in person, belive it or not.)
9. Run on the treadmill. (For one, that would involve getting dressed...I'm not up for that quite yet.)
10. A multitude of other tasks which would either further bore me or worse, involve thinking.
So there. That is my NOT-To-Do-List. I'd love to go shopping...or bowling...or anything, for that matter. As long as I'm not sitting on my ass in here...or in the media room...or in the kitchen...
Help help help help help. Help.
I am dying of boredom. Dying, I say!
Dying...
Dying...
Dyi.....
::collapses on heap in floor::
::twitches::
-Boots

Life is a lesson.

raien — 2005-02-28T04:02:53-05:00

Snow is beautiful, isn't it? Pure and white and clean. This frozen precipitation is nothing if not a gift from above. Snow coats everything with a layer of holiness; all beings are granted a new beginning with a powdery cover of fresh snow. Objects that were once mundane are now crucial; the once forgotten snowblower is taken out, the dust-covered shovel is removed from the shed, the ice scraper, clutched by winter-chapped hands, is revived on yet another frosty morning. While snow is not abnormal at this time of year, it seems to upheave our daily activities in the most unusual ways. For example, my fellow students and I were not allowed to attend school today. We have been cooped up in our houses, locked in our dormitories, shut in our myriad of abodes. But I, for one, have learned things about myself on this icy, winter day. When I awoke this morning, I was perhaps unprepared for the great adventures I would undertake on this, this most revered of days, the "snow day". I sat down to my usual break-fast of toast with a spread of blackberry preserves, and looked out the window onto my frozen backyard and the frigid, churning waters of the South River. Now, you must understand, one can only look out over the water for so long before one becomes...anguished. The river only made me crave summer,the season when I will plunge into its murky depths and frolic for hours among the frothy waves and jelly-fish. So I ceased my observations and proceeded to yet another intriguing activity: I watched all three of the Harry Potter movies. By this point, I felt lazy. I felt lazy and unproductive. Since I am a doer, I decided to change this and alter my day for the better. Being the constructive sort, I longed to build something. To pick up two pieces wood, deep cherry in color, rough and unsanded, and conclude with a beautifully polished rocking chair or nightstand gives one the greatest sense of accomplishment in the world. Unfortunately, I was privy to neither wood nor hammer nor sandpaper nor the burning desire to break a finger-nail. So I decided to build with another material, the most holy of sustances; a divine-stuff if nothing else. I built a house of cheese. I tired for minutes, stopping for neither food nor drink nor cellular telephone calls. And then it was finished; my masterpiece; my great creation: My maison au fromage. Being the deconstructive sort, I could not let such a structure stand without trial. What is a building if it has not been tested by the elements? A suitable house must withstand fierce gales, breaking waves, and hail stones the size of kumquats. I had neither gales nor waves nor kumquats with which to test my structure, so I was forced to use another element, more deadly than the others combined...the microwave. Oh, the feared microwave! The greatest predator of frozen leftovers and TV dinners - and oh, the grandiose power of the defrost button! The defrost button! I am afraid that after 23 seconds in this device, this so-hated piece of technology, my house was reduced to smithereens. My minutes of labor! My tireless efforts to mount a flag and raise a roof, all gone to waste with a blurp and a bubble of extra-pasteurized desire flowing into a plasticy-pool on my mother's china plate. And so end my adventures in construction and destruction. But, these trials have not been without learning! I've learned about life, and love, and dairy products. I've learned that when your mother asks you what on earth you're doing, the answer is not, "I'm building a house of cheese." (What the correct answer is I'm not sure, but believe me, mine was not it.) Perhaps, when I take on my next project, I will build with cheddar instead of American, as it seems to be of a more rigid variety... Until then, my friends, farewell, and I hope your day is as productive as mine. [Fade to black] -Whitney

50 Things I Dislike

raien — 2005-03-08T08:03:33-05:00

Waking up at 6:00 am to go to school
Vanilla ice cream
Olives
Make-up work
My AP Environmental class
Cleaning my room
Being stuck inside on snow days
Getting the bottoms of my pants wet
Spiders...especially the ones that bite
Mosquitos
My hips...or my thighs...
People who are intolerant
The third Matrix movie
The second Harry Potter movie
Not having any money
Not having any free time
Too much homework
My struggles with excessive procrastination
The second Mulan movie (hokey hokey hokey)
Telemarketers who call during dinner
Worrying about the future
The writing callus on my middle finger
Having enormous feet
My constant headaches
Losing or misplacing things
Not having my license
Driving with my mother
When my ears get infected
People who are overly self-absorbed
Organized religion
People who use religion as a crutch
Teachers on ego-trips
Belly-button lint
Snorting root beer out of my nose (it really burns)
Saying something you think is funny and then finding out it's really not
People you type like "u r hot and u kno it"....God, so annoying!
Communicating important things over AIM
Not having time to read
My constant workload without a pause
The fact that I don't look like a Victoria's Secret model and never will
My inability to type properly
My lack of musical talent
Margarine
Burger King fries
Not being recognized for my accomplishments
Blue ink...I only write in black
Dark high-lighters that make it impossible to read the text
Winters that last forever...well, cold weather in general
The fact that my mousepad inhibits the smooth movement of my mouse
When my cat barfs on the carpet...like everyday

50 Things I Like

raien — 2005-03-08T09:03:54-05:00

Waking up at 8:00 in the morning after a good night's sleep
Hanging out with my friends
Hiking and camping
Bike riding
Politics
Going to the beach
Warm sunny weather, blue skies, about 80 degrees
My boyfriend ;)
Chocolate ice cream
Fat free cool whip
Diet soda (Especially Diet Sunkist and Diet Sprite)
All manners of vegetables
My school's theatre company
Shopping
Doing things that are active
Writing
Reading
Organizing- Hey, so what?
Listening to music, live is even better than recorded!
Jen, Emily, Matt, Rachel, Rachele, Maggie, Erin, and all my other friends
Europe and travelling
Museums, the zoo, the aquarium, etc.
New York City, DC, Chicago...big cities
Taking long, hot showers
Yale.
Running
Bowling for Soup's song "1985"
Ebay
Expressing my opinion
Chicken ceasar salad (with the dressing on the side)
People who are nice to me
My cast for Animal Crackers
Disney movies that were my favorites as a kid
Harry Potter and the Prizoner of Azkaban
Mis-typing "Potter" and typing "Pooter"
Monty Python
Vanilla Sky
Fight Club
Angelina Jolie
Brittany Murphy
Chick flicks
Things and people that make me laugh
Bowling (even though I'm an awful bowler)
Books of all kinds
Carrot sticks dipped in mustard
Animal Crackers (the cookies, not the show...but I like the show too!)
The Style Channel
History
Philosophy
Knowing that it the end, it's all gonna be alright

Just like the perpetual seasons.

raien — 2005-03-09T10:03:21-05:00

Changes.
I'm not the same person I was last summer.
Maybe no one else can see it, but I can.
Is this going to make everything different?

My Essay for AP English (Read passage, then refute, support, or qualify)

raien — 2005-03-10T12:03:05-05:00

In concurrence with the passage from Wendell Berry’s What Are People For?, technology’s sole purposes are to obtain money and ease life’s tasks. Technology is not utilized to increase the integrity of our families, communities, or country; it is utilized to make super efficient Xerox copiers, Cappuccino machines that produce better foam, and calculators that do our homework for us. Technology is all about saving money, earning more money, and decreasing workload.
To blame technological advances on the prospect of a better future is an unquestionable falsehood; the future may never happen; what if this is as far as the road goes? Human beings are intrinsically self-interested; when they do things, they do them to benefit themselves in some way, whether they are bold enough to admit it or not. There are few, if any, truly selfless beings in existence, and according to Darwin’s theories of evolution and survival of the fittest, selfless beings have neither a right to exist nor to survive. Organisms, humans included, must fight for themselves and be selfish if they wish to live in a comfortable manner with any type of convenience.
While many of the devices provided by technology are not absolutely necessary, they add to the tranquility and leisure of our lives. Where would we be without TiVo, riding lawnmowers, and, more importantly, running water? Although increasing the ease of human life may seem superficial and relatively inconsequential compared to other, seemingly more imperative matters, people tend to be happier when they can simply walk down the hall to the bathroom in the middle of the night rather than traipsing outside to the noisome outhouse in below freezing weather while wearing nothing but their skivvies and a pair of bunny slippers. Content humans tend to be more productive, not to mention more agreeable to interact with.
While technology works toward greater convenience, it also supports the capitalist machine in its perpetual advancements to increase the net value of production. Without interchangeable parts and Henry Clay’s American System with the innovations in the assembly line developed by Henry Ford, the cost of production would greatly increase for all items, from cans of Spaghettios to BMWs to DVD players. These technological changes boost the economy and increase the speed and efficiency with which we produce goods. It takes far less time to compose a rocking chair on an assembly line in a factory than it does for a woodworker to carve one by hand. If technology were intended to increase the integrity of our families, it would support the single, hardworking carpenter rather than the mass production of America’s ever-growing industrialized factory system. Technology knows no sentimentality; it does not treasure a homemade Christmas ornament or a freshly baked cookie from Mother’s inefficient, domestic-sized oven. Technology knows only the bittersweet, impersonal taste of progress.
While technology is designed to make the lives of present beings more pleasant, it inherently benefits humans of the future; they will reap the seeds sewn by 21st century inventors, doctors, and scientists. But these 21st century innovative minds typically do not work for the future; they work for the present. One does not wake up in the morning and think how he can improve the lives of his neighbor’s grandchildren, or his own, for that matter. One wakes up and thinks about beating rush hour by pressing a little harder on the gas, or grabbing a fast breakfast on the go, either a Pop Tart from the cabinet or a packaged breakfast sandwich at the drive-through. Technology decreases the time needed for every task, from the most mundane to the most extraordinary, and in this day and age, time is money; people are continuously professing increasingly higher values for a moment of their time. No one can get more time, but one can increase the efficiency of the utilization of one’s time. The self-interested human will inevitably try to increase his income and quality of life, through whatever means he finds necessary. After all, who would go to all the trouble of brewing a pot of coffee when Dunkin Donuts will sell it for under a dollar a cup?

I got a new dog!

raien — 2005-03-14T07:03:02-05:00

I got a dog yesterday! His name is Colby, he's a three year old black and white English Springer Spaniel. He is absolutely the sweetest thing ever! Here's a typical greeting from my dog: ::Walks up, sits down, flops over, legs go into the air:: He loves everyone and is addicted to belly rubs. I love my new doggy!

Daffy-dills

raien — 2005-03-20T06:03:32-05:00

The daffodils are growing. I can hear them wriggling their skinny roots in the black soil; I can see them stretching their baby green shoots towards the waxing sun. The winter crocuses bend back towards the earth in submission to the tall bright yellow flowers who surpass them in brilliance, if not in modesty.
The daffodils are growing. The bravest ones have already shed their papery shells to display their gawdy blossoms to a pale blue firmament; they lean their scalloped faces to grasp muted fragments of the sun's warmth, which is still flecked with winter chills. Perhaps they have emerged too soon; bursting with the milk of spring's sweet innocence, they have forgotten the danger of frost; they have forgotten how the cold can seep into their bulbs and silence their merriment for another season.
The daffodils are growing. The eager gardener plucks a flower and lifts it to her lips, not to taste, but rather, to inhale. She takes a breath and feels the subtle warmth of spring gather in her lungs. When she exhales, the warmth does not leave her; it lingers, as if in anticipation of her next breath that will draw in more cool sweet air.
The daffodils are growing. It is the spring that feeds them with good nutrients of health; it is the spring that grants them warm rains that quench their thirsts that have endured the dry winter; it is the spring that brings them the light of the sun to which they turn their faces and drink up like warm honey.
The daffodils are here. And with them, they have brought the spring.

-Raien

Chillin like a Villain

raien — 2005-03-28T06:03:43-05:00

This is the last day of spring break. I'm heart broken. Absolutely miserable. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. At least I get Friday off for that art trip to Philly. Of course, that means shitloads of make-up work. Fuuuuck.
I'm screwed. Rehearsal everyday next week...at least I have one more week before tech week. That reminds me that I have to get advertising up...agggh. Another think I don't have time for. Oh well. I'll get it done. I always do.
I'm going to the mall to buy a birthday present for my mom...I have no idea what to get her. Oh well.
It's been raining all day. Alll day.
-Whit
"Today looks like a wet-fur day to me..."

I am going to bitch:

raien — 2005-03-29T10:03:28-05:00

I have a headache.
I feel nauseous.
My throat hurts.
It's really hot in this room.
My mom's being a bitch.
I have a lot of homework to do. I don't want to do it.
Bleh.
I'm going to go barf now.
-Whit

Field Trip

raien — 2005-04-01T10:04:30-05:00

Great day today, I went on a field trip to Philly with my art history class. The Salvador Dali exhibit was amazing, and I bought a hot vintage Nicole Miller dress (my favorite designer ever!) and a pink cropped Juicy Couture jacket at half price because I smiled pretty. lol. I have to go to bed soonish because I have to get up early as balls tomorrow morning. Oh well. And I owe Rachele $136. Need to pay her back, will do.
I'm off.
-Whitney

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raien — 2005-04-03T09:04:12-05:00

I refuse to fish for answers. If you won't tell me what you need, I will only give you questions.
This life is only a segway into the next.
Fade to black.
-Whitney
(And by the way, I really want some chocolate ice cream.)

Field trip

raien — 2005-04-14T09:04:21-05:00

And yet another exciting art history field trip! A little closer to home this time, we trekked to Washingotn DC and the National Gallery of Art for the day. We didn't look at much art actually, we were kind fo on a tight schedule. And, I must say, I was appauled by the exorbitant prices in the museum's cafeteria! $7.50 for a small bowl of fruit?!
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This was a really neat sculpture inside the National Gallery. What's he thinking? Hmmm.
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I love this shot... The girls holding hands show a lot of movement and I love how the figures in the foreground frame them.
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I really liked this painting...great colors. Even if it is a little abstract...
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I love this shot... (Rachel, me, and Em.)
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The three of us, again.
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Charlie's Angel's what?
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Matt is so pimp ;)
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Feet! (Clockwise from top: Rachel, Em, Me, and Matt)
So, great day, actually. We had a lot of fun. Even if our bus driver took the looong way to DC. :)
Love you all, I'm going to go do some homework. Hopefully my fourth marking period grades will be an improvement over last quarter's...
-Whitney

Watch the rain fall down as you rest your head on a glass pillow

raien — 2005-04-19T08:04:13-05:00

Copy n Paste this into your Blog...bold watever IS TRUE
01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives (black ones)
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy - although I don't always follow that
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently...especially when im mad
16. I have changed alot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I can suck the chromes off a trailer hitch.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I need money right now!
26. I love Sushi
27. I talk really, really fast sometimes
28. I have fresh breath in the morning
29. I have semi-long hair...sometimes
30. I have lost money in Las Vegas
31. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
32. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
33. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
34. I have a twin
35. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
36. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
37. I like the way that I look sometimes
38. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
39. I am usually pessimistic
40. I have a lot of mood swings
41. I think prostitution should be legalized
42. I think Britney Spears is hot
43. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
44. I have a hidden talent
45. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
46. I think that I'm popular
47. I am currently single
48. I have kissed someone of the same sex
49. I enjoy talking on the phone
50. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
51. I love to shop
52. I would rather shop than eat
53. I would classify myself as ghetto
54. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
55. I'm obsessed with my online journal
56. I don't hate anyone.
57. I'm a pretty good dancer
58. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
59. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
60. I have a cell phone
61. I believe in God
62. I watch MTV/Vh1 on a daily basis
63. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
64. I love drama
65. I have never been in a real romantic relationship before
66. I have rejected someone before
67. I currently have a crush on someone
68. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
69. I want to have children in the future.
70. I have changed a diaper before
71. I've called the cops on a friend before
72. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
73. I'm not allergic to anything
74. I have a lot to learn
75. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
76. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
77. I am very shy around the opposite sex
78. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
79. I have at least 5 away messages saved
80. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
81. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
82. I own the "South Park" movie
83. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Mindsay
84. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
85. I enjoy some country music
86. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
87. I watch soap operas whenever I can
88. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
89. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
90. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
91. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
92. Halloween is awesome
93. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
94. I have dated a close friend's ex
95. I'm happy as of this moment
96. I was born in the 80s but I am truly a child of the 90s
97. I haven't showered in two days . . . and I like it.
98. I'd rather be in Germany than anywhere else.
99. Im obsessed with getting manicures/pedicures
100. I want to visit Italy either for the first time or again...
101. I'm one of those types who are easily amused; the stupidest of things can make me laugh.
102. i've cried within the last week
103. I have flirted with someone I didnt like just to get something out of it.
104. I like at least three British Comedy TV Shows
105. I have overslept and missed my classes
106. I've been on TV
107. I listen to music no matter what I am doing
108. I yell at the TV when I watch sports
109. I miss being homeless
110. I've been cheated on before by a significant other
111. I've killed someone before
112. I have eaten squid before..and I've liked it.
113. I've been on cops once or twice
114. I hate men, and also women, I hate all human kind
115. I had a crush on my friend's bestfriend.
116. I think Hilary Duff is a bitch
117. I have gotten raped before.
118. Ive hit someone with a car before
119. I have been betrayed too many times to count
120. I have mad b-ball skillz.
121. I'm afraid of fire
122. I've been called a fungus several times in my life.
123. I think people should finish eating before they speak.
124. Sometimes I pretend I don't care even though I do
125. Sometimes I smile and pretend nothing's wrong, and everyone believes it

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raien — 2005-04-23T02:04:33-05:00

My name is Whitney.
Some people call me Whit.
Or Wit.
Or Boots.
I was born in July.
But just barely.
I like ice cream a lot.
Chocolate, strawberry, and mint chocolate chip are all good.
But not vanilla.
I do not like vanilla ice cream.
Gelato is amazing.
Because it is ice cream (almost) but better.
If I could be any animal I would be a
Well I don't really know.
I haven't thought about it a lot.
I kind of like being a person.
I think I would like to be an animal cracker.
Because they're yummy.
And good with ice cream.
(Except vanilla because nothing is good with vanilla. Nothing.)
I don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
If I grow up.
Maybe I'll be a journalist.
Or a fashion designer.
Or a lawyer.
Could I be a professional shopper?
I'm listening to a mixed CD that Matt made me.
Matt is my friend now.
But the first time I met him, in seventh grade, I flicked him off.
A teacher yelled at me.
Matt doesn't remember that.
Which is probably good.
I'm wearing a pink shirt.
I like pink.
Even if Chris doesn't.
Chris is my boyfriend.
I love him very much.
Even if he can be a grumpy bugger.
I am going to England next week.
But I am sad.
Because my Grandmother died and I ahve to go to her funeral.
I wish she hadn't died.
She was a good grandmother.
I miss her.
Maybe when I grow up
If I grow up
I'll figure out how to make people live forever.
Or I'll just eat chocolate ice cream.

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raien — 2005-05-03T08:05:20-05:00

I have lost 8 pounds. I'm sure no one else cares, but I do.
Yay!
-Whit

Sweeeeetness

raien — 2005-06-07T06:06:26-05:00

Chris and I scored sweet tickets for the Killers concert tomorrow at Merriweather Post Pavillion: 2nd row pit! As in 2 rows from the stage! AGGGGGG! Sweeet!!!! (I'm sooooo excited!!!) I love the Killers!!

As she wiped the snow from her eyes, she scanned the trees for a miracle.

raien — 2005-06-14T08:06:57-05:00

So it's the last week of school! Only 2 days left, after today. Exams have been fine so far. Here's my schedule for the week:
Monday- AP US History and AP Art History
Tuesday- Independent study and French IV
Wednesday- Pre-Calculus and Religion
Thursday- AP English Lang and AP Environmental
Yesterday wasn't too bad, even though the APUSH exam was long (150 questions, an essay, and a letter). I'm in my independent study exam right now, actually, which is kind of a joke. So no worries there. French could go either way.
I'm going to an Orioles game tonight. I'm so excited! I even bought a pretty new dress to wear. Hopefully it will be a good game. I'll take pictures! (Which reminds me that I should upload some pictures from junior prom, prom, and the Killers concert.)
10 days til I leave for France! Holy schmoley I'm excited!
I'll see you on the dark side, baby.
<3 Whitney

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raien — 2005-06-23T12:06:13-05:00

This is my list of complaints. Please don't read it. I'll only sound whiney. I'm just having a shit time right now.
1. My parents make me pay for everything. Clothes, shoes, car, car insurance,gas , senior pictures, french trip alaska trip, etc. I even pay for most of my food bc I'm never home.
2. I was supposed to get a job, but now I can't because they want to go on a three week vacation. So how do I pay for everything...if I can't get a summer job and am not allowed to work during the school year?
3. My period went away for 3 days. Then it came back. This is day 10 of my period. I'm going to bleed to death and I feel awful.
4. I miss my boyfriend.
5. My birthday is in eight days and I will be 17 and I dont care. My parents aren't getting me anything bc they say I'm rude and I wont even be here. And I'm not allowed to have a party because mom says I'm too old. I dont' really want one anyway though I guess.
6. I really miss my grandparents. My grandma's dead and my grandpa lives in England and can't fly, and he doesnt want to take a ship by himself. So I might never get to see him again.
7. I'm really worried about college and I don't know how I'm going to pay for it. My parents say that it's my responsibility.
8. I just want to go to bed and sleep forever.

Just another adventure

raien — 2005-06-24T12:06:34-05:00

I leave for France today. My plane takes off at 6:00. Hopefully it will be fun. <3 Whit

And the days go by like hours

raien — 2005-07-19T03:07:52-05:00

So I got my AP scores....I did ok. US- 5 Eng Lang- 5 Env Science- 5 Art History- 3 (but what did you expect? lol go G.!) And tonight I'm going to a concert...3 Doors Down with No Address, Breaking Benjamin, and Staind. Should be sweet. I'll update later. Btw, Alaska was sweet! <3 Whitney

Long time no update

raien — 2005-08-30T10:08:19-05:00

School has officially started....and ended. No school tomorrow- woo hoo! So that means I have no obligations until 3:30. Yay! Now, to any normal person, half a day with no obligations might not seem that special, but for me, it's awesome! I never get time off. When I'm not at school, I'm at one of my two jobs, or I'm doing homework. So this is quite welcome. I have time tomorrow to finish up my government reading and notes and work on the summer assignment that I didn't do (because I got the wrong one because the main office gave it to me).
I got a new piercing today...kind of exciting- my tragus on my left ear. It looks really sweet, and hardly hurt at all. I just went to Mystics and did it. Woo hoo for spontaneous bravery. I'll try and take a picture of it and post it....just like I've been promising to post my France, Alaska, Maine, and New York pictures....I'll get around to it...sure. It doesn't look brilliant right now, because it still has a pen mark on it, but it should be improved after I clean it tomorrow morning. With any luck, it won't get infected, and will be healed in six weeks!
On a side note, pay day is on Friday. I was really excited about this, until it occured to me that a pay period ends one week before checks are distributed, and I was on vacation two weeks ago. So the paycheck only covers one week of work...and I think I only worked three shifts that week. Oh well. Some money is better than no money, and I really need to start saving up for college.
College....hmmm... Well I finished part 1 of my Columbia application and have a few things ready to submit to my counselor....I really hope I get accepted...
Alright, I'm going to work on my AP Government work...
<3 Whitney
We didn't start the fire...

Ta da

raien — 2005-08-31T10:08:49-05:00

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raien — 2005-09-05T06:09:24-05:00

I worked today. Know what's sweet? Today was a holiday. So I made double pay. Sex. You know what's not so sweet. I also work tomorrow. Which is not a holiday. <3 Whitney

Full of sea breeze and sunshine

raien — 2005-09-06T11:09:55-05:00

So I submitted the first part of my application to Columbia University this evening. Plus the ($65!!!!) application fee. All I really have left to do is get my recommendations, talk to my counselor, and write my essay. The essay is what I'm really thinking hard about. Well, if all goes well, I'll know what college I'm going to by the middle of December. God I will be a wreck the day I get that letter. I probably won't even open it. I'll just hold on to it for a while. Maybe frame it until March. Sometimes its better not to know, and if I don't get in, I'm going to be really...disenheartened... Keep your fingers crossed for me! <3

24 fluid ounces of wholesome family fun

raien — 2005-09-07T10:09:16-05:00

I want to get a vertical labret.
And I will.
After the Renaissance Festival ends.
Ta da.
<3 Whit

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raien — 2005-09-19T08:09:34-05:00

Oooooh I am sick.
This is not good.
I have overworked myself and now I am sick.
I have no time to recooperate.
Ooooh dear this is really not good.
Shiiiiiit.

I wish Clinton could be king.

raien — 2005-09-20T05:09:52-05:00

So I'm really struggling to find time to get everything done. I have so much to do... I think I may have spread myself a little thin. Mmm.
Well I don't know what's going to happen with Ren Fest.
And I have to handle the Youth Rise showcase assembly skit...I can't believe Ms Fink threw that one at me. It's a mess.
Ooooh dear. I need a mental health day.
<3 Whit

I received your letter only yesterday

raien — 2005-09-21T08:09:39-05:00

It's a mess isn't it? I'm glad I don't live on the gulf.
They think Rita will be worse than Katrina. It's so awful...

It was a beautiful adventure.

raien — 2005-09-22T09:09:42-05:00

I have a paper, two reading journals, and an article summary due tomorrow. And I have a test that I really should study for.
I'm not usually this much of a procrastinator. C'est un mystere, non?
[love]
Whitney the Invincible

Would you trust the sun if he asked to hold your hand?

raien — 2005-09-24T09:09:06-05:00

I partied last night like it was 1995. I haven't done that in ages.
I officially love Bailey's Irish Creme.
I drank half a bottle of Southern Comfort- I HATE SoCo. But hey, I managed ok.
I think.
I don't really remember... ;)
<3 Whit

I'm in the dead center of town.

raien — 2005-09-26T08:09:15-05:00

I had the shittiest day ever at work today. The head chef was there (Marissa), and she is such a bitch. I mean, a complete, absolute, unnecessary bitch. She goes out of her way to make everyone miserable. (This is not an exaggeration.) I forgot to call a steak back into the kitchen. Stupid, stupid thing to forget. But I never forget, ever. This is like the first time. And this was the worst night possible to do so. She was so mean about it and I just wanted to cry or maybe throw a dish at her face. If Robert, the other chef who is amazingly nice, had been there, it would have been ok. I mean, it still would have been bad, because I did make a mistake, and because of it my table had to wait longer for their meals, but it would have been forgiveable. Marissa was just rude and impolite and treated me like I was stupid. After I took the food out to the table, I noticed that one of the meals had the wrong side dish. Which was totally Marissa's fault. She's really careless. But there was no way I could go back into the kitchen and have her fix it...because she'd just yell at me again. So I just had to pray that the guy wouldn't notice he was eating pilaf instead of mixed vegetables. Either he forgot what he ordered or just didn't say anything, thank God. If she worked there everyday, I'd quit. Well, shittiest day ever, in summary. But on a lighter note...my Grandpa's here from England and my Mommy's home. That's nice. I missed her and I haven't seen him since my Grandma's funeral this spring. Well I'm going to go read my psychology book... Hasta la vista. <3 Whit

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raien — 2005-09-26T11:09:37-05:00

I am constantly disappointed in people. Maybe my expectations are too specific.
1. If girl needs a ride home, give her a ride. Don't make her walk. At night. By herself. On a highway.
2. Do not pressure said girl to date ANYONE. Girl does not care. Girl wants to be left the fuck alone.
3. Do not say "Oh, girl is single, now I can have free sex." No way. Not happening. Fuck yourself. (Girl has no interest in sex from anyone. ANYONE.)
4. Do not think that said girl is stupid, naive, or otherwise ignorant to ANYTHING. Girl is not. She is smart and intuitive. Not to mention a worthy person.
5. Do not attempt to pull the wool over girl's eyes. Refer to rule #4.
6. Please, if you break any rules, apologize to girl. She deserves it. Do not blame her for the things you do wrong. Your actions are not her fault. (Ie. You get angry at girl and wreck your car, it is NOT her fault.)
7. Girl would appreciate civil telephone conversations. She does not appreciate being harassed, yelled at, or chastized, at any time.
8. Please, leave said girl alone. She is not lonely. She does not need anyone.

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raien — 2005-09-28T04:09:55-05:00

Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.
Je ne m'aime pas.

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raien — 2005-10-01T11:10:57-05:00

A - Age of your first kiss: Really young. Like 5. I used to kiss all the boys.
B - Band you are listening to right now: None.
C - Crush: A secret!
D - Dad's name: Jerry Wayne
E - Easiest person to talk to: I don't really like to talk to people about "those things."
F - Favorite ice cream: Coffee or mint chocolate chip.
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears? Bears.
H - Hometown: Annapolis
I - Instruments: None.
J - Jr. High School: Central Middle
K - Kids: I do not like children. I will never have them.
L - Longest car ride ever: Driving 16 hours from Maine to Edgewater in one day.
M - Mom's name: Lynne Carole
N - Nicknames: Whit, Wit, Hoot
O - One wish: 58120
P - Phobia[s]: Food! lol I'm so weird. And failure, not getting where I want to go in life.
Q - Quote: Well-behaved women never make history.
R - Reason to smile: Funny movies, my friends, my puppy
S - Song you sang last: Hmmm...something last night when Rae was in the car with me...I think it was Switchfoot
T - Time you woke up today: 11:00... I never sleep that late, but I totally deserved it.
U - Unknown fact about me: I broke a nail this morning. (Exciting, right?)
V - Vegetable[s] you hate: Hmmm...I kind of like all of the vegetables.
W - Worst habit: Binging.
X - X-rays you've had: My ass!!
Y - Years since you've been to church?: I went this summer when I was in Alaska.
Z - Zodiac sign: Cancer. ::crabby::

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raien — 2005-10-02T11:10:20-05:00

I just finished my college admission essay for Columbia....
...so I'm done with the application...
Woah...

Justify your conclusion.

raien — 2005-10-05T08:10:26-05:00

Columbia application: submitted. But I must be realistic. My chances for getting in are not very good at all. I hope I do get in, but sadly, it's unlikely.
Work was fine tonight. Dramatic, but fine.
I know it's impolite to discuss a lady's weight, but my cat has lost 4 pounds! From 15 pounds to 11! Which is a lot when you're only a foot tall. Six months ago, I had a fat cat and a malnourished dog. Now I have a fat dog and a malnourished cat. (Guess where my cat's extra food has been going? Uhh huh.)
So I don't really want to go to homecoming. Or maybe I do. Who knows.
I'm going to go do some homework.
<3 Whitney

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raien — 2005-10-06T08:10:53-05:00

My life is like sculpture.
Perfection isn't reached when there's nothing left to add; it's when there's nothing left to take away.

College!

raien — 2005-10-09T12:10:30-05:00

Well, I have to face the reality that my chances for getting into Columbia are not brilliant. I mean, fuck, anything can happen, but I can't get my hopes up...and I have to have a plan B.
Here are 13 plan Bs, the other schools I'm interested in. Does anyone know anything interesting about them? I mean, stuff I wouldn't know from a campus tour/website/viewbook?
Boston College
Boston U
Barnard College (NYC)
U of Penn
Yale (Conn.)
Harvard (Mass.)
Princeton (NJ)
Emerson College (Boston, and it's all communications-based)
New York University
Georgetown U (DC)
Washington and Jefferson College (PA)
University of MD: College Park (For my mom's sake- though I will never go there.)
Goucher College (Baltimore)
George Washington U (DC)
Feedback? Anyone?
Hopefully I'll get into at least one school!! ><
-Whitney

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raien — 2005-10-09T07:10:10-05:00

Ren today. Not busy at all; I left early.
I'm going to do some homework...
<3 Whit
broken

C'est moi

raien — 2005-10-11T10:10:58-05:00

I took some pics today...because I felt like it.
(I hate my profile.)
<3 The girl in the pictures.

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raien — 2005-10-15T12:10:59-05:00

So if I don't get into Columbia I might go to Goucher....I can go there for free and it's a good school. But...it's in Baltimore...and I really don't want to stay here...oh well... It would be easier on my parents. But I really want to go to Columbia :(
DC was fun yesterday. We took some pictures, I might post some of them if they're any good.
I have so much homework this weekend. I really don't know how I'm going to get it all done.
And I guess I'm not going to Homecoming... Oh well. Now I kind of wish I had bought a ticket. It's my senior year and all.
Well whatever. Too late now.
I'm going to go do some homework.
-Whitney

The Capital in October

raien — 2005-10-15T01:10:31-05:00

Yesterday, Emily, Rachel, and I went to a creative writing workshop in DC with Lorna Dee Cervantes as the speaker. It was really interesting and we got free books. ;) Then we went to Chinatown and had some awesome food. (It was the first time we've actually had Chinese food in Chinatown- we always go to Fuddruckers for brownie sundaes.) After food (which was much needed) and shopping in Urban Outfitters (also much needed), we went to the mall. (For those of you who don't live in DC, which is probably most of you, the mall is a wide expanse of grass- it is not a shopping center. Just so you know.) We took some pictures then headed back to the metro. Of course, we ended up waiting for 40 minutes for a shuttle bus...but that's ok. I got two cappuchinos for a grand total of $1.40 in the meantime. Yay!
Because smoking kills.
Chinatown.
Going up?
The classic subway pose. We had to.
Well, my arms weren't quite long enough to get everyone in the frame...
Looking down 12th street.
Sometimes not everything is black and white.
Well....we suddenly realized that the camera was zoomed in. Oops. Lost Rachel. And half of Em.
I seeeee youuuu!
Guess what they were looking at?
There's our day in a nut shell. We had an awesome time.
<3 <3 <3 Whitney

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raien — 2005-10-17T09:10:59-05:00

Well, I missed Homecoming. I'm a little sad. It is my senior year and all. But I'm not very sad. I'll go to prom. And maybe I'll go to Homecoming next year with a Senior when I'm a Freshman in college...ha ha NOT.

<3 <3 <3
Calculus is my bitch.

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raien — 2005-10-19T03:10:08-05:00

I:
[x] am tall
[ ] am in between
[ ] am short
[ ] am a blonde
[ ] am redheaded
[x] am a brunette
[ ] have black hair

[ ] have blue eyes
[ ] have brown eyes
[x] have green eyes
[ ] have hazel eyes
[ ] have grey eyes
[ ] and wear glasses
[ ] and wear contacts

[x] have braces
[x] have freckles
[x] have piercings
[ ] have a tattoo

[ ] have long hair
[x] have short hair
[ ] have mid-length hair

My nationality includes:
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] dutch
[x] french
[ ] german
[ ] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamaican
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] native american
[ ] russian
[x] british
[ ] danish
[ ] african
[ ] scandanavian
[ ] armenian
[ ] finnish
[ ] other

My favorite color(s) is(are):
[x] red
[x] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[x]green
[x] blue
[ ] white
[x] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[x] orange

Some things I've done/played include:
[x] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[ ] dancing
[x] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[x] softball
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[x] track/cross country
[x] basketball
[ ] baseball
[x] golf
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[ ] marching band

I am sometimes:
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] bubbly
[x] spazzy
[x] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[x] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird

I like _____ music:
[x] rap
[x] rock
[x] pop
[x] country
[x] hip hop
[x] r&b
[x] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[x] classical
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[x] the 80s
[x] punk
[x] Metal
[x] reggae
[x] Goth
[x] Latin
[x] 90's Grunge
[x] musicals

The pet(s) I have is (are) a:
[x] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[x] rabbit
[x] fish
[ ] bird
[ ] other

Clothes I like to wear are:
[x] plain t shirts
[ ] sweatshirts
[x] stockings
[x] high heels
[x] boots
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[ ] pj pants
[ ] boxers
[x] underwear
[x] dresses
[x] mini skirts
[ ] long skirts
[ ] knee skirts
[x] watches
[x] necklace
[x] hoop earrings
[x] toe socks
[x] flip flops
[x] halter tops
[x] stilletos
[ ] shorts
[x] sleeveless shirts

I like to wear my hair (in a):
[x] down
[x] ponytail
[ ] pigtails
[ ] messy bun
[x] half ponytail
[x] scrunched/curly
[ ] bun
[ ] crimped
[ ] with a bandana
[ ] French braids
[ ] lots of little braids
[ ] Gel
[x] hat
[x] messy hot guy hair
[x] sex hair
[ ] fauxhawk
[x] in a clip

I'm mostly labeled as:
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[ ] hyper
[ ] happy
[ ] everything
[x] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[x] I have no idea

I eat:
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[x] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[x] a lot of carbs
[ ] lots of meat
[x] salad
[x] seafood
[ ] Mountain Dew

A typical friday night:
[ ] mall with your friends
[ ] partying
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[x] staying home
[ ] babysitting
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] working while your friends are out having fun
[x] i dont plan out my weekends

Currently I am:
[ ] in a relationship
[x] single and loving it
[ ] crushing
[ ] single and looking for someone

Online, I use:
[x] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] =D
[x] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[x] jk
[x] ttyl
[x] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[ ] ^_^
[ ] o.o
[x] <3
[ ] "LOLZOHEMGEE"
[ ] knai

I have :
[x] been kissed
[x] lied to my best friend
[x] dyed my hair
[x] dressed punk
[x] kissed a girl on the cheek
[x] lied to my parents
[x] cried in front of lots of people
[x] went bare foot in the snow
[ ] played hockey
[x] made my own clothes

In the last 24 hours, I:
[ ] got in a fight
[x] took a shower
[ ] gave a dirty look to someone
[ ] cried
[x] went to school
[ ] shopped
[ ] danced
[ ] got sick
[ ] did something I regret
[ ] ate something gross
[ ] discovered something new

At school I:
[x] run to class because I'm always late
[ ] hide in the bathroom
[x] act smart
[ ] am hyper
[ ] am a nerd
[ ] am in band
[ ] am very popular

Right now I am:
[ ] in my pjs
[x] drinking
[ ] listening to music
[ ] watching tv
[ ] watching a movie
[ ] IMing someone
[ ] talking on the phone
[ ] eating
[x] finishing this survey

If only there were more hours in the day!

raien — 2005-10-21T03:10:09-05:00

So far, today has really really sucked.
So, I woke up late, when I wanted to get up early and do homework. I haven't gotten anything done today. Which means I'm going to be behind in homework for yet another week. That means no sleep, shitty grades. extra stress.
My car failed its emissions test this morning. So I'm going to have to pay to fix it, and it could cost up to $500. That's a lot of money when you make $8 an hour and have to pay $45k a year for college.
Speaking of college, I really don't think I'm going to get into Columbia. I've been thinking about it, and reviewing my statistics, and I just really don't think it's going to happen. It's really depressing, because it's all I want. Columbia is my perfect school. So if I don't get in...well I'll have to deal with that when the time comes.
And the man who was supposed to e-mail me about a scholarship hasn't contacted me. And it's a really nice scholarship...agggg I hope I can get in touch with him. I know that if I get into Columbia (please please please), I'll find a way to pay for it. But there's so much free money out there, and I just need to get my hands on some of it.
::sigh:: I have so much to do this weekend:
Career internship: Write a resume ( I have one of course, but I'm going to have to format/edit it.)
AP English: Read up to chapter 10 of Frankenstein (I haven't even started it!)
AP Human Geography: (loooong) Exercise for population graphing
AP Government: Notes + IDs for chapters 5 and 6
AP Calculus: Bookwork (like 25 problems)
AP French Language: an exercise in the book and a "projet creatif"- we have to create and invention and an advertisement for it...it's ridiculous
AP Psychology: Outline + IDs for Module 14, and study for the Unit 4 test
Plus... I'm working tonight from 4:00-9:00, tomorrow from 4:00-9:00 and Sunday from 9:00am-8:00pm. So that's...21 hours of work in one weekend...plus A LOT of homework. The weekend (Fri, Sat, Sun) is only 72 hours long. So...like 21 hours of work...and it looks like about 15-20 hours of homework. And I have to walk my dog, fill out some scholarship forms, and write essays for my back-up schools. (Approx. 8 hours) So, if I don't spend anytime doing anything other than work, scholarships, dog-walking, essays, or homework, that leaves 23 hours to sleep. Or do the "other things" I need to/would like to catch up on. For example, doing laundry or finish reading the book for my writer's workshop.
At this you are going to roll your eyes, but I need to go shopping. I don't have any winter clothes. And don't say, "Whitney, you shop all the time," because I haven't shopped since school started. So there. And I'm always cold because I don't have anything warm to wear. :(
Oh, woe is me. Sorry, I needed a rant. Ha ha I just wasted half an hour of homework time ranting! Ha ha ha I suck.
-Whitney

no subject

raien — 2005-10-22T11:10:15-05:00

Ok. So check out my last journal entry. You see that list of homework? I finished my human geography homework. I finished my career internship homework. That's it; that's all I've done. And I'm working all day tomorrow.
Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
I'm fucked.
-Whit
Procrastination is like masturbation; it's cool at first, but in the end you're just screwing yourself.

I'm procrastinating again!!

raien — 2005-10-22T11:10:16-05:00

Put an 'x' next to the ones that you have accomplished:

Have you ever...
[x] been drunk.
[x] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.

[x] had sex more than once in the same day
[ ] had a threesome
[x] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] made out with a stranger.
[x] stole something from your job. (lol, I take teabags out of the banquet...but it's not really stealing lol)
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[x] been to europe.
[x]skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[x] lost your sibling. (Omg I lost my 13 year old brother and his friend in NYC...good grief)
[x] played 'Clue'.
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[x] dropped x.
[x] been cheated on.
[x] had a sweet sixteen. I never got a party, though :(
[x] had a car.
[x] drove.

Do you. .
[ ] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[ ] have a crush.
[x] feel loved.
[ ] feel lonely.
[X] feel happy.
[ ] hate yourself.
[ ] think youre attractive.
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[x] listen to soul.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] listen to reggae.
[x] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[ ] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[x] wear eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color yellow.
[ ] cyber.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[] have long hair.
[x] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[x] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.

Are you. .
[ ] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[x] okay.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[x] bilingual.
[x] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[ ] short.
[x] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[x] sick.
[ ] a virgin.
[ ] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[ ] looking.
[x] not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[ ] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[ ] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic.
[ ] racist.

* . . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*
1) pierce your nose or tongue? Nose. I'm getting my lip pierced!
2) be serious or be funny? Hmm...dunno. Both are good at different times.
3) drink whole or skim milk? Omg I love whole milk, isn't that sick? But I never drink it. My parents drink skim, but I just use it in my cereal.

* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*
4) simple or complicated? Complicated, I guess.

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
5) flowers or candy? I don't like roses, but I like other flowers. Both are overrated. I like diamonds, though! ;)
6) grey or gray? Gray.
7) color or black-and-white photos? Both
8) lust or love? Hmmm, both!
9) sunrise or sunset? Sunset. I am not one for early mornings.
10) M&Ms or Skittles? M&Ms.
11) rap or rock? Rock, but I like some rap, as long as its not ricockulous.
12) staying up late or waking up early? Waking up early-ish. Like 9:00 lol. But I don't like to stay up late.
13) TV or radio? Radio. I never watch TV.
15) eating apples or oranges? Both. I loooooove fruit!

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *
16) Do you have a crush?: No.
17) Who is it?

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
18) being hot or cold? Cold.
19) tall members of the opposite sex? Yes, definately.
20) sun or moon? Sun.
21) diamonds or rubies? Diamonds all the way baby. But I do have a gorgeous ruby ring.
22) left or right? Right.
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? Hmm I don't know. 1 best friend I guess.
24) sun or rain? Sun. I don't mind the rain, except when its cold.
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Mint chocolate chip! Or coffee. Or moose tracks. God I looove ice cream.
27) green beans or carrots? Both
26) boys or girls? he he he boys
28) low fat or fat free? Low cal...

* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *
29) What is your biggest fear in the world? Oooooo dear. Not getting what I want in life. Failing.
30) Kids or no kids? No kids.
31) Cat or dog? I have both. My cat is kind of miserable, though. My dog is amazing. He makes my heart smile.
32) Half empty or half full? Half full.
33) Mustard or ketchup? Mustard. Omg I looove mustard. I eat mustard sandwiches, and carrots dipped (slathered) in mustard. Ha ha that's gross, isn't it?
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? Soft cover. I like to read when I'm laying in bed, and hard cover books hurt my sternum when I rest them on my chest.
35) Newspaper or magazine? Both.
36) Sandals or sneakers? Heels!
37) Wonder or amazement? Wonder.
38) Red car or white car? Red, all the way baby. Clifford the big red SUV, woot!
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? Don't even ask me that. You don't want to know.
40) Singing or dancing? Both. They go together.
41) Hugging or kissing? Both are nice. Boys give way better hugs than girls. I like strong hugs. And string handshakes. Girls are always limp, its dumb.
42) Corduroy or plain? Hmmmm both.
43) Happy or sad? Happy.
45) Blondes, brunettes? Well....brunettes have more fun! I'm all for dark features.

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *
What time is it? 11:35PM.
Full name? Whitney Carol M Hoot
Nicknames: Wit, Whit, Hoot, Hooters, Wit Wit (that one's special lol...)
Names and ages of siblings? James, 13
Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake? 17
Date that you regularly blow them out? July 1
Pets? Total:5
Dog, Cat, two rabbits, fish.
Eye color? Green
Hair color? Dark Brown
Piercing(s)? 7

* . . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . .*
Where do you want to live? New York City, baby, Park Avenue Penthouse
How many kids do you want? Zerooooo
What kind of job do you want? Lawyer/politician
Do you want to get married? Yes, eventually.

We hope you had the time of your life...

raien — 2005-10-23T09:10:45-05:00

So....today was the last day of my fourth year working at the Maryland Renaissance Festival. The last day of my last year. I'm glad I finished out the season, even if it did almost kill me. I have so many friends there.
Whitney L, Corey, and Miss Paula. Whitney and Corey are twins; Corey used to be the manger, now Whitney is the big-man(woman)-in-the-booth. Miss Paula is their mommy.
Margot and Lindsey on an ele-ma-phunt.
Stacy, everyone's favorite rose bearer! (Note: It's a wig.)
Corey and I. So we should show this pic to his wife. ;) Good times at the Monster Booth, baby.
Jen, me, Claire, and Bryn. Behind the Monster Booth. Busy being idiots.
Yeah...it's me. I won't deny it.
Daniel and I. He is such a sexface. Can you believe he's only 14?? That would totally be statuatory rape....woah now.
Me and a couple of really sweet looking jesters who just happened to walk by.
Casey and I. How come, in almost every pic, I'm either sticking my tongue out or making a kissy face? Hmm, we'll leave that one to Freud...
The Monster Booth Gang. We are so awesome. Me, Lindsey, Casey, and Margot. Hottness. (Except that is a terrible pic of me. I look really pale and my nose was red because I was freeeezing.)
So...it's over. I'm definately going to miss it. We all had some really sweet times. But it's time to move on, right? Time for bigger and better things (mainly Columbia and more than $6 an hour). It was great while it lasted. And I'll never ever forget it!
<3 <3 <3
Whitney

Surveyyyy (Because I have nothing better to do.)

raien — 2005-10-30T06:10:41-05:00

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at?
-Ugh. I don't even want to speak of such things.

2. How much cash do you have on you?
-Like $4. $400 in checks, but not much cash at all. I need to go to the bank.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?
-Incest. lol.

4. Favorite plant?
-Trees are nice. I like trees.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
-I'm not telling ;)

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
-Just a plain boring ring. Nothing exciting. I'm getting a new, fancy phone this month though! Yay!

7. What shirt are you wearing?
-Sweatshirt.

8. Do you "label" yourself?
-No.

9. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing?
-No shoes. But my favorite pair are my Diesel tennis shoes.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
-Bright. I hate poor lighting.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
-Hmm he lives in California. He's a cool kid.

12. Ever "spilled the beans"?
-Hmm? Like told a secret?

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-Driving. Illegally. After curfew. Oops.

14. What did your last text message you recieved on your cell phone say?
-Hi.

15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?
-No

16.What's a saying that you say a lot?
-That's ridic.

17. Who told you they loved you last?
-Ummm...Jen lol.

18. Last furry thing you touched?
-My dog.

19. How many hours a week do you work?
-I work 16-20 hours, and I'm in school for 30+.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
-None. I go digital all the way.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
-Umm...I don't know. Probably 9. That was fun. I was a cute kid.

22. Your worst enemy?
-Failure.

23. What is your current desk top picture?
-New York city skyline.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
-I asked my dad why he was putting butter on the steak...

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to erase all of your regrets, what would you choose?
-Million dollars.

100 Things

raien — 2005-10-31T09:10:23-05:00

100 THINGS.... repost this with your answers:

1* First grade teacher's name: Ms Miers

2* Last word you said: audacious.

3* Last song you sang: Landslide (the Dixie Chick version)

4* Last person you hugged: Jen

5* Last thing you laughed at: Myself, when I fell down the steps today at Arlington Echo. It was brilliant.

6* Last time you said I dont remember: Uh....I don't remember?

7* Last time you cried: Probably not that long ago. I cry all the time. It's ridic.

9* What color socks are you wearing: Navy blue and green argyle. Sweet.

10* What's under your bed: Magazines.

11* What time did you wake up today: 6:30...I was late to school.

12* Current taste: Diet Coke.

13* Current hair: Very dark brown. Shortish. Clean. Shiny.

14* Current Annoyance: My Calculus homework.

15* Current Crush: None.

16* Current longing: Columbia University ^^

17* Current desktop background: New York city skyline.

18* Current worry: ...Calculus homework...

19* Current hate: Not-knowing about college.

20* Current favorite article of clothing: My bright pink Ralph Lauren cable-knit turtleneck.

21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: White teeth. And tummy. ;)

22* Last CD that you listened to: Kelly Clarkson...lol

23* Favorite place to be: New York, New York.

24* Least favorite place: My study. I hate it.

25* Time you wake up in the morning: Varies.

26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play?: I wish I could sing really well. Or play piano.

27* Favorite colors: All of them! I like pink and brown.

28* Do you believe in an afterlife: Hmmmm I don't know.

29* How tall are you: 5'8.

30* Current favorite word/saying: That's ridic.

31* Favorite book: Hmmm...I like lots of books...

32* Favorite season: Autumn.

33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: My grandmother :(.

35* Where do you want to go for college?: Columbia Columbia Columbia ohh pleaseeee Columbia; I would sell my sould for Columbia!

36* What is your career going to be like: I'm either going to be a politician or an investment banker.

37* How many kids do you want: Zero.

*HAVE YOU EVER...*

39* Said "I love you" and meant it: I'll say yes.

40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc.: No...but I was really mad at my dog yesterday because she ate my entire pack of gum.

41. Been to New York: Yes yes yes yes.

42* Been to Florida: Yes.

43* Been to California: Nope. I think I might go there next summer.

44* Been to Hawaii : Nope.

45* Been to Mexico: Nope.

46* Been to China: Nope. But I'm going to Thailand!

48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Umm...I don't think so...

52* Had a crush on someone: Yes.

53* What book are you reading now?: A Farewell to Arms and Frankenstein.

54* Worst feeling in the world: Failure.

55* What is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning?: ...Need...more...sleep...

56* How many rings before you answer: Depends on what the caller ID says ;) .

57* Future daughter's name: N/A

59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Yes ;)

60* If you could have any job you wanted: President of the US

61* Wish you were here: New York, NY.

62* College plans: Columbia Columbia Columbia! Hmm..I feel like I'm repeting myself.

63* Piercings: Seven.

64* Do you do drugs: Yes. Shut up.

65* Are you gay? No.

67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Pantene ProV.

68* What are you most scared of: Failure.

69* What clothes do you sleep in: PJ pants and a Tee shirt.

70* Who is the last person that called you: Casey

71* Where do you want to get married: After college I guess.

72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: I would like to be skinny. And have a straighter nose. Just being honest...

73* Who do you really hate: No one.

74* Been In Love: Sure.

75* Are you timely or always late: Always late lol.

76* Do you have a job: Ginger Cove Assisted Living Center, Waitress. GC-Unit, Holla back!

77* Do you like being around people: Yes.

78* Best feeling in the world: Knowing you earned everything you have.

79* Are you for world peace: Yes. But do I think its possible? Not really.

80* Are you a health freak: Ha ha ha ha ha. I refuse to discuss that.

81* What's your favorite food? Spicy ethnic food. I love Indian food and Chinese food. Mexican is yummy too.

82* Do you want someone you can't have?: No.

83* Are you lonely right now: Nope. I am very content.

84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: No. Even if I didn't, it wouldnt bother me.

85* Do you want to get married: I think so.

86* Do you want kids?: No. I know I'm repeting myself!

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

87* Cried: No.

88* Bought Something: A mint chocolate chip sundae with hot fudge at Friendly's after the improv show. It was delish.

89* Gotten Sick: Not really. But my stomach kind of hurts.

90* Sang: Yes.

91* Said I Love You: No.

92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Like them: No.

93* Met Someone: Yes....but not like "met someone".

94* Moved On: Uhhhh...no?

95* Talked To Someone: Yes.

96* Had A Serious Talk: No

97* Missed Someone: No.

98* Hugged Someone: Yes.

99* Had intimate relations with someone: No.

100* Yelled at Someone: Yes :( My mom. I feel bad about it.

Pray pray pray.

raien — 2005-11-02T09:11:25-05:00

Dear Minday users:
I need to ask a favor of everyone who reads this journal.
It's just a small favor, but would be greatly appreciated.
Do a Columbia dance for me.
Pray to whatever gods/dieties you believe in.
Please.
I'm asking in complete earnest.
I love you all very much.
Thank you and good night.
:::Whitney:::
Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia Columbia!!! Please please please just let me get accepted to this school!

no subject

raien — 2005-11-02T09:11:39-05:00

So...thanks to some fantastic rumors, everyone now thinks I'm a cokehead. Brilliant.
Absolutely brilliant.

no subject

raien — 2005-11-03T10:11:33-05:00

42 days left.
42!
<3 Whit

I am procrastinating

raien — 2005-11-07T07:11:55-05:00

Appropriate response according to you. Then repost!

You are:
[ ] really short, under 5'2!
[ ] 5'2 -5'6"
[ ] 5'6.5"
[x] 5'7" - 6'0
[ ] tall- 6'1", Taller than the average bear.

NATURALLY
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] dark brown
[ ] black

[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[x] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] yellow-eyed

[ ] glasses
[ ] contacts

[x] short hair
[ ] med.
[ ] long hair

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[x] pink
[x] hot pink
[ ] yellow
[ ] black
[x] green
[x]blue
[x] silver
[x] purple
[x] orange
[ ] maroon
[x] turquoise
[x]white

Some sports/physical things you have done in your life? (outside of PE!)
[x] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[x] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[x] softball
[x] ice skating
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[x] track/cross country
[x] basketball
[ ] baseball
[x] golf
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[ ] tennis
[ ] raquetball
[ ] volleyball
[x] martial arts
[ ] rugby
[ ] ultimate frisbee
[ ] surfing and skim boarding
[x] swimming
[ ] bmx
[x] snowboarding
[x] skiing
[ ] wakeboarding
[ ] skateboarding
[x] rollerblading
[ ] football
[ ] beer pong

Your personality is sometimes...
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] laid back
[x] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird
[x] ditzy
[x] sarcastic

The music you like is?
[x] classic rock
[x] rap
[x] gangsta rap
[x] hip hop
[x] alternative
[x] rock
[x] pop
[x] country
[x] r&b
[x] slow jams
[ ] christian
[x] classical
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[x] punk
[x] reggae
[x] emo
[ ] screamo
[ ] latin
[x] 80's rock
[x] metal
[ ] prog
[ ] reggaeton
[ ] dancehall
[x] 60's-70's
[x] disco
[x] ska
[ ] industrial

The pets you have had?
[x] cat
[x] dog
[x] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[x] bunny
[x] fish
[ ] ducks
[ ] chickens
[ ] rooster
[x] horse
[ ] bird
[x] frog
[x] hermit crab
[ ] prarie dog
[ ] none
[ ] turtle
[ ] hamster
[x] mouse

Clothes you like to wear are?
[x] tshirts
[x] sweatshirts
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] flip-flops
[ ] ball caps
[x]High heels
[x] skirts
[x] other pants

Clothing Brands you like?
[ ] It doesnt much matter to me!
[ ] Delia*s
[x] American Eagle
[x] Hollister
[ ] The Buckle
[x] Abercrombie & Fitch
[ ] Target
[ ] Wal-mart
[x] Wet Seal
[x] Billabong
[ ] O'neil
[ ] Aeropostale
[ ] Dickies
[ ] Quicksilver/ Roxy
[ ] Anchor Blue
[x] Guess
[x] Lucky
[ ] Champs
[ ] Nike
[ ] adidas
[ ] reebok
[ ]Salvation army/goodwill
[ ] some/none no name brands
[x] old navy
[ ] only name brand
[ ] HOT TOPIC
[ ] Flirt.com
[ ] Down Clothing
[X] Other

Shoe Brands?
[x] Nike
[x] Adidas
[ ]new balance
[ ] reebok
[x] K Swiss
[ ] Steve Madden
[ ] Vans
[x]Converse
[ ] Saucony
[ ] Cathy Jean
[x] if i like something ill buy it no matter what brand
[ ] Puma
[ ] Sketchers
[ ] DVS
[ ] DC
[ ] FUBU
[ ] Etnies
[ ] Adios
[ ]Osiris
....Jimmy Choo? Versace?

States I have been to.
[ ] Alabama
[x] Alaska
[ ] Arizona
[ ] Arkansas
[ ] California
[ ] Colorado
[x] Connecticut
[x] Delaware
[x] Florida
[x] Georgia
[ ] Hawaii
[x] Idaho
[ ] Illinois
[ ] Indiana
[ ] Iowa
[ ] Kansas
[ ] Kentucky
[ ] Louisianna
[x] Maine
[x] Maryland
[x] Massachusetts
[x] Michigan
[ ] Minnesota
[ ] Mississippi
[ ] Missouri
[x] Montana
[ ] Nebraska
[ ] Nevada
[x] New Hampshire
[x] New Jersey
[ ] New Mexico
[x] New York
[x] North Carolina
[ ] North Dakota
[x] Ohio
[x] Oklahoma
[ ] Oregon
[x] Pennsylvania
[ ] Rhode Island
[x] South Carolina
[ ] South Dakota
[ ] Tennessee
[x] Texas
[x] Utah
[x] Vermont
[x] Virginia
[ ] Washington
[x] West Virginia
[ ] Wisconsin
[x] Wyoming

There are those people who you always want to keep in touch with.

raien — 2005-11-13T09:11:15-05:00

100 Things I Like (In no specific order)
Cappuchino ice cream
Winning elections
Sparkling black cherry citrus Fresca (its the best)
Concerts
People watching
Myspace
Museums
Tall boys
Straight teeth
Cigarattes
My hair
Boys in bands
Bailey's Irish Cream
The number seven
Christmas
Coconut shrimp
Necklaces
Shopping
Water
Coffee
Going to the movies
Clothes
Europe
New York, NY
Straight As
Acceptance letters
Thin-days (as opposed to fat-days)
Books
Warm autumn days
Parties
Mean Girls (the movie)
Dancing
Singing
Local bands
Strong hugs
British comedy
Going to the theatre
My car
Maryland
Acting
Making people smile
Earlobes
Painted toe-nails
High heels
The prospect of the future
Scary movies
Kissing
My friends
A sense of accomplishment
Hair combs
Ethnic food
Ice
Music
Black ballpoint pens
The Hotel Beacon
Broadway
Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi
Italian men
English accents
Great thrift store finds
My grandfather
Burned CDs
Unexpected presents
Asparagus
The movie Mulan
Earrings
Being in charge
Getting compliments
Purses
Walking
My dog
My cat
My house
Washington, DC
Seeing old friends
Men in uniform
The color red
Abercrombie and Fitch
My Guess jeans...they are my best investment
Getting As on tests
Volunteering
Slumber parties
Gum (Orbit!)
Sweaters (nice ones)
Belts
Maintaining a sense of organization
My parents' loosening of the rules
Travelling
The thought of college
Scholarships
Kit Kat bars
AIM
Getting e-mail
The beach
Vodka....straight
Gone With the Wind
Stripes
Running
Horses
Mindsay blogging ;)
Well that was a good time waster. Now you know more about moi. :)
<3 <3 <3
Whitney

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raien — 2005-11-14T06:11:44-05:00

I changed my mind again.
I am indecisive.
I am also supposed to be at a concert right now. But I am not. This is rather disappointing. Oh well.
<3 Whit
(Who is all alone at home)

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raien — 2005-11-15T10:11:02-05:00

Well I tried out for Pygmalion.
Wish me luck! (I find out on Friday!)
And I find out one other very very very important thing in just....30 DAYS!!!!!!!!! OMG!!! (AHHH!)
<3 <3 <3 <3
Whitney

SAT SCORES

raien — 2005-11-21T10:11:42-05:00

New SAT scores:
740 Critical Reading
680 Math
750 Writing (10 on the essay)
So, if you only count the old sections, it's a 1420
With all three sections its a 2170 out of 2400.
So its not too bad. I'll survive.

The Secret Courtesan

raien — 2005-11-22T11:11:24-05:00

Act 1, Scene 1
Scene opens in a bank. An attractive young woman sits behind a desk. There is an empty chair in front of her desk, and she shuffles absently through the papers in front of her, frequently scribbling notes with a pen. A tall, dark man wearing a black tophat and a double-breasted wool coat strolls into the bank and waits in line behind a red velvet rope hanging between two short posts.
Woman behind the desk: Sir, can I help you?
The man approaches the desk, removes his tophat, and stands with it in his hands.
Man: I'd like to discuss interest rates for a rather large loan.
Woman: Please sit, Mr.....
Man: Williams. Richard Williams. He sits.
Woman: Well, Mr. Williams, I hope I can be of assistance. My name is Angelique Roberre. She smiles, reavling a set of perfect white teeth between her pink lips, and reaches across the table to shake his hand. He ignores her outstretched arm.
Williams: Staring intently at her. Roberre? You don't look French.
Roberre: My mother was French. Blushes and looks away, anxious to change the subject. Mr. Williams, I'd like to discuss your loan. Exactly how much money are you looking to obtain?
Williams: Four thousand pounds.
Roberre: That is a considerable sum of money, Mr. Williams. She looks up from the form she is writing on. For what purpose do you need this loan?
Williams: Leaning back in the leather chair. I'm interested in starting my own business and I require a few pounds to commence the construction.
Roberre: Not looking up from the paperwork. What type of business?
Williams: I'd rather not say.
Roberre: Looking up from her writing, adjusting the glasses on her nose. Mr. Williams, I must record all details of any financing- it is bank policy.
Williams: Whatever for? I simply need a loan, and it is your job to give me one. It is not your business as to what I do with that loan; it is only your business that I pay that loan back in a timely manner. And I assure you, Ms. Roberre, I do not let debts go unpaid. I also assure you that this money will not be contributed to any unreputable source- I'm not forming a brothel or anything of the sort!
Roberre: Blushing bright red, speaks with shock and indignation. Mr. Williams! I would be greatly appreciative if you would not use such language in this office.
Williams: Sarcastically. Oh, well I am sorry to offend. I had no idea that your ears were so sensitive to my language. I shall adjust the discourse appropriately. Though I must say, your looks are quite improved when a little color graces your cheeks.
Roberre: This is completely unprofessional, sir! You came here to discuss a loan, and that is all I am willing to discuss! If you continue to speak in such an inappropriate manner, I will not hesitate to report you to my bank manager.
Williams: Is that because you are a woman, and are incapable of handling any complication without aid from a man? Or because you prefer coddling and praise to any sort of contradiction?
Roberre: Furious by this point. This conversation is over. I am asking you to leave. You will have to request a loan from another bank.
Williams: Oh, Ms. Roberre, must you be so serious? I am quite sure I could find no bank teller more capable of processing my loan than yourself. Please, humor a foolish man. He leans forward, his nose only inches from her face. I am interested in establishing a property and investment consulting firm in the London area.
Roberre: I am no longer interested in appeasing your requests. Please leave and seek a loan at another bank.
Williams: A grin on his face. Oh dear, I can see that I've upset you. Can you please forgive me? I did not mean to upset you. I only wished to see a spark behind your tired eyes. He chuckles. And my, did I see a spark. Forgive me, Ms. Roberre? I will not tease you again. A man will only place his head between the alligator's jaws once!
Roberre: Sourly. I will see to your loan, but only because it is my responsibility as an employee of this bank. Any more rude suggestions and I will cease this transaction immediately!
Williams: He laughs. Why, you are quite a doll. Seeing her stern face he clears his throat and continues in a serious voice. What other information do you need from me?
Roberre: I will need the address of your current place of residence and your full name and title.
Williams: Richard Samuel Williams, the third, originally from Blackpool. Currently residing at 29 Angles Street.
Roberre: She repeats as she writes. Richard Samuel Williams, the third, originally from Blackpool. Currently residing at 29 Angles-
Williams: Angels.
Roberre: Looking up, raising an eyebrow. You sir, are certainly no angel.
Williams: He smiles and laughs gleefully. So you do have a sense of humor after all! And Ms. Roberre...or is it Mrs.?
Roberre: That is certainly none of your business.
Williams: Of course it is! If we are to be involved in any sort of business exchange, I must know how to address you properly.
Roberre: Pursing her lips. It is "Ms.", if you must know.
Williams: Leaning forward. And what, Ms. Roberre, is such a pretty young unmarried woman doing working in a bank? I should think you would be out exploring society. He sees her shocked look. With a chaperone, of course!
Roberre: Ignores him. I can offer you four thousand pounds over a twelve month period, with six percent compounded interest.
Williams: That would be lovely, Ms. Roberre. Thank you for your time. He stands to leave, replacing his hat on his head. Before I leave, Ms. Roberre, I do have one favor to ask of you.
Roberre: Yes?
Williams: Would you please attend a certain social function with me this Saturday evening? I would be most honored to have a lady of your stature on my arm.
Roberre: Open mouthed. You must be jesting. I know nothing about you, and based on your behavior, I would be embarrassed to accompany you anywhere.
Williams: Slyly. Ms. Roberre...do you make a commission on your sales?
Roberre: Aghast. Are you trying to blackmail me?
Williams: Grinning. Not blackmail, how could you suggest that? I am merely using a legitimate method of persuasion.
Roberre: Well frankly, Mr. Williams, I am not at all impressed by your "methods," but as you seem so desperate, I will accompany you to this social function.
Williams: Splendid! Aside. God has blessed me this day, for I have been blessed not only with a loan, but with a rather lovely date! To Ms. Roberre. May I pick you up at five o'clock? Will you be ready?
Roberre: I will be ready and dressed for the occassion. She hands him a card. Here is my calling card. Please arrive promptly; I am disinclined to wait for anyone.
Williams: Chuckling. That does not surprise me one bit. I shall see you on Saturday then. He tips his hat, then turns and leaves. Roberre watches him leave. After the door closes behind him, she returns to shuffling her papers. Lights fade to black.
End scene.

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raien — 2005-11-25T02:11:28-05:00

Happy Black Friday!!!
Guess where I was this morning....guess!
Guess!
Ha ha ha!
I was at the mall!
Did you guess???
Ok...no seriously, I have a major problem. I have a shopping addiction. I am not kidding. It is a serious problem. But at least I have a good time... I need to marry well... :)
<3 <3 <3

My humps!

raien — 2005-11-26T02:11:56-05:00

Soooooo....I find out about Columbia in...gasp...under 3 weeks! Dun dun dun...
I still have a ton of homework to do.
And I have to work today.
When am I going to finish my Christmas shopping??? hmmmm....
We'll see about all this.
There's a rash on my face. It sucks.

Awwwwwwww

raien — 2005-11-27T08:11:13-05:00

Fuck.
It's so fucking easy to feel alone this time of year. Lonliness is just....rough.
And man oh man...the sexual frustration...if I see one more episode of Sex and the City, I'm going to end up raping my neighbor or something.
Though I guess he is kinda cute...
No! I will not think of that!
I am celibate.....c-e-l-i-b-a-t-e.
Well now that I've got that all sorted out, I'm going to go grind my teeth.
And eat cookie dough.
<3
Whitney

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raien — 2005-11-28T08:11:03-05:00

I'm in AP Human Geography. I hate this class.
Oh well.
I procrastinated so much yesterday....I definitely didn't finish most of my work...oh well...
Hopefully Ms. Livingston will let me turn in my reading journal next class or I am royally fucked.

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raien — 2005-11-28T10:11:33-05:00

Procrastinating again.
What I do best.
Whitney the Timeless One
What if you expect a great change in mind after a change in body and it never comes? What then?

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raien — 2005-11-29T11:11:15-05:00

Well, Rachel doesn't have a full cast for Pygmalion yet...I hope it happens.
I really hope it does...

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raien — 2005-11-30T04:11:49-05:00

This is just one of times when I really really need a cig.
Fuck.

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raien — 2005-12-02T05:12:14-05:00

t_hi_si_sa _us_el_es_s f_ea_tu_re_un_le_ss_yo_u a_re_do_in_g m_at_h!_!!_!!

I should tell you, I should tell you...

raien — 2005-12-03T01:12:46-05:00

Had fun last night.

I saw Rent. It was really good. Really really sad.

Then Jen and I spent the night at Rachel's.

We talked about religion and liars and AIDS.

It was a good night.

<3

Whitney

My bed is so empty.

Borrrrrrrrrrrrr...

raien — 2005-12-04T10:12:31-05:00

I'm bored. (Not like a don't have a ton of homework or anything...) So I'm going to post some pictures...

Now that's an angle shot right there. My hair is very very shiny.

This was a fun night. We were not drunk. I swear. I swear! But, note the food on Jen's face. We told her it was there like six times. She never wiped it off. So we just stopped reminding her. ;)

Fishy kiss, anyone? Anyone??? No one??? Awwwww....oh well...

"Gay by birth. Fabulous by choice."

raien — 2005-12-06T03:12:43-05:00

World's shortest fairy tale
Once upon a time, a girl asked a guy "Will you marry me?" The guy said,
"No." and the girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing,
drank martinis, always had a clean house, never had to cook and farted
whenever she wanted.
The end.

It was a wild and crazy night

raien — 2005-12-11T12:12:31-05:00

Friday night was sooo much fun. We had an actual, honest-to-god, party! Ammmmmazing! There were like....I dunno....a lot of people there! I got completely shit-faced. I have never been so drunk in my entire life.

We went to see Christmas Carol in downtown Annapolis at 7:00. It was me, Rachel, Sean van Deuren, Jen, Zac, and Emily. Neither Rae nor I had dates but that worked out in the end. ;) But it was a great show. Sean couldn't go anywhere with us afterward, because his Mom won't let him drive with teenagers! Ridic! He's 16! Anyway, we went to Chevy's for dinner- but that was just me, Jen, Em, Zac, and Casey, who we met there. Rae went back to her house, because she was hanging out with Sean Dixon, who happens to be Jen's ex-boyfriend. This did cause a little bit of conflict, but I am happy to say that all of that has now been resolved.

Em and Zac had to go home, but Casey dropped Jen and I off at my house, I picked up some clothes (thank god- I was wearing my vintage Nicole Miller dress---it was a hot little number, might I add) and my car, then we went to Rae's. By the time we got there, Sean, Rae, Gary, and this guy Brandon- who is hot and was definitely flirting with me- were there. So there were like seven of us there by the time Casey arrived. And seven is the start of a pretty good party. I um, smoked a lot of cigarettes- and, get this, I snorted Adderol....that is too weird, right? Lol, good times though.

Then Lindsey Kane, Fro, Frank, James (I think? Maybe John?) and Paul arrived, making twelve. We had a gallon of really cheap vodka, which I had like 4 shots of, but Casey had a ton of stuff in his car- he just didn't want to get stuck supplying 12 people. So Jen and I went for a little drive with him lol. I drank soo much. Hypnotic, Parrot Bay, Tripple-distilled vodka, raspberry wine, Starbuck's liqueur, and probably a lot else. It was a lot of alcohol. And I drank it very quickly. I probably had 12 shots, plus 4 or 5 more when I got back to Rae's house. (let me add a little bit of explanation- on Thursday I found out I did not get into Columbia. I got deferred. So I was a little- try a lot- depressed. Maybe I just wasnted to shut it all out for a little while?) Then I smoked some more. Jen and I tried to have a dance off...it ended up with me falling over in the middle of the living room and her falling over on top of me.

I eventually tottered my way into the bathroom, because the world was spinning, and I threw up. For like three hours. It gave me just a little bit of satisfaction to know that Jen was also throwing up. Of course, I do feel bad for her because I was in the bathroom and she was in the living room with a trashcan. Rachel and Casey were amazing- they are my guardian angels. I thought I was going to die- it felt like having the flu, food poisoning, and mad cow disease all at the same time. They ran between Jen and I. Rachel undressed me- saving my twelve hundred dollar dress from barf- and put my pjs on. Casey held my hair back and rubbed ice on my neck because I felt so hot that I had a panic attack. He was amazing- I honestly don't think any of my other ex-boyfriends would have done that for me. Maybe, but I don't know. Even if a relationship didn't work out between us, he is still an amzing guy. And he told me I was beautiful even after I'd thrown up the entire contents of my stomach. :)

So at about 5am, after he was sure that I wasn't going to drown in my own vomit if I went to sleep, he led me (or maybe carried me?) upstairs. I kind of slept, I think for like an hour, then Jen came in and asked if I was ok. I felt better, so I went downstairs. Pretty much everyone was gone by this point, except Lindsey, Sean, and Casey. Sean got really really sick. He drank a lot....then threw up. He'd never been drunk before. I think he said some things to Jen that he shouldn't have...but people are always more honest when they are drunk.

At about 6am Jen and I decided to go to bed, especially since I had to go to work in...ohh about 4 hours. So we tried to make the bed...ha ha ha. Did not work. It was a mess, but funny. I guess we slept for a little...until maybe 7:30. Lindsey and Sean left.

Then Rae came in and told us she was going to go to sleep in her Mom's room. Ha ha ha. We followed her in there- she got no sleep. Oops- sorry Rae. ;) We all hung out for a little, and Casey came in. We just talked about all the funny shit that happened the night before. It was good times. I love my friends!

At 10am I got out of bed, brushed my teeth, put my work clothes on, sprayed on some body spray so I would smell less like alcohol and vomit, then headed out. I worked from 11am to 8:30pm. I honestly think it was the Adderol that kept me alive... But I did ok, even though I felt sick all day.

I don't understand how some people can get that shitfaced every weekend. I felt awful, and definitely made some bad first impressions. But, maybe you get used to it. I guess that was the first time I've ever been authentically "drunk"- drunk to the point of vomitting and passing out.

Well, I kind of wanted to write this out, because all my memories were scrambled and out of order. And it is kind of a night I would like to remember. It was fun. ;) Even though I did not get laid and I did manage to ruin my flirting opportunities by throwing up. Oops.

Love always,

Whitney who will try to get into Columbia anyway, and who has no intention of dying of alcohol poisoning.

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raien — 2005-12-15T03:12:09-05:00

omggggg

I'm sooo tired :(

Off to work...

Me.

raien — 2005-12-18T08:12:51-05:00

C'est moi!

The family Christmas photo, 2006.

I wonder if I could make my hair look like this everyday...

<3 <3 <3

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raien — 2005-12-28T10:12:34-05:00

Ok so ummmm my mom sorted through all these photos that we've had laying around for years. I've learned two things from this:

1. Once you go digital, you never go back. Never never never. What on earth is one supposed to do with all those pictures?? And most of them aren't even good. I love my digital cam- I can snap 500 or 1000 pics and just print the good ones! Saves resources!

2. Yeah so when I had my hair cut really short last year, I thought it was cute. I was horribly wrong. I looked like a BOY!!! Not good! Awkward!

Godddddddddddddd. My life is ridic.

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raien — 2005-12-28T11:12:33-05:00

How do you feel about 2am trips to Double T Diner and bottomless cups of coffee for $1.20?

The Phantom of the Opera is here...inside my mind.

raien — 2005-12-29T01:12:48-05:00

Things to do over break:

Buy new coat.

Pick up scarf and *perfect* handbag on hold at Nordstrom.

Write paper for AP Govt.

Write letters to legislators for TLC.

Plan trip to Europe/Egypt next summer.

Write essays for scholarships.

Draft letter to Columbia Admissions board.

Outline chapter for AP Psych.

Study for AP Calc optimization test in order to pass class.

Finish PING project for Goodwin's class.

Chapter 11 notes for AP Govt.

Write thank you notes for Christmas gifts.

Hopefully I can finish everything. If not, I'm screwed!

<3 <3 <3

Whitney

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raien — 2005-12-30T10:12:30-05:00

So far....I've finished #10.

Just #10.

And I only have....4 days left.

Uh oh.

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raien — 2005-12-30T10:12:21-05:00

I have an announcement.

I am in love.

With a handbag.

You may never understand, but it is a perfect handbag.

<3 <3 <3

People think I'm stupid because I love to shop and say "fabulous" on a regular basis. They're wrong. I'm just supporting the economy.

Someone has to do it.

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raien — 2005-12-31T12:12:19-05:00

So.....

I've knocked out #1, 2, 5, and 10.

Yup.

First Post of 2006

raien — 2006-01-01T01:01:57-05:00

Well happy New Year everybody!

My New Year's Resolution:

Lose 35 pounds. (20 pounds by prom, the rest before college)

Get into Columbia.

That's it. ;) Short and sweet. So maybe I'll actually follow through since I only have two things to accomplish!

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raien — 2006-01-01T07:01:26-05:00

So I've finished:

# 1, 2, 5, 6, 8, 10

Still need to:

Write the paper

Write the letters (3) for TLC

Draft the letter to Columbia

Study for AP Calc

Take notes on chapter 11 for AP Govt

and

Write thank you notes for Xmas gifts

Goooooood grief

This is slooooooow going.

:(

Decoded

raien — 2006-01-02T12:01:50-05:00

I have figured out my pattern.

I lust after boys who I am uncompatible with.

Ex. The drunk black metal drummer or the nonconformist vegan artist.

These are boys that I could not date successfully, because they are not my type.

So then what exactly am I afraid of?

Fuck.

-Whitney, Uncensored

Four or five more cups of coffee and I'll be ready to write this paper.

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raien — 2006-01-03T12:01:05-05:00

I finished my AP Govt paper.

Finally.

I just thought you might like to know.

I've had the assigment for a month.

It's due tomorrow.

I started it tonight.

Clearly, I am a very intelligent, responsible young woman.

<3 Whitney

Here's a to-do list update....

raien — 2006-01-03T12:01:06-05:00

~~Buy new coat.~~

~~Pick up scarf and *perfect* handbag on hold at Nordstrom.~~

~~Write paper for AP Govt.~~

Write letters to legislators for TLC.

~~Plan trip to Europe/Egypt next summer.~~

~~Write essays for scholarships.~~

Draft letter to Columbia Admissions board.

~~Outline chapter for AP Psych.~~

Study for AP Calc optimization test in order to pass class.

~~Finish PING project for Goodwin's class.~~

Chapter 11 notes for AP Govt.

~~Write thank you notes for Christmas gifts.~~

I can write the letters for TLC as soon as I get home from school tomorrow....it will be rushed though. The government notes I can do tomorrow; the quiz is on Wednesday. I guess the letter to Columbia isn't super super urgent....though I want to do it by the end of the week. And I need to remember to send that article to Barnard...

But the Calc stuff....I may have royally screwed myself with that one. Like badly. Like not get into Columbia or Barnard because of a failing grade in calculus badly.

Fuckers. Why did I take that class?!?!

I can only pray that Mr. Hopkins will be merciful tomorrow and will let us take the test on Thursday....please please please!!!!

I'm Famous!

raien — 2006-01-03T03:01:56-05:00

Here is my article in the Capital. (Em, I know you wanted to see it.)

http://www.hometownannapolis.com/cgi-bin/read/2005/12_31-17/CSC

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raien — 2006-01-03T11:01:42-05:00

Who has 6 tickets to the Yellowcard concert in DC and is inviting all her favorite girls?

Who?

Yeah, bitch. Me.

:)

Updated to-do list...

raien — 2006-01-04T09:01:53-05:00

~~Buy new coat.~~

~~Pick up scarf and *perfect* handbag on hold at Nordstrom.~~

~~Write paper for AP Govt.~~

~~Write letters to legislators for TLC.~~

~~Plan trip to Europe/Egypt next summer.~~

~~Write essays for scholarships.~~

~~Draft letter to Columbia Admissions board.~~

~~Outline chapter for AP Psych.~~

~~Study for AP Calc optimization test in order to pass class.~~

~~Finish PING project for Goodwin's class.~~

~~Chapter 11 notes for AP Govt.~~

~~Write thank you notes for Christmas gifts.~~

Well, it's not like I don't have a whole other list of things to do, just waiting to be posted!

<3

Saturrrrday

raien — 2006-01-07T11:01:44-05:00

Things to Do Today:

Send article to Barnard

Send article and letter to Columbia

Do English homework for Hamlet

Go to work

Pick up prescriptions

Do French homework

Write and memorize monologue for theatre

Maybe that's it?

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raien — 2006-01-08T12:01:00-05:00

Send article to Barnard

Send article and letter to Columbia

~~Do English homework for Hamlet~~

~~Go to work~~

Pick up prescriptions

~~Do French homework~~

Write and memorize monologue for theatre

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raien — 2006-01-09T09:01:59-05:00

tirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrred.

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raien — 2006-01-10T10:01:35-05:00

My vices:

Pizza

Purses

Shoes

Clothes in General

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raien — 2006-01-11T03:01:09-05:00

So I joined the gym.

Phase 1 is in motion.

Suga we're going down

raien — 2006-01-14T01:01:47-05:00

So I bought 2 tickets to Fall Out Boy.

One for me and one for someone else.

We shall see!

<3 <3 <3 <3

Whitney

dance dance

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raien — 2006-01-14T03:01:20-05:00

I got my acceptance letter from Goucher today. I didn't get the full scholarship. I only got $15,000 per year. Full tuition and room and board costs $37k. There is no way in fuck that I am going to lower myself to go to a school like Goucher and then pay $22k a year. No way in fuck. I would honestly rather join the army.

So, if I don't get into Columbia or Barnard, then I'm going to either go to AACC or enlist. And if you think I'm kidding, you're fucking wrong.

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raien — 2006-01-17T09:01:41-05:00

Scholarships, scholarships, scholarships!

So much paperwork! Hopefully it will pay off!

<3

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raien — 2006-01-17T10:01:54-05:00

So yeah, I keep complaining about how long it is before I hear from Columbia....

....Well I find out the first week of April....

....Woah. Thats only like two and a half months from now...

..................woah................

Wish me luck!!!

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raien — 2006-01-24T01:01:06-05:00

Four exams down.

Four to go.

Exams Exams Exams...Senior Year!

raien — 2006-01-24T11:01:52-05:00

Well I ruined the curve in human geography. I didn't even study. I got an A. I have never gotten above a C on one of Goodwin's tests before, and I got an A on the midterm. Wtf? I wish I hadn't messed up the curve though...there are a lot of people pissed at me. Oh well. It's not like I tried to. I was only aiming for a C.

The Psych exam was...long. 150 multiple choice questions and a very lengthy essay. I think it went ok. I hope I pulled a C. Pretty sure I did. Hmmm, really hope I did! I only need a C because I got two As for first and second quarter. It took me the full two hours. I didn't study at all for that one either. At all. Probably a mistake. Hmm it would probably serve me right if I didn't get a C. But that would be a lot of work down the drain, especially since that's a class I'm actually interested in and care about.

Calc was...difficult. I only needed a D on that exam because I have two Bs for first and second marking period...I really really hope I pulled a D....if not, I'm really fucked, because then my semester grade will drop to a C. If so, bye bye Columbia (and probably Barnard). Also bye bye class rank (5th!!!) and GPA. Maggie got a 76 and she's better than me at Calc...we'll see. It would be such a waste to get a C for the semester because I worked sooo hard to pull my quarter grade up to a B!

Tomorrow I have English and Government. I prepared a tiny tiny bit for the English essay, but not a whole lot. I'm pretty good at bs-ing essays though, so I'm not too concerned about that. And I have two As, so I only need a C. Though Boothby would kick my butt if I got a C on her exam. She loooves me. :) Government may be interesting. I haven't studied at all for it...I probably should do a little of that tonight. I only need a C though.... hmm. Maybe I should aim higher? But what's the point?

Thursday I have French and Theatre. French may be tricky, but I only need a C I guess. We will see though. I think the oral part is going to be hard, and I'm a little shaky on imparfait/passe compose and when to use which. Which is bad because I've been taking French for 6 years, but whatev. Hopefully there will be something easy on the test that I can reap lots of points from! Theatre is not a concern at all. I don't even know if we're having a midterm or not. My midterm should be "see if Whitney can get all the festival kids signed up for classes before the festival actually starts." Ha ha ha I might fail that one; these theatre kids are tricky!

Well, exams are kind of silly when you only need to get Cs on them...and I only need a D in calc. I really really hope I don't get below Cs on any of my exams. Then I'll have pretty good grades- 7 As and 1 B. (As in AP Govt, AP Lit, AP Psych, AP Hum Geog, AP French, Theatre, and Career Internship; a B in AP Calc.) Not a bad job, if I say so myself. Though, it would be really amazing to get an A in Calc second semester. I think straight As is my goal. It would make me feel better about myself, anyway. And maybe my class rank would go up!

Well I think I'm going to go study for government a bit....though I really haven't studied for any of my exams so far! Just four more to go! And really, it's only three because theatre is nothing to worry about.

Wish me luck!

<3 Whitney

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raien — 2006-01-25T09:01:22-05:00

Woooh so six exams down, two to go. I had Government and Lit today. I think I did pretty well on both of them. I know I got a 92 on the multiple choice section of the Lit exam, so if I did well on the essays then I'll probably get an A on the exam.

I got an A on my Psych exam! Crrrrazy! And I though I wasn't even going to pull a C. Only three people have gotten As so far. I didn't study at all for that one. Huh. Guess I'm just pretty fucking brilliant. ;)

I'm a little concerned about my AP French exam tomorrow morning... I'm pretty sure that I got an A second quarter, but Morley never gives us grades so I'm not positive. I think the oral part is going to be hard... We'll see I guess. And then the theatre exam....are we even having an exam? I don't even know. I'm really not too worried. ;)

So here are my grades.... I think....

                          1st Quarter     2nd Quarter     Exam

AP Psych                  A                    A                 A

AP Calc                    B                    B                 ?? (hopefully a D or higher)

AP Hum Geog           A                    A                 A

AP Eng Lit                A                     A                ?? (need a C or higher)

AP French                A                     ??                -----

AP Govt                   A                     A                 ?? (need a C or higher)

Career Int                 A                     ??                ?? (I'm sure it was an A)

Theatre                     A                      A                -----

Not too bad. And hopefully (please please please) my class rank will go up. If it doesn't I'm going to be really sad. Maybe I'll be like 5th. That would ba amazing.

I made a decision today that may have been good or bad....I dont't know yet. I signed up for Honors International Studies. I had a hole in my schedule fourth period on A days, and I was just going to leave school early...but I signed up for this class instead. It may have been a mistake. I mean, it will boost my GPA, but it might be a lot of work. Hopefully it will be interesting... We'll see.

I slept from 3:00 to 6:00 this afternoon...it was nice. :) I think I might study a little for French, then go to bed. Good night!

<3 Whitney

It was a fabulous concert

raien — 2006-01-29T11:01:16-05:00

Soooo I saw Yellowcard and Mae on Thursday at the 9:30 Club in DC. The show was amaaaazing! I went with Rachele D, Rachel E, Emily, Jen, and Nick; we had such a good time. The bands were fab and we pushed our way to the front so we had a great view. (There was a band called Black Out Cult who opened; they were ok but they were all really drunk when they got on stage.) I am soooo beat up but that's ok. There were a lot of people there and everyone wanted to be near the front, so there was a lot of pushing, shoving, moshing, crowd surfing, etc. Sweet frickin time. And I got some absolutely amazing pictures!

Dave Elkins of Mae; they were so friggin awesome. Such good music.

Rob Sweitzer of Mae- he was amazing on the keyboard.

Ryan Key of Yellowcard...they were sooo good!

Myself, Emily, Rachel, Rachele, and Nick. (I look pretttty bad. Oh well, lol)

Sean Mackin with his violin...it gives Yellowcard the best sound. I love the violin...

Me, Rachel, and Jen.

Ryan Key again.

HA HA HA....so before the concert and in between bands, people could send text messages and pics and they were displayed on this screen. Miss Rachele put this up. It was soooo funny. I was so embarrassed lol I turned bright red! All my friends were yelling really loud and every one was looking at me. Soooo funny.

Peter Mosely. He was cute. ;)

Rachele and I. She is so hot. I am jealous. Though, my collar was stylishly popped lol.

Ryan again. God the show was sooo good!

So those are some of the best pics. I was really pleased with how they turned out.

Yay for Yellowcard and Mae!

So, I'm going to go...do something.

Whitney

i heart music

Fishies!

raien — 2006-01-30T01:01:51-05:00

I went to the National Aquarium in Baltimore today with my parents. It was fab. Got some great shots.

Cute bird in the new Australia exhibit.

I think this guy was called a fringed lizard...or a frilled lizard...or something. Have you seen the Rescuers Down Under? Well this is Frank from that movie. So if you've seen it, this is him. If not, you should see it. It was one of my faves when I was a kid.

I'm actually really pleased with this pic. It's not very colorful, but the texture came out really well.

This guy was actually not behind glass. He was just kind of loose in the Australia exhibit. I could have got closer with my camera, but I was afraid he would get freaked out and attack my face or something.

This is a Pig-Nosed Turtle. I think he is the cutest friggin turtle in the whole world. And with his fins like that, he kind of looks like an aquatic bat. Cuuuuute!

This is a caiman. Well actually two caimans. I love how this picture turned out. I think the artistic value is really good. The reflection of the first caiman on the water's surface and the tail of the second caiman create an excellent sense of pattern, I think.

I snapped this at the dolphin show. I think this may have been a lucky shot, because my camera's shutter isn't that fast. Lucky me, then.

Seeing as most of the animals were behind glass, I'm really surprised that the pictures came out so well. I guess I'm just pretty awesome. ^-^ This is a frog, by the way. In case that wasn't obvious.

I feel like this fish is saying, "Hey, what the f- are you looking at?" Ha ha maybe not. That's just a thought.

The texture and colors are really good in this shot, but I think I had to reduce it too much for the details to be visible in this window. Oh well. It's cute anyway.

So there are my photos. I'm pretty psyched.

Love, Whitney

kit kat

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raien — 2006-01-30T05:01:14-05:00

Ortho appt.

They gave me rubberbands and told me that I actually have to wear them.

Ow ow ow.

Work work work

raien — 2006-01-31T09:01:16-05:00

I had such a busy day! I went to first period, took the oral part of my French exam, then headed down to Annapolis to be super teen. (I spent the day speaking to delegates and senators, trying to get $400 million for MD school facilities.) Then I went to Chic N Ruth's for lunch, then back to school. I got stuck filling out paperwork in the auditorium for an hour, for theatre fest, but whatev.

I came home at like 3:30, got a blanket, laid down on the couch, and slept til 8:00. Since I have rubber bands on my braces now (grrrr....but it's almost over!!!), I can't eat anything solid....

Breakfast was a banana. Lunch was half of a strawberry smoothie and a bowl of MD crab soup. Dinner was a bowl of chicken and barley soup, a few grapes, and a cappuchino that I'm drinking now. But maybe I'll lose weight? Ha ha that would be fabulous!

I just finished my French homework... All I really need to work on is my Human Geography homework and my notes for chapter 12 for AP Govt. Of course, by this point, it's 9:00, oh well.

At least I'm working tomorrow. I haven't worked in forever and I really need the money!!

Ok, well I'm going to stop procrastinating and try and get some stuff done. I really need to get cracking on the Scholarship for Scholars forms!

Peace out.

Whitney

~~busy but able~~

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raien — 2006-02-01T09:02:05-05:00

Here's what I know so far....



                           1st Quarter     2nd Quarter     Exam

AP Psych                  A                    A                 A

AP Calc                    B                    B                  B (yeahhhh baby)

AP Hum Geog           A                    A                 A

AP Eng Lit                A                     A                ?? (need a C or higher)

AP French                A                     ??                Don't know yet

AP Govt                   A                     A                 A (ohhh yeah)

Career Int                 A                     A                 A

Theatre                     A                      A                A

I worked today. And I'm working tomorrow. I should get cracking on my homework.

Ha ha, by the way: I have a prom date. :)

But Valentineless.

<3 Whitney

Busy Girl

raien — 2006-02-02T12:02:00-05:00

I am very tired.

But I still have homework.

I wonder when I will ever catch up?

Yours truly,

Whitney

Silly, silly busy bee.

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raien — 2006-02-02T11:02:15-05:00

I finished all my homework at a reasonable hour! Wow!

Hmmm but I got a C on my reading quiz in Govt today... I've never gotten lower than an A on one of those! This is not a good start to the semester...

Oh well. I'll bring my grade up. (Though it sucks that I'm already worried about bringing grades up by the third day of the semester.)

I have so much homework to do this weekend! And I have to do some scholarship stuff.... Agggg!

International studies seems reasonable. Except she does notebook checks. How old does she think I am? 12? I haven't done a notebook check since like freshman year. Ah well.

Well I'm off to bed. Calc quiz tomorrow. Bleh.

-Whit Hoot

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raien — 2006-02-02T11:02:15-05:00

By the way

I got an A on my English exam

:)

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raien — 2006-02-05T08:02:47-05:00

I read Waiting for Godot.

It took about an hour.

I didn't find it particularly enjoyable.

It was a little silly.

But then again, I think that was the point.

<3 Whitney

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raien — 2006-02-05T11:02:57-05:00

I have almost finished my Scholarships for Scholars applications.

Almost.

They're due on Friday.

Phew.

Time to batton down the hatches!

<3 Whit Whit

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raien — 2006-02-06T10:02:22-05:00

AGGGGG

Scholarships, scholarships, scholarships

Whit

I best win me some monies

Homework

raien — 2006-02-07T10:02:06-05:00

Well, I've been procrastinating a lot less this semester.

Hopefully it's a good sign?

<3 <3

Whit Whit

kudos to the braniacs

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raien — 2006-02-13T10:02:19-05:00

I.

Finally.

Have.

Electricity!

You don't really appreciate these kinds of things until you have to live without them.

Bands I've Seen In Concert

raien — 2006-02-15T08:02:30-05:00

Bands I've Already Seen (Though I'm sure I'm forgetting a ton)

3 Doors Down

Yellowcard

Jay Z

Staind

Mae

The Killers

The Cure

The Offspring

Breaking Benjamin

The Violent Femmes

Switchfoot

Shania Twain (lol)

Rascal Flatts

Black Out Pact

Louis XIV

Keane

Maximo Park

Regina Spektor

No Address

(That's not including local bands)

Upcoming concerts that I am definitely attending

(Fall Out Boy)

(All American Rejects)

(Hawthorne Heights)

(Death Cab for Cutie)

(Franz Ferdinand)

I wish I had tickets to the James Blunt show.

I heart James Blunt.

<3

Whit Hoot

music fiend

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raien — 2006-02-16T08:02:01-05:00

I am overcommitted.

Big time.

That is all.

Alright, so I'm in love again

raien — 2006-02-20T02:02:23-05:00

I've fallen in love again.

With a handbag.

But good lord, is it not a handbag.

It is the handbag.

You may not understand, but this is the only type of love that I understand.

<3 <3 <3

I'll have to save my pennies.

A ~~bathtub full of~~ truckload of pennies.

Whitney

I wonder if I can get a job at the Coach boutique?

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raien — 2006-02-21T11:02:32-05:00

Question of the hour:

Why don't boys like me?

Input is appreciated.

from the desk of Whitney

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raien — 2006-02-23T06:02:37-05:00

you're barely waking and I'm tangled up in you

:: Still sick. ::sigh

raien — 2006-02-28T12:02:04-05:00

Still sick.

::sigh::

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raien — 2006-03-09T09:03:17-05:00

I was sick for a week.

I had the flu.

Rough.

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raien — 2006-03-11T02:03:22-05:00

I have officially put too much on my plate.

I really don't have time to make up all of this work...

I might quit my job.

Maybe.

But I really need the money...

Rats!

I hate decisions.

Off to work on more homework, which I have been doing since 9:00 this morning!

And will be doing until I go to work at 4:00...

<3 Whitney

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raien — 2006-03-16T08:03:17-05:00

I still haven't finished all of the make-up work that I have to do. Rats.

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raien — 2006-03-18T09:03:01-05:00

Stillllll doing make-up work!

It's really going to be the death of me.
At least I don't have that much left.

And I only work two days next week, which is exciting.

I would have only worked one, but I picked up a day.

Now why exactly did I do that?

Hmmmm I'm not really sure.

I do definitely need the money.

But an extra free day would have been nice.

Oh well. Just Thursday and Friday dinner wont be too bad.

Wow, now that I think of it, that's only like 9 hours.

I usually work like... 23 hours a week.

Sweet. Except for the tiny baby paycheck that is sure to follow.

Ha ha, 23 hours is entirely too much.

And that's 23 hours plus...about 33 hours a week that I'm in school...and like 10 hours of reharsal per week.

That's a total of 66 hours.

What's a normal workweek? 40?

HA HA HA. Clearly, I am trying to kill myself.

I mean, there are only 168 hours in a week. So I have like 100 left.

And if I slept 8 hours a night?

I'd have 44 hours.

Forty-four hours to eat, exercise (Claire and I go running now!), do homework, try to hang out with my friends, work on my Gold Award, maybe type a blog or two, clean my room (takes forever), etc. etc. etc.

Forty-four hours looks like a lot.

But really, it's not at all.

::sigh::

Rachel and I are going to go see Failure to Launch tonight.

I guess that's two hours from my 44.

I haven't seen a movie in ages though.

Hopefully it will be good!

<3 <3 <3

Your Favorite Over Achiever,

Whitney

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raien — 2006-03-20T07:03:17-05:00

It's only 8:00 but I'm already ready for bed.

Too bad I have too much homework...

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raien — 2006-03-22T11:03:51-05:00

Columbia

Columbia

Columbia

Columbia

Columbia

Just keep your fingers crossed for me

<3

Only a week or so to go

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raien — 2006-03-23T08:03:51-05:00

Will Ferrel made $40 million in 2005.

Looks like I'm in the wrong business.

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raien — 2006-03-23T09:03:32-05:00

Also.

PDA.

Not cool.

I do not need to see some stupid "gangsa" tenth grader groping some nubile freshman with a bad dye job at 7am. Thank you.

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raien — 2006-03-23T09:03:07-05:00

Also.

I am really upset about my lack of boy-contact at the current moment.

So, I'm accepting applications.

Thanks.

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raien — 2006-03-25T10:03:29-05:00

I have only 48 days of high school left.

Wow.

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raien — 2006-03-27T06:03:29-05:00

I got a big fat rejection letter from Barnard today.

Why does no one want me?

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raien — 2006-03-30T08:03:16-05:00

I didn't get into Columbia.

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raien — 2006-04-01T12:04:11-05:00

I was at a party last night.

It got busted by the cops.

I was so scared.

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raien — 2006-04-03T05:04:25-05:00

Y O U C A N O N L Y T Y P E O N E W O R D ! ! !
N O E X P L A N A T I O N S

One Word Survey:

1. Yourself: Struggling

2. Your Love: Nonexistant
3. Your Hair: Straight
4. Your Mother: British
5. Your Father: Sensitive
6. Your Favorite Item: Jeans
7. Your Dream Last : Acceptance
8. favorite drink: Water
9. Your Dream Home: Penthouse
10. The Room You Are In: Study
11. Your Pet: Colby <3
12. Who You Are Now: Student
13. Who You Want to be in Ten Years: Politician

14. What You Want to be in Ten Years: Happy
15. What You're Not: Happy
16. Your Best Friend: None
17. One of Your Wish list Items: College
18. Your Gender: Female
19. The Last Thing You Did: Yelled
20. What You Are Wearing: Trendy
21. Your Favorite Weather: Spring
22. Your Favorite Book: Lots
23. The Last Thing You Ate: Toffee
24. Your Life: Failing
25. Your Mood: Upset

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raien — 2006-04-05T09:04:10-05:00

I got straight As this marking period.

My GPA for the quarter is like a 4.8

So why can't I get into college?

I have never been this miserable in my entire life.

I am sick of people saying things like, "In ten years, none of this will matter." "It doesn't really matter where you get your undergraduate degree." "Right now, this may be the worst thing that's ever happened to you, but it will be fine soon." "Goucher is a good school!"

First of all, it's not ten years from now, and this is the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire life. Right now, I don't care that my mom's friend's 17 son was recently struck with parlysis. I don't care that there are children starving in North Korea. My feelings are not relative. I know that there are people worse off than me, but this is the most upset I have ever been in my entire life.

Goucher may be a good school. And I don't hate Goucher because its Goucher. I hate it because it's not Columbia. Going to Goucher will just be an every day reminder that I failed; that I wasn't good enough to go where I really wanted. And I don't care that no one else thinks I've failed. I don't give a fuck what anyone else thinks. It only matters what I think because this is my life and if I'm not proud of myself then I will never be happy.

I am not proud of Goucher. It is not where I was meant to be. It's just not. Why has this happened to me? Do I really deserve this? I'm 5th in the school. My SAT scores are really good. I have been involved in just about every extra-curricular that exists. I'm a Girl Scout, for fuck's sake.

And what do I have to show for it?

Nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

My life is fucking over at the tender age of seventeen.

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raien — 2006-04-06T11:04:49-05:00

I looked forward to college for years.

Now I dread it.

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raien — 2006-04-09T10:04:29-05:00

I finished third in the state poetry recitation competition.

I finished Memoirs of a Geisha.

I haven't started my homework yet.

Constancy

raien — 2006-04-11T01:04:09-05:00

Tired ripples pull through the revolving glass door

and pulse like misshapen limbs in a pile

on the floor.

Patrons shake their waxed umbrellas and

rivulets of water spill like oil

from the Exxon Valdez.

Wishing for a quiet sunrise and a cloudless sky

the passersby

forget their names and lose their passions as they

are beaten by the dappled eaves of buildings and

hassled by the pollution emanating from Industry.

beautiful music

raien — 2006-04-14T03:04:21-05:00

I love Willie Nile.

He is amazing.

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raien — 2006-04-15T04:04:07-05:00

Rejection

Rejection

Rejection

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raien — 2006-04-17T01:04:52-05:00

HA HA HA

I got my brother back for being such a dick to me.

I showed my mom not only his cache of porn on the computer, but also the *interesting* pictures stored on his phone.

HA HA HA

I hate that kid.

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raien — 2006-04-17T09:04:39-05:00

Why is there so much societal pressure to wear a bikini?

I just don't get it.

Everyone wears bikinis, whether they look good in them or not.

I find this ridiculous.

I bought a new swimsuit today.

I am a proud one-piece owner, thank you very much.

My midsection is no one else's business.

Call me modest.

<3 Whitney

Olfactory sensation

raien — 2006-04-17T10:04:45-05:00

have you ever smelled

a nubile shoot of bamboo

in the rain

it smells like acrid humor

or a breath from

Judas' lips

and at the same time

simultaneously

ironically

it smells like the curve

of a lover's arm

and the rim of a penny

dropped in a fountain

it smells like tea spilled

onto a chilled marble palate

or the edge of a

crumbling canyon

but you smell like a

nubile shoot of bamboo

in the rain

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raien — 2006-04-18T10:04:27-05:00

I have not been productive today.

At all.

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raien — 2006-04-19T08:04:49-05:00

My grandfather died today, while my mom was on the airplane on the way to see him.

I wish she had gotten to say good bye.

I wish I could have seen him one last time.

I have no grandparents left.

:(

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raien — 2006-04-20T07:04:17-05:00

I have a HUGE project due tomorrow in International Studies

It's HUGE

We've had it for the entire semester

I just got home from rehearsal- it's 8:00

I haven't started this project yet.

Looks like I'll be pulling an all nighter!

[Again!]

::battons down the hatches::

Love, Whit

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raien — 2006-04-21T03:04:34-05:00

So I just pulled my all nighter.

Dammit.

I am going to be miserable tomorrow.

How am I going to stage manage that damn musical?

Lol....ha ha what a mess.

Well I have like...2 hours before I have to get up!

(Oh, and the project I did was crap. It really wasn't something you could do in a night. But I'm practicing not caring. So there. I don't care.)

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raien — 2006-04-22T12:04:40-05:00

The show was a mess.

Bob thinks I'm incompetent.

I went to Double T afterwards.

I drank three glasses of water and four cups of coffee.

I am so exhausted but I will never be able to fall asleep...

:(

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raien — 2006-04-22T12:04:55-05:00

Rob Thomas and Natasha Bedingfield are coming on 06/06/06

My last day of high school EVER

I will be attending this concert.

Thanks bye.

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raien — 2006-04-22T10:04:32-05:00

Orioles beat the Yankees last night.

Yeah baby.

I hope they beat them today and tomorrow.

<3 <3

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raien — 2006-04-25T09:04:44-05:00

The Capital-Gazette scholarship banquet was tonight. I am no longer disappointed in myself for not winning. The competition was incredible....those kids...I think we all deserved $15,000. But everyone got $1000, and it's such an honor. I was chosen out of all the applicants from my school and that alone says something.

For the first time in months, I am proud of myself.

:)

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raien — 2006-04-27T11:04:01-05:00

I have run 18 miles in the past 4 days.

Go me.

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raien — 2006-04-30T08:04:40-05:00

My parents and brother are in England.

I have the house to myself for an entire week.

I feel so liberated!

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raien — 2006-04-30T10:04:38-05:00

Type "[your name] needs" into Google. Repost interesting results.

Whitney needs to keep makeup on at all times

Whitney needs a permanent home with a family who will be there for her

Whitney needs to think about what she is doing and stop being so selfish

Whitney needs to get off the drug

Whitney needs assessment

Whitney needs to be personally accountable just like the rest of us

Whitney needs to be shaken by a British nanny

Whitney needs some time for herself

Whitney needs you!!!!!!!

Whitney needs some SERIOUS help

Whitney needs to be acknowledged and preserved

Whitney needs to get her ass into a rehab and stay there for a year

Whitney needs speed control

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raien — 2006-05-02T12:05:13-05:00

I bought a prom dress today

I think Matt likes it

He says he does

(I hope he's not just trying to be nice.)

I'm in love with the boy next door

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raien — 2006-05-02T12:05:34-05:00

I do not have a Myspace because it is a ridiculous waste of time

And I don't have time to waste.

Kthanksbye.

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raien — 2006-05-02T09:05:40-05:00

I should be in AP Calc right now.

But I'm not.

He he he.

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raien — 2006-05-02T09:05:32-05:00

My disappointment with the Orioles continues.

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raien — 2006-05-02T11:05:28-05:00

No sane person living alone would ever have a dog, a cat, and two rabbits.

Not that I don't love them.

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raien — 2006-05-03T03:05:18-05:00

Soo I need to be less fat

Like now

kthanksbye

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raien — 2006-05-03T09:05:46-05:00

...I couldn't find anyone to work for me...

...So I can't go to the Fall Out Boy concert tomorrow...

:(

I am so sad.

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raien — 2006-05-05T12:05:41-05:00

AP Lit test today.

It was excellent, actually.

I think I got a 5.

MC was easy and the essays...cake.

<3ed it!

I ran tonight.

I ran and ran and ran.

For a long long time.

I took off my shirt and there was blood dripping down my chest.

I ran for so long that my sports bra chafed a wound below my left breast and there is now a sore beneath my right as well.

This is not good.

Why must I do everything to excess?

Just two more exams to go...

Govt and Psych...

I better get 5s!

<3

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raien — 2006-05-05T12:05:58-05:00

I always say that I don't regret anything and I really think its true. At the present moment, I cannot think of a thing I regret. I've made some bad choices, but no one's perfect.

I hate orange sherbert. It is dispicable. I cannot possibly describe how much I dislike it.

I also hate egg drop soup. I'm not a fan of eggs and egg soup is nauseating. Gross gross gross.

I've never met a vegetable I didn't like. I don't like olives, but they're a fruit. I don't like mushrooms either, but they're a fungus.

I do everything to excess. Everything. Or I don't do it all. I guess I just live on the extremes.

I have a crush on a boy. I haven't had a crush in a couple of years. This is really amusing me. I am completely enjoying it.

I really, really like my dog. I have been at home by myself for a week, because my family is in England, and I know I couldn't have stayed at my house alone without my dog's company.

I handed in my two-weeks notice at Ginger Cove. I'm in the process of getting a job at a hotel; I think being a hotel front desk girl is the cutest idea ever. I really, really hope I get the job. If not, I guess I will be unemployed for a little while. That might be nice too.

I almost never have free time and when I do, I don't know what to do with it. Free time causes anxiety for me because I always know that they're something I should do.

I am a very messy person.

I hope I get into Barnard. I hope hope hope. This is my last chance...

I got a new ringtone tonight. It's Sweet Home Alabama. Oh yeah. I'm pretty awesome.

Sometimes, I think all of my problems would be solved if I weighed about 40 pounds less. I know that's probably not true, but I like the idea.

I'm getting my braces off on May 23rd. I will have them off for prom! I also want to get my teeth whitened, hopefully that day.

Prom is going to be very very expensive for me...

Dress $120

Limo $60

Ticket $40

Shoes ???

Jewelry ???

Professional make-up ??? maybe $30-40

Hair style ??? maybe $40

Manicure/Pedicure ??? probably $40

Boutineer for Matt ??? About $10-15

Am I forgetting anything?

This whole ordeal will probably be over $500...is it worth it?

I could use that money for a purse...or laser hair removal!

Ha ha ha. I am ridic.

But yeah, so this crush...

Nice...

I am going to go take a shower.

And then go to bed.

Then I'll get up for school in...5 hours.

Ha ha ha.

Life is rough.

But high school is almost over!!!!!!!!!!!

(Scary!)

Maybe I will rethink some of my purchases...

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raien — 2006-05-06T12:05:22-05:00

My parents are back. I really didn't mind being alone, though. It was nice. And my brother has been a dick since he got home, but whatever. He should have stayed in England!

A ton of good stuff has happened to me lately...

I got a prom dress that I love.

I rocked the AP Lit test.

The show is over and the last night didn't bomb.

I won the John Klocko Scholarship.

I've been in the paper twice this week. (Ha ha I am always in the paper....awesome.)

I'm waiting eagerly to hear from Barnard...

And one last thing...

This is such a huge deal...

I can barely contain my excitement...

I am a top 20 finalist for the Newsweek "My Turn" essay contest!!!!!!!

That is such a big deal!

Over 9000 high schoolers enter!

And I'm in the top 20!!!

Wow. I am so happy.

This is amazing.

:)

:)

:: I wore a bikini last night. :: I wore a bikini last night.

raien — 2006-05-07T10:05:08-05:00

I wore a bikini last night.

::hyperventilates::

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raien — 2006-05-08T09:05:55-05:00

I need to start doing scholarships again...

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raien — 2006-05-08T09:05:27-05:00

caaaaaaake

i'm a fattie

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raien — 2006-05-09T09:05:22-05:00

I should be studying for AP Psych...oops...

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raien — 2006-05-11T10:05:30-05:00

I got into Barnard!!!!!!!!!!

Woooooooooooooooooo!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!

My current wish list

raien — 2006-05-13T10:05:03-05:00

Pastel Fendi bag

A great roommate

A boyfriend

Straight As for my final marking period of high school

Fab bedding and decorations for my new dorm room

Pointy-toed black stilettos

Brown flats

Negative 20 pounds :)

A hair cut

Clear skin

A clean room

A new job (in the process!)

To find my sunglasses

A clean car (Must get on that...)

New friends in college :)

No braces (May 23rd!)

White teeth (May 23rd!)

I need money so badly. I have been draining my savings account lately and that is baaaaaddd. I need money for beach week, prom, college, etc. etc. etc.

Hopefully my new job will pay off. I plan on working full time all summer...so hopefully 40 hours per week for about 8 to 10 weeks. So thats... 320 to 400 hours... and at $10 per hour that's $3200 to $4000.... Hmmm.

I need to have $10,000+ in savings by the end of the summer. I have about $6k right now. Hopefully I will make bank with graduation :) and be able to control my spending this summer.... Ha ha ha.

Ooh and what if I go on vacation?

Ha ha ha. This seems impossible!

Oh well.

I will figure something out.

:)

<3 Whitney

(the great innovator)

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raien — 2006-05-14T10:05:07-05:00

This summer I will:

Work full time.

Enter as many essay contests/scholarships as humanly possible.

Those are my two objectives.

Hopefully I will make some moolah!

<3 <3 <3

It certainly seems that my life has taken a turn for the better.

<3 <3 <3

Whitney

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raien — 2006-05-15T09:05:57-05:00

My chore for the evening:

Tackle my AP Govt. essay.

This is a good riddle.

raien — 2006-05-15T10:05:57-05:00

I turn polar bears white
and I will make you cry.
I make guys have to pee
and girls comb their hair.
I make celebrities look stupid
and normal people look like celebrities.
I turn pancakes brown
and make your champane bubble.
If you squeeze me, I'll pop.
If you look at me, you'll pop.
Can you guess the riddle?

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raien — 2006-05-17T09:05:24-05:00

I am soooo

...tired!

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raien — 2006-05-20T12:05:03-05:00

I went to New York yesterday.

I am definitely going to Barnard.

I love it!

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raien — 2006-05-20T03:05:53-05:00

So I'm going to Chicago for a week in August

With Erin

Now we just have to plan our trip

And I have to make some money to pay for it!

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raien — 2006-05-21T11:05:32-05:00

Today was interesting.

Heard some things about a friend that I wish I hadn't heard.

Ate Chipotle for the first time.

Played the third wheel on a friend's date.

Felt a little lonely, for the first time in ages.

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raien — 2006-05-22T12:05:31-05:00

i leave for college in 128 days

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raien — 2006-05-23T12:05:45-05:00

I got my braces off!!

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raien — 2006-05-30T06:05:12-05:00

I had two fabulous parties this weekend. (My parents were out on the boat.)

Sunday night was especially lovely.

<3

How silly.

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raien — 2006-05-31T06:05:12-05:00

I went to the senior awards assembly today instead of the Envirothon trip.

I'm glad I did; it was a decision that I made for myself.

I did pretty well at the assembly.

I won the Social Studies department's award and the English department's award.

And I got presented with a bunch of other awards.

It was nice.

:)

I went tanning today, so hopefully I won't look so anemic for prom.

Cancer, here I come!

I'm kind of nervous about everyone coming here after prom. I mean, there will be 20 people here. And that's kind of ridic.

We can't drink because I think I can manage maybe 10 teenagers, but not 20.

Hmmmm.

We'll see I guess.

I'm definitely going to buy a bunch of cigars lol.

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raien — 2006-06-01T11:06:44-05:00

Work was fun tonight.

I have a tricky situation to deal with.

And I would rather just be done with it....

Oh well...

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raien — 2006-06-02T12:06:09-05:00

So complex!

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raien — 2006-06-04T10:06:16-05:00

Prom was amazing.

Absolutely amazing.

One of the best nights of my life.

Fab fab fab.

-Whitney

(I'll post pics soon)

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raien — 2006-06-05T11:06:35-05:00

I walk into the kitchen, after work, with half a box of pizza that a guest gave the front desk girls.

I put it on the table and leave the room.

I come back and my dad's eating some.

I move to grab a piece and he waves my hand away.

"It doesn't look like you need anymore of that," he says.

I haven't eaten all day.

I had a light frappuchino.

That's it.

No pizza.

Oh, and a granola bar.

Sorry.

So fuck this shit.

And my parents wonder why I have food issues!?

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raien — 2006-06-06T12:06:43-05:00

ooooh shit

i fucked it up

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raien — 2006-06-07T11:06:43-05:00

So

are

we

like

bff

now?

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raien — 2006-06-07T11:06:20-05:00

I have

glorious plans

for Monday.

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raien — 2006-06-11T05:06:26-05:00

Ah!

I am a high school graduate!

Ahhh!

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raien — 2006-06-12T12:06:01-05:00

I filled out a ton of paperwork for Barnard this evening.

Oh. My. God.

I am going to college!

In New York!

Ahhhh!

Crazzy!

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raien — 2006-06-13T11:06:21-05:00

Headed to the big

OC

[Ocean City]

tomorrow

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raien — 2006-06-17T11:06:13-05:00

Sooo I went to beach week.

It was fabulous.

I have never smoked that much weed in my whole life!

Ha ha ha.

I think I have lung cancer now.

This is seriously the first time I haven't been destroyed in like 4 days.

Awesome.

I'll find some pics ;)

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raien — 2006-06-19T12:06:26-05:00

I'm applying to CUE: Columbia Urban Experience, a community service program that takes place a week before school starts in August, for incoming freshmen at Columbia College, Barnard College, the General Studies school, and the Fu Foundation of Engineering.

They only accept 50 applicants. I want to do it so badly!!!

On that note...

One of the application questions is:

"Take a piece of paper and fill it. Write an essay, draw a picture, compose a song- let us learn something about you..."

I did a collage called "They Are My Life." It's a bunch of pictures of my friends and family. On the back of the page I wrote, "i cannot think of a BETTER way to show me than by showing you the people who make me WHO I AM."

It's pretty cute, I think, and it took a long time. More than that, it means a lot to me. The people in those photos...they really are my life.

I showed it to my mom.

She said, "Neat."

Whatever.

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raien — 2006-06-20T12:06:47-05:00

wh2159@columbia.edu

My e-mail.

Holy shit!

Ha ha ha ha!

I am a college girl!

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raien — 2006-06-25T02:06:33-05:00

Ok, so I've set my deadline:

I need to mail out my CUE application by tomorrow.

I want it to arrive with plenty of time to spare.

There are five questions to answer...I've done three so far.

The last two are so easy that they're difficult:

Why is community service important?

Why do you want to do CUE?

If I don't get in to this program I am going to be severely disappointed.

Cross your fingers!

<3

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raien — 2006-06-27T02:06:39-05:00

If it rains anymore,

I'm going to get soggy.

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raien — 2006-06-27T04:06:07-05:00

I need to finish this application....

like now!

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raien — 2006-06-29T12:06:30-05:00

I spent the night with Kyle again.

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raien — 2006-07-01T01:07:58-05:00

Happy 18th Birthday to me!

Yay America?

raien — 2006-07-15T11:07:41-05:00

I was at work yesterday and at the counter, we have stacks of newspapers.

The front of the Washington Times featured a huge picture of a burning village with people running and soldiers carrying AK-47s. It was very dramatic and loud and orange, because of the fire. The headlike was something like Breaking Point in the Middle East?

During the day, people come to the desk to get papers. All day, people picked it up, looked at the front, saw the small column on the left hand side of the front page, and said,"Oh no, they're going to have to put Barbaro to sleep."

Jesus Christ.

What is wrong with people?

Are we desensitized or just dumb?

Ha ha well I found it hilarious.

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raien — 2006-07-17T05:07:15-05:00

I Love Catsitting

:)

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raien — 2006-07-24T12:07:49-05:00

I desperately need a new cell phone and a bottom retainer.

This is bad.

My orthodontist is out of town for the week.

My teeth are going to get so fucked up.

I on;y have 10 more days to spend with Kyle before we both leave for vacation. This sucks so bad.

Leaving for college is going to be so hard.

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raien — 2006-07-30T12:07:08-05:00

I am a work right now.

I am getting paid $10 an hour to drink coffee and play on the internet.

What a sweet job.

By the way- I leave for vacation on Friday. Belize!

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raien — 2006-08-02T03:08:25-05:00

I am really SCARED about college.

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raien — 2006-08-14T03:08:51-05:00

I'm back from Belize.

It was amazing.

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raien — 2006-08-14T01:08:58-05:00

I leave for college on Sunday.

Woah.

I have so much shit to get done.

So much.

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raien — 2006-08-19T02:08:53-05:00

So, uh college...

tomorrow.

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raien — 2006-10-23T11:10:18-05:00

test

YAAAAAAY

raien — 2006-10-23T11:10:27-05:00

Omg omg I am sooo excited!

The reason I've been MIA for so long is because I've been using the Safari browser on my Mac and it's not compatible with Mindsay.... and I just downloaded Firefox and it works!

Yay yay yay!

So now I am going to have to post about some of my college adventures in NYC :)

A long-belated update

raien — 2006-10-23T11:10:53-05:00

Twenty important facts about my life currently:

I am rowing on the Columbia Crew team. It's awesome. I am super strong.

I am a staff writer for the Style section of the Columbia Daily Spectator. This is good, since I think fashion writing is what I want to do with the rest of my life.

I only have one more midterm. (On the 31st)

I really miss high school. I miss my friends and the overall... system (the system that I had all figured out, mind you).

I really, really miss high school theatre. I might end up majoring in theatre, but I mentioned this to my parents and they were not pleased.

I love love love love NYC. (Manhattan=the greatest place EVER)

I'm still dating Kyle, even though the long distance thing sucks.

I might be home this weekend, to see Kyle in the improv show.

I will definitely be home two weekends from now and I will definitely be attending South River's Homecoming dance. I will also most definitely be visiting friends, smoking pot, eating at Chipotle, bothering my parents, and riding in cars. (I miss cars.... I walk/ride the Subway in Manhattan. Taxis are major luxuries for poor college kids like me.)

Barnard is fab. Classes are rough (who really wants to do work, anyway?), but there are great opportunities for me here. I might even learn something.

New York has the best pizza EVER. (Koronets on 111th and Bway... the pizza is only $2.75 a slice and a piece is about 12 inches wide and 18 inches long. I am not exaggerating! Really, I am not! It's giant pizza. You'll just have to come visit so I can prove it!)

I have been spending too much money. This is not good. Oops.

Right now, I should be doing an assignment for English. Instead, I am writing this list. Again, oops.

I really miss England. Now that my grandparents are dead, I might never go back. I miss what I had there... hanging out with Becky in the Village, Mom making sausage sandwiches in the kitchen, Nana yelling at everything because she was practically deaf, Grandpa arguing with my dad about everything... Even if I went back to England, I wouldn't be in that house. I can't recreate that experience, that family. It's gone. It's really hard.

On a happier note, I am making friends here. There are some great people. My roommate is awesome; we get along really well.

I think I'm getting fatter because of all the crap they feed us. It is impossible to be healthy here. Oh well.

I miss my dog. I saw my parents and my brother this weekend because it was family weekend, but I didn't get to see my dog.

I drank myself into oblivion this weekend. I am really not a big drinker and this is only the second time ever that I've actually drank so much that I puked. It was an open bar for $20... so I drank my $20 worth... and more! Well, it has turned me off cheap vodka for a long time!

I really need to get to bed or I will never wake up in the morning. Did I mention that crew involves waking up at 6:30 six days a week?

I think I'll be ok with spending four years here. I like it. I don't know what will happen to my realtionship with Kyle...since long distance will never work for four years... but I guess I'll work it out as it comes!

<3 Whitney

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raien — 2006-10-24T10:10:56-05:00

I might have hypothyroidism.

We'll see.

Hmmm.

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raien — 2006-10-25T11:10:12-05:00

Today I had to have blood tests AND a pap smear.

not fun

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raien — 2006-10-29T10:10:39-05:00

Don't get me wrong, I love New York City.

And I love Barnard.

But I sure do love coming home.

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raien — 2006-10-30T01:10:12-05:00

I had a great weekend at home.
I'm glad I got to see everyone. :)
And I'm going home next weekend too...oops. I'm becoming like a communter student... ha ha
(But seriously, I need to start spending more time interacting with other human beings here.)

I have a midterm tomorrow, in Political Theory.
Yikes.
I missed the review session on Friday... but I think it's on videotape in the library. Hopefully I will have time to watch it, in between writing my speech for English and my journal for Theatre.

Hmmm.
Maybe I should have done some work this weekend... oh well!

<3 Whitney

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raien — 2006-10-31T12:10:11-05:00

55 minutes and counting.

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raien — 2006-10-31T12:10:19-05:00

25 minutes and counting.

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raien — 2006-10-31T03:10:34-05:00

Well, I'm done with midterms.

Grades soon!

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raien — 2006-11-01T10:11:18-05:00

I went down to the Village last night for Halloween festivities.

Let me tell you, New York is a crazy place on October 31st.

By the way, I was a Catholic school girl. Original, right? Well, I didn't have a costume. So I borrowed some skanky clothes from Tat.

<3

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raien — 2006-11-06T09:11:23-05:00

All I want to do is come home and spend time with him.

It's making it so hard to enjoy college.

It's making it so hard to make new friends.

It's making it so hard to leave this place.

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raien — 2006-11-08T05:11:12-05:00

I had one of the best weekends ever.

Homecoming with Kyle was amazing. (Basically everything with Kyle was amazing.)

I got to see so many of my friends.

I spent an extra day at home... I was supposed to leave on Tuesday morning... because I had crew practice. But I didn't want to leave. So I stayed until 5:00 and missed practice. Oh well.

It was 100000% worth it.

I wish I was having that much fun at college! :/

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raien — 2006-11-10T01:11:32-05:00

I pulled a 2:05.8 on my 5k erg test today.

That's almost 5 seconds faster than last month.

AWESOME.

70 Things I Like/Love In No Particular Order

raien — 2006-11-10T01:11:22-05:00

Spooning (This is a really important one.)

The color yellow

The leaves in autumn (Especially in Maryland.)

Bundling up when it's chilly outside

My friends (They are the BEST.)

Shopping

Taking pictures

My cell phone

Lip gloss

Getting exciting e-mail

Reading good books

Sex marathons (Like when you know that if you do it again, you won't be able to walk for a week, but you do it again anyway. Ten more times.)

My iPod and the music on it

Hot chocolate

My cigarette case

Being absolutely head over heels in love (and knowing that your boyfriend feels the same)

Spooning with said boyfriend (Very important.)

Hot caramel apple cider from Starbucks

Autumn in general; it's my favorite season

Black ball-point pens

Free promotional items (pens, water bottles, stickers, buttons, etc. etc. etc.)

Purses

Shoes

Purses and shoes (I can't help myself.)

Coffee

Being able to be 100% yourself around your best friends

New York City

Buying Christmas presents

Getting a really thoughtful gift, not necessarily an expensive one, just something that you didn't have to ask for or maybe didn't even know you wanted- the giver just knows you that well :)

Kicking ass on an erg test (Aka. Showing coach that I can do it. I just don't care. Hmmm... maybe that's not the best message to convey. Oh well. I'm awesome.)

Not having any dirty laundry

Getting into a made-bed (I should make my bed more often. Hmmm.)

Not sleeping alone (Aka. Sleeping with said boyfriend. An extra warm body makes a bed so much more pleasant.)

Jeans that fit perfectly

When my hair actually looks good

Finding money that you didn't know you had (Check your coat pockets from last winter!)

Not having any homework... and being free for a little while

Being clean and freshly showered

Freckles

Ice cream

Seeing a great movie for the first time

Crystal Light (So delish!)

Correct spelling and grammar

When I manage to apply the effort and do a good job with my make-up

Hookah bars

Barnard/Columbia

Getting a good grade on a paper/test/assignment

Naps (Love love love!)

Naps with said boyfriend :)

Flipflops

Making lists

Fashion magazines

Theatre

Popcorn

Seeing a long lost friend

Becoming friends with someone whom you thought you might not get along with

Diet Snapple (Especially Plum-agranate and Pink Lemonade.)

My MacBook (And PhotoBooth)

Working in a hotel

Annapolis

South River High School (Ah, how I miss senior year!)

Going home for the weekend... and hanging out with all the kids I love!

Gorgeous high heels

Riding in cars (I miss this in NYC!)

Drugs :)

Concerts (Often accompanied by #65.)

Sunshine

Saving ticket stubs

Travelling (Everywhere! I want to go everywhere!)

Getting funny text messages

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raien — 2006-11-10T10:11:20-05:00

OMG

I JUST SAW EWAN MCGREGOR

AND HE IS A GOD

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raien — 2006-11-13T01:11:45-05:00

FRENCH IS MY LEAST FAVORITE CLASS.

Thank God, I will be finished with the language requirement next semester.

But on a brighter note,
it was cheese day in Hewitt.
Brie, Stilton, goat cheese, Irish cheddar, etc.

yumyumyumyum

I <3 cheese

And on an even brighter note,
I got a letter from Kyle today
An actual letter
Like, on paper
Written with a pen

o.0

wow

<3 him

It's only 6:30 and my day is already shitty.....

raien — 2006-11-16T06:11:26-05:00

Soooo last night I talked to Kyle on the phone from 8:30 to 11:00. A long time, I know, but we talk on the phone a lot. I needed something to keep me awake until midnight because the timeframe for freshman athletes to sign up for L-courses was midnight to 5am this morning. As in it ended an hour and a half ago. As in I missed it. Let me explain. The Barnard registrar process is intensely fucked up. For most classes, you just add them to your schedule, your advisor approves it, and bada bing, you're enrolled. Then, there are "limited enrollment" classes, aka L-courses, that you have to wait in line for. So on Monday, seniors get up early and stand in front of the registrar's office until it opens at 10am. Juniors on Tuesday, Sophomores on Wednesday, and finally, Freshmen on Thursday. But, as I'm a varsity athlete, I get to avoid this process a little bit. This morning, from 12am to 5am, I just had to send an e-mail to the registrar with the call number of the L-course(s) I wanted. That way I wouldn't have to stand in line and I'd also get to sign up before the rest of the first-years. Simple, right? Awesome. Piece of cake. Apparantly not. Last night, I was just laying in bed, fully dressed, after I got off the phone with Kyle. It was like 11:05 so I only needed to stay up for one more hour. (Which seems a little unfair considering that I had to wake up at 5:20 for crew, but whatever.) And, predictably, I fell asleep. So I missed my online sign-up privilige and now have to go wait in line for hours. I should probably go now-ish and then I'll probably be waiting until about 10:30. So like four hours of my life spent standing in front of the registrar's office. Excellent. But wait, it gets worse. Because the Columbia College students have registration today from like 9:00 to 11:00 (their system is different from ours at Barnard and they do it all online) and they make up the majority of the crew team, we were going to have early morning practice from 6-9am instead of 7-10am. Why am I not at said practice right now? Well the reason I'm awake right now is because my coach called me at 6am to tell me I had missed the bus and needed to take a cab to the boathouse. I jumped out of bed, still wearing my jeans and make-up, and really intended on going. Really, I did. I never miss practice. What happened is that since practice was early, I needed to set my alarm earlier. But since I fell asleep unplanned, I never did so. Well, fuck. I lied and told her I was sick. I didn't (1) want to spend $20 on a cab or (2) really feel like rowing. Dammit, now I feel really shitty for missing practice and even shittier for lying. She knows I lied too and I'm sure Shannon (coach) will make it very apparent to the rest of the team. Yay! I'm kind of crewed-out right now, and I really want a few mornings to sleep in. Unfortunately, this is not going to be one of those mornings. This is stressful as hell, and fuck, since I'm already awake, I might as well go stand in the L-course line. Did I mention that I have a paper due and a speech to give today? Neither of which have been written. FUCK FUCK FUCK I will, as always, remain overtired, poorly nourished (yum, dining hall food), and willfully missing my home, my friends, and my boyfriend. Love Always, Whitney

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raien — 2006-11-16T09:11:25-05:00

I have auditions for the Vagina Monologues in about an hour!

Wish me luck!

(I'm trying to pretend that I don't care if I get a part or not. I'm basically lying to myself.)

Vaginnnnnas!

raien — 2006-11-16T11:11:11-05:00

Well, I had my audition! I think it went pretty well. They asked me to do a British accent and a New Jersey accent, like without rehearsal or preparation, which is hard as shit, but I think I did ok. We'll see :) I'm not sure when I'll find out... but hopefully I won't be in suspense for too long!

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raien — 2006-11-17T08:11:58-05:00

I just took a 5 hour nap!

I am so annoyed with myself because I had so much work to do today...

10 VERY Important Things You Should Probably Know

raien — 2006-11-18T05:11:04-05:00

I really need a job. New York City has done an excellent job of depleting my savings account.

I did some homework yesterday and today, which is impressive considering that I haven't done any real, actual homework in like.... two weeks. I managed to finish my writing assignment for my English seminar and write my review of 3 Needles for the Spectator (the University newspaper).

The 3 Needles review wasn't actual homework, but I still needed to get it done. So now it's done. By the way, the movie comes out on December 1st. It's bad. Don't bother seeing it.

I still have two journals to write for my theatre class. Then, for French (the bain of my existence), I have to correct an essay, read some pages in the textbook, and do some exercises in the packet. Will do that.... soon.

I discovered today that the John Jay dining hall has a much better breakfast than Hewitt dining hall. Sooo I will probably frequent there more often.

Since breakfast, I've only eaten some Nutella. As a result, I have a stomach ache. Dammit.

Kyle left for Chicago today. I'll be joining him on Wednesday. Scary!

He said he would call me when his plane landed. He didn't. He has gotten steadily less reliable when it comes to making promised phone calls.

I'm going to Maggie's apartment tonight. We're going to watch a movie and smoke pot. Ohhh.... these high aspirations I have!

I need to take a shower. So I'm going to go do that. Like now.

<3 Whitney

EWAN MCGREGOR

raien — 2006-11-18T05:11:56-05:00

Ok..... so this is Ewan McGregor. (He's to the left, in the background.)

But I was REALLY close to him.

He is so hot in real life.

I'd hit that.

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raien — 2006-11-19T03:11:53-05:00

I still have to correct my French composition and write two journals for theatre.

Then I'm finished! (Yay!)

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raien — 2006-11-19T04:11:05-05:00

I AM SO BORED

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raien — 2006-11-20T12:11:35-05:00

I get to interview THE HUSH SOUND today.

yay!

BAD NEWS

raien — 2006-11-20T10:11:41-05:00

I am sick.

And in two days, I am flying to Chicago to meet my boyfriend's mother.

Hopefully I don't infect his entire family.

.....Please can I be better by Wednesday?

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raien — 2006-11-21T09:11:13-05:00

I am still sick but I don't feel as bad as I did last night.

I need to be better by tomorrow!

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raien — 2006-11-25T07:11:21-05:00

I went to Chicago to meet Kyle's mom and stepdad.

It was great. They are fab! (Even though I was super nervous. Hopefully I wasn't too awkward.)

I <3 Kyle.

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raien — 2006-11-25T07:11:39-05:00

I am really hungry.

I had a sammich at like 10:30 and that's it.

And I didn't eat much yesterday because I was coming down from my roll.

It seems like a lot of effort to get something to eat....ha ha a lot of effort to walk like one block.

Should I go to Pinnacle.... and get soup or a sandwich or pizza?

Or the grocery store and just get.... crackers? yogurt? fruit? cookies? mmm...ice cream?

Or Swish... pad thai? fried rice? sushi?

Or Ollie's.... udon noodles? Chinese curried chicken?

Or... ha ha ultimate laziness.... go to the vending machines downstairs... pita chips? pop tarts? candy? cheetos? (ahhhh... health)

Or Krispy Kreme... Asian Market... ??

Those are my options that are a block or less away. <3 NYC

Need to make a choice.

Hmmmm.

Will return.

Hopefully with food.

Love, Whitney

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raien — 2006-11-26T08:11:21-05:00

Once again, it's dinnertime and I'm hungry.

Time to venture out onto the streets of NYC and scrounge up a meal...

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raien — 2006-11-28T12:11:43-05:00

I just finished reading Middlesex

Great book

Of course, I should have been doing the homework for my 5:00 class

:)

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raien — 2006-11-29T12:11:21-05:00

I AM SOOO NOT READY FOR FINALS!!!

AND THEY ARE SOOO SOON!

:(

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raien — 2006-11-30T11:11:04-05:00

I went to Rockefeller Center last night to see the Christmas tree lighting.

Like everyone performed:
Enya
Lionel Richie
Sarah Mclaughlan
Martina McBride
John Legend
Sasha Cohen (she skated)
Taylor Hicks
Christina Aguilera
Sting
Bette Midler

And Alec Baldwin and Tina Fey made an appearance

Love love love living in New York City!

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raien — 2006-11-30T02:11:48-05:00

bored bored bored bored bored bored

Why did he ask me to write this?

raien — 2006-12-01T09:12:16-05:00

Whitney C. Hoot
Barnard College at Columbia University
3001 Broadway #5506
New York, NY 10027

November 27, 2006

Admissions Office
St. Mary’s College of Maryland

To Whom It May Concern:

For the sake of my own interests, I don’t want Kyle Clothier to go to St. Mary’s. I’m a selfish teenage girl who is incredibly frustrated with the loneliness and accumulated phone bills associated with a long-distance relationship. The idea of living four more years with a 200-mile gap in my life terrifies me. I’d love for Kyle to follow me to New York and I’d even be satisfied if he went to college in New Jersey. But that’s not what he wants and I just have to be honest. He always puts me first. This time, it’s not my turn.

Kyle wants, more than anything, to go to St. Mary’s College of Maryland. It’s where he’s always wanted to go; he talks about it all the time. No matter how often I change the subject or which other schools I suggest or how many blank applications I forward to his inbox, it will always be St. Mary’s. He loves the campus; he loves the small college, liberal arts education; he loves the opportunities he’ll have. How can I hold this against him? If I am fair, then I cannot. This is his college dream and it is his right to pursue it. With all of the hard work he has put into his education, he deserves to go exactly where he wants.

Kyle is absolutely brilliant. He’s smarter than me and I don’t say that a lot. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever said that about anyone. He’s a great student. He participates in class and can always add something to a discussion. Teachers love him. He’s a beautiful writer. (And I don’t say that a lot either.) And- I think this might be more important than academic matters- Kyle is amazingly kind. He is kind to everyone. In today’s world, people aren’t nice. High schoolers, especially, aren’t nice. How Kyle ever managed to grow up with three brothers and become such a genuine, compassionate person, I’ll never know. Kyle has the best smile I’ve ever seen.

I could list Kyle’s various interests and extra-curricular activities, but I’m sure you’ve seen his resume. And I’m sure you can see what an asset he would be to your college. (Which is, I must begrudgingly admit, an excellent school. If it weren’t, I would not be recommending Kyle, because he deserves the best.) It has been excruciatingly difficult to write this letter, but sometimes we have to do hard things for the people we love. I know Kyle pretty well- I guess really well- and I know he will be happiest at St. Mary’s. If there is one perfect college for everyone, then St. Mary’s is his. I don’t like the idea, but sometimes we just have to suck it up, write checks to the phone company, and look forward to long weekends and holidays. So here it goes:

I, Whitney C. Hoot, a student of Barnard College at Columbia University in the City of New York, with all of the credibility I can muster, recommend Kyle A. Clothier as a perfect candidate for the St. Mary’s College of Maryland class of 2011.

Thank you very much for your consideration.

Sincerely,

Whitney C. Hoot

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raien — 2006-12-01T03:12:57-05:00

It's 70 degrees today in New York City... and it's December!

I have a 20 page paper to write. I need to suck it up and do it.

Every time I lay down, I get a headache.

I am worried sick about finals.

I really want to go Christmas shopping.

I'm still kind of upset about that recommendation. Reality sucks.

At this point, I am definitely, definitely procrastinating.

I want to buy Kyle a really nice wallet for Christmas.

Kyle, Lauren, Andrew, and Matt are coming to visit next weekend!

Time to do some work, I guess. Bleh. I hate work. It's the worst part of college.

College is rough

raien — 2006-12-02T10:12:49-05:00

So far I've written 2 pages of my 20 page paper.

Well...
at least I started.

(I guess I'll be up until 1:00 or 2:00 am doing this. Serves me right for procrastinating. The only productive thing I did yesterday was making my bed. And that took all of five minutes.)

Since the paper is separated into four sections, five pages each, I want to finish one section each night for the next for nights.

Saturday- Section 1: Dramaturgical Analysis
Sunday- Section 2: Historial approaches to the play
Monday- Section 3: Personal approaches to the play
Tuesday- Section 4: Observation and conclusions

On Wednesday I'll put it all together and make a coversheet.

Christ.

This is really cramming my schedule for the week. Check this out:

Sunday:

12:00-5:00ish Christmas shopping with Maggie

Work on paper (Section 2)

Study for French quiz Monday (Last quiz of semester- need a good grade!)

Can't stay up too late because of crew on Monday

Monday:

8:00-10:00 Crew (Weights in erg room)

10:30-12:00 Lincoln Center Theatrical Library for research for 20-page paper

12:30-2:30 Work on paper (Section 3)/study for French/Eat lunch

2:40-4:00 French class (Quiz! Get last composition back?)

4:00-6:30 Work on paper

6:30-8:30 Activist's Dinner (Must attend)

8:30-?? Work on paper

Tuesday:

Wake up early to work on paper (Section 4)??

1:10-2:25 Political Theory class

2:40-4:00 Reacting to the Past Seminar (will receive Op-Ed assignment)

5:00-7:10 NY Theatre class

7:10-?? Finish paper

Wednesday:

7:00-10:00 Crew (Load boats for Florida)

10:00-2:30 Do whatever French homework was assigned on Monday (Revise comp?)/Eat lunch

2:40-4:00 French class (reviewing for final)

5:00-6:00 Erg test at Dodge Gym

6:00-?? Get paper together/Make coversheet/Do extra credit/Print/Write Op-Ed piece

Thursday:

Wake up early to finish any work necessary

1:10-2:25 Political Theory class

2:40-4:00 Reacting to the Past seminar (Turn in Op-Ed. Will receive final essay assignment.)

4:00-?? Write essay for Reacting/Do any other work

Friday:

12:00-2:00 Political Theory review session (Must go/Arrive early to get seat)

No set plans... maybe study for Pol Theory/Work on Reacting essay

7:00 Kyle arrives!!!!!!

7:30 Get pizza at Koronets

8:00-?? Trip balls on LSD :)

Saturday:

Sleep in with Kyle :)

12:00 Lauren and Andrew arrive!!

12:00-7:00 Shop/eat/hang out in NYC

7:00ish Matt arrives!!!

8:00-11:00 High Fidelity on Broadway

11:00-?? Party at Maggie's

Sunday:

Sleep in with Kyle :)

11:00-12:00 Brunch w/Kyle, Lauren, Matt, Andrew, etc.

3:00-5:00 See The Wedding Singer on Broadway?? Maybe...

6:00ish Andrew, Kyle, and Lauren leave

6:00-?? Hang out with Matt! Shop? Eat? Whatever!

Monday:

Spend all morning with Matt (Met?)

2:40-4:00 French class (reviewing for final)

4:00-?? Hang out w/Matt

Lateish Matt leaves

Tuesday

Study study study (for Pol Theory/French)

Finish Reacting paper

5:00-6:00 NY Theatre (last class...turn in A++ paper!)

6:00-?? More studying/Finish Reacting paper

Wednesday:

Study all day!

Thursday:

Study in the morning

Reacting paper due?

1:00-4:00 Political Theory exam

4:00-?? Study for French

Friday

Study in the morning

1:00-4:00 French exam

5:00 or 7:00 Leave for home!!!

Well... if I just suck it up and get the paper done and don't procrastinate on any of my work, I'll have plenty of time to study for my exams. And then I should do well on them. Writing this scedule out has made me feel a little better, actually.

Here are the semester grades I'm hoping for:

Reacting to the Past: A
NY Theatre: A (If I do really well on this paper, it just might be possible...) I guess an A- would be ok
Political Theory: A+ (I got an A+ on the midterm, so if I study a lot for the final, this is possible)
French: B (I will probably get a B-, which will be a little disappointing, but ok)

I want to get a 3.4 both semesters this year so I can make Dean's list... that would be so awesome!

Ok... well I'm going to finish section 1 of my paper!

Wish me luck- I better fo a damn good job!

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raien — 2006-12-03T07:12:18-05:00

Went Xmas shopping today w/Maggie

Spent a lot of money

Spent a lot of money on me too... oops!

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raien — 2006-12-04T12:12:22-05:00

Section one including character constellation is done.

9 pages, 1.5 spaced. So 6 single spaced paged, 12 double spaced pages.

A lot.

I'm a little behind my projected schedule, but I don't think the other sections are going to take nearly as much time as this.

<3

I think I'm doing ok.

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raien — 2006-12-04T12:12:07-05:00

Damn damn damn damn damn damn

Big setback in the essay writing process.

For the second section of the essay (the historical approaches) I have to get resources from the NYC Public Library's Theatrical Arts branch. I went there today.

THEY ARE CLOSED ON MONDAYS.

Even worse, they don't open until noon on the days that they do actually open, so I can't go tomorrow. That means I have to wait until Wednesday to make any progress on my paper.

This is bad.

That means...

Wednesday: Section 2
Thursday: Section 3
Friday: Section 4

Soooo..... now I've lost two days of work and am going to be cutting it close.

It's still not impossible and I do have lots of time until the 12th, but I JUST WANT TO GET IT DONE.

Rats.

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raien — 2006-12-05T11:12:51-05:00

I slept in wayyyy later than I'd planned.

Ohhh well.

THE HUSH SOUND

raien — 2006-12-06T01:12:30-05:00

I just saw The Hush Sound play.

With This Is Me Smiling, This Providence, and Murder by Death.

Did I mention that I hung out with them after the show, too?

I'll post pictures :)

Love love love love!

Some of these are not crazy at all...

raien — 2006-12-06T06:12:54-05:00

Level 1
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(X) smoked weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol
SO FAR: 5

Level 2
(x) said "i love you" to someone
(x) had a pet die
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) fell down a mountain
SO FAR: 8

Level 3
(x) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date
(x) lied
SO FAR: 11

Level 4
(x) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
(x) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone/something die
SO FAR: 14

Level 5
(x) had/have a crush on one of your Facebook friends
(x) been to Paris
( ) been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
(x) thrown up from drinking
SO FAR: 18

Level 6
(X) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of facebook
(x) been mosh pitting
SO FAR: 21

Level 7
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
(x) love/like someone who you cant have
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
SO FAR: 26

Level 8
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
SO FAR: 31

Level 9
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
SO FAR: 35

Level 10
(x) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sunset
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake
SO FAR: 37

Level 11
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone/vandalized
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a deer
SO FAR: 39

Level 12
(x) won a contest
(x) been suspended from school
( ) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident
SO FAR: 42

Level 13
(x) had/have braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 46

Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it notes
SO FAR: 50

Level 15
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the world
(X) swam in the ocean/gulf/lake
(X) felt like you were dying
SO FAR: 55

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(X) sang karaoke.
(X) paid with only coins
SO FAR: 60

Level 17
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) kissed in the rain
SO FAR: 64

Level 18
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
SO FAR: 68

Level 19
( ) crashed a party
(X) have traveled more than 5 hours with a car/bus full of people
(X) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
SO FAR: 71

Level 20
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) Screamed 'PENIS' in class
(x) gone swimming with dolphins
SO FAR: 73

Level 22
(x) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer*/ice cube*
(x) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex's clothes
(x) Sat on a roof top
SO FAR: 77

Level 23
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
(X) done/attempted a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night
SO FAR: 80

Level 24
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
(X) had/been in a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
SO FAR: 83

Level 25
( ) believe in ghosts (i call them spirits)
(X) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail/visit
SO FAR: 84

Level 26
(X) played chicken
(X) been pushed/jumped into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused
SO FAR: 88

Level 27
(x) caught a fish then LATER ate it
(X) made or been in a video
(X) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
SO FAR: 93

Level 28
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
(X) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dipping in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house
SO FAR: 100

Level 29
(X) Rode a rollercoaster
(x) went scuba-diving/snorkeling
(x) had a cavity
( ) Black-mailed someone
( ) been black mailed
SO FAR: 103

Level 30
(X) fell going up the stairs
( ) licked a cat/dog
(X) played hide and seek within the last 3 years
(X) bitten someone
(X) licked someone
SO FAR: 107

I've done 107 out of 144 crazy things

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raien — 2006-12-06T08:12:24-05:00

Uhhh oh.... I spent a lot of money today....

...again.

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raien — 2006-12-07T03:12:25-05:00

It is almost 4am.

I just finished section 2 of my paper.

Holy crap.

It's.... a little over 6 pages, 1.5 spaced. So like 4 single spaced pages. About...2800 words, I think.

Ah, yes. 2823 words to be exact.
Before proofreading.

And the first section is... 3994 words.

So I'm at... 6817 words.

That's a lot.

I don't know if you know just how many that it... but it's a lot.

A lot a lot.

And I'm only half done!

::tears::

I better get an A++++++

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raien — 2006-12-07T02:12:33-05:00

ps. I got a 96 on my last French quiz. :)

I'm super psyched!

That puts my quiz average at like... 86.

My essay average is like... an A-

And I got at 80 on my midterm.

So if I get maybe... an 85... on my final, I'll get a B instead of a B-

I would be sooo thrilled!

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raien — 2006-12-10T07:12:43-05:00

Matt, Andrew, Lauren, and Kyle were all supposed to visit me this weekend.

It was a big deal. I was really excited.

I bought 8 theatre tickets to High Fidelity for Saturday night; the five of us were going to go with Cat, Nick, and Maggie.

On Wednesday, Andrew backed out because he didn't want to see Matt.

Lauren wasn't sure if she could come up by herself, but then she said she could.

Friday night, maybe 9:00, she called and said she couldn't come.

Ok. Fine.

At about 11:00, Matt called and said he wasn't coming because he wanted to spend time with me and didn't want to be the third wheel with Kyle and I.

I am furious with him for the following reasons:

He was supposed to come Saturday night and leave Monday night, so he would have had me all to himself for most of Sunday and all of Monday. (Kyle and Lauren were going to leave at 5:00 Sun.)

He was never going to have any more "alone time" with me, because Lauren, Kyle, and Andrew were going to be here.

He hates that I have a boyfriend because I spend less time with him. Well, when he acts like a 5 year old, I'm not really that inclined to see him.

If he had maybe backed out a little earlier, instead of the middle of Friday night, maybe Lauren and Andrew could have come because the reason Andrew wasn't coming was Matt.

He is so fucking selfish.

This was supposed to be my weekend, them visiting me.

They've been planning it for weeks.

I let them choose the weekend, even though this wasn't a good weekend for me, because of exams.

I bought 8 tickets. Cat and Nick didn't even show up.

Maggie, Kyle, and I went.

It was a great show.

How dare Matt give me a hard time for having Kyle around?

At least he bothers to visit me when he says he will.

And all five of them had better pay for their tickets because I am not going to take a financial fall for this.

I made a ton of plans for this weekend.

I was so excited.

Fuck all of them for not caring about anyone but themselves.

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raien — 2006-12-12T12:12:58-05:00

I am stress eating, but not bothered, because I am hungry.

I think salted peanuts and Doritos can get me through this paper.

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raien — 2006-12-12T09:12:08-05:00

Just one more section to write, by 5:00 today.

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raien — 2006-12-12T04:12:27-05:00

paper is finally finished.

an hour before it's due.

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raien — 2006-12-13T07:12:36-05:00

I have so much work to do.

And I'm so sick.

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raien — 2006-12-17T01:12:00-05:00

I'm at home for the weekend!

...But I have to go back to school tomorrow...

Bleh...

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raien — 2006-12-17T05:12:21-05:00

i just got home and i'm already ready to leave

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raien — 2006-12-18T03:12:48-05:00

Finished my English paper.

Now I just have to study for my final on Tuesday!

(FYI: I was *not* productive this weekend. Coming home was a bad idea.)

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raien — 2006-12-20T11:12:10-05:00

home.

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raien — 2006-12-27T02:12:47-05:00

An old friend of mine died tonight.

I hadn't spoken to him in months.

I guess I'm in shock.

It's not really real yet.

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raien — 2006-12-27T05:12:27-05:00

I think everyone should consider the rammifications of suicide.

You don't hurt yourself.

You hurt the people you leave behind.

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raien — 2006-12-29T03:12:49-05:00

It's a fucked up war.

I wish the politicians behind this mess could spend a few days in the soldiers' barracks.

Maybe they'd make different choices.

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raien — 2006-12-29T05:12:15-05:00

I miss Kyle.

He doesn't get home until Sunday evening.

Meh.

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raien — 2006-12-30T01:12:41-05:00

Work today.

Then work tomorrow.

Then New Year's celebration.

Then...who knows?

Maybe something exciting on Monday.

Or maybe work.

Who am I kidding?

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raien — 2006-12-30T02:12:56-05:00

i really need to get ready for work

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raien — 2006-12-30T06:12:43-05:00

bored at work.

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raien — 2007-01-01T04:01:13-05:00

Sweet fucking New Years.

Sweet.

Oh how sweet.

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raien — 2007-01-02T02:01:13-05:00

I spent New Years with my family.

The Fooliano family, of course. (And a few extras.)

Andrew Hall, Kyle, Emily Carson, Jeff Thomas, Molly Coombs, Matt Taylor, Mike Fritsch, KB, Mike Gardner, Brent, Michaela, K-Pack

And I got to see Lauren and Chad Jones

It was a fabulous night of bonding.

Ha ha- let me add something- so I rolled on three hits and would not keep my top on. I guess I was initially showing off my nip piercings... but then it just got excessive.

The entirety of Riva has seen my tits.

Oops!

It was an amazing night though.

These kids are my family.

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raien — 2007-01-15T11:01:57-05:00

I leave for New York in 3 hours.

I am so sad.

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raien — 2007-01-15T11:01:45-05:00

So so so so sad.

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raien — 2007-01-15T08:01:54-05:00

Back at school.

Class tomorrow.

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raien — 2007-01-17T03:01:41-05:00

I just found my $100 Statistics book for $50 used, but in 'like new' condition!

Yay!

An update on my life

raien — 2007-01-19T12:01:22-05:00

Well, second semester has officially started. I did pretty well first semester (A's in Political Theory, English Seminar, and Theatre and a B in French, so a 3.75 overall) and I hope I can do as well this time around. This semester I'm taking Intro to Macroeconomics, Intro to Statistics, Political Theory II, First Year English Writing, and Intermediate French II. I'm taking care of a lot of my general education requirements, so next year I can concentrate mostly on my major. (Political Science? Most likely.)

I really do like Barnard. It's a great school and I think I have the potential to make a lot of friends here. I just need to try harder. Spend less time in my room, visit people in their rooms... There are a lot of girls who I really like and they seem to like me. I just need to approach them. (Or maybe become more approachable?) Since I'm not a drinker, I'll never fit into the bar scene, but there are definitely other aspects of college life where I can meet people with similar interests.

I just got a job; I'm working at the Columbia University Student Calling Center. Basically I'm a telemarketer; I call alumni and harass them for money. I haven't started yet, but the training is next Thursday and Friday. It's $12.75 an hour, so I'm excited about that. I need to be making money and not spending so much of it. Last semester, I spent $5000. Five thousand dollars!!! Mostly on clothes and shoes and expensive dinners. I am ridiculous! This semester, I'm going to try to eat in the dining hall more and not buy luxuries. (Four hundred dollar sweaters are not necessary, even if they are cashmere! I don't need any more clothes!) I had about 80 meals left on my meal plan at the end of the semester- I think I started with 150- so I can definitely spend more time in Hewitt, even if the meals are occassionally...questionable. At least I worked at the hotel over break, so I made a few hundred dollars there. I'm hoping to increase my savings account by about $2000 by the end of the semester and then replenish the rest by the end of the summer, so I'll be back to $10,000. Hopefully. Not having money makes me nervous.

Kyle has exams next week, from Monday until Thursday, but then he has Friday and Monday off school. He's going to try and visit me, which would be really exciting. He'd get to stay for four nights! I wish I didn't have job training (Thursday from 7-9pm and Friday from 12-4pm), but there's nothing I can really do about it. Oh well. We'll still have lots of time! We'll have Friday after 9:00, Thursday after 4:00, all day Saturday and Sunday, and Monday until about 5:00. So much time! Yay! I had such a great time with him over winter break. He got me a gorgeous ring for Christmas. Maybe I'll post a picture. He's an amazing guy. I love him so much. It was so hard to say goodbye. He might go to school in Manhattan next year. I hope he gets in. We might even get an apartment together. That would be amazing. What an adventure, to have one's own home! He applied to City College, Hunter College, and Baruch College- all in the City- and they all have rolling admission. So he should know within the next couple of weeks. Exciting!

I have to cook tomorrow. (I have really left this to the last minute.) For CUE, the pre-orientation program I did before college, the leader application process involves cooking. In the past, leaders and CUErs cooked their own food. Now it's all prepared by the dining hall, but the application process still involves cooking. I'm going to make chicken alfredo and broccoli florettes with lemon and olive oil. I also have to fill out the entire application, which includes eight essays. Bummer. I really want to be a CUE leader though. It looks great on a resume and it's a lot of fun. Hopefully I'll get a spot. I think it's going to be really competitive though. :( Better write good essays! Looks like I'm going to have a busy Friday...

That's my life, so far.
Love.
Whitney.

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raien — 2007-01-20T11:01:35-05:00

I live in New York City.

Sweet.

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raien — 2007-01-21T03:01:03-05:00

I have so much work to do.

So so so much.

It's only the first week of school and I already feel behind. Balls.

I miss my boo.

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raien — 2007-01-22T01:01:16-05:00

Kyle is coming this weekend! Yay!

If there's no school tomorrow (his high school, I mean), he'll have a four day weekend from Sat-Tues, so he can come for 4 nights and days! Yay!

(If he has school tomorrow then he will have from Fri-Tues off and he can't come until Friday night regardless because he has a denist appointment.)

I hear the snow is pretty bad so hope for no school!

I want to spend four whole nights with my boo! We're going to have soooo much fun!

I think I might get tickets for RENT. Or The Little Dog Laughed.

Can't decide.

And we might go look at his prospective colleges.

:)

I'm really happy right now.

I hope nothing happens to make me crash! That would suck!

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raien — 2007-01-22T11:01:22-05:00

Well, they didn't cancel school.

So I only get to see Kyle for two and a half days.

Fuck this.

:(

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raien — 2007-01-23T08:01:35-05:00

I think I might rush Alpha Delta Phi.

It's a co-ed fraternity.

Hmmmm.

A couple of my friends are in it.

We'll see.

My tummy hurts and I have a lot of work to do.

Balls.

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raien — 2007-01-24T12:01:17-05:00

I have to go to Coachella 2007.

I HAVE to go.

Problems with this plan:

Coachella is in California.

Coachella is the weekend before final exams.

Plane tickets to California cost about $350.

Coachella tickets cost $250.

But I will go. I HAVE to. See why:

Friday, April 28

Bjork

Interpol

the Jesus and Mary Chain

Arctic Monkeys

Jarvis Cocker

Sonic Youth

Faithless

DJ Shadow

Peeping Tom

Brazilian Girls

Peaches

Felix Da Housecat

Rufus Wainwright

Stephen Marley featuring Jr. Gong

Nickel Creek

We Are Scientists

Digitalism

Tokyo Police Club

Comedians of Comedy

El-P

Julieta Venegas

Gogol Bordello

Circa Survive

Silverspun Pickups

Gillian Welch

Benny Benassi

Tilly & the Wall

David Guetta

Amy Winehouse

Noisettes

Evil Nine

Bus Driver

Brother Ali

Saturday, April 29

Red Hot Chili Peppers

the Arcade Fire

Tiesto

the Decemberists

the Good, The Bad and The Queen

Travis

Kings Of Leon

Gotan Project

the Rapture

LCD Soundsystem

Blonde Redhead

New Pornographers

the Black Keys

!!!

Regina Spektor

Hot Chip

MSTRKRFT

Ozomatli

Ghostface Killah

Fountains of Wayne

Jack's Mannequin

Peter, Bjorn & John

VNV Nation

Sparklehorse

Nightwatchman

Roky Erikson & the Explosives

Cornelius

CocoRosie

Andrew Bird

the Frames

the Fratellis

Justice

Pharoahe Monch

Fields

the Cribs

Girl Talk

Mike Relm

DJ Heather

Yeva

Pop Levi

Sunday, April 30

Rage Against The Machine !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Manu Chao Radio Bemba Sound System

Air

Happy Mondays

Willie Nelson

Paul Van Dyk

the Roots

Crowded House

Kaiser Chiefs

Damien Rice

Placebo

Explosions in the Sky

Konono No1

Richie Hawtin

Soul Wax

Infected Mushroom

Lily Allen

Amos Lee

Jose Gonzalez

Spank Rock

Rodrigo Y Gabriela

Against Me!

Ratatat

Junior Boys

the Feeling

the Kooks

CSS

Klaxons

Tapes & Tapes

Lupe Fiasco

Mando Diao

Teddybears

Grizzly Bear

Mika

the Coup

the Avett Bros.

Anathallo

Fair to Midland

Do you understand now?

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raien — 2007-01-25T04:01:49-05:00

Major: Economics

Minor: Political Science

Goals: Graduate in 3 years without stressing too much

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raien — 2007-01-26T01:01:51-05:00

I was pretty productive today.

Did my Econ homework (not due til Tuesday!).

Called the bank.

Dropped off both of my RA recommendation forms.

Finished my Stat homework.

Did TWO loads of laundry.

Went to class (well, I went to 2 out of 3, and that's pretty good).

Went to work (just for 2 hours, but $25 is $25).

Bought a book for Pol Theory.

Decided my major.

I got a lot done. Nice.

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raien — 2007-01-26T08:01:48-05:00

I'm supposed to be at Open Mic Night for ADP right now.

But I'm not.

Jackie and Carling aren't going to be pleased. Oh well.

Hopefully I can still rush?

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raien — 2007-01-29T02:01:00-05:00

Kyle just left.

I have exactly one hour to write a 2-page essay.

Damn.

But, on the bright side, I got a 100% on my first econ assignment.

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raien — 2007-01-30T12:01:43-05:00

I turned my RA application in at about 3:55.
5 minutes before the office closed.
Nice.

Now I have until 4:00 to write a paper for English.
This is ridic.
And my to-do list is huge!

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raien — 2007-01-30T02:01:44-05:00

Now I have an hour and a half to write a paper.

Ha ha ha.

I am DUMB.

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raien — 2007-01-31T03:01:28-05:00

This is only the third week of school and I'm already behind!
How does this happen?!?

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raien — 2007-02-01T11:02:08-05:00

I'm trying to find a place to ride.

I miss it so much.

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raien — 2007-02-02T01:02:59-05:00

Olympus Fashion Week...

HAS BEGUN!

(I've got invites to Venexiana and Nicole Romano so far.)

FASHION WEEK

raien — 2007-02-05T01:02:14-05:00

Venexiana: Eh. Okay. A lot of fur. Not much color. Kind of bland.

Nicole Romano: Not bad. Lots and lots of color. Pretty sexy. A little out there.

Tomorrow, we'll see what Jeremy Laing brings to the table...er, I mean brings to the runway.

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raien — 2007-02-05T01:02:54-05:00

Watch this. And laugh.

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raien — 2007-02-05T03:02:27-05:00

Why am I still awake when I know that I have to wake up at 8:00???

And why have I been doing nothing for the past three hours when I know that I have a French exam tomorrow?!?!

WHY!?!?!?

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raien — 2007-02-05T05:02:20-05:00

My capsule about Venexiana.

By the way, Jeremy Laing was AMAZING.

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raien — 2007-02-06T01:02:10-05:00

My capsule about Jeremy Laing.

My capsule about Nicole Romano. (The editor changed the last sentence and I really don't like it, but whatever.)

I love fashion week :)

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raien — 2007-02-06T03:02:43-05:00

I showed my roommate some of my pictures that I took of runway shows and she was really freaked out by how skinny the models are.

"You can see all of their bones!"

Well...of course you can...they're runway models...that's what they look like.

Maybe I've just been desensitized.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I didn't go to Econ yesterday. And I didn't go to Stat or Political Theory today. This is not a habit I should develop.

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raien — 2007-02-07T01:02:28-05:00

On Monday I skipped Econ.

On Tuesday I skipped Stat and Pol Theory.

Right now- as I type this- I'm skipping French.

...what the hell!?!?

I am commiting academic suicide!

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raien — 2007-02-08T05:02:34-05:00

It's 5:30 am.

I probably still ahve two more hours of work.

Is this a joke?

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raien — 2007-02-09T12:02:28-05:00

Guess who has tickets to see Snow Patrol and OK GO on March 27th at Madison Square Garden...

guess...

guess...

Me! And my roommate! Yes!

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raien — 2007-02-12T03:02:35-05:00

I went home on Saturday to see Kyle's show. It was good. And I got to see all my friends! We had a bonfire... it was fun.

Then I spent the night at Kyle's house.

Then I left at like 1:00pm on Sunday... so I was at home for a grand total of 20 hours. Nice... $50 worth of bus tickets for a 20 hour visit. Oh well.

Last night I got my pledge bid from ADP! So I'm officially a pledge for the next 8 weeks... then, hopefully, I'll be inducted as a member! (If I don't get membership after this whole process, I am going to be upset.

We'll see!

Gotta run to Econ!

Love!

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raien — 2007-02-13T12:02:36-05:00

I went to bed early (relatively early) last night so that I could go to all of my classes today.

I just fucking woke up.

I guess I shut off my alarm this morning instead of snoozing it. I am so fucking mad at myself.

I slept through Stat. I really don't understand what we're doing in that class right now and we have a test next class so I am probably fucked. Totally fucked.

And now I have to skip Political Theory, which I've only attended twice this semester, because I have an essay to finish writing that I was going to write.... while I was sleeping.

FUCK!

I cannot quite verbalize my frustration. I am really, really annoyed. I just ruined my whole week.

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raien — 2007-02-13T06:02:58-05:00

I finished my English paper, about 3 minutes after class started.

I'm actually pretty pleased with the end result.

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raien — 2007-02-14T11:02:21-05:00

Check out this best of show at Westminster.

Uh huh.

A springer spaniel. That's right.

Ohhh yeah.

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raien — 2007-02-15T12:02:47-05:00

I told Kyle to hurry up and find out if he could go to Coachella or not...

I waited...

And waited...

And now the tickets are sold out, going for $1000 each.

So no Coachella.

Thanks Kyle.

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raien — 2007-02-17T02:02:57-05:00

I had ADP initiation tonight.

Interesting. But I can't tell you anything about it... I've been sworn to secrecy :)

I have to wear my pledge pin at all times now. It will be hard not to forget it...

And the first pledge meeting is on Wednesday... the same night as the social change/entrepreneuership summit at NYU... dammit! Oh well... I really wanted to go to that summit though.

I applied to live in the Civic Engagement House next year. It's a group of ten girls who live together and basically do a lot of community service, plus a related internship in the spring. Will Simpkins runs it and he's basically my favorite person at Barnard.

Wish me luck!

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raien — 2007-02-18T10:02:54-05:00

Sometimes I wish I could rewind my life and go back to a time when I never did drugs...

Doing drugs just makes you wish your life was like life on drugs all of the time.

Ignorance is bliss.

Well, drugs are bliss but comedown is a bitch.

.im.an.addict.oops.

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raien — 2007-02-19T06:02:51-05:00

I'm just so friggin tired!

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raien — 2007-02-19T11:02:13-05:00

Deviously stolen from wildearrows

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title to answer the questions. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see you?
The Beatles- "There's A Place"

Will I have a happy life?
Mae- "We're So Far Away"

What do my friends really think of me?
Alice in Chains- "Man in the Box"   (....woman in the box?)

What do people secretly think of me?
Snow Patrol- "The Finish Line"

How can I be happy?
Nirvana- "Pen Cap Chew"

What should I do with my life?
Pavement- "Spit on a Stranger"   (Really?!?!)

What is some good advice for me?
Keller Williams- "In a Big Country"

How will I be remembered?
Reel Big Fish- "The Fire"

What is my signature dancing song?
Led Zeppelin- "In The Evening"

What do I think my current theme song is?
Pink Floyd- "Time"

What does every one else think my current theme song is?
Goo Goo Dolls- "I'm Addicted" (Bah ha ha ha!)

What song will play at my funeral?
Dashboard Confessional- "Again I Go Unnoticed" (I sure hope not...)

What type of men/women do you like?
Of Montreal- "In Dreams I Dance With You"

What is my day going to be like?
Radiohead- "Ripcord"

So.... most of those make no sense whatsoever.
Oh well.

At least it shows my impeccable taste in music!

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raien — 2007-02-20T09:02:35-05:00

....So the English paper I spent all day writing and finished two minutes before class?

It wasn't due today.

Ha ha ha. My life is a sitcom.

shootmeplease

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raien — 2007-02-22T12:02:00-05:00

I now have.... 4 hours before my Econ is due. Hah!

I am f.u.c.k.e.d.

Royally.

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raien — 2007-02-22T06:02:57-05:00

ilovechickensalad

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raien — 2007-02-26T08:02:52-05:00

Had a fun weekend at Tat's country house in Connecticut.

Went a little crazy.

Meant to go skiing... but it was too damn cold.

Watched movies instead: The Departed, Babel, Wet Hot American Summer, Requiem for a Dream, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days, about two seasons of Sex and the City.

A good time.

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raien — 2007-02-26T09:02:47-05:00

Soooo tired!

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raien — 2007-02-27T10:02:27-05:00

So, it's official: Next year I will be living in Cathedral Gardens as a member of the Civic Engagement House!

Yay!

(I turned down the offer to be an RA.)

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raien — 2007-02-28T03:02:10-05:00

I am sooo friggin busy.

I'm a little overwhelmed.

I hate midterms.

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raien — 2007-03-02T03:03:28-05:00

http://www.briarose.org/theatre.html

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raien — 2007-03-02T04:03:35-05:00

I finally sold my Of Montreal tickets.

Yay!

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raien — 2007-03-03T10:03:43-05:00

I just got four pit tickets to see the Fray on June 28th.

Yay!

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raien — 2007-03-04T02:03:10-05:00

drunkitydrunkdrunk

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raien — 2007-03-05T12:03:58-05:00

There was a big sale at the Barnard store tonight.

"Midnight Madness" they call it.

I bought a new t-shirt, a pennant, and sweatpants...for only $30 total!

Yay for Barnard gear!

Love.

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raien — 2007-03-05T03:03:06-05:00

Econ midterm in 13 hours.

FUCK.

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raien — 2007-03-05T10:03:06-05:00

Econ midterm in 6 hours.

FUCK.

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raien — 2007-03-05T12:03:56-05:00

Econ midterm in 3.5 hours.

FUCK.

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raien — 2007-03-05T05:03:02-05:00

That was the hardest test I have ever taken.

Not so good.

And this is supposed to be my major?!

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raien — 2007-03-07T02:03:11-05:00

My fucking hard drive crashed today.

All of my shit is GONE.

GONE GONE GONE.

Where the fuck did it go? Purgatory for ones and zeros???

FUCK.

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raien — 2007-03-08T04:03:49-05:00

Wellll I just finished my paper for English. I think I spent more time revising this draft than I did writing the first one.

And it's so frustrating, because I know I won't get any higher than a B+. My professor doesn't believe in As...

"An A means there is no room for improvement... and there's always room for improvement..."

So hopefully I'll get a B+... I did a damn good job on it.

It's 5am and I haven't even started studying for my midterm tomorrow.... fuckkkk.

At least it will be over at 2:25 tomorrow.

My last midterm for the semester...

I get my stat midterm back tomorrow... we'll see...

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raien — 2007-03-11T12:03:13-05:00

I am hommmmmme

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raien — 2007-03-17T11:03:50-05:00

...spring break is over!!!

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raien — 2007-03-18T10:03:12-05:00

Heading back to school today.

Work starts tomorrow...

balls.

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raien — 2007-03-20T09:03:24-05:00

This evening, I decided to get high instead of writing my french essay.

It's due tomorrow.

Ha ha ha. Ha ha ha.

Not really funny.

(I sound like an anti-drug commercial. Ridic.)

ps. My midterms were ok.

French C+ (but it doesn't really matter because I'm taking the class Pass/D/Fail)

Pol Theory A

Statistics A

Economics A-

English B+ (It was a paper, not an exam.)

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raien — 2007-03-22T09:03:52-05:00

I now have tickets to see Third Eye Blind..... YAY!

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raien — 2007-03-24T12:03:06-05:00

Soooo...

I went to go get my tattoo and the artist couldn't do it quite the way I wanted it...and one should never settle when it comes to tattoos...

soooo....

I got my tongue pierced.

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raien — 2007-03-26T12:03:47-05:00

I will be finished with my first year of college on May 8, 2007.

Now the question is...
what to do this summer?

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raien — 2007-03-26T02:03:08-05:00

I'm having an excellent day because I found a pair of beautiful, soft, comfortable leather flats in my size.

Gooooood.

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raien — 2007-03-27T12:03:21-05:00

A quick update about my life:

I'm doing pretty well this semester, but I could be doing much better if I actually did work. Yeah, maybe I should try doing that.

I got my tongue pierced. I like it. It's still swollen, so I can't eat solid foods yet. And I have a really cute lisp. And by really cute I mean atrocious.

Kyle and I are still together. And I luuuurv him.

I am on a diet. And I am actually going to lose weight this time. Seriously. I will not be attending beach week festivities in this state!

I'm trying desperately to make summer plans. Where to go? What to do? How to fund it?!?!

I love ADP. I think pledging was a really good choice. I love the people. Speaking of ADP, I'm supposed to have a song memorized in Greek by tomorrow. Ha ha...oops.

My concert lineup for the next couple of months is AMAZING: Snow Patrol, Ok Go, Hellogoodbye, The Hush Sound, Paramore, The Almost, This Providence, Love Arcade, Third Eye Blind, The Upwelling, Ben Gibbard, The Fray... and these are just the shows I already have tickets for! Sweeeeet!

I am definitely thinking Econ will be my major. Fo sho. (I think.)

I bought new skinny jeans yesterday and they are fab. (This is really important. A very vital aspect of my life. Skinny jeans=intense love.)

I'm basically a happy camper. Things aren't perfect, but they could be a lot worse.

Love, Whitney

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raien — 2007-03-27T04:03:12-05:00

Today was a BEAUTIFUL day.

I officially have a tan line ;)

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raien — 2007-04-01T02:04:58-05:00

If I take Calc at the community college this summer, I'll have an 8am class 4 times a week (Mon-Thurs) from May 21st to July 12th.

I'm not sure if I can do that...

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raien — 2007-04-02T11:04:29-05:00

The weather was so nice for a few days...

...and now it's so shitty!

Bahhhh!

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raien — 2007-04-02T12:04:45-05:00

fuck the entire french language and all of its subsidiaries

Piercings!

raien — 2007-04-02T08:04:53-05:00

Sooooo here are some of my piercings...

Nostril, tongue, tragus, three lobes on each side (6 total), outer helix, conch...

It's kind of an addiction.

Oops :)

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raien — 2007-04-03T02:04:32-05:00

I have a research paper due tomorrow at 4:00.

I haven't even read the novel, let alone done the research.

I am fucked.

I *hate* my first-year English class.

fuckthisshit

Vincent

raien — 2007-04-03T02:04:11-05:00

I bought a bonsai tree today.

He's a Ponytail Palm.

I named him Vincent. (Vincent is my best friend Matthew's middle name.)

My new goal in life: Don't kill Vincent.

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raien — 2007-04-04T12:04:40-05:00

Whhhhhhhyyyyyy.....

do I procrastinate so much?!

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raien — 2007-04-07T02:04:20-05:00

I’m from the quiet suburb of Annapolis, Maryland. I lived there my entire life until I left for college in the Big Apple. My mother is from England and my father is from Oklahoma. I wish I had more of a “multicultural” identity, but I’ve had to find my identity elsewhere. I’m intensely passionate about music, dance, and theatre and I’ve really tried to incorporate my love of the arts into my new life at Barnard.

I have one sibling- a little brother (but I suppose he’s not little anymore- he’s 15). I really love my family and I miss them so much now that I’m at college. I miss my dog a lot too. (I come from a long line of dog-obsessed individuals.) We do fun stuff together as a family- we’ve never really gone on relaxing beach vacations… we’re more prone to “hike 20 miles into the forest and get chased by bears” vacations. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Speaking of vacations, I love to travel. I know that everyone says they love to travel, but it’s one of the most important parts of my life. I think journeys are very important- I’d rather spend a week driving to California than take a plane. Why fly over a beautiful country when you can take your time and see new things along the way? So far, I’ve been to England, France, the Bahamas, Belize, and most of the United States. I’ve really explored these countries; I’ve spent a lot of time outside of the major cities, seeing places that most tourists never bother to see. I love Yellowstone National Park and the south of France. My next trip: hopefully Thailand or Italy.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Barnard, but occasionally I feel like I might be happier at another school. It’s taken me a little while to adjust and I was pretty homesick first semester. I guess everyone feels that way sometimes, but I think I have a lot more insight into my own identity now than I did a year ago. That’s good, though. Maybe I would choose a school differently now, but maybe not. I have no regrets. I’ve made some amazing friends here and learned a lot (not just inside the classroom). And it is pretty fabulous to be in New York City.

When I left high school, I thought I would be an English or History major- something in the humanities. I’ve always loved to write and I’ve always loved to learn about the past. I never would have guessed that I would fall in love with economics. I really enjoy it- it’s fascinating to me. Math was never my strongest subject, but now that I can apply it to economics and the world around me I’m beginning to get used to it- I might even go as far as to say that I like it!

Now I want to be involved in business- I’m not sure how, but I know I’ll figure it out. There are just so many possible fields to get into and I’m in no rush to decide. I’d like to do something incredible right after college- I’ve been seriously considering serving in the Peace Corps.

As for now, I’m trying to stay busy. I’m involved in First-Year Reach-Out (a civic engagement/community service program), the Emerging Leaders Program (a leadership organization for freshmen), the Columbia newspaper (I write for Arts & Entertainment), and Alpha Delta Phi (a literary society). The ADP members have kind of become my replacement family and it’s great to have so many friends with common interests. Next year, I’ll be one of eleven members of the Civic Engagement House, a program where Barnard students live together and explore community issues and politics in New York City. I’m also applying to be a Well-Woman peer educator and a committee member for McAC (an organization that plans events for students).

On a Friday night, you might find me at a Broadway show or listening to someone play guitar at the ADP house. Sometimes I stay in the dorms and just talk with my friends. I’m really social and I love deep conversations- the kind of conversations that most people are hesitant to start. It never hurts to discuss the things that we are most afraid of. (What really happens when we die? Is capitalism really working? What about global warming? How does race define us? Can they make financial aid work for everyone?)

One day, I’m sure I’ll find some answers. I’ll figure out exactly what to do with my life and maybe I’ll change the world. Until then, I’m in no hurry. I’ll just keep asking questions.

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raien — 2007-04-07T06:04:22-05:00

I discovered a new talent!

I am ace at rolling blunts.

Who knew?

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raien — 2007-04-08T08:04:39-05:00

I have a lot of work to do.

But I am too too too too too tired.

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raien — 2007-04-10T12:04:58-05:00

just one half of a superbly rolled joint...

...and I am ~~railed~~

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raien — 2007-04-12T02:04:56-05:00

I went to the vending machines in the basement and bought a pack of Twizzlers. I thought it was a 5-pack.

I get up to my room...open it...and it's a 10-pack!

best. moment. of. my. life.

blazed

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raien — 2007-04-13T01:04:26-05:00

Sooo I had my job interview today for the Supervisor position at work.

I think it went pretty well, but three other callers have also applied for the position.

And the process isn't anywhere near finished- I have a problem solving set that I'm working on now (six possible workplace scenarios that I have to develop solutions for) and then next week, each of the four applicants have to run a "practice shift" where they serve as the supervisor.

I don't think we find out the final decision until April 22nd. (Which I guess isn't really that far away, but it seems like a long time.)

If I get the job, I'll be making $15 per hour. Plus, it will look really good on a resume to have a Supervisor position, especially if I keep the job for a year or more.

And I'll be working between 15 and 20 hours per week (I only work 9 now), which is $225 to $300 per week.

Pretty sweet.

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raien — 2007-04-14T07:04:13-05:00

I hate it when people (mostly high school girls and some college girls who had no right to graduate high school in the first place) take pictures at parties...and in every picture is a beer can, a shot glass, or a bottle of liquor clutched tightly against their faces.

It's like....
Ok, so we know you're at party with alcohol.
Cool.
Ok, so fine. I get it. You're Cool.
Really cool...
Because you have alcohol...
Ok, keep trying to prove you're cool.
Right.

And that's what it is.

I mean, when the person in the picture is holding a beer, or if there are bottles on the counter, that's fine. It becomes a problem when some container of booze is the main focus of every picture!

Gahhhh!

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raien — 2007-04-15T03:04:44-05:00

I have so much work to do.

So so so so so much.

This fucking sucks.

And the weather is disgusting.

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raien — 2007-04-16T02:04:54-05:00

21 students killed at Virginia Tech.

Biggest school shooting in US History.

FUCK.

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raien — 2007-04-16T11:04:08-05:00

Academically,

I am FUCKED.

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raien — 2007-04-23T06:04:00-05:00

I didn't get a position as a Well Woman Peer Educator :(

I'm also applying to be Sophomore Class Rep, but I'm not sure if the council even got my application (I just got an email saying my file didn't open...)

Last night I went to the worst concert EVER

And, to top it off, here's my week:

Tuesday: Stat quiz and two homework assignments due. Really really need to study. Also, English research paper due- have not done it yet!!!

Wednesday: French quiz... I don't speak French! I need a C in the class! 10am nutritionist appointment, then a therapy session at 3pm... no time for this!

Thursday: 8am Civic Engagement House meeting (8am!!!!)

Friday: Walking tour of Harlem, then ADP initiation test... there is sooo much to learn for this! Fuck!

Then finals start in like a week! Ahhhhh!!!

balls balls balls

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raien — 2007-04-24T01:04:42-05:00

I got the position as Sophomore Class Rep

And I got the position as a Supervisor at the Calling Center

But... this paper... not so good

why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.
why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.
why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.
why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.
why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.
why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.
why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.
why.am.i.so.overwhelmed.

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raien — 2007-04-24T05:04:58-05:00

Who loves all nighters?

I know I sure as hell do.

Yup, I love staying up all night and feeling like shit for the next couple of days.

Oh yeah, I love it.

Love love love.

That's what I'm feeling right now.

Love. Exactly.

(But at least the paper is coming along...)

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raien — 2007-04-25T09:04:36-05:00

Uhhhh so I didn't get the Class Rep position...

Thanks SGA, for being total fuck ups and sending out duplicate emails.

Now I have NOTHING for next year.

Fuck Barnard.

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raien — 2007-04-27T01:04:02-05:00

my mind is kindo fo fuzzy and i am nit su e=r

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haiku
so hurt o write "haiku:ikg"

haiku

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raien — 2007-04-28T04:04:10-05:00

I am officially a member of the Alpha Delta Phi.

Sweet ass.

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raien — 2007-05-04T01:05:30-05:00

In my opinion, when attending a semi-formal/formal event, one should wear a funky, trendy dress and a classic, elegant hairstyle, rather than a classic, elegant dress and a funky, trendy hairstyle.

The contrast is very pleasing.

This is only my opinion.

(I think my prom attire from last year demonstrates this idea.)

xoxo Whitney

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raien — 2007-05-04T03:05:45-05:00

A huge part of me wants to stay in New York this summer...

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raien — 2007-05-05T02:05:18-05:00

I am going on a road trip this summer.

My journey will be logged on Mindsay.

It is going to be so fucking sweet.

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raien — 2007-05-06T10:05:09-05:00

ECON exam tomorrow, 4-7pm

STAT exam Tuesday, 9am-12pm

POL THEORY exam Tuesday, 1-4pm

Fuck. I am not doing so hot.

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raien — 2007-05-07T10:05:20-05:00

In 29 Hours I Will Be Done With Exams! (And Done With My First Year Of College!)

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raien — 2007-05-07T01:05:45-05:00

27 hours!

[oh.dear]

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raien — 2007-05-07T03:05:39-05:00

25 hours!

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raien — 2007-05-07T08:05:15-05:00

Sadly, Econ kicked my ass.

Damn.

20 hours left...

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raien — 2007-05-08T12:05:29-05:00

Stat kicked my ass.

This is not good.

Just one more.

One more.

I'll be done...in...three...hours...

Stressed to the max,
Whitney

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raien — 2007-05-08T04:05:09-05:00

I am doneeeeee.

Thank God.

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raien — 2007-05-08T11:05:38-05:00

Political theory was actually better than expected.

So, cool.

But the rest of them....
I guess I'll find out soon!

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raien — 2007-05-13T02:05:33-05:00

I don't think I can stay at home this summer...

I can't live with my parents anymore.

It's just too much.

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raien — 2007-05-15T11:05:26-05:00

I did some body modifying today ;)

I changed the stud in my nose to a ring

I put a shorter bar in my tongue

I gauged the first lobe holes in each of my ears from a 20 to a 14 (My goal is to reach a 6 gauge...eventually)

Yay!

Future (hopefully near future...once I'm working and earning money) mods: Septum and suicide in my left ear

Sweeeet ass

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raien — 2007-05-16T11:05:53-05:00

My grades from this semester are the worst grades I've ever had in my life.

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raien — 2007-05-16T02:05:08-05:00

First good news in a while:

I got my job back full time at the hotel.

Sweet.

I was really afraid I'd only get 3 or 4 shifts per week.

This is good.

It means I won't be so broke.

(Maybe I'll get a job at a restaurant/bar one night a week so I can save the rest of my money and just spend the tips I earn.)

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raien — 2007-05-22T11:05:54-05:00

I don't mind having a job... as long as I'm getting paid :)

Working at the hotel is really easy and the shifts are eight hours long, so I can make about $400 a week after taxes if I work full time.

I desperately need to replenish my savings account.

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raien — 2007-05-30T01:05:37-05:00

I'm only working 22 hours at the hotel this week... I was only working for 8 hours (2 shifts), but I told my boss I had to have more hours.

I think I'm going to apply for a job at Hot Topic :X

The store's image has changed a lot. It's much less... scary now.

We'll see I guess. If the pay is really awful I won't take it.

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raien — 2007-06-01T01:06:02-05:00

Whitney is going to the 20th Annual Cannabis Cup in Amsterdam.

She has a Judge's pass.

And she's fucking psyched.

Eep! I've been tagged!

raien — 2007-06-05T08:06:54-05:00

I was tagged by wylddaze

Instructions: Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you (him/herself?). People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog. No tagbacks.

Here are six weird things about me...

1. My second toe is about half an inch longer than my first toe. (On both feet.)

2. I'm not a picky eater at all, but I hate mushrooms and olives.

3. I have thirteen body piercings.

4. I love, love, love, love chicken salad. (But I prefer it with only a little bit of mayo and big chunks of chicken- Whole Foods has the best. I am really eager to try Wendy's new Chicken Salad Frescata sandwich. I hope it's good...)

5. I smoke pot every day. (I don't know if that's weird or not.)

6. I travel internationally a lot, but I've never been to Canada.

I had a really hard time thinking of six weird things. Maybe I'm not that weird?

Or maybe my brain is just slow at 9am.

Yup. I bet that's it.

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raien — 2007-06-07T12:06:59-05:00

I would like to marry Shaun White.

That is all.

I am bored bored bored at work.

raien — 2007-06-07T07:06:39-05:00

(Mercilessly blognapped from logicgurl)

01. Who's #1 on your top 8?
I don't have a MySpace.

02. Have you ever smoked?
Cigarettes or weed? I don't smoke cigarettes... but I do smoke pot... every day... more or less... usually more :)

03. Do you own a gun?
No. No. No.

05. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Yeah... I have to step on a scale :(

06. What do you think of hot dogs?
They're ok occasionally. Not my favorite.

07. What's your favorite Christmas song?
Jingle Bells, maybe? I don't know if I have a favorite.

08. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
I love tea. Coffee is good too.

09. Can you do push ups?
Yes... but I try to avoid it.

10. Is your bathroom clean?
Yes.

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
All thirteen of the rings and studs that I have pierced my body with ;)

12. Do you take pain killers?
No.

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
I'm not so good at luring the opposite sex.

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
No.

15. What's your name?
Whitney.

16. Middle Name?
Carol. (I also have an "M". Whitney Carol M Hoot. The "M" was put there for my grandparents' last name, Maile. My mum is an only child and she is the last member of the Maile family.)

17. Name 3 things you're thinking about at this exact moment?
1) I really, really need to lose weight. The beach will not be fun next week.

2) I want to get my ears gauged tomorrow... but I desperately need to come up with some funds.

3) Do I need to transfer to Cornell to get a degree in hotel management or should I just stay at Barnard and get my liberal arts degree?

18. Name the last 2 things you have bought.
A swimsuit (a one-piece...now I'm too fat for a bikini) and a tank of gas.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
Diet Pepsi, Diet Dr. Pepper, Diet Moutain Dew.

22. Current worry?
Being fat for the rest of my life.

23. Current hate?
I hate being broke!

24. Favorite places to be?
New York City or sitting on Andrew's porch.

25. How did you bring in the New Year?
I was at Andrew's house... rolling my nuts off on three hits of Ecstasy... and I kept flashing everyone. Oi.

26. Where would you like to go?
To Amsterdam for the Cannabis Cup... and I'm going!

27. Do you own slippers??
Yes, but I never wear them.

28. What shirt are you wearing?
A blue plaid button-up and a black suit jacket... my work uniform.

30. Favorite color(s)?
Yellow!

31. Would you be a pirate?
I don't really like stealing...or killing people...so probably not. But I bet it would be a thrill.

32. Are you gay?
No.

33. Do you sing in the shower?
Rarely. I dance when I'm sitting in the car listening to music though.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Trolls... I saw the movie "Trolls" when I was like four and for the longest time I thought a troll was going to grab me as I got into bed... so I always took a running-jump.

35. What's in your pockets right now?
A list of movies I want to see and a list of classes I might take next semester. What can I say, I like lists.

37. Best bed sheets as a child?
I had Beatrice Potter sheets... they were pink and featured Peter Rabbit and his friends.

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
Broken tail bone, I guess.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
Two. One in the Media Room and a tiny one in the home gym. My parents aren't big on television.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
Probably Molly.

42. Who is your most silent friend?
Definitely Brent.

43. Does someone have a crush on you?

I don't think so. Not really.

45. What is your favorite book?
I love, love, love The Cider House Rules by John Irving.

46. What is your favorite candy?
I like most candy... I love Swedish Fish and Cadbury chocolate.

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
I have no clue. Maybe I'll never get married. Who knows.

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Ummm... I have no idea.

49. What were you doing @ 11 PM last night?
Jump-starting my car, lol.

50. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
My covers stayed on the bed. Yay!

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raien — 2007-06-07T10:06:58-05:00

The piercings I want:

Stretch my lobes to a 6g

Septum

Something on my left ear to balance it... maybe a rook (or if I'm adventurous, a suicide)

Sternum (I really need to think about this...the rejection rate is high...)

Maybe another lobe piercing (this would be my fourth)

The tattoos I want:

Large owl on my left shoulder

Maryland crab on my lower back/right butt cheek

"In wildness is the preservation of the world" on my right foot

Now I just need some $$$$$$

Bored at work [again]

raien — 2007-06-08T09:06:23-05:00

Blognapped from wylddaze

If you get more than 30 you're paranoid.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.
I Fear...

[x] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[x] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends/spouse's dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends/spouse's mom
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] diseases
[ ] snakes
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] being blind
[ ] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] monsters under my bed
[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] veins
[ ] dinosaurs if they were alive (but they're not...so how is this relevant?)
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] sex

Total: 7

I guess I'm fearless?

Sweet.

On the downside, I have a bandaid on my left middle finger because I cut myself why shaving this morning and it's making it very difficult to type.

[Note: I was not shaving my finger...I was shaving my legs. Only I could cut my finger while trying to shave my legs...]

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raien — 2007-06-09T01:06:48-05:00

I am dyeing my hair red [as we speak]

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raien — 2007-06-11T07:06:07-05:00

I am tired.

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raien — 2007-06-16T02:06:47-05:00

Just got back from beach week.

I am burnt out.

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raien — 2007-06-24T04:06:50-05:00

Here's a brief showcase of my new (reddish) hair and a few of my piercings... I've been promising to post pics for ages. Also, I've included a couple of other pics, just for my (and/or your) amusement.

1. Me, bored at work.

2. Me...bored at work.

3. Me...stoned.

4. At the Met, pretending to be a fish.

5. Kyle's prom

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raien — 2007-06-26T12:06:39-05:00

I love having long hair!

I'm really happy with my hair right now, which is unusual because I normally don't like it.

I need a trim though.

Maybe I can get my mommy to pay for it :)

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raien — 2007-06-26T01:06:41-05:00

I love my new layout ;)

Just some random pics of me

raien — 2007-06-26T01:06:28-05:00

I reposted these as pic files instead of just inserting them into the entry because they were all stretched out... so sorry if you've seen them already.

I posted a couple other ones, just in case ;)

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raien — 2007-06-29T02:06:27-05:00

I think I am going to get a tattoo of the outline of the state of Maryland... I have so much Maryland pride. It's the best state EVER. Word.

I got drunk tonight. Tighttttttt. I never drink..... so it was funnnnn.

Also, OK Go and The Fray were so fucking tight.

But greasy food make my tummy hurt :(

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raien — 2007-07-01T07:07:04-05:00

It's my birrrrrthday!

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raien — 2007-07-03T01:07:25-05:00

I mercilessly blognapped this quiz from logicgurl

1.ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I have this wide, flat scar on the underside of my left wrist... I was tubing a few years ago and I wiped out rather dramatically. My arm hit the rope and I got awful, awful rope burn. It's a sweet scar though.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
A mural with fairies, cats, birds, scenery, etc. My bulletin board, some pictures... The mural is kind of childish (it was painted when I was about 8), but I can't imagine painting over it...

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Very boring. It's not fancy. I think it's Motorola. It's grey.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?

Good music.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
About 1:00am on July 1, 1988.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To not be broke. I'm constantly worried about money.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?

My college friends. Being in love.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Spring.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?

Sometimes, especially at the mall.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?

Yeah, I'm really scared of the dark. I don't know why. It's pretty irrational.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?

Coco Mademoiselle by Chanel... it's great.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?

If I had to pick? Probably dark brown and curly.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?

I have no idea. Hopefully somewhere fun.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?

Coffee. I don't drink it everyday, but I do like it.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Hmmm...if calories didn't count? I would eat the Reese's peanut butter ice cream in the freezer. It's amazing. But I'm on a diet, so nice ice cream for me. Sucks.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?

My (ex)best friend Lauren.

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?

No. I speak a little French. I really like the idea of speaking a foreign language, but I'm not really willing to put in the effort.

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?

I like everybody!

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?

Nah.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?

Ummm... I really like Urban Outfitters and Anthropologie. But I don't have a favorite. I'll wear anything that looks good and feels good.

27. WHAT IS ONE OF YOUR DREAMS?

Last night I dreamed that I tamed the kittens living in my shed. There really are kittens living in my shed, but I don't think I will ever be able to tame them.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?

Tell them, straight-up. No bull shit. Even if you know that you mean a lot to someone, it makes a huge difference to actually hear it. Oh, and when you say it, you have to really mean it.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?

Maybe Kyle. Or Andrew.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?

Girls. And people who are irresponsible.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?

Yeah, sure. That was funny back in middle school, I think. I have done some drunk/high dialing though.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?

I was at my pottery class... which is fucking great, by the way.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Liposuction, I guess. If I could afford it. As long as plastic surgery turns out well, then there's no problem, but I sure as fuck don't want to end up looking like Tara Reid.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?

Because I haven't posted a blog in a long time.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?

I don't know. Nothing really.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?

I'd smoke pot instead. Oh wait... I already do that. Sweet. I really don't drink very often. I could live without it.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?

None. Zero. Absolutely no children, please.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
What an odd question... I don't have a favorite.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?

I don't really like lunch meat. I do like pepperoni though. And that can be gooooood on a sammich.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?

Yes. Snacking, procrastinating, wasting time...

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

Yeah. I think I'm pretty cool.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?

I rarely get angry. Anger=Drama and I am drama-free.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?

I had a home-made stuffed rabbit named Violet and a turquoise hippo named Ruthie. I carried them around until they fell apart.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Uh...no. Why, no I don't. Why would I use sarcasm? It's not like it's one of the greatest humor techniques in the English language or anything....

(Get it?)

73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?

Four, I think. They want to take them out, but they don't hurt so I'm in no rush.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

The breeze outside. And I can hear an airplane flying overhead.

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?

A wrap with artichoke hearts and sprouts and a bunch of grapes.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?

Smile. I really value a good smile.

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?

Where Is My Mind by the Pixies

88. SIBLINGS?

One younger brother. He's 15.

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
I fucking love it.

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?

Nothing right now... I don't read much anymore :( But I'm about to start Ender's Game. I got it for my birthday and I've heard good things.

Another survey...

raien — 2007-07-03T02:07:12-05:00

Blognapped from callie69

I've had 108 out of 133 life experiences.

Level 1
( ) I had an asthma attack
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Drank Alcohol
(x) Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Been Fired

( ) Been In A Fist Fight
(x) Snuck Out Of A Parent's House

total: 7

Level 2
(x) Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
(x) Been Arrested/Seen Someone You Know Get Arrested
( ) Made Out With A Stranger
(x) Gone Out On A Blind Date (group dates)
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
(x) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

total: 14

Level 3
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
(x) Been Mosh Pitting
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love(d)or Lust(ed) Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Been in a BAD relationship

total: 22

Level 4
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone Puddle Jumping
(x) Played Dress Up
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game

total: 32

Level 5
(x) Been Lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/School
(x) Used A Fake / Someone Else's ID
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise
( ) Felt An Earthquake
(x) Kissed A Snake
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Robbed Someone
(x) Been Misunderstood

total: 39

Level 6
( ) Pet A Deer

(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended
( ) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car/ Motorcycle Accident
(x) Had / Have Braces
(x) Liked a guy/girl with a girl/boyfriend
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Had deja vu
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Hated The Way You Look

total: 48

Level 7
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep

total: 56

Level 8
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't

(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe

total: 65

Level 9
(x) Watched The Sun Set With Someone You Care / Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach
(x) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge

total: 72

Level 10
( ) Screamed "bwomp" In Class
(x) Swam With Dolphins
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole / Freezer/Ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x)Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) Stayed Up All Night

total: 78

Level 11
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree

(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had / Been In A Tree House
(x) Have been/Are scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
( ) Seen a Ghost
(x) Have/Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes or Flip Flops
(x) Gone streaking
( ) Been to/Visited Someone At a Jail
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On

Total: 85

Level 12
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
(x) Caught A Fish
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Get Stung By a Bee
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
(x) Mooned / Flashed Someone
(x) Had someone Moon / Flash You

total: 95

Level 13
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) Slept Naked
(x) French braided someones hair or tried to
(x) Gone Skinny Dippin In A pool (hot tub?)
( ) gotten kicked out of your house
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Been Scuba-Diving / Snorkeling

total: 102

Level 14
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
( ) Been shot at with a real gun
( ) Flattened someone’s tires
(x) Drove in a car until the gas light came on
(x) Got five dollars or less and bought something

Total: 108 Life Experiences

Another survey...

raien — 2007-07-04T11:07:26-05:00

Borrowed from logicgurl

1. How old will you be in 12 months?
20 years old....hmmm. Wow. This is my last year as a teenager!
2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
Definitely, definitely not.
3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
My trip to Belize and going back to college.
4. Who was the last person you called?
My manager.
5. Who was the last person to call you?
My assistant manager.
6. Do you prefer to call or text?
Depends. Usually I like to call, but if I don't want to talk, I'll text.
7. Do you have any pets?
A cat, a rabitt, and a dog. But my only pet during the school year is my bonsai tree, Vincent.
8. What were you doing at 12am last night?
On my way to a party.
9. Parents seperated/divorced/married
Still happily married, as far as I know.

10. When is the last time you saw your dad?
Right before I left for work at like 2:30pm.

11. What happened at 11:00a.m.?
I was still asleep.
12. How many states have you visited?
Ummm... a lot. I am not going to count.

13. How many cities/towns have you lived in?
Three- Birmingham, England; New York, NY; and Annapolis, MD.
14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
I like my flats... I don't wear socks with them.
15. Are you a social person?
I like to hang out with my friends. But I generally don't like to mingle with strangers.
16. What was the last thing you ate?
A chicken wrap and celery sticks.
17. Favorite ice cream?
Any kind. I really like peanut butter and strawberry (but not together).
18. What is your favorite dessert?
Ummmm. Something yummy.
19. What is your favorite TV show?
I don't watch much TV. I like CSI, Law and Order SVU, That 70s Show, Family Guy, Weeds, and the Simpsons. But I just watch whatever's on.
20. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Anything. I like unique combos.
21. Do you like coffee?
Yes.
22. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
Lately, 8-10. I've been drinking more because it's so healthy.
23. What do you drink in the morning?
Water.
24. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
Well I have a tongue ring. So whenever I kiss there's a tongue ring involved. And as far as I'm concerned, the more the merrier.
25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
In my bed I sleep on the side closest to the door.
26. Do you know how to play poker?
Yes.
27. Do you like to cuddle?
Sometimes. I'm not really touchy-feely.
28. Any Plans for this weekend?
Going to NYC for Live Earth! Woo hoo!
29. Do you eat out or at home more often?
I eat out more... it's so expensice though.
32. Would you ever get your nipples pierced?
Ha ha. Been there, done that, have them under the t-shirt :)
34. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
Nope.
35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
The ocean.
36. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
Either. Just not the middle...
37. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Nope.
38. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?

Piercings? Clothes? Food? Going out? Travelling? Concert tickets? I spend my money on whatever I want to spend it on. I don't have a favorite.
39. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
Lots. All of my piercings and a hemp necklace.
40. Do you speak any other language?
Nope.
41. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes.
42. Who is the funniest person you know?
Andrew.
43. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Sometimes.
44. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
A song by Hellogoodbye.
45. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
My mom probably does.
46. What is the color of your bedroom walls?
Red.
47. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
Yes.
48. Are you crushing on someone right now?
I'm always crushing on somebody. Isn't everybody?
49. Are you currently in a relationship?
Nope.
50. Do you currently hate someone?
Nope.

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raien — 2007-07-08T08:07:49-05:00

Live Earth was AMAZING.

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raien — 2007-07-13T12:07:36-05:00

I just got paiiiiid.

I am trying to rebuild my savings account.

Slowly but surely.

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raien — 2007-07-16T11:07:32-05:00

I desperately need a hair cut.

But I don't want to pay for an expensive one.

And I'm freaked out by cheap cuts.

So that's my dilemma.

Whitnasty and DeVore

raien — 2007-07-20T12:07:08-05:00

Andrew DeVore is one of my favorite people. I would probably marry him if he asked me.

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raien — 2007-07-22T06:07:21-05:00

I am so so so bored at work. So bored. I want to go home. But I'm stuck here for 4.5 more hours. My shift isn't even half over! Balls. And I was supposed to go out to lunch with a friend this morning, but I never got a hold of her. I called her a couple of times and put off going to the gym, so I ended up not getting lunch or a workout. Poo. I am not in a good mood.

But my new 8g lobes are looking mighty sexy, if I do say so myself.

Instead of doing work, because there's really none to do, I've been shopping online, looking for decor for my new apartment. I am super psyched. I already bought this sweet wall tapestry and a throw for my bed. I think I'm going to go ahead and use my white comforter, turquioise sheets, and salmon towels from last year. I hope that I have some time next weekend to do some yard sale hunting. I'm looking for some lamps, art, picture frames, throw pillows, a mirror, etc. I think I might buy some of those Chinese paper lanterns or a decorative chandelier. I need kitchen stuff too. Fun fun fun! I really like shopping for home stuff. And I'm really excited to have such a tight place next year... Hopefully the other girls in my suite will be tight.

I can't believe that I have to work for two more straight days, but then at least I get three days off. I have a shitload of stuff to do though. On Wednesday I think I'm going to do some painting in the basement, then it'll be time for wing night. On Thursday my mum offered to take me to a business conference and she'll pay me for the whole day. Then on Friday I think I'll go to Towson (finally) to see if I can get rid of any of my junk at that consignment store. So much for my mini vacation. I thought about going out of town for a couple of days, but it doesn't look like that will be happening. Oh well. At least I will get some shit done. And earn some money.

My Ideal Man

raien — 2007-07-24T03:07:33-05:00

Now, I don't want you to get the wrong idea. I don't want you to think that I'm super picky or shallow or anything like that. I'm just saying, if I could pick all of the characteristics of my ideal man, these would be them. I could certainly be (and have been) happy with varying men, but if I had the opportunity to choose, this is how I would build my ideal man:

Tall, but not too tall. Between 6' and 6'2 is ideal. I want to be able to wear stilettos and still be shorter (which is a feat because I'm 5'8), but I don't want to have to strain on my tiptoes for a kiss.

Dark brown hair, blue or green eyes. Not too pale in the winter, and tan in the summer (for when we go on our hot beach vacations).

Nice, straight, white teeth. This is important. After years of braces, a smile is one of the first things I notice on a person.

Not super skinny, but not overweight either. Hopefully a healthy eater and even better, a gym-goer.

Likes nature and the outdoors but loves New York City too. Wants to go camping with me, but also wants to people watch on busy streets.

Must like to walk.

Has a good sense of humor, a little sarcastic and a little silly. Must like to laugh.

Intelligent. This is key. He doesn't need a degree from a fancy school and he doesn't have to be a millionaire, but he has to have goals.

Be employed. I won't date anyone over the age of 20 who's not in school and is still waiting tables. I have nothing against waiters, but it's not a stable job, in my opinion.

Is capable of saving money. I don't want to be rich, but I want to be comfortable.

This isn't a requirement, but I would love my ideal man to be musically inclined.

Even if not a musician, I'd like him to be artistic.

Loves museums and culture.

Likes to travel.

Interested in social issues, especially the environment.

~~Likes~~ Loves Indian food.

Is willing to try new foods/go to weird restarants with me.

Can cook at least a few dishes. I am perfectly happy with my role as a woman (ie. I will usually cook, clean, buy groceries, etc.), but I don't want to get stuck doing everything.

Will kill scary bugs.

Accepts that most of my friends will be guys.

I understand that he will want to hang out with his friends and have guys nights, but I bet I will like his friends and maybe he could let me hang out with them sometimes too.

Likes baseball and will teach me about it and take me to games.

Takes me out to dinner sometimes, but also lets me pay sometimes. I'm all for an equal partnership.

Wants to go out sometimes, but also likes to get take-out, sit on the couch, and watch a movie.

Must be capable of making decisions. Everything from where we go on vacation to where we live to what we'll eat for dinner. Apathy drives me nuts.

At the same time, he must be open to compromise.

Must love pets! This is important. Ideally he will like cats and dogs. I would like at least one of each.

Fun in bed. A little kinky. Willing to throw me against a wall sometimes. (I like it a little rough!)

He has to find me sexy. He doesn't have to say it all the time, but once in a while would be nice.

Has cool parents. I don't want his mother to hate me for stealing her precious baby.

Smokes pot and is willing to experiment with other drugs, but doesn't let drugs get in the way of his job and other obligations.

I don't mind if he drinks, but he can't expect me to drink all the time. (I'm not a big drinker.)

It would be a plus if he has a couple of tattoos or piercings.

Am I unreasonable?

Well, I'm not looking for the ideal guy, but someone close would do nicely :)

I'm bored at work.

raien — 2007-07-24T04:07:39-05:00

Mercilessly blognapped from logicgurl

100 Facts About You

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
Umm. Kind of. But it's awkward. I'd rather not discuss it.
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
A year and a couple of months.
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
Kyle got me a book and flowers for my birthday.
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
Oh my god yes. Mine broke not long ago :(
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
About 1:00 today. I go to the gym everyday.
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
Gas, clothes, home stuff for my NYC apartment, drugs.
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
Some craisins and brie.

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Definitely the smile.
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
I don't have a favorite- I like lots of songs.
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
Manhattan and Annapolis, MD
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTEND(ED):
South River High School
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
Verizon
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
Hmmm... I like a lot of stores... Somewhere with nice clothes that aren't super expensive.
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
I worked at the Ren Fest for three seasons. Ginger Cove for about 9 months. Total months at the hotel? I guess about 7 and counting.
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?:
Yeah, I'm sure. I like Yatzee.
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
No.
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED?:
My cousin's wedding. I think I was in 11th grade.
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY?:
Andrew
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND?:
I saw Andrew like a week ago and I haven't seen Matt in about a month but he comes home TODAY.
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT?:
Chick Fila or if you count Chipotle as food, then it's definitely Chipotle.
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD?:
"I'm fucking done with her. I never want to talk to her again." -Jeff refering to Emily, whom he was back in bed with in a matter of days
22. MULTIPLE EARRINGS OR SINGLE HOLES?:
Lots of earrings. Lots of piercings.
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
I really like getting falafel at a hookah bar.
24. CAN YOU COOK?:
Ummm. Sure.
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
A 1996 Oldsmobile Bravada. His name is Clifford.
26. BEST KISSER?:
No idea. Can't remember.
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
Like a week ago when I found out that both of my parents had betrayed me and really fucked me over.
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS?:
Mushrooms. I don't like olives either.
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?:
Umm. I don't know.
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?:
My love handles. My fat in general.
31. ARBY'S OR BURGER KING?:
Don't like either. I'd rather have Wendy's. Or White Castle.
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
16 hours.
33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
Pulp Fiction and Blow.
34. CAN YOU SING?:
I'm not bad.
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?:
The Fray and OK Go. Marilym Manson next week!
36. LAST KISS?:
I guess with Kyle.
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED?:
I don't rent movies very often. So I can't remember.
38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT?:
My sunglasses.
39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?:
The south of France. Belize is lovely too. (I leave in less than two weeks!)
40. DO YOU LOVE "PAGE 2" AT GOOFYAUCTIONS.COM?

I have no idea what that is.
41. ARE YOU FANS OF RICE CAKES?:
Yes! I like the mini ones too.
42. ESPN OR ESPN2?:
Pass on both.
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Either.
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
Mitch Hedberg!!!
45. DO YOU SMOKE?
Cigarettes? Nope. Weed? Uh, yes.
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
With.
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
Nobody. But that's ok.
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
Mine didn't.
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
Never. Knock on wood.
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
Oh yum both. And waffles too.
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
Yes.
52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
I like feta and spinach omelettes. So friggin good.
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
No. I believe in coincidence.
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Jeff Thomas.
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
Probably Andrew.
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?:
"Dear Whitnasty, I learned how to roll great jointskis!"
57. CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF WITH NIPPLE RINGS?:
Umm, yes, been there done that, they're under my t-shirt.
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
One or two. I'm really not picky.
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
My work uniform.
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC?
STOP! In the name of love, before you break my heart! (I don't know why that just popped into my head.)
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
Any kind. Again, not picky.
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
Yes. Not especially well, but I have my good moments.
63. CAN YOU SWIM?:
Yes. I was on a swim team for a long time.
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
Awww I love all ice cream. I had some cherry garcia with chocolate shell last night and it was AMAZING.
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?:
Ummm, if I'm lost then I guess so.
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?:
I have really big feet.
67. ARE YOU A FAN OF TATTOOS?:
Yes. I want one sooo bad. Coming soon.
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
Yes.
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
Autumn.
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?:
I don't know. Too stoned to remember.
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?:
10:00am.... 45 minutes later than I was supposed to.
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
Nothing. I dislike winter. But there aren't any mosquitos, so I guess that's good.
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
No tickets yet. Knock on wood.
74. JESUS?:
Umm. Ok. Who's he?
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
I think maybe Bug Eyes. He was a fish. He had bug-eyes.
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
Whatev.
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?:
Working. Potentially taking a trip to NJ to get White Castle.
78. BIRTHDATE?:
3July 1st. Canada Day!
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE?:

Some sort of leader in the non-profit sector.
80. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:

Nope.
81. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
When I was born.
82. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
Ummm. I wish my grandparents were alive. I'd like to see them...
83. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
Lots. I have a lot of piercings.
84. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
Sit at the front desk. Be bored. Maybe read.
85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
Nope.
86. CEREALs OR POP-TARTS?:
God I love poptarts. But I don't eat them. I like cereal.
87. ARE YOU SMILING?:
No. My head hurts.
88. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
Just on my sailboat. We went to the Bahamas and lived on our boat.

89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:
Not really.
90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?:
Prague maybe. Or Thailand. Or India.
91. DO YOU LIKE BEAN BURRITOS?:
Nah.
92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
Fuck no.
93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
Kind of, but I doubt anything will come of it.
94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
Umm I don't know.
95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
I have a few. I need a new one.
96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?:
September.
97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
Yes.
98. ANY PLANS FOR A NEW PIERCING THIS YEAR?:
I'm sure. I need another one on my left ear. I'm stretching my lobes too.
99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
Nope.
100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
Nope.

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raien — 2007-08-04T12:08:19-05:00

belize

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raien — 2007-08-26T09:08:09-05:00

I've been neglecting this blog a little, which is bad because I've had it for years and I want to keep it going. Here are a few updates to begin with...

I got a tattoo! I got a darwin fish on my foot. It's hot. I love it. I'll take a pic and post it.

Belize was so beautiful. Scuba diving is basically the greatest thing in the world. I love love love it. My family is fucking nuts though. They're really crazy.

I move in to school on Tuesday! Yay yay yay! I am really, really excited to see all of my friends from school. And I'm excited to set up my new apartment. But I will be a little sad to leave here. I'm going to miss my dog a lot.

Tonight is my last night of work at the hotel. At least until winter break. It's been a great summer job. I make pretty good money and my schedule is pretty flexible. And my coworkers are fab, which makes a huge difference.

I hooked up with Kyle the other night. I've decided that he's an absolute pig.

I've kind of reevaluated my friends. I've realized that there were some people I got close to who don't really mean anything to me... and there are some people who I lost touch with who really meant a lot to me. It's interesting, all these changes.

I think I'm going to major in Sociology. I think. I hope. I want to travel. I want to see the whole fucking world. I don't know quite how my degree will fit into that, but I'm hoping that the perfect opportunity will fall into my lap.

I stopped eating meat a couple of weeks ago. I don't feel like calling myself a vegetarian yet, because then people will ask how long I've been a vegetarian and when I say two weeks they won't take me seriously. But it's not something I'm just going to quit. I did it before, for a couple of years. But it's something I really want to do. So I will.

I went to the Renaissance Festival today. I got all dressed up and everything. I do miss that place. I had a lot of fun working there. I also had a lot of shitty times there, but it kind of balanced out.

I made quite a bit of money this summer. Not as much as I would have liked, but my spending and saving habits ahve really improved. Yay for being a starving college student!

Ok, well I'll post again soon.

xoxo

Whitney

My tattoo

raien — 2007-08-28T06:08:18-05:00

Here's a pic of my tattoo. Sorry it's kind of low quality; I took it with PhotoBooth.

I <3 it.

(And it looks better in person. It had just started to peel when I took this pic so it looks blurry. But it's really not.)

Yippee!

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raien — 2007-09-01T12:09:14-05:00

Ok... so my new apartment... is AMAZING. Absolutely amazing. It's friggin huge and beautiful and well lit and there's an amazing organic and natural foods store right around the corner... I'll post pics when I finish decorating.

Oh, and I'm getting a futon in my room! Woo hoo! I have space for a futon! (This is unheard of in college housing in NYC.)

Em, you have no excuse not to come visit now! ;)

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raien — 2007-09-03T11:09:14-05:00

I am incredibly happy right now. Incredibly. I'm back in the city that I love and I'm seeing all of the people I've missed this summer. My apartment is... perfect. My suitemates all seem wonderful. I am very, very excited for the upcoming school year. I just need to be a good student. I have to stop wasting my parents' money!

Speaking of money, I need to stop spending so much of it. Ever since I got to Manhattan, it seems like I've been doing nothing but swiping my credit card... My parents gave me $120 before they left. Gone. I took another $40 out of the bank. Gone. I've charged at least $50 to my credit card... Now these are things I need (well kind of), but I need to start working before I start spending so much money. I think what I'm going to do is this: I'll take $120 out of the bank at the beginning of the week. Then that's all the money I'll spend the whole week. That's it. No more. That's plenty! I shouldn't be spending that much! I'm going to save all of the additional money I make and put it straight into my savings account. I did sell a book on half.com today and I'm returning some stuff to Urban outfitters, so that should be another $60. But I still have to buy plane tickets for Amsterdam, textbooks, ADP dues...

I am very, very happy with the futon I got off of craigslist. I paid $100 for it and it's awesome. It folds out into a full-size bed and it's so so so comfy. I did order a new cover (in navy blue), so it brings the total to about $125. Not bad for a great piece of furniture....

I'm slowly decorating my room. It's beginning to look like someone lives here. Erin and I went on an adventure to Ikea today. There's a free shuttle from Port Authority to Ikea in Jersey on the weekends! I officially love that store. I bought three rugs, a set of coasters, a chair cushion, two table runners, tupperware, an oven mitt, two pot holders, an end table, stain for the table, and a trash can.... for $44! Plus, there's a 10% student discount, which is awesome.

Erin, Katie, Virginia, and I are taking a trip to the Target in the Bronx tomorrow. I had never been to a Target until about a year ago, but it is such a cool store! They have some awesome stuff. I just need a few plastic plates, wall hooks, a dish drainer, blah blah blah. There are a lot of things that the apartment in general needs (like the dish drainer) but I feel like I have already contributed a lot... I wish my other suitemates would buy some stuff. But if I see a need, I have to fix it. That's just my style. I'm not maternal. (Fuck that.) I'm just... a woman.

Maybe we'll hit up the Bronx Zoo tomorrow too... That would be fun. I've never been there. But it's really expensive. Like $14 to get in and more to ride the monorail and stuff. Bleh.

My tattoo is super peel-y. I've been using tons of lotion, but I'm really prone to dry skin anyway. There's a tiny section that looks like the tattoo artist missed it, I wonder if I can get it touched up? For free? I'll probably have to wait until the next time I'm in Annapolis. Or until the next time I get a tattoo...

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raien — 2007-09-04T09:09:22-05:00

Oh em gee my first class of the semester is in half an hour! I might not take this class though; I'm just checking it out. We'll see.

I'm actually kind of excited about classes starting. Shh, don't tell anyone!

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raien — 2007-09-05T11:09:18-05:00

Oooh man, I am such a borrring person! I had this guy over last night and I think I bored him to death. I can't tell what he thinks of me at all. I am so bad at reading people. I don't really see him and someone I would want to date, but I'd really like to hang out with him.

Bleh, fuck insecurity!

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raien — 2007-09-06T12:09:01-05:00

Bought my plane tickets tonight for Amsterdam.

SO FUCKING EXCITED!

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raien — 2007-09-07T03:09:00-05:00

I ordered two items off eBay a while ago... and I got emails saying that they had both been shipped like two weeks ago... and neither of them have arrived! POO!

I want them... (A new USB cord to connect my iPod to my Mac because I lost the old one and a pair of 6g bone spirals for my ears...)

I want them now!

Bleh bleh bleh.

I had a four hour lab this morning. Sooooo long....

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raien — 2007-09-08T02:09:11-05:00

College is going great. And this year, I am actually going to go to class. For real. And I'm going to get really good grades. Just wait and see.

Went to the Met and saw a free screening of Woody Allen's Manhattan last night. It was AMAZING. What a great movie. Plus, seeing a movie at the Met? How cool is that!

Today I have to do some reading, stop by my fraternity house to say hi to my sibs, then I'm seeing A Chorus Line tonight on Broadway.

...It's nice to be back in Manhattan.

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raien — 2007-09-09T12:09:28-05:00

A Chorus Line was AMAZING. Definitely one of the best Broadway shows I've ever seen. And I've seen quite a few. Yay. I had such a great time.

And now I'm actually doing some work. Reading. I have A LOT of it. Like, a lot. An excessive amount. But that's ok because if I've adapted my schedule enough this semester that I have more than enough time to do all of my work as long as I manage my life wisely. Which I fully plan on doing. Straight As, maybe? That would be lovely!

Oh, and I think I've met a boy. Maybe. He's HOT. And he's like, a real person. Not a student. Awesome. But we'll see. I've only hung out with him once. But he seems into me? Maybe. I'm terrible at reading boys when it comes to that stuff though. Really awful.

xoxo

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raien — 2007-09-10T01:09:01-05:00

So I woke up this morning to the smoke detector going off... at 8:30. It was lovely, really. There was no smoke, no fire. But the alarm decided to go off. So I went down the the front desk and asked the guard.

Excuse me, our smoke detector is going off.

Is there any smoke?

Well... no.

Then it's ok.

But it needs to STOP! It's LOUD! I have to sleep!

Well, it might turn off by itself.

...Seriously? So I go back upstairs. The alarm is still going off. Our superintendent/head of facilities isn't in yet, so I call the emergency facilities line. They tell me to call my supe. Then they tell me to change the batteries. This is not a regular smoke detector... It's a special alarm that goes off in the whole building, but was for some reason only going off in our suite. Then they HANG UP ON ME!

So pissed. It finally stopped blaring, but so much for a quiet morning in bed.

OH AND, yesterday Time-Warner came to install our cable TV... and they unplugged our Internet. My suitemate Kaleigh spent an hour on the phone with them and they kept insisting that we don't have Internet... well we did, until they fucked it up! Finally, after they figured it out, they told us that their next appointment time was on Thursday... Thursday?!?! I live half a mile from campus so it's not like it's a quick trip to go to the computer lab to check my email. God I'm pissed. Kaleigh has been yelling at them all morning, so hopefully she will be able to get them out here today... and maybe get our cable comped for a month?

And I didn't get into the yoga class I wanted this morning. But whatev.

Geesh.

I actually had a great weekend though. Got some shit done, hung out with some of my bests. Went to a screening at the Met, saw a Broadway show, had a Frat meeting, got elected to a new position, worked and made some money.... pretty damn good.

I love Barnard. But I hate Time Warner. And Emergency Facilities.

xoxo

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raien — 2007-09-11T12:09:18-05:00

Ok, so we still have no Internet. Dammit. Dammit. Hopefully today Time-Warner will stop being such assholes and fix their fuckup. I hate having to sit in the computer lab.

And I still wasn't able to get into a yoga class, so I'm kind of annoyed about that. Since there's so much demand for them, I don't see why Barnard doesn't just offer more.

Last night was crazy. I didn't get in until about 5am. Shit. Not really proper behavior for a Monday. Oops. I'll catch up on reading though. I've kind of built some extra time into my schedule.

The keyboard on this computer is awful...

Yessssssss

raien — 2007-09-11T09:09:00-05:00

Internet!

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raien — 2007-09-11T11:09:16-05:00

I just bought a pair of purple suede boots and a red sundress online, from Urban. I hope they both fit. And I hope they look HOT. Did pretty well with pricing too... both were on sale, which was TIGHT.

Purple is a very underrated color.

And I hope there are a few more warm days so I can wear my new dress...

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raien — 2007-09-12T12:09:56-05:00

Approximate total for textbooks for my fall 2007 semester at Columbia University:

............................................$350

FUCK!

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raien — 2007-09-14T01:09:58-05:00

What a cute boy :)

Such a cutie.

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raien — 2007-09-15T01:09:08-05:00

eiupithgs9eriudkjhfg07q29n45q-734ypaueihrgfy80aegh

that was a note of frustration

fuck mixed messages

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raien — 2007-09-15T04:09:09-05:00

It's like 5:00.

And I have done nothing all day.

Well not exactly nothing. I had breakfast (cereal with soy milk) and lunch (pita, celery, and carrots with spicy black bean dip). And I cleaned basically the whole appointment.

So not nothing. But I should be readddding.

I need to read for at least two hours, then go for a run, then go to a partayyyyy.

Tight.

This annoys me. Intensely.

raien — 2007-09-15T05:09:52-05:00

"I'm a vegetarian, but I eat fish."

Shut up! You are not a vegetarian if you eat fish! Fish are animals! Stop being so insensitive to the friggin fish!

veg·e·tar·i·an   [vej-i-tair-ee-uh n] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

1. a person who does not eat or does not believe in eating meat, fish, fowl, or, in some cases, any food derived from animals, as eggs or cheese, but subsists on vegetables, fruits, nuts, grain, etc.
2. An herbivore.

Christ. People are so dumb.

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raien — 2007-09-16T11:09:15-05:00

Baked healthy blackberry cheesecake yesterday. It's really good. I mean it doesn't taste like regular cheesecake, because regular cheesecake is a heart attack in a pie pan, but it tastes damn good. And as my first cheesecake attempt, it went pretty damn well.

Sometime this week I think I'm going to make walnut cranberry bread. The recipe I have seems pretty straight forward and the only ingredients that I don't have already are oranges, cranberries, and walnuts. I can definitely steal the oranges from the dining hall and I might be able to get the cranberries there too... Yum. The prospect is delicious.

On the other hand, I haven't done ANY homework at all this weekend. I have A LOT to do. A ton of reading and two papers to write... one due Wednesday and one due tomorrow (!!). Oops. I just really need to do better this semester...

Going to that dance party last night was probably not the smartest idea. But I just love to dance, dance, dance...

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raien — 2007-09-16T07:09:12-05:00

I bought at really hot pair of Joe's Jeans for $50 today.

Tight.

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raien — 2007-09-17T12:09:18-05:00

http://www.theonion.com/content/news/woman_overjoyed_by_giant_uterine

Bah ha ha ha!

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raien — 2007-09-17T02:09:40-05:00

Four Months in Captivity:
The Summer After My First Year of College

Day 1

A few minutes after one o’clock on the last day of finals, my mother calls me from her cell phone.

“Whitney, we’re leaving the hotel. We should be at your dorm in about twenty minutes. Are you all packed?”

Shit.

No, I am not packed. In fact, I haven’t even started packing.

Actually, that’s not true. I took three posters off the wall last week in an attempt to delude myself with ideas of productivity. Removing the wall décor served two purposes: 1. I created a false sense of accomplishment while avoiding any and all forms of studying or other related nonsense. 2. Neither of these three posters were family-friendly. By this, I mean that my mother would look at them, then look at me, then call her therapist.

Regardless, my room is not packed and I have twenty minutes before my parents arrive.

Shit.

It’s time to get the important stuff out of the way.

Bottle of wine stashed in my computer case? Check.

Bong stuffed into a box and sealed with multiple layers of duct tape? Check.

Cigarettes concealed in an empty handbag and layered under a pile of sweaters? Check.

Ok. Looks good.

Day 1, Several hours later

After packing furiously for a really, really long time, cowering under my mother’s watchful eye, I have six suitcases, four giant boxes, and a trash bag full of my stuff.

Where did this all come from?!

Goal #1 for the summer: Become less materialistic. Sell my junk at a flea market. Better yet, donate it. Consider moving into a hollowed out tree and escaping capitalism all together.

Seriously.

Day 1, About seventeen minutes later

All of my possessions are now loaded into my mom’s minivan. I am also loaded into the minivan, squeezed between my mini fridge and the giant stuffed leopard that some boyfriend bought me in my formative years. (When I say “formative years” I mean probably within the last six months. I just feel the need to justify owning a five-foot long soft toy that takes up two-thirds of my cot-sized bed.)

Vincent, my bonsai tree, is loaded onto my lap. (I was afraid he would tip over and soil the trunk if I put him in the back. Ha ha. Get it? Soil? He’s a plant! Ok. Sorry.)

As my father starts the car up and pulls away from the curb—nearly hitting a cab, an old lady, and a feral cat in the process—my mother turns around, gives me a once over, and proceeds to smile at me.

Shit.

(Edit: This particular facial expression that my mother so often shoots in my direction is not so much a smile as…I can’t describe it actually. If you were having a conversation with a crocodile or a shark or some other carnivorous beastie that would like to eat you… I’m not quite sure where I’m going with this. But just imagine that beastie thinking about how much it wants to nibble on you and visualize the look on its face. That’s the “smile.” Pretty sinister. Oh, and give that beastie an English accent. Then you have my mom.)

She turns to my father.

Here it comes.

“Maybe we should let her jog behind the car for a few miles.”

Oh. My. God.

Day 1, Thirty seconds later

My feelings are not hurt.
My feelings are not hurt.
My feelings are not hurt.

In my defense, I didn’t actually gain any weight over the course of my freshman year of college. In fact, I lost three or four pounds.

Doesn’t matter.

I try to think of a retort but my usually sassy intellect has left me in stunned silence. Maybe if I rearrange the plant I’ll look thinner?
Day 2

I’m ready to move out.

Day 3

I’m still ready to move out, but one quick glance at my savings account confirms that this is not really a possibility. Unless my parents will pay for rent?

Day 3, Two minutes later

My dad thinks that’s a hilarious idea.

He’s still laughing.

I should probably come up with a Plan B.

Day 4

I’ve decided on Plan C. I’m just going to stick it out for the rest of the summer. I’d miss my dog too much if I moved out, anyway. At least I have my own bedroom, free meals, and no bills as long as I live at home.

I’m willing to sacrifice my freedom (and probably most of my basic human rights, knowing my family) for these precious luxuries. And, if it gets too bad, there’s a giant pine tree out back that I can maybe live in. It’s not hollow, but there’s a little recess at the base of the trunk. I might even be able to get an extension cord from the house and plug in my laptop.

The lack of running water will be an issue though. I’ve never been particularly adept at the squat-and-pee-then-wipe-with-a-leaf technique.

(Plan B was to ask my mom about paying rent. She found Plan B almost as hilarious as my father found Plan A. Is this really my life?)

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raien — 2007-09-18T11:09:54-05:00

Btdubs, I am a big fattie. It's kind of a problem.

On that note, I need to go to the grocery store.

I've been at college for almost 3 weeks and I've managed to avoid doing laundry. But now I'm down to my last pair of underwear, which is really the only thing that can only be worn once. But don't think I'm dirty or anything; I'm generally very clean.

So I need to buy some detergent.

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raien — 2007-09-19T11:09:44-05:00

Oh man I think I have a BOY

a HOT boy

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raien — 2007-09-19T05:09:48-05:00

Well I made all sorts of appointments today. One with a therapist, one with a nutritionist, and one with a gyno for a pap smear.

I might as well start the semester off on the right foot...

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raien — 2007-09-19T11:09:03-05:00

My allergies are kicking my ass right now.

Uggggggh

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raien — 2007-09-23T10:09:57-05:00

I really should be doing work. I have a lot of shit to do.

And I need to spend some time updating my resume...

xoxo

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raien — 2007-09-23T11:09:40-05:00

I want my tattoo NOW

But I have to wait a few more months...

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raien — 2007-09-23T06:09:07-05:00

Ooooh I had a huge bowl of vegetarian chili for dinner. It was sooooo good. Yum yum yum.

I'm going to go for a run in like 20 minutes.

Hopefully by then I will be less stuffed.

::satisfied::

Ryan and I are supermodels. That's all.

raien — 2007-09-24T01:09:38-05:00

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raien — 2007-09-24T01:09:20-05:00

I got nothing accomplished this weekend. Fuck. I am terrible!

And now I have a paper due in three hours. Fuck! I am such an idiot.

So much for being a better student this semester...

And I wanted to go to the grocery store and get a brazilian today. Dammit. Looks like that's not happening.

I'm happy because my hair is FINALLY back to the right color.

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raien — 2007-09-26T02:09:13-05:00

ugh.

why am i still awake.

im full from food. and it feels icky.

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raien — 2007-09-26T07:09:59-05:00

SHIT it's early

Warning... upcoming overshare

raien — 2007-09-27T09:09:35-05:00

Alright, so this guy I've been kinda seeing, who is super nice and super cute and I legitimately like... Last night we went to the movies (Across the Universe.... amazing) and then came back to my place for blunts and whatnot. He spent the night here (which he's done a few times before) and we had sex for the first time.

It was really good. Like really good. And he was lasting forever and it was awesome. And then... he tells me he can't orgasm because he's on antidepressants.

...Dammit. That's like the best part of sex, getting your partner off.

I'm not sure if I can deal with having sex and not getting the guy off. It's anti-climatic. I want sex to end with a male orgasm.... otherwise, it's much less gratifying for me...

So. Fuck.

Just some shameless self-portraits.

raien — 2007-09-27T10:09:09-05:00

Alright, so I went a little nuts with PhotoBooth. Whatev. I'm a Mac user, so I'm entitled. Or at least that's what I tell myself.

ps. That's Buddha, just chillin in the background. Word.

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raien — 2007-09-27T01:09:14-05:00

ps. I did not realize how sunburned I got yesterday until I looked closely at those pics I posted. I'm a little pink. Oops. Oh well. I'd rather be sunburned than not get any sun at all...

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raien — 2007-09-28T01:09:50-05:00

I am just now starting a lab that's due at 11:00 tomorrow morning.

Dammit.

Looks like this might be my first all-nighter of the 2007-2008 school year.

And it's only just begun. (I am fucked.)

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raien — 2007-09-29T01:09:38-05:00

My friends from home just called me to ask what I was wearing.

God I love them.

And God I love having all guys for friends.

(How could I be mad at them for waking me up? Plus I'm sure they didn't expect me to be asleep and I didn't mention that I had passed out at about 8pm.)

I LOVE them. And I miss them hardXcore.

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raien — 2007-09-29T09:09:12-05:00

So I was in the bathroom this morning. Door closed, but not locked, and the light was on. I had literally been in the bathroom two minutes.

My suitemate BURSTS through the door.

So I reach over and slam it shut before she can get it.

She says, "I need to use the fucking bathroom!"

Uh ok, well I do too. I think I'm entitled, right? To use the bathroom? I mean, maybe I'm not. Maybe it's "Kirsten's bathroom." I thought it was "Suite 4A's bathroom," but I guess I was just being stupid.

GOD. And the general understanding is that if the light is on and the door is closed, you knock before entering. We have a toilet and a shower in a separate room within the bathroom (it's really an awesome setup), so it's possible to have a couple of people in there at once, but still, you KNOCK.

Also, WE HAVE A SECOND BATHROOM.

Not a good start to my morning. This girl is really starting to irk me. She hated doing dishes so she lets them build up in a tub in the DINING ROOM... Ahhhhhhhh!

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raien — 2007-09-30T06:09:48-05:00

I have so much shit to get done. There's just so much work....

As far as class goes, I spend about 11 hours a week in class.
Then about 13 hours per week at work.
Then about 7 hours per week doing stuff for ADP.
Then 2 hours for my Civic Engagement House meetings.
2-3 hours for kickboxing.
2 hours for my therapist/nutritionist appointments.
At least 3 hours for the Emerging Leaders Program.
3 hours for my pottery class/working at the cooperative

And... maybe... I actually cannot even begin to estimate how many hours of homework I have per week.

It's overwhelming. And it's only one month into the semester...

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raien — 2007-10-01T11:10:52-05:00

I am busy, busy, busy.

But I did actually get some shit done yesterday.

And I'm going to get some shit done right now.

I think if I actually just put in about 2 solid hours of homework per day, I could be caught up with everything in about a week. Hmmm. What a novel idea.

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raien — 2007-10-02T03:10:28-05:00

I woke up with excruitiating pain in my torso... what's wrong!?!

It hurts so bad. I would say it's cramps because I'm on my period, but it doesn't feel like that at all.

Ahhhhh!

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raien — 2007-10-02T10:10:45-05:00

My throat is so sore. FUCK. I don't have time to get sick.

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raien — 2007-10-03T07:10:54-05:00

EVERYTHING HURTS

I am so sick.

I hate being sick at college... there's no one to take care of me... and I still can't miss class...

I just want to cry.

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raien — 2007-10-04T01:10:02-05:00

So I have strep throat. Which sucks. It really sucks.

But, the doctor thought I had mono.

Strep throat is such a better option than mono.

Mono would have ruined my life and all of my plans for the next month.

Now I have some antibiotics and will hopefully be fully recovered within the next week.

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raien — 2007-10-04T08:10:25-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqgIJX2amk0

Ok.... so I basically had to change my shorts after watching this.

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raien — 2007-10-05T05:10:29-05:00

So I kind of gave up on the whole sleeping thing. I just end up waking up about once an hour, drenched in sweat and unable to breath, so really, what's the point?

Might as well do my lab report...

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raien — 2007-10-06T01:10:07-05:00

Reasons why I was really happy today:

1. I finished my lab last night and turned it in on time... which is more than I can say for last weeks' "efforts."
2. My lab professor is letting resubmit the parts of my lab from last week that I did a really poor job on/didn't do!
3. I think I decided on a topic for my intro sociology research paper.
4. I stepped on the scale today and I've lost 2 more pounds.
5. I feel 1000x better today. It's unbelievable how much better I feel actually, especially since I didn't get much sleep last night.
6. I got into this career exploration program that I applied for at Barnard. I'm really excited about that.
7. I went to a fun party at ADP last night and saw everyone I haven't seen in like a week since I've been so sick.
7. I hung out and smoked with Steph and Steve.
8. Oh, and I wore a really cute outfit tonight ;)

Also, reasons to be excited in the near future...

raien — 2007-10-06T01:10:37-05:00

1. I think I'm going shopping with Erin tomorrow!
2. Molly and Kyle are coming to visit next weekend!
3. I'm going home the weekend after that!
4. Then Emily is coming the week after that!
5. Then I'm visiting Andrew at Penn State the next weekend!
6. Then I'm visiting Matt at Cornell the next weekend!
7. Then the following week I'm going to AMSTERDAM!!!

So, in short, October and November are going to be SUPER EXCITING!

:)

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raien — 2007-10-06T11:10:35-05:00

Just one month, one week, and three days until...

HAMSTERDAM 07!

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raien — 2007-10-07T12:10:49-05:00

Ohhh I got soooo drunk last night.

I met Erin and some of her friends at the Shake Shack in Madison Square Park for dinner last night. (Delishhhhh- portabello burger, cheeeeeese fries, frozen hazelnut custard with hot fudge)

Then the two of us walked around for a little while.

Then we bought a bottle of tequila.

Then we drank the bottle of tequila.

Then we giggled excessively in the kitchen and made pancakes :)

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raien — 2007-10-08T11:10:40-05:00

Dear Whitney,

Please sit your lazy ass down and write your lab report.

Love,
Whitney

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raien — 2007-10-08T08:10:45-05:00

So my suitemate, who is very nerdy and like a neuroscience major, just came in and said:

"Ummm, Whitney is that your glass bottle in the freezer?"

I had to think for a second.
"Oh, the tequila?"

Uhhhhh, yeah, I guess that's what it is... can we put it in the fridge...?

I'm kinda puzzled.
"I guess we can... why?"

"Glass explodes in the freezer!"

I then had to explain that glass doesn't explode in the freezer; water expands in the freezer and hence a full glass bottle of water in the freezer will explode. And 1. That bottle is no where near full. In fact, it is much closer to empty. Which is kind of testament to the kind of weekend I had. And 2. Alcohol does not freeze.

So how can someone who seems so smart just not know anything?

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raien — 2007-10-09T08:10:18-05:00

It's early as fuck.

Whatev.

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raien — 2007-10-09T10:10:00-05:00

The rain will wash the sin and dog shit off the streets.

But will it cleanse me?

No, I don't think so.

Sometimes, I am deeply unhappy.

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raien — 2007-10-10T11:10:14-05:00

I'm in the midst of a personal crisis.

I hope it clears up soon...

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raien — 2007-10-11T12:10:21-05:00

Maybe if I took a semester off, maybe then it would be better.

But then I'd come back... and all my problems would be waiting for me.

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raien — 2007-10-11T12:10:31-05:00

Agggg I have a midterm tomorrow.

Then TWO labs due on Friday. Well, it would only be one, but I still haven't finished the one from last week... So it's two. And they'll probably take like 10 hours each.

So much for sneaking away to the studio for a little while....

AGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH

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raien — 2007-10-11T02:10:13-05:00

So here's the schedule for tomorrow:

10:00am WAKE UP
10:00am - 2:00pm Study for midterm
2:40pm - 4:00pm Take midterm (and ACE it!)
4:00 - 8:00 Work on labs
8:00 - 9:00 Take shower, get ready for Lit Night
9:30 - 11:30 Host Lit Night
11:30 - ?? Finish labs

I will probably be up all night tomorrow. Dammit.

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raien — 2007-10-11T10:10:27-05:00

Any day is a good day for a new beginning.

Today seems just as good as any...

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raien — 2007-10-15T09:10:09-05:00

Kyle, Molly, and Molly's friend Laura all came and stayed with me this weekend. Sooo much fun!

The debauchery included: Circa Survive, NYC Culture Fest 07, Battery Park, button makin, Bedouin Soundclash, Hot Hot Heat, lots of tequila, massive bong rips, walking about 100 miles, delicious food at a tight restaurant (B Bar), CAKE (with candy corn!), the first cigarette of Laura's 19th year on planet earth, more tequila, more bong rips, Apples to Apples.... etc.

GREAT time <3

ps. Molly is the redhead. Laura is the brunette who's not me.

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raien — 2007-10-16T01:10:11-05:00

Went to see Senator Clinton speak today.

I've officially joined Team Hillary.

xoxo

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raien — 2007-10-17T12:10:27-05:00

Okkkkk...

So I have a paper due at 2:00.

It's now 12:30.

Oh dear.

I should get on that.

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raien — 2007-10-17T11:10:14-05:00

Bleh.

Fat.

I'm having some issues.

Need to resolve them, stat.

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raien — 2007-10-18T12:10:37-05:00

So I'm going home this weekend.

At least I'll get to see my dog...

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raien — 2007-10-18T02:10:11-05:00

well this is the first class i've skipped of the semester.

i didn't even do it on purpose.

i need to use this as an excuse to spend some time doing work.

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raien — 2007-10-19T09:10:06-05:00

well i guess im gonna be in md for the weekend.

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raien — 2007-10-21T04:10:36-05:00

OMG WHY IS THE OFFICE JUST SO GOOD?!

::::sigh

raien — 2007-10-22T12:10:23-05:00

::sigh::

I'm just not happy...

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raien — 2007-10-24T12:10:57-05:00

Due tomorrow:
4-5 page critical reaction paper for Women and Leadership
15-18 page article review and outline for Environmental Measurements (I'm on page 8...)

Due Friday:
Not one but TWO labs for Environmental Measurements, which take HOURS and I need to finish them by tomorrow night or Thursday morning at the latest because I have exciting plans on Thursday night

Monday:
3 page critical reaction for Communities and Social Change (which includes a shitload of reading)

Thursday:
5-8 page major research paper for Intro to Sociology (I have not even started the research and I have to do really well on this paper in order to get a decent grade in the class...)

And of course there will be more to come.
There always is.

But... I got a 93 on my Intro Soc midterm!!! The one I thought I failed because I didn't finish! Woo hoo! (I mean, a 99 would have been better, but I'll take an A- as long as I get an A on the research paper and an A as my final grade... this is only an intro course and it does count for my major GPA after all...)

I would cut my hair short, if it could look like this

raien — 2007-10-24T03:10:35-05:00

I love her hair here...

I wonder if mine could look like that?

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raien — 2007-10-25T12:10:56-05:00

SO EXCITED FOR THIS WEEKEND

xoxo

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raien — 2007-10-28T04:10:12-05:00

Super fun stuff that Emily and I did this weekend:

Went to a New Pornographer's concert
Visited the Met
Bought a TON of awesome stuff at the world's best Goodwill
Made a delicious dinner then hosted a dinner party with six other guests(Tomato and avocado salad with honey mustard vinegarette, baked ziti with fresh mozzarella, fresh sourdough bread, and a porcupine cake!)
Got student rush tickets to Spring Awakening- an AWESOME show
Toured the MoMa gift shop- we'll actually go to the museum next time she comes
Bought gorgeous pashminas at a street fair
Walked through Central Park (for a looooong time)
Visited Strawberry Fields and John Lennon's apartment building
Ate fabulous Indian food
Slept :) but not very much

It was such a fun weekend! Yay!

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raien — 2007-10-28T10:10:25-05:00

Two more fun things we did that I forgot to mention:

Fulfilled childhood dreams at the American Girl Place
Visited all the MMs at the MMs store in Times Square

xoxo

A photoessay of my sweeeeeet weekend

raien — 2007-10-29T01:10:23-05:00

1. The lead singer of the New Pornographers. An AMAZING concert.
2. Emily outside of the Metropolitan Museum of Art.
3. Emily and I at the Met with Anna and Sigourney, two of the girls from my ELP group.
4. The dinner party that Emily and I hosted.
5. Porcupine cake! This was honestly the best dessert ever. So friggin good.
6. Playing Apples to Apples. Only the best. game. EVER!
7. At the MMs store. Just so many small candy-covered chocolates. Just so many.
8. Fulfilling childhood dreams at the American Girl Place. I had to sneer at lots of little children in order to get them out of the way so Emily could take this picture.
9. Again, at the American Girl Place. Really, just too much excitement.
10. Outside of the Eugene O'Neill Theatre, where we saw Spring Awakening. Which was AWESOME.
11. At the Pumpkin Festival in Central Park. We are really adorable.
12. Again, at Pumpkin Fest. It was all to raise money for children with life-threatening illnesses. They were trying to get as many people as possible to carve pumpkins. There were LOTS.
13. At the Imagine memorial at Strawberry Fields. Emily and I had a real adventure finding it. But it was totally worth it. We got lots of exercise and saw tons of Central Park!
14. Emily and I. What a wonderful weekend!

ps. Emily is alabasterfae. And she's awesome.

Here are pictures 13 and 14... the upload got realllllly sloooooow.

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raien — 2007-10-30T10:10:57-05:00

Ok... so I'm supposed to be going to Montreal this weekend. But my friends are being super lame and not communicating effectively.

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raien — 2007-10-31T05:10:06-05:00

My head is about to EXPLODE

I have been doing Environmental Science lab work for 12 HOURS

It's 6am... I know I have at least an hour of lab work left

Then an essay to write (but it's only 500 words, so hopefully I can finish it in an hour, hour and a half, but it requires some reading and research that I haven't done yet

I guess I'll be able to go to bed by 8am...

Then maybe I can wake up for my 2pm class?

I am so FUCKED

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raien — 2007-10-31T06:10:54-05:00

At least the labs are done.

Too bad there's another one due on Friday...

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raien — 2007-10-31T09:10:29-05:00

laffy taffy joke

What type of shorts do clouds wear?

Thunderpants!

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raien — 2007-10-31T10:10:16-05:00

I just took a peek at this month's credit card bill online...

AHHHHHHHHHH

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raien — 2007-11-01T04:11:34-05:00

YES

I finished my Intro Soc research paper. It was like 13 pages.

And I didn't start it until this morning.

But I finished.

I even turned it in early.

15 minutes early to be exact lolz.

I'm not going to Montreal this weekend as planned because some of my friends suck but I am going to Rhode Island this weekend because some of my other friends don't suck! Yay for friends who don't suck!

Pretty happy right now. My work is done for the week... Which is saying a lot.

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raien — 2007-11-01T05:11:11-05:00

Maybe visiting Ithaca and Providence this weekend?

Yeesh.

Fun though...

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raien — 2007-11-05T02:11:57-05:00

Ithaca is BEAUTIFUL

That is all.

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raien — 2007-11-08T01:11:20-05:00

I've been on Mindsay for 4 years.

WOAH

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raien — 2007-11-08T01:11:19-05:00

Sororities make me want to puke all over the place.

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raien — 2007-11-09T01:11:58-05:00

It's so weird that my friends from high school are having babies.... I mean, they're like 19 years old.

Wow.

Shit's for real.

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raien — 2007-11-09T07:11:04-05:00

Major: Sociology

Minor: Environmental Science

Ca va?

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raien — 2007-11-10T12:11:52-05:00

Ahhhhh I feel so pressured to make all of these decisions for my future!

I have less than a month to decide on all of my study abroad programs for next year. Brazil or Kenya next summer? I'm not sure if I can swing both...

Then in the fall I'm going with the International Honors Program to India, China, and Argentina...

Or maybe I should go abroad for a whole year and do a semester in Kenya? Doing conservation work... That would be AMAZING!

And people keep asking me where I want to go for grad school.... Fuck! What am I going to get a masters in? Something practical? Or should I get a degree in sociology and become and academic...

Also... how do I pay for all of this? The idea of being in debt terrifies me!

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raien — 2007-11-11T12:11:30-05:00

I am ridiculously awkward.

That is all.

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raien — 2007-11-11T10:11:32-05:00

I do not have time to get all the shit done that needs to get done this week.

Balls.

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raien — 2007-11-12T10:11:31-05:00

I have so much shit to do before I go to Amsterdam on Friday. Blah!

I am really excessively scheduled...

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raien — 2007-11-12T01:11:57-05:00

I've been in the lab all day. Finding the dry grain density of sediment samples collected from the Hudson River. Using a Micromeritics Pycnometer.

And I'm doing this voluntarily.

NERD

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raien — 2007-11-12T11:11:14-05:00

Mercilessly blognapped from almost23

I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 5 items. You can only pick one thing from the following departments.. what is it?
1. Produce: Kiwi
2. Bakery: Some sort of muffin... or sour dough bread
3. Meat: Morningstar veggie burgers (I'm a vegetarian)
4. Frozen: Eggos (or soy ice cream... tough choice)
5. Dry goods: Cheez-its

Let's say we're heading out for a weekend getaway. You're only allowed to bring 3 articles of clothing with you. So, what's in your bag?
1. Jeans
2. Hoodie
3. Underwear

If I was to listen in on one of your conversations throughout the day, what 5 phrases or words would I be most likely to hear?
1. Word
2. Tight
3. Hey girl!
4. YO
5. It's straight

So, what 3 things do you find yourself doing every single day, and if you didn't get to do, you probably wouldn't be in the best mood?
1. Check my facebook
2. Write lists to organize my time... I'm insane

3. Brush my teeth

Sweet, you just scored a whole afternoon to yourself. We're talking a 3 hour block with nobody around. What 5 activities might we find you doing?
1. Get a brazilian
2. Read a book

3. Drink a lot of diet orange soda
4. Take a nap
5. Probably do some homework

We're going to the zoo. But, it looks like it could start storming, so it'll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?
1. Giraffes
2. Elephants
3. Reptiles! I love turtles!

You just scored tickets to the taping of any show that comes on t.v. of your choice. You can pick between 4, so what are you deciding between?
1. The Office
2. Grey's Anatomy
3. Masterpiece Theatre (I know... nerd...)
4. Brothers and Sisters

You're hungry for ice cream. I'll give you a triple dipper ice cream cone. What 3 flavors can I pile on for ya?
1. Mint chocolate chip
2. Strawberry
3. Tiramisu (but I would probably want them all in separate cones... I'm not a mixer)

Somebody stole your purse/wallet…in order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it. So, what's in there?
1. Camel-colored Marc Jacobs wallet
2. Clear Eyes (so what? I smoke a lot of weed... my eyes get itchy)
3. Rolling papers
4. Burt's Bees honey flavored chapstick
5. My iPod

You are at a job fair, and asked what areas you are interested in pursuing a career in. Let's pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 4 careers would be fun for you?
1. President of the United States
2. Broadway actress
3. Founder of a non-profit environmental conservation and social development organization
4. Ballet dancer

If you could go back and talk to the old you, when you were in high school, and inform yourself of 4 things, what would you say?
1. Stop eating junk food. You will regret it.
2. Stop dating stupid boys.
3. Don't procrastinate so much.
4. Try not to be so bitchy and judgmental (I'm not that bad... but sometimes I am... whoops)

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raien — 2007-11-13T01:11:35-05:00

I really need to eat more protein.

That is all.

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raien — 2007-11-13T10:11:38-05:00

Ok. If I work for Morgan Stanley for 10 weeks the summer after next (as in summer '09), they will pay me a shit ton of money and give me a huge scholarship. Like, a lot of money. A LOT.

But I really don't know if I can sell my soul.

I asked the rep I talked to tonight about MS's policy on social responsibility... he replied, "Ms Hoot, you must remember that Morgan Stanley is a COMMERCIAL firm; our goal is to generate profit for our clients."

Then he told me about how many employees choose to volunteer on the weekends- Morgan Stanley even has an outreach program that encourages its employees to help at a soup kitchen once a month. How nice.

It's huge corporations like these that already have huge amounts of CAPITAL (both monetary and human) that could be used to enact global social change. Firms like Morgan Stanley have SOCIAL RESPONSIBILITIES. I don't mean donating x-million dollars to build a children's hospital somewhere... that's nice, but the some of the brightest, most economically savvy minds in the world work at MS... there are BETTER things they could be doing than generating PROFITS for wealthy clients. FUCK YOU.

I think I answered my own question...

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raien — 2007-11-14T03:11:32-05:00

Fuck. I need to go to bed.

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raien — 2007-11-15T03:11:34-05:00

Another very late night.

SO much shit to get done. Dammit.

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raien — 2007-11-15T04:11:12-05:00

SHIT

I forgot to sign up for a class that I need.

FUCK

I had plenty of time to do it today, but I was an ass and forgot, and tomorrow they let first years sign up. And the class is almost full.

Dammit dammit dammit this will fuck up my schedule so badly...

Plus, I REALLY want to take this class...

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raien — 2007-11-15T12:11:10-05:00

Well, that class I needed is full. Now I have to completely change my schedule. And I really liked how it was and FUCK I'm just really pissed at myself because I walked right by the registrar's office yesterday and saw people milling around and was like...hmmm when are L-course sign ups.

Fuuuuuuuuck. Just want to cry. So stressed.

And I am going to be up all night tonight... Just like last night... And the night before...

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raien — 2007-11-15T05:11:21-05:00

I am just really annoyed at myself.

And I have a very, very long to-do list.

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raien — 2007-11-16T05:11:05-05:00

I am on my way to AMSTERDAM!!!

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raien — 2007-11-23T05:11:07-05:00

Amsterdam is the friggin greatest. Fo real yo.

It's AMAZING.

I really, really don't want to come home tomorrow :(

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raien — 2007-11-23T05:11:20-05:00

Sweet things I have done in Amsterdam so far:

Smoked A LOT of weed

Judged at the Cannabis Cup

Visited the Tropenmuseum

the van Gogh museum

the Rijksmuseum

the Sex Museum

the Hash Marijuana Hemp museum

Seen a lot of sites, archtecture, beautiful canals...

Did I mention smoking a lot of weed?

Somebody's been tokin on that ole devil's herb!

Damn straight. Gonna go light up a joint.

BEST. WEEK. EVER.

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raien — 2007-11-26T08:11:42-05:00

I stayed up all night and got absolutely nothing done. Great.

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raien — 2007-11-26T10:11:53-05:00

So here are my options next summer...

Russia & Scandinavia (Start Riga)

Latvia, Russia, Finland, Sweden, Norway, Denmark

                 23 days         $3,519.00

Road to Athens

France, Switzerland, Liechtenstein, Germany, Austria (in transit), Italy, Vatican City, Greece

17 days $2,589.00

European Whirl

Belgium (in transit), Netherlands, Germany, Czech Republic, Austria, Italy, Vatican City, Switzerland, France

20 days $2,155.00

Europe Camping 21 Days

France, Switzerland, Monaco, Italy, Vatican City, Austria, Czech Republic, Germany, Netherlands, Belgium ( in transit )

21 days $1,935.00

Egypt & The Nile

Egypt

9 days $959.00

Eastern Road

Germany, Czech Republic, Austria, Hungary, Slovakia, Poland

13 days $1,619.00

Or I could plan my own trip. That's what I did for Amsterdam. But if I did that next summer, I would want to travel with someone... and it might be hard to find a traveling partner.

Well, it's really just food for thought. Who knows if I will have the money anyway...

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raien — 2007-11-26T11:11:54-05:00

I still have not started my work... and I need to finish two 3-page papers on books I haven't read by 3:00.

I stayed up all night for absolutely nothing.

Gahhhh I am an idiotttttt.

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raien — 2007-11-26T02:11:04-05:00

I finished two of the three papers I have due today.... found out it was three papers, not two...

So it's actually two 4-page papers and one two-page paper

I've done one 4-pager and the 2-pager

Dammit.

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raien — 2007-11-27T11:11:35-05:00

I was going to write a paper... but then I got high.

GOOD CHOICES

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raien — 2007-11-28T12:11:18-05:00

I really need to stop fucking around... These last three weeks of school are going to make a huge impact on my GPA. And my parents are pouring $200k into my education... it's pretty fucked up of me to waste it.

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raien — 2007-11-28T03:11:59-05:00

I slept from 6pm to midnight. I have been awake since then, fucking around. Not doing anything productive. This is NOT ok. I am seriously fucking shit up. I'm a bright girl... I could be getting As in all of my classes. If I just did 2 hours of work a day, I would be set. Fucking set. When I graduate with a shit GPA and watch all of my peers get great jobs while I'm left to wallow, I am really going to regret being so fucking lazy. Latin Honors? Yeah fucking right.

In the next two weeks, I have to: Finish my Water Chem report that was due two weeks ago. Write a 3-page response to a book I haven't read for Communities and Social Change... due yesterday. Give a 20-minute presentation (tomorrow!) and write a 15-page paper about Rachel Carson and feminism. Give a 10-minute presentation and write a 20-page paper about the Manhattanville expansion and its affect on the Harlem community. Write my Sediment report for Environmental Measurements...this will take hours...I am dreading this... Write a 3-page position paper about a social issue that I want to devote myself to next semester for CEH... fuck so I need an issue... And take my Intro Soc final.

I am SO fucked. I need to get on this shit NOW. I just have to pull through the next couple of weeks. Then the semester will be OVER and I can RELAX for an entire MONTH.

I am so overwhelmed... I don't know if I can do this...

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raien — 2007-11-28T04:11:46-05:00

Still awake. Still haven't got a single thing done.

WHY do I do this to MYSELF?

A slow, torturous death...

raien — 2007-11-28T07:11:33-05:00

My remaining academic work for the fall 2007 semester...

Water Chemistry report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): DUE TWO WEEKS AGO!

~~Week 12 response for Communities and Social Change: DUE MONDAY THE 26TH~~

Presentation about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership: Due Wednesday the 28th

Presentation about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (20% of grade): Due Monday the 3rd

3-page position paper for Civic Engagement House: Due Monday the 3rd

Sediment Report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): Due Friday the 7th

15-20-page paper about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (40% of grade): Due Monday the 10th

10-15-page paper about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership (30% of grade): Due Wednesday the 12th

Intro to Sociology final exam (25% of grade): Thursday the 20th

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raien — 2007-11-28T11:11:31-05:00

NOOOOOOOOO

The grocery store where I shop stopped selling the delicious vegan fat free muffins that I always buy

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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raien — 2007-11-28T11:11:34-05:00

NOOOOOOOOO

The grocery store where I shop stopped selling the delicious vegan fat free muffins that I always buy

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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raien — 2007-11-28T11:11:07-05:00

Water Chemistry report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): DUE TWO WEEKS AGO!

~~Week 12 response for Communities and Social Change: DUE MONDAY THE 26TH~~

~~Presentation about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership: Due Wednesday the 28th~~

Presentation about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (20% of grade): Due Monday the 3rd

3-page position paper for Civic Engagement House: Due Monday the 3rd

Sediment Report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): Due Friday the 7th

15-20-page paper about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (40% of grade): Due Monday the 10th

10-15-page paper about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership (30% of grade): Due Wednesday the 12th

Intro to Sociology final exam (25% of grade): Thursday the 20th

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raien — 2007-11-28T05:11:24-05:00

I accidentally bought two pairs of shoes on the way home from class today... oops.

A pair of brown printed pumps (SO gorgeous, the pic, really doesn't do them justice) and a pair of black loafers.

Dammit. Not really in my budget... Oh well.

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raien — 2007-11-29T10:11:01-05:00

This week I have been spending like I'm made of money... Dammmmmn.

$350 for the Death Valley trip... writing that check HURT
$90 worth of shoes that I bought yesterday (oops)
$100 for my new fake ID... it had better be really fucking good
$35 for cable payment
$35 for Hot Jazz ticket
$100+ for my new tattoo (tomorrow!!!)
$50 for my haircut on Saturday (how should I get it cut??)
$?? for shoes to match my Hot Jazz dress

That's like $800!!!!!! Shiiiiiiit....

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raien — 2007-12-01T11:12:48-05:00

I got a new tattoo yesterday! It is SO BEAUTIFUL!

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raien — 2007-12-01T03:12:16-05:00

I didn't think it was possible to be this unproductive...

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raien — 2007-12-02T07:12:38-05:00

Hot Temptress, Cold Champagne

A fabulous booze cruise with my fabulous friends.

<3

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raien — 2007-12-03T10:12:30-05:00

Ugh. I am OBESE.

Dammit.

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raien — 2007-12-04T12:12:26-05:00

I am stressed the fuck out. I'm drowning!

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raien — 2007-12-05T12:12:14-05:00

Water Chemistry report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): DUE TWO WEEKS AGO!

~~Week 12 response for Communities and Social Change: DUE MONDAY THE 26TH~~

~~Presentation about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership: Due Wednesday the 28th~~

~~Presentation about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (20% of grade): Due Monday the 3rd~~

~~3-page position paper for Civic Engagement House: Due Monday the 3rd~~

Sediment Report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): Due Friday the 7th

15-20-page paper about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (40% of grade): Due Monday the 10th

10-15-page paper about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership (30% of grade): Due Wednesday the 12th

Intro to Sociology final exam (25% of grade): Thursday the 20th

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raien — 2007-12-05T12:12:43-05:00

I used to write. I used to write brilliantly.

Now all I do is bitch.

I'm so stressed out about getting decent grades and not failing out of this ridiculous, pretentious Ivy League school that my parents are shelling out $50k a year for... that I've forgotten how to learn and how to express myself.

I am so sad about this.

It is truly a loss.

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raien — 2007-12-06T01:12:47-05:00

Grumble. One of the other supervisors just asked if I could work for him tonight. But I have worked every night since Sunday! Grumble.

Oh well.

I will be making BANK

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raien — 2007-12-07T10:12:22-05:00

My life has become a series of bad choices.

And one of those bad choices is sleeping in my bed. Dammit.

I don't know why I do this to myself.

It's really bad for my sense of self worth...

I'm not even sure I have a sense of self worth anymore.

Dammit.

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raien — 2007-12-08T08:12:08-05:00

I have made some very bad choices this weekend.

Including the choice for my weekend to begin on Wednesday.

Egor the Russian was another bad choice.

Do you know what's way worse than going home with a guy from a bar?

Taking a guy from a bar home to your place.

And it's even worse when you're more fucked up than he is.

I am neither emotionally nor mentally stable enough to handle random sex with men who don't care about me. I tell myself this every time. Then I do it again and again.

Also: I just woke up. And I thought, hmm why is it dark at 8am?
IT'S 8PM!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!

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raien — 2007-12-09T12:12:07-05:00

My tattoo is so gross and scabby.

I just want it to heal and be pretty again!

Also, my nose ring fell out while I was sleeping and closed up :(

Sad.

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raien — 2007-12-09T02:12:01-05:00

Dear Whitney,

It's crunch time.

Stop fucking around.

Love,
Whitney

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raien — 2007-12-10T10:12:56-05:00

Last night Joe and I decided to prepare for a long night of paper writing in the library.

So we went to the grocery store to pick up the essentials. We each got 3 energy drinks, a giant bottle of water, a pack of cigarettes, gum, and a bar of chocolate.

Good choices all around.

I have lost about 5 pounds in the last week. I have an eating disorder and a drug problem. Go figure. I really need to deal with these health issues, but I just don't have time right now.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE

I just finished my final paper for Communities and Social Change. That means that one of my four classes is totally over with.

Woooooo hoooo!

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raien — 2007-12-10T10:12:48-05:00

Water Chemistry report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): DUE TWO WEEKS AGO!

~~Week 12 response for Communities and Social Change: DUE MONDAY THE 26TH~~

~~Presentation about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership: Due Wednesday the 28th~~

~~Presentation about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (20% of grade): Due Monday the 3rd~~

~~3-page position paper for Civic Engagement House: Due Monday the 3rd~~

Sediment Report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): Due Friday the 7th

~~15-20-page paper about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (40% of grade): Due Monday the 10th~~

10-15-page paper about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership (30% of grade): Due Wednesday the 12th

Intro to Sociology final exam (25% of grade): Thursday the 20th

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raien — 2007-12-13T11:12:03-05:00

Adam spent the night last night.

I think sex with him is the best I've ever had.

And he's just all around wonderful.

He's a great kisser, a great cuddler, and a great fuck. I've found few men who possess all three of those valuable skills.

Yeeeeeees. So satisfied.

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raien — 2007-12-13T11:12:26-05:00

Water Chemistry report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): DUE TWO WEEKS AGO!

~~Week 12 response for Communities and Social Change: DUE MONDAY THE 26TH~~

~~Presentation about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership: Due Wednesday the 28th~~

~~Presentation about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (20% of grade): Due Monday the 3rd~~

~~3-page position paper for Civic Engagement House: Due Monday the 3rd~~

Sediment Report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): Due Friday the 7th

~~15-20-page paper about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (40% of grade): Due Monday the 10th~~

~~10-15-page paper about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership (30% of grade): Due Wednesday the 12th~~

Intro to Sociology final exam (25% of grade): Thursday the 20th

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raien — 2007-12-19T09:12:20-05:00

I am FUCKED. Neither of my lab reports is finished. And I have a killer final tomorrow. And I have to work tonight and tomorrow night. Dammit. And I didn't sleep at all last night. BUT I did see Young Frankenstein on Broadway. It might be my new favorite musical. It was AMAZING. Just... so cool. They did things on stage that I have just never seen before... I highly recommend it. Plus, Megan Mulullay (Karen from Will and Grace) is WONDERFUL. The whole cast is FABULOUS!! SEE IT!!! But seriously, I am fucked.

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raien — 2007-12-20T04:12:11-05:00

~~Water Chemistry report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): DUE TWO WEEKS AGO!~~

~~Week 12 response for Communities and Social Change: DUE MONDAY THE 26TH~~

~~Presentation about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership: Due Wednesday the 28th~~

~~Presentation about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (20% of grade): Due Monday the 3rd~~

~~3-page position paper for Civic Engagement House: Due Monday the 3rd~~

Sediment Report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade)

~~15-20-page paper about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (40% of grade): Due Monday the 10th~~

~~10-15-page paper about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership (30% of grade): Due Wednesday the 12th~~

~~Intro to Sociology final exam (25% of grade): Thursday the 20th~~

There are so many movies out that I want to see!

raien — 2007-12-23T12:12:57-05:00

Sweeney Todd
Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story
Atonement (maybe...my mum wants to see it)
Into the Wild
Charlie Wilson's War
Juno
Enchanted

Of course I can't go see any of them until I finish this damn lab report...

xoxo
Whitney
The Eternal Procrastinator

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raien — 2007-12-24T01:12:30-05:00

I tried to finish my lab report.

I had two anxiety attacks instead.

I vomited until I was puking nothing but blood and bile.

I have been defeated.

I am so depressed. Absolutely depressed.

:(

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raien — 2007-12-24T11:12:03-05:00

Ok. So I turned in my unfinished lab report to my professor and told him to just grade what I had and give me a zero for the rest. He replied and said that he would give me until Wednesday night to finish the report.

Not what I wanted. I really just wanted to be done with the damn thing. I can't relax until its over. And I need to relax so badly.

This lab report is going to haunt me forever. Well I guess until Wednesday night. I'm not even sure if that's enough time to finish it, even if I worked from now until then without sleeping... which I will not do. I cannot abuse stimulants any more because my poor nose keeps bleeding and I've started to chain smoke neurotically. None of that. Will not do it.

I guess I will just work on it until Wednesday night... I have been working on it for a few hours tonight. On the bright side, the professor told me I could get an A- in the class if I did really well on this report.

An A- would be awesome... especially since I have busted my ass for this class.

I just need to stay calm and focus.

By the way, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

xoxo
Sunk in this lab
But hopefully not sunk for too much longer

Whitney

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raien — 2007-12-27T05:12:15-05:00

Ok, so it's 5am, which SUCKS, but...

~~Water Chemistry report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade): DUE TWO WEEKS AGO!~~

~~Week 12 response for Communities and Social Change: DUE MONDAY THE 26TH~~

~~Presentation about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership: Due Wednesday the 28th~~

~~Presentation about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (20% of grade): Due Monday the 3rd~~

~~3-page position paper for Civic Engagement House: Due Monday the 3rd~~

~~Sediment Report for Environmental Measurements (20% of grade)~~

~~15-20-page paper about Manhattanville and the Harlem Community for Communities and Social Change (40% of grade): Due Monday the 10th~~

~~10-15-page paper about Rachel Carson for Women and Leadership (30% of grade): Due Wednesday the 12th~~

~~Intro to Sociology final exam (25% of grade): Thursday the 20th~~

YAY! I finally finished my final lab! It was 33 pages long... SO damn intense.

Maybe I will do ok in that class... I haven't got any of my grades yet. Eagerly awaiting... hopefully they'll be good!

I AM FINALLY FINISHED WITH THE FALL 2007 SEMESTER!

And tomorrow I'm going shopping to celebrate :)

Plus, I got some neat stuff for X-mas.

Yay, I am just so relieved to be done with this stupid lab. Yay yay yay.

Now it's time to sleeeeeeeep.

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raien — 2007-12-28T01:12:30-05:00

I got an A in my Women and Leadership class! Yay!

Now I'm just waiting for three more grades...

Impatiently,

Whitney

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raien — 2007-12-29T05:12:17-05:00

Ok, if I lose 10 pounds before classes start on the 22nd of January, I will buy myself a brand new handbag. A really fabulous one... I'm scoping out this handbag by Lucky... It's SO beautiful. $228 though... But I have $100 gift card to Nordstrom and I can buy something there, return it, and get cash back. I wish they just carried the bag there... I saw it at Lord and Taylor. But they also have it at Macy's too...

But who knows. I might change my mind again.

Tomorrow I start going to the gym.

I have been smoking too much pot and munching out. I need to lose some weight pronto.

xoxo

Whitney

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raien — 2007-12-29T08:12:41-05:00

My friend had a miscarriage a few weeks ago. She was about four months pregnant. She didn't call me or anything... I think she was very, very depressed.

She tried to kill herself.

I just... Well, it's too real for me to deal with. Babies and marriage and getting a 9 to 5 job and whatnot. Growing up? No thanks. I don't plan on doing that for a loooooong time.

I really feel for this girl. She's my best friend from high school. She just turned 19. I know she wanted that baby... But honestly, her boyfriend--who has since dumped her and moved out of their apartment--already has a kid with another woman. And another one on the way. So he would have had 3 children. And he's not man enough to take care of any of them. Asshole.

Seriously. What a mess.

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raien — 2007-12-29T08:12:02-05:00

You know what really annoys me?

Random friend/acquaintance/someone I barely know, etc: Hey, Whitney, can you sell me some {insert drug name here}

Me: Uh.... no

Random whoever: You have some, don't you?

Me: Uh.... yes

Random whoever: Well can I buy some?

Me: Uh.... no.

I just don't get it. People are dumb as shit. They assume that because I do drugs, I obviously must sell drugs. Uhhh. No. Not how it works. Yes, I have drugs, but they're mine... for me... I don't go through the trouble of getting drugs for you, random whoever.

This happens to me all the time.

It is SO annoying.

People I haven't talked to since high school will call me and ask to buy weed from me. I don't sell weed!

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raien — 2007-12-31T05:12:56-05:00

JUST BOUGHT PLANE TICKETS TO SAN FRANCISCO!

Oh yay oh yay oh yay!

I leave on the 8th and return on the 16th.

I am going to have a DAMN GOOD TIME.

SO EXCITED!

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raien — 2007-12-31T10:12:42-05:00

I am being really lame.

I am just staying at home on New Years. By myself.

My friends are all at parties.

But I just feel like being a piece of shit I guess.

So I turned my phone off.

I think I might just go to bed.

Happy New Year, Mindsay!

raien — 2008-01-03T08:01:54-05:00

I just got back from visiting my friend Sam in Virginia- I haven't seen her in two years! We were friends back in Elementary school; way way way back we were Brownies together when we were five. Along with my other friend Erin (who I am still very close with), we used to go to Sam's grandmother's farmhouse every year for Sam's birthday. We were the Three Musketeers. We always played in the woods and rode horses and just had a damn good wholesome time. In 6th grade, Sam moved into the house right next to her grandmother's. Erin and I continued to visit her annually, but we are both terrible at keeping in touch.

The last time I saw her was January 06, at her birthday party. It was awesome to get to see her again. She really hasn't changed at all. (I wonder if I have?) It's a 1.5 hour drive so Erin and I left here at about 4pm yesterday. We went out to dinner (Olive Garden!) after we got there and hung out- the three of us plus Sam's boyfriend of 3 years, Tyler, who is such a sweetheart.

I am SO glad we went. And we went shopping at the HUGE mall near Sam's house (even though I despise suburban sprawl, a little mall shopping is great once in a while). I bought a really hot purple tiger stripe bra at Victoria's Secret (all women and males with lucky female friends, hit up the semi-annual sale ASAP!) and a cute jacket at H&M. Damn I love post-holiday sales.

Other news:
1. I am currently writing my essays for my study abroad program next fall. And when I say currently writing, I mean about to start. As soon as I finish procrastinating.
2. I got my grades for the semester: A in Women and Leadership, A- in Intro Sociology, A- in Environmental Measurements, and B+ in Communities and Social Change. I did pretty okay. Could have been better, but could have been worse.
3. Kyle (my ex-boyfriend) tried to hook-up with me the other day. I pushed him away and told him it wasn't a good idea (which it wasn't). Yay me for making a good decision!
4. I have a HUGE crush on my hookup buddy. A HUGE crush. I'm not really sure what to do about it, because I'm pretty sure he's just looking for sex (which is fine by me, it's REALLY great sex), but he's such a great cuddler and I love kissing him and he says really sweet things to me and... sigh. I think I will just keep on keepin on... more serious things aren't gonna happen with him. But that's okay. Plus, I honestly don't think I'm going to have time for a relationship this semester.
5. I turned in my application for a summer study program in Brazil in the beginning of December. In the beginning of November I got an email saying I would be informed of my admission status on December 21st. A few days after the 21st I got an email saying I would hear by the 1st of January. I STILL have not heard anything. Very annoying. I need to know if I got in because I have to start making plans for the summer... I want to do something really awesome.
6. I am SO ready to go back to New York. Moreso I am just really ready to be away from home. My parents are driving me completely batshit insane. I leave for Cali on the 8th and come back the 16th. I think I might head back to New York on the 17th.... Or the 18th. Because I'm lazy.

Well. I am officially really boring.

Also, I need to stop eating so much food. I am a friggin whale. But whatevs.

Time for essays.

xoxo
Whitney

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